Monday, April 21, 2014
Ever seen a picture of yourself and thought "what the heck? I thought I looked good!" Only to realize, yep, not so much?
I'm at my height of fatness, heavier than I've ever been, even after having a baby. 182 I've been taking pictures of myself and the more I take the rounder I look. I looked in the mirror on Sunday (wearing makeup day) and thought "hmmm, pretty" then I wondered about those pictures - so I took one of just my face. I can honestly say the picture is not what I see in the mirror. Which maybe why I've been so slack and non-commital to my nutrition and exercise.
Yesterday I did the Cold Water Challenge and after seeing the video - where I look like a bloated sausage, I almost didn't post it. But... two things - first, everybody says "oh, you're beautiful, sexy, smokin' hot, etc. etc. and secondly, I want to see what everybody else sees. I didn't see it. I saw a bloated sausage which encouraged my journey even more.
I know I've only been eating clean(er) for two weeks and there has been no change in my clothing or my body. Took me a hot minute to get this way, so I'm going to be patient. I won't weigh for another two weeks, and I certainly expect to see some change!
Saturday, April 05, 2014
Sorry for my absence. Life. 2010 brought some difficult emotional times, throwing me off balance completely. I'm finally getting my bearings back. Just finished my BA in Psychology - now I can focus on the outside of me!
It's been a long time since I've been around. I hope I can find my way again. 180 lbs, size 14-16 - not happy with those numbers AT ALL!
Finally started running again, having some knee and feet issues, but will persevere! I look forward to reconnecting with everyone, meeting new friends and definitely being encouraged and encouraging others on our journey.
I'm making a come back!
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
I just read my last blog entry. Some things have changed...
My dad passed away in March - 4 months after my mom. He had a heart attack from flipping out because nobody would come to his party... My mom was the brake for him, he was obviously getting out of control pretty quick.
The following is a short recap of events - they will be completely unbelievable and if they hadn't happened to me, I'd have a hard time believing them too... My dad was stripped of his money and jewelry, placed in his car and driven back to his house. His dead body was propped in a chair until they could get a coffin - which was a large fish box (he lived in a fishing village). They have no funeral home, no embalming and therefore the funeral had to be ASAP. One brother had a passport and was able to make it there by hiring a private plane just before they buried him. He had to hire professional mourners to weep in the house, they paraded the body through town three times and he was finally put to rest in a plot deep in a wooded area (which my brother has since cleared and placed a headstone). Some of his jewelry was returned, no, I did not get his wedding ring which was all I wanted - to match with my mom's. We have 1 year (6 months now) to sell the house otherwise it goes to the government. They have squaters rights so my brother had to hire people to live there and change the locks.
Yeah, i stopped....everything. LOL
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
I gaines 20lbs when my mom got hospitalized and have done absolutely nothing to get rid of it. At that time (November 2010) I was up to 6 miles training for a half-marathon (would've been my first). I basically quit...everything. This week I have gone to the track twice and run my first solid mile each day. Taken a Zumba class and taught a Yoga class. Made arrangements for a twice a week full-body weight lifting partner and my nutrition is trying to make a comeback. Yeah, I'm proud of me!
Friday, November 19, 2010
THANK YOU! For all your kind comments, encouragement and prayers. You've all really been here for me and I sincerely appreciate it. I wish I could sit down and spend all day personally thanking each of you, sending you goodies and encouragement, but we all know it's ok if I don't - thank you!
It's been a tough month, but hopefully it's winding down. I'm not nearly as stressed. Just have a lot to catch up on (mostly laundry - yuk). We cleaned out my dad's apartment yesterday, got his furniture (which is better than our old furniture), selling the car and finishing up paperwork, gravestone stuff, loose ends.
I'm sleeping, which is always a good thing. Thinking positive thoughts, planning a run tomorrow and a salad and baked turkey for our Sunday School potluck. Dean's been very encouraging and just this morning reminded me I'd have loose jeans in no time. He's such an amazing person. I'm so grateful for him.
My dad called this morning. He's home (in Mexico) and said he's doing ok, plugging along. I can't live with unforgiveness and bitterness - it only hurts me and he's completely oblivious and going senile so what's the point in harboring bad feelings.
Getting passports next week. Lots of church people seem interested in taking a trip over there - this whole situation has affected a lot of people around me.
Soon, I'll be back Sparking like crazy, I hope! My computer's getting a new harddrive, so I'm on Dixie's, so I won't be here much for a bit yet.
Love to all my awesome Spark Girlfriends!!! Couldn't have made it through this without you - and yeah, I'm serious!
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