April Wrap up, May Goals and Weigh in #7

Sunday, May 01, 2011

April came and went in the blink of an eye. I’m pretty proud of what I accomplished in April. Even with medical issues and not feeling the greatest I still managed to lose 6.6 lbs. Before scary medical issues would have sent me straight to a drive thru and straight to binging but I didn’t do that this time. I knew I had to take care of my body by eating better and working out. This is exactly what I did. Even though I didn’t workout as much as I wanted too in April because for a couple of weeks I was nauseous and lethargic so I rested and didn’t let myself feel guilty about it. If I was hungry I ate. If I was tired I slept. I listened to my body.

This past week wasn’t the best. It was my TOM and I was in some bizarre low cal then super high cal roller coaster with Easter thrown in the mix. I averaged 2000 calories per day last week and only worked out twice. Again, I was expecting a gain but it never came. When I got on the scale it said I had lost 2.4 lbs. I’m completely baffled.

I eat less and I lose, I eat more and I lose, I workout more and I lose, I don’t workout and I lose. My brain cannot make sense of it at all but it’s a loss so I’ll take it. I’m also now only .8 lbs away from a 15 lb loss. I’m soooo close I can taste it. I think it’s some weird anomaly that I lost this past week so I’m going back to my plan and sticking to my goals and seeing what happens.

My May Goals

• Stay within 1700-1800 calories
• Eat fish 1 x week
• Strength train 2 x per week. (I’d signed up with a personal trainer for strength training in April but had to cancel because of my medical issues. I get my first session with him May 11th.)
• Workout 5 days a week
 Sunday: 1 hour of Zumba
 Monday: Off
 Tuesday: 30 min cross ramp
 Wednesday: 1 hour of yoga & 20 min of strength training
 Thursday: 20 min cross ramp, 30 treadmill, 10 on elliptical
 Friday: Off
 Saturday: 20 min of strength training


Starting weight: 233
Weight last week: 221.2
Weight this week: 218.8 (-2.4)
Total Weight Loss: 14.2 lbs.

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Nutritionist Appt and OMG I have a Stalker & Pics

Thursday, April 28, 2011

I totally jinxed myself last week when I told my roommate that I needed some excitement in my life. Then I joked that a hot stalker would be nice. I'll think before I speak next time.

So douche baby hot mechanic does not understand the meaning of the word NO. He is blowing up my phone with a million texts a day. The creepiest one was "I know where you live. I'll come over and convince you to go out with me with kisses." Uhm....eiwwww, nooooo! *shudder*. I think he just doesn't realize how creepy he actually sounded. He seems harmless but clueless. I'm not sure what to do here besides ignore him. If anyone has any advice please feel free!

My work is big on doing welness programs and they have a Live Well campaign going on. So we get things like our free fitness center. Also, all healthy snacks in the vending maching are subsidized. So pretzels or granola bars or baked chips are only 35 cents. Now they are doing free visits with a nutritionist that comes to our work. This is my 2nd time meeting with her. I told her I was having a rough week this week and have had some days that were close to 3,000 calories. We went on SparkPeople so she could see how I was doing food wise and she was able to point out that the days when I've eaten like cr@p, usually the day before I've eaten less than 1200 calories. So apparently when I eat so low, I pig out the next day. That's good to know. Funny how I hadn't made that connection. So I'm going to try and keep it consistent from now on. She also noticed that I was losing more weight when I increased my calories to 1700 which i had noticed. She called this my sweet spot and told me to stay here if possible. This seems to be the number that stokes the fire and gets my metabolism revved up. So I'm getting back on track and have a good plan in place. Still not excited about weigh in this week but I guess we'll always have weeks like this.

My goals until I see her again is to eat fish 1 x per week, strength train 2x per week and aim for 2.5 cups of veggies a week. All things I've been sort of thinking about but it feels more official when it's written down and called a goal, lol. She was impressed with my 11 lb weight loss in 2 months. I don't feel any different but I am wearing a smaller size.

I actually went shopping yesterday because I need new clothes bad. I bought 3 cute tops in not a 2X and not even a 1X but an XL!. What? Me in an XL? Last time I was an XL I was in High School. Anyway here are the tops I bought at TJ Maxx.

Did I metion it's an XL!!!

Yes, another XL!

And this one for yoga in XL!

Have a great week SparkPeeps!

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Weigh in #6, Good News & Hot Mechanic

Monday, April 25, 2011

I hadn’t planned on weighing in until May since everything was up in the air with my surgery. My plan was to maintain, maintain, maintain. I was eating healthy-ish. I had some high calorie days and some low calorie days. I averaged around 1800 calories/day. I only worked out one day because I was feeling really lethargic and nauseous from the procedure. I knew the scale wouldn’t be feeling me but I hopped on anyway prepared to give it the finger and stash it in my closet for an undetermined amount of time. Seriously I sometimes think I enjoy torturing myself.

Anyway, I was surprised to say the least when it showed a 2.2 lb loss from last week with my mini gain after the surgery and a 1.2 loss from the previous week. I was perplexed as I stared at the numbers. I was elated they were lower but WTF? I eat more and don’t exercise and drop the same amount as when I eat 200 calories less and bust my butt at the gym 4 times a week. My body is thoroughly confusing! I’ll still take it though, lol. It’s moving in the right direction so I shouldn’t be complaining I know.

So I went to my doctor on Thursday for a follow up and got really good news. No surgery for me at least not now. We’re going wait and watch the fibroid and as long as it doesn’t get any bigger or cause problems I don’t have to have surgery any time soon. She seems to think that the bc pill will control the bleeding and it was smaller than she thought once they went in with the cam. It’s also on a place on my uterus that shouldn’t do any damage. She said if I decide to get pregnant we may revisit surgery but at this point it’s not necessary. I’m keeping my fingers crossed for no more bleeding and that it doesn’t get any bigger. If I can avoid surgery I’m all for it. I was so relieved when I left the doctor’s office! My mood had improved 10 fold.

On Saturday I was getting my breaks replaced on my SUV. They were pretty bad. I got quoted at several places and the most affordable was this auto shop that comes to you basically. They do the work in your driveway or garage with their own tools and equipment and it’s a lot cheaper because they don’t have the overhead cost of paying rent for a shop. My friend got great service so I decided to give it a try.

The mechanic texted me around 8 am to tell me his name was Sean and that he’d be there a little after 9. Sure, cool whatever. I wasn’t too happy to be up that early but I figured I’d give him the keys and head back for a nap while he worked on my car.

So the mechanic Sean shows up and I answer the door still in my pajamas, hello kitty as a matter of fact, and haven’t brushed my hair. I open the door and before me stands the hottest guy that has ever stood on my stoop, lol. Of course this would happen! I cursed my luck and my hello kitty pajamas. He was tall probably over 6 ft. His hair was black and styled in a super trendy messy do. He had a nice tan, perfectly even white teeth and had the most intense blue eyes I had ever seen. I wanted to shut the door in his face and run back upstairs and change and at least brush my hair. Of course I couldn’t do that. I acted like I greet hot guys at my door in my pajamas everyday and tried not to stare at his perfect jaw and bulging biceps.

Anyway, I give him the keys and his hotness and proximity to me is turning me into a giggly, hair flipping girl which annoys me. I was not making coherent sentences. Not charming at all. Then I realize I’m trying to flirt in my hello kitty pajamas, HELLO! What is wrong with me? Anyway, I let him do his thing and finally get back inside to change, put some make up on and straighten my hair, lol. And perhaps I stalked him through my bedroom window a little bit but I will neither confirm nor deny that. Then I come to my senses and realize this guy is way too attractive and out of my league. What was I thinking?

So I decide to ignore him for the rest of the time and instead take Becca for a walk. We were almost done with our one mile loop around the neighborhood when he text me again to tell me he needs to go to Autozone to rent some tool he needs for my car. Great, how much is this going to cost. So I text him that it’s fine and how much. He replies with “no worries, I won’t charge you for it.” Uhm, what? A mechanic not charging for something.

By this time I’m back and he’s out from underneath my car all dirty and covered in oil and my knees went week, lol. I miraculously happened to stay on my own 2 feet. He smiles at me with his blinding white teeth and I swoon. I walk up to him and Becca attacks him. She’s totally boy crazy and she’s a dog but she can sniff out the hot ones. She has discriminating taste, lol. He bent down to pet her and rub ear and I was jealous. Yes, jealous of my dog. So anyway, I decide to stop smiling at him like a dope and go back inside. I turn to look at him one more time and catch him looking at me. He smiled and looked away. Uh…what? I figure I must have imagined it.

So he finishes my car and he’s the utmost professional much to my chagrin. I pay him and he leaves. A few minutes later I get a text from him saying that if I ever needed help with my car again that I could feel free to text him or email him. So I figured he was just trying to drum up business and I said sure. Then I realized he had included his personal email not the company one. I thought that was strange. He text me again saying “yeah, I don’t mind helping out friends as long as your boyfriend/husband doesn’t mind."

OMG, was he trying to figure out if I was single in a roundabout way without directly asking. So I replied that I had neither.

His response: “You are much too cute to be single. So do you want to have lunch together or something?”

I happened to be in the bathroom when he sent that text so I didn’t respond right away so by the time I had checked my phone he had left another message.

“I’m sorry if I crossed a line. Didn’t mean to offend you or anything :(

Omg, of course I replied I was away from my phone and no he didn’t offend me and yes I wanted to have lunch.

He said he’d go home to shower and change then he could come pick me up. I was again reduced to a giggly, stupid girl.

To make a long story short we go to lunch have a good conversation and we’re both flirting and having a lovely time and he tells me he thought I was beautiful which was really sweet. Then he says I probably noticed him checking me out. OMG, hot boy was checking ME out? Of course I didn't notice. I felt my cheeks burn because he’s looking at me all intense like. But then he starts making really immature jokes. I kind of ignore them though at first. Then he starts talking about how hungover he was when he got to my house. Uh, huh? Ok, just focus on his perfect hair and smile. Then he starts making some creepy innuendos and I’m all like what happened to the charming guy? He’s turned into a douche bag.

So hesitantly I’m like, “How old are you?”

His response, “21 but most people think I’m older. How old are you like 24?” he asks.

OMG!!!! I’m too young to be a cougar!!!! He’s a baby!!! Leave right now!!!! All this is going through my head.

“Thanks but NO, I"m not 24. I’m old enough to be mistaken for your babysitter. I’ve got to go.”

He’s tells me to wait and grabs my arm gently rubbing my elbow with the pad of his thumb. “Age isn’t anything but a number.” I look down at his gorgeous face. “And so about this baby sitter thing…uhm..maybe you can punish me if I’m naughty."

Uh yeah, I have to go little boy. You’re a 21 year old hornball and I’m an idiot blinded by a perfect tan.

Total ego boost that a hot younger guy asked me out but lesson learned: ask for 2 forms of ID to verify age first, lol. Also, if something is to good to be true it probably is!


Starting weight: 233
Weight last week: 223.4
Weight this week: 221.2 (-2.2)
Total Weight Loss: 11.8 lbs.

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The scale, my plan and FU Fibroid!

Monday, April 18, 2011

So the scale says I’m up today. +.6 lbs to be exact. I expected a gain but I definitely expected it to be higher. I went through a lot last week. I was anemic, bleeding, had an IV put in, a medical procedure, stress on my body and mind. Plus I only got one workout in and was eating more than normal from the stress. I was disappointed a bit that I binged but it was only once then I got back on track. Anyway, I refuse to move my weight ticker up just yet. I hope to be where I was last week by the end of this week. Maintenance is my goal!!!

Saturday and Sunday I was super nauseous and really tired. I think I slept like 14 hours on Sunday. My body must have needed it though so I don’t feel too bad. I do feel a bit guilty since I didn’t get much done around the house but oh well. I still feel kind of bloated but only a minor annoyance. Not 100% but at least functional now that the bleeding has stopped so I’m grateful for that. According to my doctor I shouldn’t have that bleeding until my next TOM. OMG, I can’t imagine going through all that again. I hope we can schedule the surgery soon and I can just get on with my life.

It’s weird to me how this fibroid I didn’t even know I had has turned my life upside down. I obsessively look up information on fibroids and surgery and watched several youtube videos showing the procedure. I don’t recommend that by the way. I was already nauseous this made me dry heave. I mean a week ago I didn’t even know what a fibroid was and now I know more than necessary. Seriously, FU Fibroid! How dare you interfere with my quality of life. FU, FU, FU!!!

So this week my plan is to get back to eating in my calorie range 1600-1700. As long as I feel fine I plan to resume my exercise. I mean I was working out hardcore and losing weight with this fibroid in me before I just didn’t have any symptoms so I didn’t know it was there. As long as I feel basically back to normal I’m working out. I just think I’m going to take it down a notch

Tuesday: 30 minutes on the cross ramp
Wednesday: 1 hour of yoga
Thursday: 30 minute on cross ramp & 20 minutes on the treadmill
Friday: Off
Saturday: 30 minute walk outside (weather permitting otherwise I will do the cross ramp)
Sunday: Off
I think tonight I’m going to make enchilada casserole in my crock pot. Super easy and makes a lot so my dinners will already be made and it will keep me in check. I’ll try and post the recipe and pictures if I get time.
I hope everyone has an awesome week! I’m sending out positive vibes to everyone.

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Hospital Procedure Update

Friday, April 15, 2011

First of all I just want to thank all my sparkpeople friends for all the kind words and support. It meant so much to me and really helped me get through this much easier so THANK YOU!!!
I just wanted to give a quick update. The first procedure went well. I got a hysterscopy, D&C and a biopsy. Basically they went in with a camera to look around, they scraped my insides to remove the lining and stop the bleeding and they took a biopsy of the fibroid. I have an appointment on Thursday to go over the results with my doctor and set up the surgery to remove the fibroid. While she was in there she was able to find out that it's on the outside of my uterus which is good because it won't distort the inside which could cause me to become infertile. She also found out that it's twice the size of my uterus which isn't good. So she wants to do the surgery within the next 3 weeks.
I was pretty freaked out at the hospital. I was so glad my best friend Lynell went with me. She kept my thoughts off of it before it was time to go to the OR. She was there with me for the entire 5 hours and I'm so grateful for that. I've never had any sort of procedure done at the hospital so everything was new and scary. The IV, the anesthesia and being in the OR.
After they put in my IV the gave me something to just relax me. I was trying to explain to Lynell how freaked out I was but I couldn't stop giggling or smiling. That stuff really works, lol. Once they took me to the OR they gave me the anesthesia and put an oxygen mask and told me to breathe deep. I took two deep breaths and I was out. The next thing I remember I was in the recovery room. I remember my doctor talking to me but don't remember anything she said. I'm glad Lynell was there because she wrote it all down. I was only in recovery for forty-five minutes and then I was allowed to leave. They gave me something for the pain and I felt fine. I left with painkillers and antibiotics to take.
Today I've felt fine all day. I've only taken midol for some minor cramps. I was just so happy the bleeding finally stopped.
I wanted to go for a walk because i haven't been able to do anything physical all week but unfortunately its raining outside so no walk for me. I'm hoping to go back to the gym on Sunday and just do some low intensity cardio. Not sure if it's too soon but if I feel up to it I plan to go. I've been eating really bad though. Close to 2,000 calories ever day and I'm not happy about it but I'm trying to give myself a break and not beat myself up for not sticking to my planned calorie range. It's still not where I was several weeks ago doing Taco Bell runs at midnight.
So far my spirits are high and I'm feeling better. This is just something I have to take care of now that hopefully in a short time I will forget about. Then I can get back to fully focusing on my eating, exercising and losing weight. All I'm trying to do now is maintain until all of this is over. That's pretty reasonable I think.
Thanks again everyone!!!!

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