Tuesday, May 11, 2010
I had wanted to reach 200 lbs by my birthday, May 10th. Well, this morning , 5/11, I weighed 200 pounds. I feel proud. I have spent the last 10 months learning to eat in a sane and healthy manner. I still have lots to learn, but I now make reasonable choices and enjoy them. Most importantly, I am learning to structure my life around activity rather than food. I am also learning to let go of guilt when I don't do everything "just right". I didn't lose 70 pounds by being perfect and I won't maintain this weight (or even lose more!) by being perfect. I am making changes and enjoying life along the way. When I look back to the day I started this program and think of the fear that drove me to start a weight loss plan, I am amazed at the changes I have made. I believe one of my keys to success has been that I didn't make these changes all at once. I started with one small thing at a time and added only when the change I had made felt like a part of my life. I have found that I can't work on everything at once. Little by little I am getting my life back. Its funny, but as I spend more and more time exercising and being active and shopping and cooking, I seem to have more time for just living. What a blessing.