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God is Good to Me

Monday, November 26, 2012

I went to my specialist today. The Dr. said that he, the radiologist, and pathologist was pretty sure I had some type of cancer or lymphoma this summer. They found nothing at all during their multitude of tests when they removed the lymph nodes in my neck. God has spared me. Praise be to God. He said we likely will never know what caused it. No follow up needed unless I notice any lumps or swellings. He said eventually my smile should return.
I should be dancing in the streets. I am very thankful. I need to take care of this body. God has given me a chance.
My stumbling block is that I'm plain and simply exhausted. I am just a bit overwhelmed with the needs of the people I care for in my job. And of course the paperwork. Help is on the way but it's slow. I have no choice but to give it my all in the meantime. I couldn't live with myself if I didn't. I'm also worried about a close family member. Part of me knows to give my worries to God and move on. The other part of me doesn't have the strength. I come home late about every night. I somehow do what I need to around the house to keep it in order. Lot's of other people need this or that from me too. I can hardly do any of it. Most things just take a few minutes but I just can't seem to do it all. I still feel I can and will meet my health goals. I'm depressed that I haven't gotten further. The support and wisdom hear is phenomenal. I know that not eating healthy or exercising takes up just as much time. But, as I said I'm tired my To Do Lists are too long and I don't see anyway to shorten them for awhile. I feel horrible not taking the care of this wonderful body and life God has given me. I'm usually such a positive person. I don't like myself in this mood. I log on most days but feel I'm just hanging on by a thread. emoticon

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EVER-HOPEFUL 12/2/2012 4:49PM

    thatīs great about the no the other stuff you canīt help others if you havenīt got the energy to help them.what you need to do is pioritise ,include you on that pioroty list.what always helps me is the serenity prayer and when i feel torn all ways i tend to go by the serenity prayer.incase you donīt know it it goes as follows.

god grant me the serenity to accept the things i can not change.
the courage to change the things i can
and the wisdom to know the differance.

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EJOY-EVELYN 11/29/2012 12:04AM

    So glad for the good news from your doctor. The stress of your burdens needs to somehow be lightened and I pray God will show you how to release some of those burdens in a healthy way without putting your job in jeopardy. Shalom!

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COLT2008 11/27/2012 9:08AM

    emoticon so glad you don't have cancer, will pray for healing and energy

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MOMFAN 11/27/2012 1:14AM

    Hugs and prayers!! I so get it. I am trying to catch up on my week off before I go back for data entry. Hopefully it will be short and sweet.

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DJ4HEALTH 11/26/2012 11:22PM

    Glad that you don't have cancer. That is one nasty disease.

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AMYC0128 11/26/2012 10:15PM

    Great news that you don't have Lymphoma, I had Hodgkins Lymphoma 16 years ago it is horrible to get through. I hope you get help at work soon. I know what it is like to work lomg hours come home exhausted and still have to do the housework. I am praying for you and your close family member. Maybe try to start with 5 minutes of "me time a day if you can. Hang in there emoticon

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TONYVAND1 11/26/2012 9:55PM

  Praying for you.

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KATIEG999 11/26/2012 9:34PM

    Great news!!! I am happy for you!!! I am praying for you and your exhaustion...that sounds really, really hard and I know you will pull through this. emoticon

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YOBOELI 11/26/2012 9:18PM

    That is great news good luck with everything and remember you need "me" time

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This is My most favorite time of the year......

Thursday, November 01, 2012

emoticon I looked at my cell phone this morning and the flip number of 1 was glowing at me.
I see it as the start of the holiday season.
November is a month to give Thanks. We start by Vetrans Day. emoticon
Thanksgiving is the day we count our blessings with family emoticon
The Day after Thanksgiving is pretty nice too. Some are fortunate enough to be able to use it for rest. Others are out there shopping to get great bargains. emoticon
Then it's time for Holiday Programs emoticon and baking emoticon
As a Christian I will celebrate the birth of our Savior. emoticon .
Others are celebrating emoticon .
Then we reflect as a New Year rolls in. emoticon emoticon emoticon 2013
Where ever you are emoticon or what faith you are are I wish the best as we count our blessings for the past year. I'm thankful for family, friends, and health. I am also very thankful for you my Dear emoticon .
Wishing you a blessed and healthy closure to 2012.

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RGEETING 11/4/2012 3:33PM

    I love this time of year as well! Thanks for sharing!

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SHAMROCKY2K 11/2/2012 12:06AM

    Yes, I love this season more each passing year. In my region, its the best for outdoor activities. Great Blog!

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READYBETTY 11/1/2012 9:35PM

    Thanks so much for your warm wishes to start the holidays! I hope your holidays are filled with blessings!

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MOMFAN 11/1/2012 8:53PM

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DJ4HEALTH 11/1/2012 8:16PM

    Thanks for the reminder and have a great time of rest and Thanksgiving

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LOOKINGUP2012 11/1/2012 9:46AM

    We get to celebrate our right to vote soon too! Add in a holiday bazaar maybe. November is a wonderful month!

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FARRAH511 11/1/2012 8:50AM

    The same to you too!

- Farrah

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JUSTLLAMA 11/1/2012 8:49AM

    A blessed end of the year to you as well!

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CHUM48 11/1/2012 8:41AM

    Isn't it amazing how quickly this year has gone by. Thanks for reminding us of the important events yet to come!

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I walked 2 steps forward today....

Saturday, October 27, 2012

I reevaluated my goals and updated my Spark Page.
I'm drinking my water.
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It's going to be a great day. emoticon

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JENNA54 10/29/2012 12:26AM

    emoticon Sounds like you are back on track and taking control again. It is so easy to let things slide (I should know, I am a world expert) but as long as we keep trying we'll get there. I have been working hard for a couple of weeks with another Sparker, and that has made all the difference. A short sharp burst just to get me motivated again. Christmas is looming and I do not want to end up in JAnuary feeling miserable because yet another year has passed and I have achieved nothing. Tjhis will not happen!!!! HAng in there...

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EFFIEANNIE 10/28/2012 8:24AM

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AMYC0128 10/28/2012 12:06AM

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LIVELYGIRL2 10/27/2012 7:41PM

  Ya, I just started running, and had to start slower.

I was hoping to get info from the beginn emoticon ing running group, but I guess I have to ask outright.

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DEBBY4576 10/27/2012 7:26PM

    That's the way. Reset and evaluate and move forward. Never look back at anything negative. Always positive. You go girl.

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MOMFAN 10/27/2012 5:08PM

    emoticon I updated mine recently. Good on water and getting some projects done today. Currently working on three, rotating through them as I need a break from one.

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EJOY-EVELYN 10/27/2012 1:33PM

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Confessions of a Month or so of Bad Behavior

Friday, October 26, 2012

I have been trying to stop diet soda which led somehow to other sweet cravings and discovering more unhealthy substitutes. My work has been at an all time high. Help is on the way but much slower then I was hoping. So somehow I let myself get out of control and gain 5 lbs. in a short time.
It seems the following experiments didn't work out so well.
Stops by the drive up at Mickey D's.
Regular Soda Pop
Sweet Teas
Few freggies
No Exercise
Daily Sweets
Robbing the Trick-or-Treat Goodies 2X!!!
Drinking very little water.
Not recording my intake.
Potato Chips.
Late night eating.
Too much Face Book.
Staying up very late and getting up early.
Or staying up late and laying in bed thinking about what I should do. Should I get up early or sleep more? Thus accomplishing nothing.
I only had a fraction of those bad habits before. What the heck? I know what to do. I'm asking myself how can I STOP myself from this self destruction? It's mostly exhaustion that is keeping me from planning. My brain just can't seem to handle adding one more right thing to do. I'm committed to my work and the people I help so that won't change. Help is on the way s...l..o....w...l...y.... but it's coming. But my body can't wait that long. Right decisions don't take that much more time but for some reason I'm refusing to let my brain rewire itself.
I'm pushing the PANIC BUTTON now.
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EFFIEANNIE 10/27/2012 7:20AM

    Take the time to track every calorie usually helps me get a grip on things. When I see how much sodium is in Mcd's I get things in perspective!

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EJOY-EVELYN 10/27/2012 1:31AM

    Set some goals in writing you can keep before you -- the trackers are great tools. Stay focused and strong as you succeed in meeting your goals with planned rewards. Soda pop, whether diet or regular is an honorable goal worthy of elimination for so many great reasons. Have another unsweetened, low-calorie beverage at hand (I wish it were as easy as developing a thirst for water, but I know some people just have a hard time getting here). Continue reading SparkArticles and helpful blogs here. It's here where you'll find some added motivation, incentive, and encouragement. Plan some non-caloric celebrations along the way as rewards. You can do this! Time for a reboot!

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MOMFAN 10/26/2012 9:11PM

    This has been me much longer!! Except for the McD's. Don't go there. Walking on my breaks and lunch. I usually get at least 45 minutes of walking. Candy is very available at work. They are expecting 1500 to register to vote in person on Monday.

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WILDFLOWERMA 10/26/2012 9:07PM

    Hang in there! We all go through these periods - you're only human. You're doing the right thing by examining your patterns so you can avoid the pitfalls later on down the road.

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LHLADY517 10/26/2012 8:46PM

    my suggestion: pick one habit you want to change, set up the steps to achieve the change and go for it.

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It's Time to Eat Clean....I'm just learning more about this.

Sunday, September 23, 2012

Overall I am a very happy, active, and motivated person. I'm rarely sick with colds, flu, or other stuff going around. But I get somewhat weird things about every 6-8 years. In a routine physical my Dr. discovered enlarged left neck lymph nodes that did not respond to antibiotics. I did not feel sick and my labs were normal. I'm now recovering from having my inflamed lymph nodes in my neck removed. They were sure it was cancer. What a blessing it was to find it was only reactive lymph nodes. I haven't been sick anytime that I can remember. My nagging question is why did it do that. Is it from too much artificial food like diet soda? I drink 1 or 2 per day.
Several years ago I had Graves disease and a goiter of my thyroid and had to have it destroyed with radioactive iodine.
Years before that I had gallstones and had my gallbladder removed.
In my 30's I developed cystic acne. Despite seeing the best Drs. available (Mayo)no one has linked this all together. (If they did they didn't tell me.) Maybe there is no link. I think there is. I don't want to see how my body attacks itself again. I'm trying to eat clean and supplement with appropriate vitamins and minerals for balance. I have much to learn on the subject. I'm really working on eating my 5 freggies or more, 8 H20 or more, whole grains, no artificial sweeteners. Avoiding artificial flavors, colors etc will be much more difficult but I will make some efforts there too. I plan to increase my fish input and decrease beef (beef is my favorite meat.) I plan to limit my sugar but if I use sweetener it will be sugar. I already use olive oil or real butter in moderation and rarely use any other fats. I know real butter is not so healthy but I use it very sparingly. I read an article about tub margarine being similar to plastic.
My steps are just a start. I have more to learn and more to do I know. Suggestions are welcome.

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EATVEGAN 9/25/2012 5:16PM

    I think you are wise to try to look below the surface. We rely on doctors and they do all they can and most of them truly care. But they know squat about nutrition and have been taught that what we put in our bodies doesn't really matter. Like a mechanic saying the sugar in your gas tank isn't harmful. It certainly isn't going to hurt you to give up foods you see as harmful. Seek the wisdom God will bless you with.
Janet emoticon

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COLIBRI1 9/24/2012 3:02AM

I'm with you - I think linking all these seemingly unrelated symptoms in your life together is a real "A-HA" moment!
Our bodies are communicating with us, in the only way they can - physically... so it's time we listen!

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CLAIREINPARIS 9/24/2012 2:19AM

    If the doctors couldn't find the reason, I think we shouldn't try to... They are the ones that are competent! However, it is true that eating clean and loosing the extra weight is very important. Many illnesses seem to be related to both. So you are doing what you can! Good for you!

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JENNA54 9/24/2012 12:59AM

    I'm with you on increasing the fish - believe it or not for an island nation in the middle of the South Pacific fish is an atrocious price. I think we export a lot of the good stuff! I certainly need to eat more of it. I do eat a lot of chicken, which when I was growing up was for special occasions like Birthdays and Christmas. We used to eat mostly lamb (comes from having more sheep than people) but that has changed now and once again lamb is also very dear, and chicken is now cheap (cheep, cheep...) I too am trying to cut down on sugar. I just don't seem to like it as much these days, but it lurks everywhere. I stay right away from artificial sweeteners and fortunately don't use any sweetening at all in my tea and coffee. I do use olive oil spreads generally, but I would only ever use butter in baking, or on mashed potatoes! Sounds like we are on a very similar track, and good steps to take. I am pretty good about whole grain bread and cereals, but do have a soft spot for fresh white bread, and raspberry jam. Trouble with that is the next thing you know half the loaf has gone! Good luck!

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