Saturday, January 26, 2013
So I have this confession. I lost another 2.6 lbs this week, but I didn't really do anything to accomplish this. I know I really shouldn't be questioning this too hard. I should just celebrate, but it is frustrating when in the past I have worked so hard and seen such miniscule results. Then I put in very little effort and 'poof.' I'm confused, bewildered even, but I'm going to accept this gift from the weight loss gods, and move on. Imagine what I am going to do now that I am really trying!
I was somewhat cognizant of what I was eating, and making better choices than I have in the past. I did not have any fast food this week, which is kind of a big deal. I usually justify one meal from Wendy's for being so "good" the rest of the week. Bad reward, I know. It's funny though how we develop these little justifications. There almost like weight loss 'tics,' unique to each individual, and something we barely notice in ourselves because we've been doing it for so long. I think if we can just identify these tics we can consciously try to curb them in the future.
Time to start working on my fitness. Did anyone else just get Fergalicious stuck in their head? "I be up in the gym just working on my fitness He's my witness (oooh, wee)" Oh lord...
Fitness Plan: For the BLC#17 challenge I want to start small and work my way up, so I am going to update my fitness plan each week. For the first week (well, technically 2nd week, but I joined late), I am going to start with 10 minutes each day, Monday-Saturday. I do want to make sure I am doing Jillian's 30 DS on some days, which is about 30 minutes, so if I do more than 10 minutes "Yay!" If not, no big deal - at least 10 minutes a day though.
As for any other updates, as I am sure you already know from my previous comments above, I joined the BLC#17 challenge this week. I'm pretty excited at this point. I think I have better consistency when I have direction each week, am on a team, and know that there is the possibility of disappointing people on said team if I slack - so accountability I guess is my key.
There you have it, my weekly update and a fitness plan. Now I am hungry, so off to the kitchen I go. And, yes, I will look for something healthy.
Tuesday, January 22, 2013
Week 2: virus
Week 3: wisdom tooth pulled
Week 4: first week of the semester at a new school, and an out of town wedding
Needless to say, I haven't been paying attention to food or exercising. I would say the virus is probably the most responsible for my 4 lb weight loss, but I'll take it.
And just for posterity, and fun, let's go on to the updated measurements:
Starting weight: 281 lbs
Current weight: 277 lbs
Weight +/-: -4 lbs
Waist: 50 inches, -1 inches
Hips: 55.5 inches, same
Bust: 53 inches, same
Arm: 21 inches, same
Thigh: 28 inches, -.5 inches
Inches lost: 1.5
Overall, some progress. Now it is time to take some action, and not hope to continue to passively lose weight. Tomorrow, Jillian...yikes
Tuesday, January 01, 2013
It is the end of week 1 for me. And what an interesting week it has been. I started off strong, tracking all of my food and completing the January Jumpstart videos for days 1, 2 and 3. My calories were going down each day, and I was making pretty good food choices.
The week was quite busy as well. My two dogs had their teeth cleaned, and one had two tumors removed from his chest at the same time. I am now making him wear a T-shirt that says "Ruff Stuff" to keep him from licking his wounds. He kind of hates me for it, and I may or not randomly bust out laughing when I see him. Hey, it's better than the cone of shame isn't it?
I suppose now would be the time when I tell you my measurements, and how many minutes I exercised and what not. Well, also during the course of this week I have been caring for my sick fiance. And I mean SICK. It was sad and sometimes gross, but I love him. And what does he do to show his appreciation. He shares his virus with me.
Aww, honey, you shouldn't have....really
So now here it is, the 1st day of the new year and the end of my first week, and I am sick. The doctor at urgent care told me: Diagnosis - virus, Treatment - sleep, Prognosis - you're screwed for the next few days. She may or may not have actually said those words, but that is pretty much what I heard. I was hoping to be able to curb this from reaching the full potential I saw in my fiance, but nope, I'm in for a real treat I guess.
This also means that I am not weighing myself, or exercising for the next few days, or tracking my daily calorie intake of four graham crackers and a glass of juice. I'm also not going to continue the January Jumpstart challenge right now. I'm going to re-join the challenge after I am healthy again, so I can really give it my full effort.
Until then...I will look forward to better days and wish you all a happy and HEALTHY New Year!
Tuesday, December 25, 2012
It seems like this is the time of year when everyone starts getting geared up for the new year, the new beginning, the new "me!" As I sit here, reading over my past blogs I find that I am feeling wistful in a way. I like what I am reading, but I don't really feel connected to the girl that wrote those cheery, upbeat blogs.
Not that I am an un-cheery person. I am quite happy with a lot of things going on in my life right now. I have been accepted for transfer at TWO of the highly-regarded private colleges in the area, the boyfriend has officially become the fiancé, and I have a had some wonderful opportunities come my way. The past year has been pretty terrific.
As I look ahead though, feeling quite stuffed from the past two days of overindulgence in delicious foods and wine, I know that there is still one area that I am not satisfied with...my weight, appearance, and the confidence I feel for my inward self to be equal to my outward self. There is a lot of work to do. I am feeling like it is possible though. Possibilities are really what the new year is about right?
We look at the beginning of a new year like an unopened gift. We shut our eyes tight against the outside world, fists clenched tightly and imagine what could be contained within. Our wildest dreams and deepest of wishes dance around in our minds. That is what I think the new year is like.
The wishes I hold inside, close to my heart, are not hard to guess. I wish to feel comfortable in my surroundings and to enjoy sitting and visiting without tugging at my shirt, or hiking up my pants. I wish to stand in front of my closet and think "What do I feel like wearing today?" not "What could I wear today to make me look as least fat as possible?"
Fat is such an ugly word isn't it? I never utter it out loud, but I know I say it almost constantly in my brain whenever it is not already occupied with some other task or idea. It is an appalling, gruesome, frightening, repulsive word. But it is just a word, like any other. It is not until I give it a sword and lay my neck before it that it has any power.
As an English major I know other "F" words, like fabulous, or fantastic, or even fit. The first two I can claim as a proper descriptors of myself, it is the last that needs some work. But what is all this time on this big, blue planet for if not to test ourselves, stretch our limits and to grow into the people we would like to be.
As Lewis Carroll wrote in "Alice in Wonderland,"
“Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?"
"That depends a good deal on where you want to get to."
"I don't much care where –"
"Then it doesn't matter which way you go.”
I really should know where I want to go, so I know how to get there. When I arrive at (we'll call it my first stop because it really is a never-ending journey, isn't it?) my first stop I want to no longer be obese according to the BMI scale. I would be considered overweight at 190 lbs, so that will be my goal weight. I'm not sure what size clothes I would fit into, I guess so long as I feel better in clothes than I do now I should consider that a success. Goals should be specific though, so I would like to shop in a non-plus size store. That is probably as specific as I can get right now. I would also like to have run a 5K by then.
Three goals are good for now: 190 lbs, non-plus size clothing, run one 5K.
I started this blog reminiscing and it seems I have stumbled into creating goals for myself. Funny how meandering can do that. I'm sure it is all for the best though. I am getting rather sleepy now, so I think I will leave the next step--the actual path I will take to reach those goals--for the next blog.
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