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I was successful last evening! Thanks!

Thursday, June 02, 2011

I did eat late in the evening but I had a whole bag of frozen cauliflower(cooked!) and about a cup of frozen green peppers(cooked) mixed in. the combination was tasty and filling. I can't believe I actually succeeded! I am really trying hard not to blow this.

I have spent many years daily messing up a healthy day's eating with late night eating of heavy, calorie laden foods. I really did not think I could control myself even one night.

today was unusual because I was so busy, I had not much time to think of food. that is very rare. I woke up late and (as usual) for lunch I just threw stuff into a plastic bag and a plastic food container: cheese, bing cherries, a handful of red leafed lettuce. I ate each of these during the school day whenever I could. Even my last 2 classes I was unusually active because I had some gym equipment we took outside. the day was sunny but breezy and not hoe. We played catch, pickle in the middle and I did some one-on-one stuff with a tall, gangly boy who has CP. He is awkward and looks like his legs will break off, but he did what I asked and I walked alongside him. After school I went to look at the dorm kids ready for their prom. Wow! Their outfits were dazzling!

Then, I went to water aerobics. I had a very full day! the health aide came at 8:00 pm to put my husband in bed. I have had the evening aides for a month now. It is so wonderful to be freed from that responsibility. My husband is not happy with it. Well, I am much more relaxed. So: "Tough Bongies!" He was also mad because I expected him to actually eat the lunch and dinner Meals on Wheels brings! He went hungry rather than eat that. "Tough Bongies!"

I can afford to eat a few more calories today so I had a glass of wine and later brown rice with Brummel and Brown yogurt spread.

Thank you for all your supporting messages yesterday! I definitely needed the kind words!


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DUSTYPRAIRIE 6/4/2011 8:14AM

    Marvelous! You did great!

Love the "hubby" attitude. Sometimes we have to turn to the tough love approach.

(((bubble hugs)))

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JINLYNN 6/3/2011 12:08PM

    Glad to hear you had a successful day!

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CANDOK1260 6/3/2011 5:59AM

    water aerboic and wine sounds like you know how to relax

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ILLINITEACHER52 6/2/2011 9:59PM

  Way to go!!!!!!!

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I'll never be able to do it. It is only 7:00 pm

Wednesday, June 01, 2011

1923 calories so far today

So I have not blown it --yet

This is totally rediculous. Obviously I am not starving. But I have not made it to bedtime-well to sleep-- without over eating for a very long time.

I can't imagine how to do this.

I eat to have some pleasure. then I get tired and finally fall asleep. I'd better start counting down the minutes --counting hours makes the task seem way to hard.

Did I say this is ridiculous. Why on earth can't I do this?

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DUSTYPRAIRIE 6/3/2011 7:00AM

    I plan a decadent dessert for evening. Notice I didn't say unhealthy or fattening. Here are some of my favs.

A parfait. Sugar free jello or pudding layered with real whipped cream or whipped topping and fruit. Shaved dark chocolate on top. Have a few vanilla wafers if you "need" a little more.

Angel food strawberry shortcake. Sugar-free dessert shell, berries and whipped cream.

Banana split. Using fresh fruit around a small scoop of ice cream, again lite whipped topping. Even sprinkles.

ATTITUDE. Plate your dessert on a special plate/parfait glass. It's your reward for the day, not the thing you are going to feel guilty about in the morning.


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PATTYOMALLEY 6/3/2011 3:03AM

    If you know you are going to be hungry at night, then budget some of your daily calories for that purpose- just be VERY careful what you eat. PLAN IT, and stick to your plan. Prepare your snack early in the day, when you are not having any cravings, or feeling bored. Do this as a proactive thing. Prepare a container of
A. carrot sticks, celery sticks or other raw veggies with some light dressing
B. yogurt and fruit
C. oatmeal with cinnamon
D. You get the idea- save something healthy for your evening snack out of your daily calorie allotment and set it aside for the evening time that your body is conditioned to snack.

Once you build this habit, and discover that you can make small changes and build them into your new plan, you will be more apt to make additional changes. These small steps lead to successes that will build upon each other as you find your way to a healthier you.

You have a wonderful network of support here~ be sure to reach out whenever the spirit moves you :)

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GMKLEIN 6/2/2011 2:57PM

    There are a few things that have helped me.
1. Drink lot's of water during the day. It has helped curb my appetite.
2. keep busy and not watching TV. too many food commercials. But reading or knitting or scrapbooking. Something to occupy our mind and keep your hands busy.
3. Stay out of the kitchen. After dinner I clean up the kitchen get my last bottle of water and turn out the lights.
You will find the right combination that works for you. Believe in yourself because you can do this.

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LIFESGREAT2DAY 6/2/2011 8:51AM

    Hello there! I know you can do this you just need to make some changes within yourself and you have to want it for yourself. Reba sings a line 'something for herself for a change' Don't forget that you are worth something, and if you aren't healthy and happy how can you take care of anyone else? I find my biggest thing is to make sure to exercise. It is not only good for my heart and body shape, it makes me feel sooo good when I am done. Then I tend not to wanna over eat as much. I like to do things to take my mind off of eating. I will crotchet, read or just have some tea. Clean out a closet get rid of all those 'someday they will fit again clothes' and make room for some new styles you will be needing once the weight comes off. Make sure you drink lots of water to fill you up. Don't forget to look for the good in each day and think yourself happy and be thankful for all the good in your life. When I realize how little I really do need to eat, I am ashamed at what I have been eating. Lots of hungry children in other countries...did I really need those cheetos? When someone else just wants a piece of bread? So I get a cheaper grocery bill too by reminding myself I don't really need all that. I can't stress enough how important exercise really is. Do you have a friend around you anywhere who can help you out by exercising with you or going to the same gym? Do you have anyone to help at home with your hubby while you take time out for yourself? I also try and give myself a goal of having logged in more fitness minutes than I have in sparkpoints, that way I know I am off exercising and getting active, more than I am sitting on the computer. I know this is hard, but it has to come within yourself and YOU have to want it...and to want it for yourself. Best of luck on your journey and I know you can do this!

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MISSLISA1973 6/1/2011 9:32PM

    You CAN do this!!!!
Brush your teeth.
Alter your routine.
Go to bed early.
Do what ever it takes.

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DIZZYDOC 6/1/2011 9:09PM

    You can do this. Just follow the great advice you have been given and you will be a winner. emoticon

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    Have faith in yourself, YOU CAN DO IT! When I am wanting more than I am suppose to have, I find something to do to keep my mind and hands busy, then I don't think about food. I have found that spreading the spark here on SP helps a ton!

Good luck!



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5KPRINCESS 6/1/2011 8:19PM

    I totally agree with you both! It will never be easy for us, but we can make small changes that will lead to a big success down the road. I have decided that my last meal for the day needs to end no later than 8:00pm. After that, it is off the couch and on the computer. That way my hands are moving around the keyboard instead of in the fridge! I also have about 4 jars stocked with hard candy at all times. By time I eat one or two my cravings have stopped. That way I've only consumed about 40 calories compared to the multitude I would eat before it was too late. You can do this! Just remember: small steps. We're here for you!

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SARA72121 6/1/2011 7:39PM

    Barefootn is so right. I only eat at certain times every day. For me breakfast is 9:30-10am lunch is 1:30-2pm afternoon snack around 4, dinner is 7-7:30pm and a snack at 9pm which 99% of the time is fruit. You need to find out what works for you and try to stick to it.

You should also find something else you find pleasing as a reward. It was so hard to get myself out of the mindset to reward myself with food. If you need a little pick me up at night find something else you enjoy and do that! Maybe a nice cup of herbal tea?

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BAREFOOTN 6/1/2011 7:31PM

    You can do this. If I can, you can. I eat for anything....emotions, celebrations, happiness, sadness. What I have found I have to do every day is drink this water. I don't get as hungry. I am getting my body used to eating at certain times. I put in all my food in the tracker. On days where I think I want more, I figure in a few things I can eat more of...like broccoli slaw. I have taken on some projects to keep me busy at night. If I am just sitting, I want to eat..sorta like Pavlov's dog. Another thing, I had to reach out to others. I read other blogs and comment and encourage. It has helped me to keep focused. I also write my own little blog and I also post on the board every day. It isn't easy, but it has been so worth it. I read this things that said something about giving up a year to make my body healthy and I decided I was going to give up a year to take care of me. I am worth it.

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April fool!

Wednesday, June 01, 2011

Gee I am sorry I ate that late night sandwich and chocolate and nuts. I get a great start for the whole day and then I blow it in the late evening!

that is NOT TRUE--yet.......

I wrote this at 7:00 am! emoticon Now that I wrote it I will re-read it at 9:00 pm tonight (BEFORE I over eat!) and maybe it will make me re-think late night eating! Meaning-- maybe I will have something sensible instead of messing up a whole day of healthy eating.

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"Day 3" and NOT a great eating day

Wednesday, June 01, 2011

2,820 calories today! I gave in to the late evening craving for a cheese sandwich, emoticon

I had a wonderful massage (with nutritional chat) early in the evening. But I did not "use" the serenity to conquer my food for the evening. Actually I forgot the appt. She called me and I rushed over there.

I 'went out" about 8:15 pm to avoid chatting with the health aide. When he began working here I had to talk to him to get him going in the right direction. But that set up a pattern. And, he even came out and asked me what to do with my husband's messy pants. He should have known that all by himself. that is what an aide does!

The aide was gone when I came back home. (And yes I felt put out of my own home. I just like to watch Criminal MInds in the evenings and "veg." But I found myself driving around with no place to go.

By 9:30 I was in bed with the cheese sandwich. That sounds funny doesn't it?

If I think back, probably 1/2 of that sandwich would have been enough. And the lady who gave me the massage suggested in the evenings like that I have protein and eat it slowly. Nuts would be OK . Or maybe that is what she suggested for my tired afternoons! I am mixed up.

For tired afternoons, I know she said to bring a glass of juice from the juicer. She thought that might wake me up.

And she had a whole book about magnesium. I have been taking it. She thought my ideas about foods are going in the right direction and soon I should get a handle on my weight problem. emoticon Gosh, I hope so!

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JINLYNN 6/1/2011 1:10PM

    Those night time snacks are a real bother! Sometimes I think I should go to bed at about 6:30 pm and then I wouldn't have to deal with the temptations. emoticon
And Criminal Minds is one of my favourites too!
You are being very positive and looking at each morning as an opportunity to start again. Good for you to not let one evening of eating off program permanently set you back. I hope today is a better one for you.

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Hopefully, just under 2000 calories today

Monday, May 30, 2011

1,973 calories today if I limit myself to these items this evening:
Fiber (Sugar Free Metamucil -well Citecel), 2 tsp
Banana, fresh, 1 medium (7" to 7-7/8" long)
Tuna, Canned in Water, 6 oz
bell peppers, sweet green, raw, 2 oz

That seems doable--well right now it seems doable anyway!

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    You're lucky to have 2000 cals!! I'm allowed up to 1500, and consistently get 1800... not good!

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