Friday, December 06, 2013
Hi Sparkies, it's the weekend again-yay!!! How have you been ?? I have been pretty good. Although I said I was having a little christmas break I am still sparking and still keeping as active as possible. And it has been one tiring week, i have been walking here there and everywhere!! I don't drive so that means getting buses,trains and walking . My son drives me places a bit and I am so lucky to have such a great son. My daughter is great too, my kids are so cool. My son gave me an early christmas present. He knows I have been looking at different fitness gadgets. And yesterday he gave me the rebounder. So, I've been doing some bouncing and jumping. it shows how bad my balance is, although it says it is good for balance so that is cool too. My balance has been a little off since I got vertigo a few years ago. I was so sick with it, but since then my balance has never really got back to how it used to be.
But back to the rebounder-yay!! So I have no excuse to not be exercising do I!!! But that is the thing, we can have the knowledge, the right foods in the house,equipment to use,or time to go walking or running etc. But having the tools is only one thing. We have to use what we have and we aren't going to get slim by having lots of healthy foods in the house yet eating chocolate,greasey foods and whatever other wrong foods we can get our hands on. We have to do the work!! We can't just say "I'll do it,I will lose weight". We have to put it all in action. Words are nothing unless we put them into action.
So, although I said I was taking a bit of a break, I am going to still try not to put on by exercising as much as possible. If I don't lose over christmas I am okay with that, but that doesn't mean I am going to allow myself to put on. I still haven't weighed in yet. So, we will see where things are there. I am a compulsive overeater, and I know this. So, even though I am not going to be restricting the christmas goodies too much, that doesn't mean I have to neglect the christmas exercise. I will be jumping, bouncing, dancing, doing exercises to music-and btw that is actually fun. So, sparkies what are we going to do to survive the christmas period with as little damage as possible. Damage being weight gain. I'm going to have my christmas goodies and lose weight too-well I will certainly give it my best shot.
Monday, December 02, 2013
how are you doing?? I almost did a blog a week or so ago. But changed my mind. It is a really hot day here, nice if you can just relax, but murder to walk in. I have got to the stage lately that I am not doing my eating healthy crusade . I am not giving up , it is just not working right now. And I would rather not lose a bit of weight before christmas just to pile it back on over christmas. I think sometimes it can be better not to lose it in the first place if it's just going to go right back on. So right now, I am trying to keep up as much activity as possible. I was fluctuating between ten and twelve kilos down.I haven't weighed in a wee while but I think I have put on. When you are losing weight, it is so easy to put it back on and I'd rather not carry on my yo yoing. After christmas I will get serious again to lose. I have spent my whole life being overweight and dieted and taken on weight loss ventures a million times basically. And I know what I get like around an "occasion" where eating would be tricky. Right now I am more likely to put some on, and I don't want to make it that easy to put on. Confused? I am still going to spark and be here dayly, and I do want to still use some of my healthier habits. But with christmas and my frame of mind right now I will probably do myself better in the long run if I don't yo yo through christmas. I'm glad to say that spell of depression I had a few weeks ago left, thank goodness. It was a battle to get rid of it. Now it is more stress,and pressures. And me and stress go way back to forever, and I am a worry wort from way back too. I have done some worrying lately,but that reason I had for that worry I am glad is kind of sorted.
Sparkies, don't think I am a quitter, I am far from it. I am a person who will keep at it until I reach my goal,and I have been on that journey for many many years. I will never stop until I reach this goal. It just will not happen in time for christmas, and I still have the being a healthier weight by my fiftith birthday goal.
And how are you Sparkies doing with goals,with christmas coming up with stuff in general.. I hope you are keeping on top of things. And not letting pressures,stress,anything stop you from shining and mostly from being happy and healthy. If you are losing weight and winning that is great news,although be careful with the christmas season. Because my reason for taking a bit of a break is-I believe that it takes about three months for our bodies to get used to a new weight and to not fight to get back to the before weight. But to accept the new weight as the norm. And with that being said, I know with me if I lose and then put on then I might be trashing the good efforts I've done. More so by being half half doing it then if I just stayed with what my body is seeing as norm which is around ten-twelve kilos down. It is so easy to put back on when losing if we are not totally in the right mindframe. Do you know what I mean? I am just trying to avoid one massive increase to where I was before. And my body has been feeling healthier and a little lighter at 10-12 kilos down. Although I am wondering if I have put some of that on, as my walk home in the heat was a killer. Anyway, eating choccies isn't that slimming really. I mean I must be allergic to them, I eat chocolate and next thing I swell up-funny that . I eat choccies and next minut
Friday, November 22, 2013
For the last few days we have had one of our rabbits on the loose. We have two girls and two boy rabbits. And we used to let the boys roam free in the back yard. We have a great back yard for pets,and there is a hill with so much grass and things for them to eat. But don't ask me why but they are just not satisfied. They always would sooner or later find a way out onto one of the neighbours properties or out on the street. Plus they ate half of Dwayne's tress he was proudly growing and his vegetable garden. so the boys have their hutch and the girls have their one too. The girl rabbits like digging burrows. And that is their tunnel out of their hutch-to someone else's house. They come back home when they escape, but only so far. They don't come willingly up to us. And it is the rabbit who is on the loose at the moment who is the least friendly. We managed to get her back in her hutch last weekend. Now she is out again. It has got really embarrassing because people we haven't even met arrive at the door to tell us about our rabbit on the loose. We have had so many people coming over to tell us about our rabbit, with the cats eyeing her up. they are also our cats, and they aren't that bad with the rabbits. Two of the cats chase them, but the other two don't bother. It is like playing bullrush trying to catch the rabbit.
The picture is not of the rabbit on the loose, but one of the boys. They ate the lower part of them tall trees growing up the staircase. They were there so we wouldn't fall. Dwayne ended up pulling the trees down, and we are going to plant more. So that is my excitement so far for Friday. I am in a much better frame of mind than I was the last week. And I have been reasonably good healthwise.
I hope you all are ready for a really happy, healthy weekend. I am , I haven't got anything amazingly exciting organised. But I am going to enjoy my weekend. I hope you do too!!
Monday, November 18, 2013
Hi there Sparkies, I haven't been around that much over the last week. I've been here, but still trying to get back on top again. I think I am back to my usual old self now. And got rid of that downer that took me hostage and wouldn't let me laugh or smile or have fun. But I didn't like being held hostage by miserable moods. So I broke free, and I'm back!!!
Princess and Crystal my babies love sitting on the desk when I'm at the computer. I am not sure if Sammy lets them sit there with her. Here is a picture of them I took earlier>>
I know I shouldn't have down moods that last for days when I have two cute little dogs to cheer me up. And that is true, but I am usually on top, I am a worrier I admit that. But depression doesn't usually keep me down for long. I try to get out of them asap. And with being back to my normal self I am feeling able to tackle my health again. And I believe a healthy mind and a healthy body go hand in hand. If the mind is in the wrong place, then the body may well be as well. And with me it is that I am not depressed or messed up because of my physical state. I am in this physical state because I am messed up. And depression is also because of my mental state. I am on a continuous journey to heel both my mind and my body. I am going to win it, but I am also going to and am having hurdles along the way.
But as we battlers know , no battle is won without a fight. And I am a bit of a pacifist-I hate fights, and violence, anything on that line. This is a personal battle and I am in charge of which way it goes. How I manage it, whether I win or lose is all up to me. I intend to win it, not over night but over a life time of conquering it. One step, one day at a time.
Congratulations to everyone doing so well with their journey's, I have been still visiting my spark buddies. Cool KIm, you are doing amazing talk about Slim Kim!! Way To Go Kim!! And Cathe you are doing so well-Wow!!! WTG!!!
And just coz I haven't named you all-all sparkies are pretty cool. Especially ones that keep coming back to Spark People and don't quit trying coz that is what it is all about, and encouraging others and supporting each other.
We all are on some journey and it doesn't matter where we are at with it, encouragement and support really help. Positive comments and friendly people. There will always be negitive comments, mean people and bad karma, but caring people are special. Spark People brings out the nicer side of people, it encourages us to encourage others and to care about others on their particular journey. Way To Go all Spark People-Spark People Rule/s.
Have a wonderful week and keep sparking
Tuesday, November 12, 2013
I am still in a bit of my downer at the moment. I know, I hate to admit it. And I was a little embarrassed about my dark poem blog. Thank you for your comments,and to the sparkies that had never written a comment on my blogs before-thank you That's me blushing BTW. To the readers that say or think that positiivity wins all the way, well I agree in one aspect. I try to keep my positive side at most times. But realistically I do feel down at times. I love writing poetry around my moods, the weather, anything. I do agree being positive is favourable. But sometimes things bring us down. It's not that I am weak, or haven't experienced any real sadness, or truama, or hardship. Believe me, I've felt them all. Which is how and why I like to be on top as much as possible. I've worn my rosey glasses most of my life, but I chucked them in for reality when I stopped suppressing all my feelings and experiences. To the sparkies who say or believe it is good to express ourselves-darkness, sadness, anger,whatever I agree also to a point. I think a happy medium, non of us are smiley happy all the time. I used to appear that way as a child or younger adult, but only because I couldn't face my real feelings and situations.
And this is not another dark one, although I am still feeling a little less positive than usual, and quite low.
I was getting tea started and was getting in a bad mindframe. I for a few moments started to think "I need time to get back into this" (healthy options and lifestyle), meaning my low mood and being so off track for over a week now, maybe two weeks would win. I have had the occassional day I was good.
But not many lately, I've tried but "let" my lost motivation and low moods take control. And I haven't come this far to give up and put my lost twelve kilos back on. I had put one of them back on, but haven't checked the scales since.
And what I was thinking is "I must blog and get myself back on track, not let the power of my negitive mindframe take over. I've already decided I want to be at least under 90 kilos by the time I turn fifty. I am quite capable of doing that, and I know it won't be a walk in the park. I know there will be days I feel unstoppable, but I also know there will be days I feel like no matter what I try I'll find it hard. And that is okay, because I know I want to achieve my goals and I know I can achieve them. I want so much for my next part of my life, rather than letting circumstances destroy me and hold me back. I am going to aim high and reach higher. Nothing out of my reach or unachievable-but step by step achievable.
I appreciate my Sparkie friends who come back and read more what I have to say and put up with me. And I welcome whoever comes to my blog to not take any offence or be annoyed. Thank you Sparkies. I hope you are having a good week and a good health journey. Whatever we are doing in life it is a journey and we all are at different stages. Every journey is not all plain sailing, or an even road it takes different turns and loops and we are the navigator. But even the captain or navigator isn't totally aware of what lies in wake or what unexpected turn can bring. Happy travelling Sparkies, and even a bad day is still part of the journey. Enjoy and bon voyage~
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