Friday, January 29, 2010
I have been doing so well lately and feeling absolutely great! I have energy, enthusiasm, and feel like I look good. I've been here 2 x in my life before. Two times before I have lost 60 pounds and felt great. But 2 x before I blew it. I did that again yesterday. I get compliments everywhere I go, everywhere I see someone I haven't seen in a while. I look in the mirror constantly "Is that me?" It is a little overwhelming. I don't know whether I just don't think I deserve it or I just can't handle the attention. One gentleman at work even looked me up and down and said "Boy, you look good" I just felt so uncomfortable. I didn't like it one bit.
Well, yesterday I ate ice cream, peanut butter and a granola bar in the evening making my total for the day 2400 calories. I knew what I was doing and made a conscious decision to eat those things. Why? I don't know. All I know is that when I begin to feel successful, I sabotage myself.
Today, I acknowledge what I did, ask for support and any ideas my friends have, and get right back on track. Right? Right!!!