Thursday, April 28, 2011
I totally jinxed myself last week when I told my roommate that I needed some excitement in my life. Then I joked that a hot stalker would be nice. I'll think before I speak next time.
So douche baby hot mechanic does not understand the meaning of the word NO. He is blowing up my phone with a million texts a day. The creepiest one was "I know where you live. I'll come over and convince you to go out with me with kisses." Uhm....eiwwww, nooooo! *shudder*. I think he just doesn't realize how creepy he actually sounded. He seems harmless but clueless. I'm not sure what to do here besides ignore him. If anyone has any advice please feel free!
My work is big on doing welness programs and they have a Live Well campaign going on. So we get things like our free fitness center. Also, all healthy snacks in the vending maching are subsidized. So pretzels or granola bars or baked chips are only 35 cents. Now they are doing free visits with a nutritionist that comes to our work. This is my 2nd time meeting with her. I told her I was having a rough week this week and have had some days that were close to 3,000 calories. We went on SparkPeople so she could see how I was doing food wise and she was able to point out that the days when I've eaten like cr@p, usually the day before I've eaten less than 1200 calories. So apparently when I eat so low, I pig out the next day. That's good to know. Funny how I hadn't made that connection. So I'm going to try and keep it consistent from now on. She also noticed that I was losing more weight when I increased my calories to 1700 which i had noticed. She called this my sweet spot and told me to stay here if possible. This seems to be the number that stokes the fire and gets my metabolism revved up. So I'm getting back on track and have a good plan in place. Still not excited about weigh in this week but I guess we'll always have weeks like this.
My goals until I see her again is to eat fish 1 x per week, strength train 2x per week and aim for 2.5 cups of veggies a week. All things I've been sort of thinking about but it feels more official when it's written down and called a goal, lol. She was impressed with my 11 lb weight loss in 2 months. I don't feel any different but I am wearing a smaller size.
I actually went shopping yesterday because I need new clothes bad. I bought 3 cute tops in not a 2X and not even a 1X but an XL!. What? Me in an XL? Last time I was an XL I was in High School. Anyway here are the tops I bought at TJ Maxx.
Did I metion it's an XL!!!
Yes, another XL!
And this one for yoga in XL!
Have a great week SparkPeeps!
Monday, April 25, 2011
I hadnít planned on weighing in until May since everything was up in the air with my surgery. My plan was to maintain, maintain, maintain. I was eating healthy-ish. I had some high calorie days and some low calorie days. I averaged around 1800 calories/day. I only worked out one day because I was feeling really lethargic and nauseous from the procedure. I knew the scale wouldnít be feeling me but I hopped on anyway prepared to give it the finger and stash it in my closet for an undetermined amount of time. Seriously I sometimes think I enjoy torturing myself.
Anyway, I was surprised to say the least when it showed a 2.2 lb loss from last week with my mini gain after the surgery and a 1.2 loss from the previous week. I was perplexed as I stared at the numbers. I was elated they were lower but WTF? I eat more and donít exercise and drop the same amount as when I eat 200 calories less and bust my butt at the gym 4 times a week. My body is thoroughly confusing! Iíll still take it though, lol. Itís moving in the right direction so I shouldnít be complaining I know.
So I went to my doctor on Thursday for a follow up and got really good news. No surgery for me at least not now. Weíre going wait and watch the fibroid and as long as it doesnít get any bigger or cause problems I donít have to have surgery any time soon. She seems to think that the bc pill will control the bleeding and it was smaller than she thought once they went in with the cam. Itís also on a place on my uterus that shouldnít do any damage. She said if I decide to get pregnant we may revisit surgery but at this point itís not necessary. Iím keeping my fingers crossed for no more bleeding and that it doesnít get any bigger. If I can avoid surgery Iím all for it. I was so relieved when I left the doctorís office! My mood had improved 10 fold.
On Saturday I was getting my breaks replaced on my SUV. They were pretty bad. I got quoted at several places and the most affordable was this auto shop that comes to you basically. They do the work in your driveway or garage with their own tools and equipment and itís a lot cheaper because they donít have the overhead cost of paying rent for a shop. My friend got great service so I decided to give it a try.
The mechanic texted me around 8 am to tell me his name was Sean and that heíd be there a little after 9. Sure, cool whatever. I wasnít too happy to be up that early but I figured Iíd give him the keys and head back for a nap while he worked on my car.
So the mechanic Sean shows up and I answer the door still in my pajamas, hello kitty as a matter of fact, and havenít brushed my hair. I open the door and before me stands the hottest guy that has ever stood on my stoop, lol. Of course this would happen! I cursed my luck and my hello kitty pajamas. He was tall probably over 6 ft. His hair was black and styled in a super trendy messy do. He had a nice tan, perfectly even white teeth and had the most intense blue eyes I had ever seen. I wanted to shut the door in his face and run back upstairs and change and at least brush my hair. Of course I couldnít do that. I acted like I greet hot guys at my door in my pajamas everyday and tried not to stare at his perfect jaw and bulging biceps.
Anyway, I give him the keys and his hotness and proximity to me is turning me into a giggly, hair flipping girl which annoys me. I was not making coherent sentences. Not charming at all. Then I realize Iím trying to flirt in my hello kitty pajamas, HELLO! What is wrong with me? Anyway, I let him do his thing and finally get back inside to change, put some make up on and straighten my hair, lol. And perhaps I stalked him through my bedroom window a little bit but I will neither confirm nor deny that. Then I come to my senses and realize this guy is way too attractive and out of my league. What was I thinking?
So I decide to ignore him for the rest of the time and instead take Becca for a walk. We were almost done with our one mile loop around the neighborhood when he text me again to tell me he needs to go to Autozone to rent some tool he needs for my car. Great, how much is this going to cost. So I text him that itís fine and how much. He replies with ďno worries, I wonít charge you for it.Ē Uhm, what? A mechanic not charging for something.
By this time Iím back and heís out from underneath my car all dirty and covered in oil and my knees went week, lol. I miraculously happened to stay on my own 2 feet. He smiles at me with his blinding white teeth and I swoon. I walk up to him and Becca attacks him. Sheís totally boy crazy and sheís a dog but she can sniff out the hot ones. She has discriminating taste, lol. He bent down to pet her and rub ear and I was jealous. Yes, jealous of my dog. So anyway, I decide to stop smiling at him like a dope and go back inside. I turn to look at him one more time and catch him looking at me. He smiled and looked away. UhÖwhat? I figure I must have imagined it.
So he finishes my car and heís the utmost professional much to my chagrin. I pay him and he leaves. A few minutes later I get a text from him saying that if I ever needed help with my car again that I could feel free to text him or email him. So I figured he was just trying to drum up business and I said sure. Then I realized he had included his personal email not the company one. I thought that was strange. He text me again saying ďyeah, I donít mind helping out friends as long as your boyfriend/husband doesnít mind."
OMG, was he trying to figure out if I was single in a roundabout way without directly asking. So I replied that I had neither.
His response: ďYou are much too cute to be single. So do you want to have lunch together or something?Ē
I happened to be in the bathroom when he sent that text so I didnít respond right away so by the time I had checked my phone he had left another message.
ďIím sorry if I crossed a line. Didnít mean to offend you or anything :(
Omg, of course I replied I was away from my phone and no he didnít offend me and yes I wanted to have lunch.
He said heíd go home to shower and change then he could come pick me up. I was again reduced to a giggly, stupid girl.
To make a long story short we go to lunch have a good conversation and weíre both flirting and having a lovely time and he tells me he thought I was beautiful which was really sweet. Then he says I probably noticed him checking me out. OMG, hot boy was checking ME out? Of course I didn't notice. I felt my cheeks burn because heís looking at me all intense like. But then he starts making really immature jokes. I kind of ignore them though at first. Then he starts talking about how hungover he was when he got to my house. Uh, huh? Ok, just focus on his perfect hair and smile. Then he starts making some creepy innuendos and Iím all like what happened to the charming guy? Heís turned into a douche bag.
So hesitantly Iím like, ďHow old are you?Ē
His response, ď21 but most people think Iím older. How old are you like 24?Ē he asks.
OMG!!!! Iím too young to be a cougar!!!! Heís a baby!!! Leave right now!!!! All this is going through my head.
ďThanks but NO, I"m not 24. Iím old enough to be mistaken for your babysitter. Iíve got to go.Ē
Heís tells me to wait and grabs my arm gently rubbing my elbow with the pad of his thumb. ďAge isnít anything but a number.Ē I look down at his gorgeous face. ďAnd so about this baby sitter thingÖuhm..maybe you can punish me if Iím naughty."
Uh yeah, I have to go little boy. Youíre a 21 year old hornball and Iím an idiot blinded by a perfect tan.
Total ego boost that a hot younger guy asked me out but lesson learned: ask for 2 forms of ID to verify age first, lol. Also, if something is to good to be true it probably is!
Starting weight: 233
Weight last week: 223.4
Weight this week: 221.2 (-2.2)
Total Weight Loss: 11.8 lbs.
Monday, April 18, 2011
So the scale says Iím up today. +.6 lbs to be exact. I expected a gain but I definitely expected it to be higher. I went through a lot last week. I was anemic, bleeding, had an IV put in, a medical procedure, stress on my body and mind. Plus I only got one workout in and was eating more than normal from the stress. I was disappointed a bit that I binged but it was only once then I got back on track. Anyway, I refuse to move my weight ticker up just yet. I hope to be where I was last week by the end of this week. Maintenance is my goal!!!
Saturday and Sunday I was super nauseous and really tired. I think I slept like 14 hours on Sunday. My body must have needed it though so I donít feel too bad. I do feel a bit guilty since I didnít get much done around the house but oh well. I still feel kind of bloated but only a minor annoyance. Not 100% but at least functional now that the bleeding has stopped so Iím grateful for that. According to my doctor I shouldnít have that bleeding until my next TOM. OMG, I canít imagine going through all that again. I hope we can schedule the surgery soon and I can just get on with my life.
Itís weird to me how this fibroid I didnít even know I had has turned my life upside down. I obsessively look up information on fibroids and surgery and watched several youtube videos showing the procedure. I donít recommend that by the way. I was already nauseous this made me dry heave. I mean a week ago I didnít even know what a fibroid was and now I know more than necessary. Seriously, FU Fibroid! How dare you interfere with my quality of life. FU, FU, FU!!!
So this week my plan is to get back to eating in my calorie range 1600-1700. As long as I feel fine I plan to resume my exercise. I mean I was working out hardcore and losing weight with this fibroid in me before I just didnít have any symptoms so I didnít know it was there. As long as I feel basically back to normal Iím working out. I just think Iím going to take it down a notch
Tuesday: 30 minutes on the cross ramp
Wednesday: 1 hour of yoga
Thursday: 30 minute on cross ramp & 20 minutes on the treadmill
Saturday: 30 minute walk outside (weather permitting otherwise I will do the cross ramp)
I think tonight Iím going to make enchilada casserole in my crock pot. Super easy and makes a lot so my dinners will already be made and it will keep me in check. Iíll try and post the recipe and pictures if I get time.
I hope everyone has an awesome week! Iím sending out positive vibes to everyone.
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