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Not giving credit where credit is due

Sunday, November 04, 2007

So I am horible at giving myself credit for things. I'm one of those people that actually gets embarrased when people compliment me and would just rather they didn't.

Anyway, I have been doing SP for a little over a week or so and really haven't felt that much better about how I look. I don't own an scale and I used a tape measure to measure my waist the other night and it was more than I thought it would be. So needless to say my self image isn't really brightening.

But today at work I was in the bathroom and when I was doing my belt it easily slid to the last hole (the one I punched in it when I was in college) and I did a side profile in the mirror and could actually pull the waist band of my pants away from my body! ( I felt like one of those weight loss commercials)...so I should have been jumping up and down right!? Nope, not me. WHat the heck! I really need to get over myself.

The first thing I though was, "oh my pants are probably stretched out because I have worn them twice since washing them last"




Friday, October 26, 2007

This is what I hate about trying to lose weight,,,It happens everytime and I hate it and I don't know how to change myself. I become obsessed with losing weight. You may think, oh well that's a good thing, it means your focused.

This is what just happen and this is why I am a little angry with myself right now.

I eat 3 good meals a day with 2-3 snacks. So today for my mid-morning snack I brought in a Smoothie, but I was really feeling like I wanted something to chew on too so I planned out the rest of my days meals/snacks to see if I had calories/fat/carbs etc. to spare.

Well, I am rather close to my calorie limit and I hate even being close, I like to be at least 200 calories shy of the max... so I started debating with myself...okay I can not eat the all natural peanut butter with my 100% whole grain english muffin, or I can cut the banana out... or, I could only use 1/2 the non-fat salad dressing on my salad today, or.... the internal battle goes on.

I know losing weight and making a change takes commitment and dedication to yourself, but I hate the struggle....


Reflections and questions

Thursday, October 25, 2007

When do we as women, or a society as a whole, decide to become body conscious? At what point in our lives do we suddenly go from having fun and not careing about anything to standing in front of the mirror for ten minutes scrutinizing every odd bump or non-symetrical line on our bodies? Is it our parents fault? Is it societies fault? Media? Opposite Sex? Hormones? Genetics?

It frustrates me that there really isn't an answer. Yes, you can blame the media as a whole, but then why didn't our parents make sure to tell us not to listen to the media. My mom has always told me how beautiful and perfect she thinks I am. But why isn't that enough? Why when she said that did I think, "you have to say that, your my mom"

I have a 2 year old. Yes he is a boy, which makes it not AS big of an issue, but still there. How do we make sure that we teach our kids to have a positive image of themselves regardless of ANYTHING or anyone when I myself can not positively grasp my individuality?

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HPHILLIPS1982 10/25/2007 12:33PM

    I know it's not fair to entirely blame the media, but that is one place I am blaming. But I also want to blame my family, because they will call you chunky to your face, which I think is not the most helpful thing ever.

All in all, we have to take a stand, be happy in the skin we are in, and teach our kids how to appreciate theirs. (I sound like a Dove ad)

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