I guess I am in a plateau. My weight hasn't changed in a couple of weeks. I feel ok with that. I'd love to drop 5 more pounds, but right now I think it is important to be comfortable with where I am. I don't want to live a diet mentality. I am happy with my lifestyle mentality and if that means I stay this weight for a while that's ok. I can see my body shape changing and I can feel my food obsession subsiding so that is where I am right now. I am not ready for permanent maintenence, but I am ok with "settling in maintenance".
Yesterday was one of those days you would like to forget. I had a bad episode of fibromyalgia (which hasn't completely gone away yet). I was sore, stressed and irritable. I was also experiencing some of the old depressed feelings. I think the fibro brings them on. I stretched, used heat and rested but I didn't feel any better. I let myself argue with DH which made me feel worse. So I unwisely indulged in ice cream and peanut butter -- a lethal combination. I knew I shouldn't, but I did. I took my fibro meds and went to bed early after a bout of feeling sorry for myself.
I woke up this morning 2 pounds heavier by the scale and disappointed in myself. However, I had a really good SP Blog in my morning mail about picking yourself up and moving on.
That is the ticket. I don't need to continue the unhealthy behavior. The truth is that everyone has down days and it doesn't mean I have failed. Failure is stopping what I'm doing to be healthy. Failure is giving up. I have done that 100 times before. Not this time. Today is a new start or actually it is a chance to continue what I have been doing for over a year. I have had other days like yesterday on this SP journey and I have still lost over 75 pounds. I am still on my journey. I am still enthusiastic. I am still full of hope and energy. One day does not make a failure. Only a change of attitude can make me fail. I am still a success, because I have not changed my attitude. I am on a lifetime journey that I am enjoying to the fullest.
Recently because of changes in my weight and exercise levels my daily calorie requirement has changed. Now the high number is around 15oo instead of around 1700. For some reason I just can't keep below the 15oo level. I've been above range every day this week. Now, I'm eating all healthful foods, no junk. I just am eating too many calories. I have tried just eating 3 meals and I have tried eating 6 small meals. Both ways I am above 1500 calories a day. My nutrient ranges are usually great with maybe one or two just a little over the limit. My Carbs have sometimes been over 50% but usually not by much. I think this is pointing out that my portions are too large or that I am eating too many items at each meal. I'm not sure. I have just felt hungry this week. I am very conscous of my sugars and don't eat just carb alone because I find that makes me hungry. I always have some protein or even a little healthy fat with my carbs. But it isn't working. I just feel hungry. And my weight is up 1.5 pounds today.
I let it get me yesterday. Boredom, that is. I had a day at work with little to do and I wasn't very ambitious in looking for things to do, so I was bored. I came home and after dinner DH was watching a TV program about hazardous airports that just didn't interest me so I went to the bedroom and watched Jillian's show in there. Big Mistake. I slipped into the garage refrigerator several times for snacks! That is old behavior and I don't want it to return. I could have gone for a walk, read a book, walked on the treadmill, had some extra water. Those are some of the things I could have done. But I didn't. Darn it!
What are some things you do when you're bored and don't want to eat?