Monday, August 24, 2009
Yesterday I was so miserable. Mom went to the hospital Saturday. She was released the same day. I spent the night Saturday because she needed to be "watched". She stayed up all night long. I finally dozed off somewhere between 2 and 3 am. I was wide awake at 5:30 am bathing and feeding my mom. My plan was to get busy, get her situated, go home and get myself together for 8am Sunday service at my church. Mom's plan was bathe me, feed me, and hold my hand. At 6:45 she told me "You need to stay here with me. I don't need to be alone. I don't want you to come back and something bad done happened. You need to stay here with me." She is determined that she is dying. It's driving me and my siblings crazy. Anybody that knows me well know that 8am Sunday morning is my time. I missed the church picnic on Saturday. I was okay with that because I've never been to a picnic with this church and the weather was kinda cool for August on the water. I was upset because we had a guest church from Alabama. I'm a Michigander in my heart but I love to hear a good Southern Preacha (yeah that's right) give a good old fashioned Whoop and Holla! The country twang and the choir just set it off. I never did like visiting my mom's place in Georgia, but I always loved going to her little country church on the dirt road. I feel cheated. I love my momma but my mind is made up, I will not spend another Saturday night at her place. I couldn't make it to the 11 am service because nobody showed up to relieve me until 10:45. Is it wrong to disobey your parents when they are getting between you and God? I was trying to honor my mother (obey her request to stay with her) but I feel cheated. I feel that nobody, nothing, and nowhere should come before me and my private time with Jesus. Feel free to comment on my blog. Tell it to me straight, I'm a big girl and I can handle the truth (or your opinion). 
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Today mom said "I want to go to Wal-Mart." I had to ask her to repeat herself because my mom hasn't been out the house for much of anything but to go to the doctor's or the hospital since Mother's Day 2008. She had me take her to visit my dad's sister once and to visit her gal pal once, but nothing else. As a matter of fact, nothing this year but the medical stuff (and that was like pulling teeth with rusty pliers). I wheeled her into her kitchen so she could check her fridg, her freezer and the pantry. She told me what she wanted on her list and with the assistance of my sister and her family and my daughter we were off to the store. The grands took turns pushing 'Gma' in her wheelchair while my sister and I helped mom shop. Mom was so pleased with herself. You still can't wipe the grin off of her face. She is back at home now and so proud of herself. This is a reason to celebrate because one week ago she was so depressed she literally wanted to die. To God goes all the praise and glory for the marvelous things he has done for my family.
Today was orientation at my college. Oh boy, I hope this college thing works out for me. Classes begin at the end of September. The process was chaos. There were hundreds of students. We were separated by departments but the process left a lot to be desired. I selected three classes that meet on Tuesday and Thursday. Thanks to my college courses taken years ago, I get to go directly into the core courses. Yeah for me! The problem is I wonder am I ready for the technical courses in a new field of study? Am I ready for the challenge? One of the directors told us to "relax", another told us to "Be the tortoise not the hare-just complete, don't worry about the amount of time it takes to get there." I know I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. I'm leaning and depending on God to get me through this new endeavor.
SLOWLY COMING OFF - Down another 2 lbs.