Wednesday, May 16, 2012
I go through this every month. A week or so before my period is due I start to think that I'm always hungry. I just had my breakfast of a cinnamon raisin bagel, cottage cheese and a banana. I remember purchasing the small 113 gram PC Blue Menu cottage cheese containers yesterday and thinking to myself, are these people kidding? 113 grams of cottage cheese is just a large spoonful to me. Ok, maybe a couple of large spoonfuls. I ended up eating 3 of them yesterday. I am sitting here this morning having tracked the above mentioned breakfast in awe of myself. I am in awe that I have eaten my full breakfast, tried desperately to eat slowly but could not slow it down that much as my PMS carb desperate brain kept telling me to eat it all in one bite, but I talked myself through it and said, slow it down, it will still be there a minute from now, it's going to be ok. I slowed it down a bit, which felt alright, though it was a struggle. Now here's the funny thing. About two or three minutes after ingesting my breakfast, I got distracted by something, then said to myself, hmmmm, wonder what I should have for breakfast this morning. I had to give my head a big shake as I realized that I'd already had my breakfast. It was with a bit of a sinking feeling that I went over to my food tracker and realized that I'd taken in 430 calories without even noticing. Mind you, this is not a daily occurrence although it does happen quite a bit, especially during the PMS times. I'm going to have another glass of water and I'm going to go get ready to start my day. I am thinking that I'm going to start blogging to see if I can awaken a more centred form of self discovery. Thank you SP, thank you for being there. I feel reassurred somehow.