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Nancy in Onederland

Thursday, June 24, 2010

When I was 270 the thought of weighing one hundred and "something" pounds seemed unreal to me. It was a goal, but I didn't know if it would be obtainable. Now, a year later, I weigh one hundred and something pounds and I still am having trouble believing it. Right now I am struggling more with the program and food and how I feel and I think a lot of the struggle has to do with wanting to stay "under 200 pounds". I don't know why that 200 pound mark seems so important...but it does. I am more anxious about my weight loss than I have been in months. I feel some of the "diet" mentality coming back. I am losing some of the healthy lifestyle feelings and am focused on the number. I am blogging about this to try and get some of my feelings out in the open rather than buried.

I have been thinking of the point 12 years ago when we moved to Colorado and I had lost about 75 pounds with WW. When I got my new driver's license I weighed a little over 200 but I put "199" on the form. It was a lie but I justified it by saying "I will be there soon." I never did get there...until now. I actually weigh less than my driver's license says. And I desperately want to stay below 200. But more importantly, I want to keep up the healthy way I've been eating and living and stay below 200 comfortably, not by dieting.

I resolve today to focus on healthy meals, healthy snacking, and moderate exercise. 200 isn't magic. No one knows that my weight is below that number. What they see is a leaner, happier Nancy. And that will continue with the help of Spark People.

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CKRYAN0724 6/30/2010 9:19PM

  You are doing great and I look foward to following your progress on this site.

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RURAL3 6/25/2010 8:34AM

    That might be what I am struggling with too Nancy. The number vs the wellness. I need to think on that. Thanks friend. emoticon

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KOFFEENUT 6/24/2010 9:02PM

    It's funny that, even though we've spent months developing healthy lifestyle attitudes, we can suddenly find ourselves obsessing over something like a number on the scale. (Been there, done that!). Press on. You've got the right attitude - people ARE seeing a leaner, happier Nancy. The fact that you're healthier is the important thing, and gradually the scale focus will likely fade (at least mine did!).

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CARLANNIE 6/24/2010 10:22AM

    You are absolutely right, you know: "What they see is a leaner, happier Nancy." I can understand the tension about staying where you are and believing you can maintain this. But you are well on the way to psyching out those negative thoughts from devaluing all the positive results you have achieved by getting to this point. And see - putting 199 on your DL wasn't really a lie - it was a self-fullfilling prophecy!!!

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PLAYBLUES22 6/24/2010 9:43AM

    Here's a high five Sweetie emoticonon all you have accomplished so far and what you will do in the future emoticon

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LKWQUILTER 6/24/2010 7:59AM

    I know what you mean. I am fighting to get below 180. I have done it twice in the past year and a half but get right back to 180+. I have decided that I am great at maintaining but seem to have lost the ability to get on a steady loosing streak again. You can too--stay in 1-derland too.

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GRAMMYEAC 6/24/2010 7:03AM

    Congratulations on being where you are! Continue to focus on how healthy you feel -- good food, good exercise, and a positive self-image. You've identified, and called out, your fears -- you're well on the way to conquering them when you can talk about them!


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It was worth It

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Taking off a day from work to be with my DGD was definitely worth it! Her Dad, our son in law drove up from Texas to tile our 3 bathrooms and our 11 year old granddaughter Kyla came with him.

We all got up early. I went to spinning class, then Kyla and I walked around 3 ponds called Golden Ponds. We walked with my Golden Retriever Buck and walked about 3 miles in an hour. It was warm but pleasant.

Kyla helped me make lunch then we went for 2 hours of swimming at the outdoor pool. Fun, but hot.

This afternoon we went to a second hand store and both of us got some cute blouses. We walked around Kohl's for fun, but didn't buy anything.

It sure is neat to have a girls day with my granddaughter!

PS She fell asleep on the couch while I was making dinner!
I wore her out! emoticon

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KHICKS22 6/24/2010 4:48PM

    That's awesome!! :)

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60SIXTY 6/23/2010 8:42AM

    Anybody who thinks you cannot exercise with kids needs to read your blog.
Aren't granddaughters precious?

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VAMPS351 6/23/2010 2:56AM

    Im glad you had such a great day and you got exercise in too lol.
Have a great summer

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RURAL3 6/22/2010 9:24PM

    I love doing that. BTW My daughter is letting us see our dgds again. emoticon God is good

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HINOTO 6/22/2010 9:05PM

    Sounds like you had a great day! I'm glad you took the day off and had fun :)

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Starvation Mode

Monday, June 21, 2010

I wish I understood this "starvation mode" thing. I ate low on my calories this weekend and high on my activity with large calorie deficits every day, but I didn't lose an ounce. I have taken a day of rest today and ate a little over my calories. I wonder what will happen.

Sometimes charting everything and looking it up on the reports makes me crazy.


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LOULOUBELLE2 6/22/2010 9:11AM

    As many have replied....Frustrating!!!! I know the feeling well. If you figure it out let me know!!!!!!!!!!
I guess we just have to keep on a plugging away and let our unpredictable bodies respond eventually and eventually they will. I hope!!!!!!!

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CARLANNIE 6/22/2010 8:34AM

    You know it will catch up with you - just keep plugging away at it. Like me, you are over anxious!

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VAMPS351 6/22/2010 3:34AM

    I dont get it either.
I have kept within my range and exercised all week since my last weigh day (thursday), i know im not supposed to get weighed till this thursday but i like to keep an eye on it and up to now i havnt lost a thing! grrr 2 more days till get weighed again....dreading it.
Its so not fair!!!

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BAYBELIEVER 6/21/2010 10:03PM

    Ohhhh. I can so relate! I can't figure it out, and I can't seem to change my mental perception that the less I eat should be better, right? But everyone says no, this isn't true. So, if you figure it out, please share!!!

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WISLNDR 6/21/2010 9:53PM

    I hear you!! It's frustrating and annoying but eventually your body will give in!!

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JMCADE 6/21/2010 8:47PM

    You have to remember that you have to burn 3500 calories to lose a pound. And it takes time for you system to adjust to calorie fluctuations. Hang in there with it. You'll see it soon.

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JAZZYJAS 6/21/2010 8:41PM

    The other thing is it can take a few days or weeks for things to show up...

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AELARLEE1 6/21/2010 8:37PM

    Well, I guess this is just proof that our bodies really are unpredictable. Hang in there!

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Sunday, June 20, 2010

DH, our dog Buck and I had a wonderful 2 hour 3 mile hike on the Donner Hill Trail in the Roosevelt National Forest in the Rocky Mountains yesterday. The weather was beautiful -- sunny and between 68 and 7o degrees. We went from about 9600 feet to 10000 thru a beautiful evergreen (and a few scrubby aspens) forest.

For more information about the whole hike see:


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RURAL3 6/22/2010 9:24PM

    This looks absolutely beautiful

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VAMPS351 6/21/2010 1:11PM

    Wow it looks beautiful, i sure wish we had scenery like that near me. emoticon

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LOULOUBELLE2 6/21/2010 11:33AM

    Wow you make me homesick for Red Feather....Was up there a couple of weeks ago and I've never seen it so green and velvety looking in June before. God's country for sure. There's a western song that I love titled "Colorado". A line in it is: If God doesn't live in Colorado then He sure spends most of His time there." So true, so true......

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HINOTO 6/20/2010 11:10PM

    Ohh how pretty! I love how everything is so green and pretty still! I hope it says that way through the summer!

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ILUVTOTAT 6/20/2010 10:53PM

    Gorgeous! I just looked it up and I don't think I can do this one yet, but someday I will! Isn't it great to have trails like this close to home?

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PHYL220 6/20/2010 10:08PM

    Looks like you had a great time! emoticon emoticon

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Wednesday, June 16, 2010

June 17, 2009 I woke up with extreme back pain. I was unable to get out of bed due to pain and spasms. My DH worked with all 270 pounds of me and lovingly, slowly, carefully helped me out of bed. After calling in to work, taking ibuprofen and using a heating pad on my screaming back we went for a slow painful walk across the street into our local park. I knew I had to move or I would be in pain all day. I could barely walk but we did. When I returned, I sat in the recliner with my laptop.

I had read a newspaper article the night before that described a woman who had lost 100 pounds using Spark. Well I spent the day on Spark, set up my page and learned how the web site worked.

I lost 4 pounds the first week and 9 pounds the first month. I havenít stopped from there. I put in that I wanted to lose between 1 and 2 pounds a week. My weight loss has been slow and consistent, following the projected graph almost exactly for the whole year.

I have to be honest and say I am very proud of myself. I donít always follow the program exactly but as soon as I deviate I get right back on and start again. I think that has been what has been different about my weight loss this time (other than I have never lost 73 pounds before!).

I am learning every day and loving life and myself more every day. The 3 day a week strength program set up for me by Spark and changed monthly by me has helped me gain back all the energy I lost by sitting on the couch watching TV and eating. My activities this last year have helped me gain back an enjoyment of life I never thought I would find. I swim, walk, bike, take spinning class, use the elliptical, hike and trek. I even trained for and walked a 5 K. I had tried to run but got ITFBS (Ileo Tibial Friction Band Syndrome) and had to stop running. It still hurts 3 months later so I donít know if Iíll try running again, but I certainly will walk and do all the other aerobic activities I am enjoying. I have seen a lot of Sparkiversary Blogs lately which list important things Sparkers gained in the last year so I want to add my list to the group.

1. Living in a healthful, active manner is a whole lot of fun. Food and exercise are enjoyable. When I get up in the morning and get ready to start my exercise, I say to myself ďWhat do I feel like doing today?Ē and thatís what I do. I do Strength Training at least 3 times a week and aerobic activity for at least 30 minutes 6 times a week, but itís different every day and every week. I do what I want to do each day so I donít get bored.
2. People add a lot to life. I have learned something from almost every Spark Blog I have read. The coaches and educators on Spark have a tremendous wealth of information to shareÖif I read it. Getting my 50 points a day enhances my life with new knowledge and things to try.
3. Food is life giving and interesting. I try new Spark People recipes every week and have fun with them. I am eating things I never heard of a year ago. ďHummus???? Whatís that? I think cooking is my new hobby.Ē
4. Itís ok to want to look sexy. I used to hate when people noticed I was losing weight, but now I love it. I beam and say ďThank you!Ē because I know my slowly getting toned body looks more like a feminine body and that is how it is supposed to look.
5. I donít worry about spending too much time on Spark. I spent much more time on eating and watching TV in the past. I still have plenty of time to go places, do things, talk to people and have fun. I am living much more fully now even though I spend hours on Spark.

I donít really know what has made the difference in my ability to stick to a weight loss program this time, but I believe that unless a person is ready, truly ready to change the way they live and eat; consistent weight loss and maintenance wonít happen. I canít lose weight for any other reason than for myself and how I feel. This has been a wonderfully selfish program for me - a selfishness that I have never allowed myself to experience before. I am focused on making Nancy a better person. I love it and I love her.

MAY 2009

JUNE 2010

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CARLANNIE 6/21/2010 10:33AM

    These comments are a little late, since I've been out of town. But I, like the others, wanted to say how inspiring your story is and it sends the kick I need to really buckle down and do something positive for myself! Thanks!

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TRENTDREAMER 6/19/2010 11:13PM

    Happy Anniversary and major congratulations to you. May you have another great year on SparkPeople!!

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THINRONNA 6/17/2010 3:39PM

    Happy Sparkiversary! You are amazing! Thank you for sharing your story! emoticon

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RURAL3 6/17/2010 12:43PM

    Nancy you are amazing! emoticon emoticon You are an inspiration for all to see.

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PLAYBLUES22 6/17/2010 11:05AM

    emoticonyou make me smile emoticon

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ASHLEEWEBART 6/17/2010 11:03AM

    This is a very impressive blog! I want to congratulate you for all the success and good changes you have accomplished this past year. I totally agree with you about the part where you say a person will be able to lose weight when they feel they are "ready to change". It was a groundbreaking day when that day arrived for us!

Comment edited on: 6/17/2010 11:08:49 AM

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AELARLEE1 6/17/2010 8:48AM

    About all I can say is WOW! I needed to read this today. Thanks for posting this. So helpful, encouraging and yet challenging! What will I have to show at my one year anniversary? Am I learning what I need to learn? Am I really ready for change? Great blog!

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CHAIMANN 6/17/2010 7:56AM

    Happy emoticon

You're doing great, and I love hearing stories like this.

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KOFFEENUT 6/17/2010 12:40AM

    You SHOULD be proud of yourself! This is an amazing accomplishment (I can tell you MY projected graph doesn't show the same amount of unwavering determination!).


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NANCYRUBIO 6/17/2010 12:36AM

    Very uplifting blog~~thank you.

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JMCADE 6/16/2010 11:49PM

    Happy Anniversary and thanks for your insight. I hope I can do as well. Keep up the good work.

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ROWINGPRINCESS 6/16/2010 11:24PM

    emoticon Happy Anniversary

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RHALES199 6/16/2010 11:23PM

    Happy Sparkiversary!!

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LUSHON 6/16/2010 11:23PM

    Yeahhhhh!!! Thanks for your inspiring story!

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TURTLE_MOM 6/16/2010 10:51PM

    This is awesome! Congrats!!! How wonderful for you - what a motivating story!

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DEE107 6/16/2010 10:42PM

    Happy Anniversary and congrads to you

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KEVINSBEBE 6/16/2010 10:40PM

    Thank you for sharing your story! It's great I'm glad you are doing so well. Congrats and keep up the great work! Happy Sparkaversary!

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