Sunday, October 24, 2010
I am nearing the end of the actual program, but I sure feel unfinished! Week 10 advises me: (Adapted from the online program):
Changing my behavior is a serious life transition. And when I successfully go through a life
transition I do more than just pass through a time period and make some superficial
choices. Going through a transition means going through a period of psychological work
during which I form a new self, or, more specifically, I find a new way for all the differen
parts of me to fit together. I actually become more closely “knit together” as a better
functioning, more fully developed person. Dare I say, an adult. During a successful life
transition, I would reduce your my conflict and experience a greater harmony with myself
and with the life that I am creating for myself. We know that when I go through the transition
from “fat to fit” I will be integrating a new image of myself and my body, new eating
behaviors, my new ability to be in control of these eating behaviors and a new sense of
momentum. Remember, my goal is to help me make a permanent change, by disabling my
hunger switch. I don’t want to just temporarily lose some weight.
Well---I have been actually eating like crazy the past 3 weeks-but during that time my stresses were even more than usual. I got a letter of insubordination from my boss, I took my disabled husband to a family wedding 3 hours away from home, all of us teachers are facing growing (and growing) demands at school.... So, I am not berating myself. And, it is autumn. I think most people gain a bit of weight when the weather turns colder.
I am hanging in there! I won't give up, even if I have a temporary weight gain. Even "skinny" people do that! I am not bad or lazy or anything negative. I am a human being. I am lovable and capable ! Chris