Thursday, May 27, 2010
My oldest sister came up with her family for our big family get-together/ camping trip. She's noticeably much thinner! I'm so proud of her for sticking with it over such a long period of time! A little over a year ago, she and I were the same weight. Then a few months later, I was losing while she was not. Then, I gained back and she has been losing. But she's really been sticking with it. I mean, really. She lost a good 10% of her body weight since I last saw her at Christmas. It's inspiring. I look at her and think, "She weighed the same as I did half a year ago, but has lost a lot of weight since then. If I do something consistent for that long, it's possible for me to get there too!" Sometimes, it feels like it's only possible to get to the brick wall I hit before. She is an example to me that that's not true, though.
I was looking through a few photos earlier today, and saw some from a brother's wedding in 2004. My sister, Naomi, was overweight back then. It's strange to see how round and full her face looks in the pictures. She didn't seem that overweight then, but looking back, I can see it. Her face is a lot thinner, now that she's at the weight her doctor wants her at. I think that girls in our family tend to show it in the face a lot when we gain and lose. I wonder what I'll look like.
My brother, Mark, has been working out and slimming down too. A couple of weeks ago, he ran a half marathon! I'm so proud of him.
It's good to see the tables turning, and overweight/ obese becoming less and less of the majority in my family. I want them to live! I'm so glad that positive health changes are contagious. :)
Now, I've got to use this as fuel to reach my goals. First stop will be losing 10 pounds in 5 weeks. I think I can, I think I can! June 23, here I come!
(3 day camping trip starts tomorrow, and I won't be able to track calories online as I go. Note to self: To healthfully camp, you must hike off more calories than you consume eating hot dogs and s'mores. Read the nutrition facts, and move, move, move!)
Thursday, May 21, 2009
So... my head is POUNDING.
My office assistant job... I left it peacefully about a month ago... only to have the "a little too friendly" old man I helped obsess over me, slightly stalk me, and yell at me and hang up the phone on me over the past week. Kiiind of creepy, but I'm alerting the media (not really, just friends and co-workers at the ice cream shop).
ANYWAY, through the whole fandangle this afternoon/ evening, since I got off the phone with the guy and went straight to work, I was tested. I found that my natural response to emotional stress at this point is to either want to go exercise (yay, improvement) or eat... especially ice cream in this case. Working out wasn't an option, since I had a full shift of work ahead of me, so my body/ brain/ something crazy said, "MUST EAT ICE CREAM!
I feel like I gave in somewhat (had 2 1/2 scoops of ice cream, 1 cake cone, and 1 tbsp hot fudge), and it felt a little like returning to my old ways. I did not like that feeling at all.
At the same time though, I did NOT just let myself go and eat whatever I wanted. I kept track of it, which I think says a lot. Although it was hard to enter in the food I ate this evening, I'm glad I did it. I never want to be dishonest this myself. I mean, honestly, people. That is one of the most ridiculous things I think a person can do. It only sabotages yourself.
When it's all said and done- for today- I went a couple hundred calories over, and that alone on one single day cannot have hampered my progress too terribly. I'm still pretty confident that I'll lose at least a pound this week.
You know what? I don't think I've ever failed so successfully in food before. I mean, I didn't let myself fully fall, and I pulled myself back up, pretty much in the same motion. I'm proud of myself for that.
Uh, I feel kind of like I'm not allowed to be proud of myself, for some reason. In spite of that, at least in front of an audience of me and God, I do feel good about what I have accomplished.
What a headache of a test.
But I give myself a B+.
Friday, May 08, 2009
I just want to say that I tried my bridesmaid dress on just this past Monday (four days ago), and it zipped up! It wouldn't do that a week and a half before! It's still too tight, but not as tight as it was before. It just gives me some peace of mind to know that as long as I at least maintain what I've got now, I won't have a whole big sizing predicament on my hands. I'm going to stay on track, and hopefully, it will fit perfectly by the 4th of July, when my sister gets married. :)
Sunday, May 03, 2009
I don't know if anyone I was friends with before on this thing will remember me; I've been gone for over a year. I'm hoping to encourage some people and receive support as well.
On Monday, I started using the nutrition tracker for everything I eat every day. I love being able to input everything and let it do the math. Back when I used to count calories, I didn't use it, because I didn't have regular access to a computer. A week and a half ago, I finally bought my very own laptop though, so tracking is really easy now!
The past week, I have done an excellent job at watching my calories, eating more fruits and veggies, and working out. I only hope I can keep up my momentum.
Here's a funny thing- I work at this great little local homemade ice cream shop, but gained seven pounds after working there for only two months. This week though, I hardly ate any ice cream (didn't completely deprive myself though), and realized that my job is so active that it will be very helpful in letting me lose weight. It's like I was misusing an opportunity before by sabatoging myself and eating pretty much all the ice cream I wanted. Now, it's working for me. I must admit though, that the rainy day slower shifts are more difficult. I have more slow time to be tempted by the ice cream. I mean, it's ALWAYS right in front of my eyes. I can't do the whole "put candy in an opaque container instead of a transparent one, and it's proven you'll eat less of it" trick. I just hope that it gets easier, the more I resist.
I weigh myself every Sunday morning, and after my first real week, I'm proud to say that I had a really positive weigh in! Last week, I think I only weighed in as high as 173 because I was swollen from camp (for abused/ neglected kids) training the day before. If not for that, it would have probably been 172 or maybe even 171. Either way, the fact that I weighed in at 169 this time shows how hard I worked all week! :) I really earned it, so I know that it's real weight loss. I plan on never, ever going back to the 170's unless it's because of being pregnant some day. :)
Monday, February 11, 2008
Hey everyone, half a year later, and I finally added new pictures! I don't really look different, but there are some fun pictures of me and some of my family/ friends from my Christmas vacation. Enjoy! :)
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