Sad Face

Saturday, November 21, 2009

OK, I love the Wii and it gets me off the couch. But it won't be enough. My cholesterol is back up and my Dr has given me 2 months to get it down to where it was or I have to go on meds.

Anyone who knows me knows I don't take anything I don't have to.

So, I'm back on le Bike de Recline' and I must get back to the gym to swim. *sigh*

Why can't I just go to sleep and wake up thin and healthy? Dammit.

  

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AMAS92568 11/21/2009 10:40PM

If it were that easy we wouldn't need SparkPeople. In fact, we wouldn't need diets and exercise! I don't know anything about cholesterol. Get on that bike and watch what you eat. I support your not wanting to take pills. Hang in there.

SANDEEKAY02 11/21/2009 10:23PM

I have wondered that myself.. I would love to go to bed and wake up just where I want to be and young looking again too.

Ahhhahahahaha!!

Saturday, November 14, 2009

My DH went fishing today. ALL day long. Now, no one tell him, but I was so fine with that. He rarely does anything without me and as much as I would have loved to have gone fishing, he deserves a day off. So...he went.

Having not been for years, he needed some gear. Lure, lines, a new pole...a license. He apologized all over for spending so much. We try to be frugal and I have been paying credit cards off and just really not buying "extra stuff". As we were leaving, I glanced at the Wii in the electronics dept. I've wanted one forever, but just couldn't justify it. But I keep watching them...just waiting for a weak moment to buy it. I noticed the price had dropped again.

"Hmmm, Wii's are down to $199."

"You should get it."

"WHAT?"

"Well, I spent all this money...and I'm gonna be gone allllll day tomorrow..."

"You spent less than $100 and I have been on my own plenty of times..."

"You should get it. Let's go play the demo..."

Now, the demo is something I have never dared to do. I knew it would create the "weak moment". And? 10 minutes of table tennis and canoeing on Wii Resort and I had one in my cart, bought and paid for by future labor. Gah. Weak.

SO MUCH FUN. I played the Wii Sports that come with for about an hour. I sweated like crazy. At this point it tells me I have the fitness level of a 68 year old. Really? Dayum. I thought I was pretty good at bowling. Got my ass handed to me in tennis. Tied in baseball. I am bad at golf...I used to be good at real golf. Hmmmm. I will be adding on, I can see that now. I want the Wii fit for sure.

But? I am gonna be sore tomorrow. I so deserve it. My own fault for being this out of shape. Still, I think I will make a Mii that represents my DH's ex...and beat the everlivin' crap out of it. Heh. That will make it worthwhile. Yay Wii!!

  

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SUGARPUNK52 11/15/2009 12:20AM

I'm happy for you.Enjoy!

Trouble segmenting...or is it blending?

Thursday, November 12, 2009

I seem to be having trouble segmenting my life. Or maybe I'm having trouble blending it.

It feels like I can only focus on on thing at a time lately. And yet, I somehow feel torn in 25 directions at the same time.

I start out thinking about diet and exercise and logging things in SP and planning my meals and workouts and before I know it, that's all I have done all day. Or I run out of time and all I have done is plan and no actual cooking or workouts have been done, because the time was spent on research or...got interupted by this thing or that one.

OR...I have a busy work schedule and if I'm focused on that, I don't really have time to cook and the working out goes by the wayside...or someone needs me to do stuff for them. Or I have appointments, or errands, or a trip to pack for, or laundry and dishes.

I used to dump everything like this into my personal blog on cyndidavis.com but now I have so many places, like here, and Facebook, and Twitter, and it seems like even though it is all mashed together in my life...it's not compatible anywhere. So, I sort of quit blogging. Not completely, but certainly like I was.

It started because I didn't feel comfortable blogging political stuff on my personal blog. I have strong opinions and I wanted my personal blog to be a happy, funny place. So I started a blog for that. I also stopped blogging about weight issues on my personal blog...I think because it was TOO personal...too real, if you will...and again...I wanted my personal blog to be a happy, funny place. Truthfully, between politics, my weight loss struggles and the upcoming court issues with my DH's ex [heretofore she will be called BoS, for Bride of Satan, because she soooo is]...between just those things - not to mention daily life, God, marriage, money issues, housework, etc - I have nothing happy, and very little funny.

I honestly don't know how to manage it all. I see now why the folks on Biggest Loser are able to lose 100 pounds in 9 weeks...and why they have the meltdowns they do. On the one hand, being away from all of that other STUFF would go a long way towards allowing you to focus on the healthy eating, habit building and exercise. On the other hand...the thought of going back to all that STUFF that is what most lives are made up of...must feel like standing on train tracks and hearing a whistle coming much to close.

Of course, when the train is running over you it sort of drowns out the whistle altogether.

  

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SATURDAY63 11/12/2009 9:07AM

I know you're feeling pulled and pushed and I'm sorry for that, but your post made me laugh out loud! Honestly, I know you say there's not much funny going on in your life, but from your writing you sound like someone who could find humor in any situation! I know what you mean about blogging about personal things. That's why I love Spark so much, there are things I've gotten off my heart that I would never share with anyone that I know personally. I had to lay off Facebook b/c it was taking too much time to do both Spark and Facebook. I decided my priority is my health and Spark is what's helping the most with that. That's not to say I don't occasionally check in, but not nearly as much. Hang in there, making sure you truly believe in the priorities you've set in your life will help.

Awwwwwwwwwww! So nice!

Monday, October 26, 2009

It was really nice of all of you who commented on my last blog entry. I don't usually even check, cuz for me blogging is sort of me sharing the crazy talking to myself moments. But really made me feel good to know there are folks in the same boat with me...trying to help me back in...after falling out.

I have not gotten the gym worked out, but the job fell through sooooo, I should be able to start back swimming a few days a week soon. Just getting over a cold, so doing the bike at home for now. Trying to boost my speed so the calories are higher...14 miles an hour was my average today.

Question: Is anyone else concerned about the gym with the whole H1N1 deal going on? If so...what's your plan for protection? Interested in any and all on this. Thanks!

  

Speechless

Thursday, October 08, 2009

I got on the scale today and realized that somehow...I have gained back 25 pounds.

25 pounds.

Dammit. Makes me want to eat a pint of ice cream and some cookies.

But the fact that I can't breathe...again...and I can't even waggle my pinky finger without being drenched in sweat makes me wanna not.

So, good for me.

I did 30 minutes on the bike and I will do more tomorrow. I just started a new job, so I need to work out the logistics of the gym, so I can swim too.

I am really pissed off at myself right now.

  

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SYNCHROSWIMR 10/11/2009 2:57PM

You're back! Don't beat yourself up. You can do it. I need to refocus as well... would you like to buddy up for a couple week "getting back into it" challenge?

AMAS92568 10/9/2009 10:24AM

Congrats on the great attitude! I'm in the same place in that I've been backsliding. Here's to getting back on track!

SANDYMILTON 10/8/2009 11:26PM

Congrats on coming back! You know what has to be done, because you already took the steps towards reaching your goals! Have a lot of fun along the way!

CGDINASIA 10/8/2009 11:12PM

Now that you are back, keep it up. Ride that bike and don't give up!!! Keep moving. I know you can do it. Focus on the good. Carol

2BEFIT* 10/8/2009 10:22PM

Great job on your 30 minutes today!! Isn't it wonderful to have such a great place like SP to come to? You are on your way to a healthier YOU!

BARNABABY1 10/8/2009 10:17PM

Don't kick yourself too much... instead, give yourself a pat on the back for stopping the gaining at 25 lbs. and getting started on the road to weight loss!! Keep up the good work! Mary Ann