Saturday, April 05, 2014
Sorry for my absence. Life. 2010 brought some difficult emotional times, throwing me off balance completely. I'm finally getting my bearings back. Just finished my BA in Psychology - now I can focus on the outside of me!
It's been a long time since I've been around. I hope I can find my way again. 180 lbs, size 14-16 - not happy with those numbers AT ALL!
Finally started running again, having some knee and feet issues, but will persevere! I look forward to reconnecting with everyone, meeting new friends and definitely being encouraged and encouraging others on our journey.
I'm making a come back!
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
I just read my last blog entry. Some things have changed...
My dad passed away in March - 4 months after my mom. He had a heart attack from flipping out because nobody would come to his party... My mom was the brake for him, he was obviously getting out of control pretty quick.
The following is a short recap of events - they will be completely unbelievable and if they hadn't happened to me, I'd have a hard time believing them too... My dad was stripped of his money and jewelry, placed in his car and driven back to his house. His dead body was propped in a chair until they could get a coffin - which was a large fish box (he lived in a fishing village). They have no funeral home, no embalming and therefore the funeral had to be ASAP. One brother had a passport and was able to make it there by hiring a private plane just before they buried him. He had to hire professional mourners to weep in the house, they paraded the body through town three times and he was finally put to rest in a plot deep in a wooded area (which my brother has since cleared and placed a headstone). Some of his jewelry was returned, no, I did not get his wedding ring which was all I wanted - to match with my mom's. We have 1 year (6 months now) to sell the house otherwise it goes to the government. They have squaters rights so my brother had to hire people to live there and change the locks.
Yeah, i stopped....everything. LOL
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
I gaines 20lbs when my mom got hospitalized and have done absolutely nothing to get rid of it. At that time (November 2010) I was up to 6 miles training for a half-marathon (would've been my first). I basically quit...everything. This week I have gone to the track twice and run my first solid mile each day. Taken a Zumba class and taught a Yoga class. Made arrangements for a twice a week full-body weight lifting partner and my nutrition is trying to make a comeback. Yeah, I'm proud of me!
Friday, November 19, 2010
THANK YOU! For all your kind comments, encouragement and prayers. You've all really been here for me and I sincerely appreciate it. I wish I could sit down and spend all day personally thanking each of you, sending you goodies and encouragement, but we all know it's ok if I don't - thank you!
It's been a tough month, but hopefully it's winding down. I'm not nearly as stressed. Just have a lot to catch up on (mostly laundry - yuk). We cleaned out my dad's apartment yesterday, got his furniture (which is better than our old furniture), selling the car and finishing up paperwork, gravestone stuff, loose ends.
I'm sleeping, which is always a good thing. Thinking positive thoughts, planning a run tomorrow and a salad and baked turkey for our Sunday School potluck. Dean's been very encouraging and just this morning reminded me I'd have loose jeans in no time. He's such an amazing person. I'm so grateful for him.
My dad called this morning. He's home (in Mexico) and said he's doing ok, plugging along. I can't live with unforgiveness and bitterness - it only hurts me and he's completely oblivious and going senile so what's the point in harboring bad feelings.
Getting passports next week. Lots of church people seem interested in taking a trip over there - this whole situation has affected a lot of people around me.
Soon, I'll be back Sparking like crazy, I hope! My computer's getting a new harddrive, so I'm on Dixie's, so I won't be here much for a bit yet.
Love to all my awesome Spark Girlfriends!!! Couldn't have made it through this without you - and yeah, I'm serious!
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
We took my mom off life-support - that was hard, very hard - watching her die. That sucked. Having to buy 2x size clothes for her, alone, sucked almost more. All the fluids from the iv's had just swelled her to 3-4 times her normal size. The funeral was beautiful. My pastor, who I owe a debt I will never be able to repay, did the entire service in spanish - our native tongue. He doesn't speak a word of it and did an amazing job - everyone was elated, it changed the entire atmosphere. He even sang in spanish! He rocks! The funeral home was outstanding! If you get a chance read my blog around this time last year about funeral homes (Dean's mother passed last year).
Now, I'm left with paying off my dad's car, trying to sell it. Making sure he's ok - from here in FL when he's in Mexico - which is damn near impossible. He left from the cemetery. He doesn't cope. I'll most likely never see him again. It is what it is.
I can't seem to get back in the groove - I know I should give myself time. My pants are tight and that nasty green bean casserole is still in the fridge - damn white people food! I ate an entire cherry pie yesterday, I won't buy another one. If I could get someone to go grocery shopping for me, cut up all the fruit and fix me a salad, I'd eat it, but I'm just so exhausted. Housework out the yazoo, trying to get homeschooling back on track. It's just a lot right now.
I want to run, but I don't want to run. I'd rather just lay in bed all day sippin' a margarita and watching movies!
I'm going to give myself another week then no more excuses, hit it hard, shape up and fit back into everything before the Thanksgiving Feast!
Thanks to all my Spark Girls for your encouragement, love and prayers - I felt everyone of them!
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