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Confessions of a Month or so of Bad Behavior

Friday, October 26, 2012

I have been trying to stop diet soda which led somehow to other sweet cravings and discovering more unhealthy substitutes. My work has been at an all time high. Help is on the way but much slower then I was hoping. So somehow I let myself get out of control and gain 5 lbs. in a short time.
It seems the following experiments didn't work out so well.
Stops by the drive up at Mickey D's.
Regular Soda Pop
Sweet Teas
Few freggies
No Exercise
Daily Sweets
Robbing the Trick-or-Treat Goodies 2X!!!
Drinking very little water.
Not recording my intake.
Potato Chips.
Late night eating.
Too much Face Book.
Staying up very late and getting up early.
Or staying up late and laying in bed thinking about what I should do. Should I get up early or sleep more? Thus accomplishing nothing.
I only had a fraction of those bad habits before. What the heck? I know what to do. I'm asking myself how can I STOP myself from this self destruction? It's mostly exhaustion that is keeping me from planning. My brain just can't seem to handle adding one more right thing to do. I'm committed to my work and the people I help so that won't change. Help is on the way s...l..o....w...l...y.... but it's coming. But my body can't wait that long. Right decisions don't take that much more time but for some reason I'm refusing to let my brain rewire itself.
I'm pushing the PANIC BUTTON now.
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EFFIEANNIE 10/27/2012 7:20AM

    Take the time to track every calorie usually helps me get a grip on things. When I see how much sodium is in Mcd's I get things in perspective!

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EJOY-EVELYN 10/27/2012 1:31AM

    Set some goals in writing you can keep before you -- the trackers are great tools. Stay focused and strong as you succeed in meeting your goals with planned rewards. Soda pop, whether diet or regular is an honorable goal worthy of elimination for so many great reasons. Have another unsweetened, low-calorie beverage at hand (I wish it were as easy as developing a thirst for water, but I know some people just have a hard time getting here). Continue reading SparkArticles and helpful blogs here. It's here where you'll find some added motivation, incentive, and encouragement. Plan some non-caloric celebrations along the way as rewards. You can do this! Time for a reboot!

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MOMFAN 10/26/2012 9:11PM

    This has been me much longer!! Except for the McD's. Don't go there. Walking on my breaks and lunch. I usually get at least 45 minutes of walking. Candy is very available at work. They are expecting 1500 to register to vote in person on Monday.

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WILDFLOWERMA 10/26/2012 9:07PM

    Hang in there! We all go through these periods - you're only human. You're doing the right thing by examining your patterns so you can avoid the pitfalls later on down the road.

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LHLADY517 10/26/2012 8:46PM

    my suggestion: pick one habit you want to change, set up the steps to achieve the change and go for it.

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It's Time to Eat Clean....I'm just learning more about this.

Sunday, September 23, 2012

Overall I am a very happy, active, and motivated person. I'm rarely sick with colds, flu, or other stuff going around. But I get somewhat weird things about every 6-8 years. In a routine physical my Dr. discovered enlarged left neck lymph nodes that did not respond to antibiotics. I did not feel sick and my labs were normal. I'm now recovering from having my inflamed lymph nodes in my neck removed. They were sure it was cancer. What a blessing it was to find it was only reactive lymph nodes. I haven't been sick anytime that I can remember. My nagging question is why did it do that. Is it from too much artificial food like diet soda? I drink 1 or 2 per day.
Several years ago I had Graves disease and a goiter of my thyroid and had to have it destroyed with radioactive iodine.
Years before that I had gallstones and had my gallbladder removed.
In my 30's I developed cystic acne. Despite seeing the best Drs. available (Mayo)no one has linked this all together. (If they did they didn't tell me.) Maybe there is no link. I think there is. I don't want to see how my body attacks itself again. I'm trying to eat clean and supplement with appropriate vitamins and minerals for balance. I have much to learn on the subject. I'm really working on eating my 5 freggies or more, 8 H20 or more, whole grains, no artificial sweeteners. Avoiding artificial flavors, colors etc will be much more difficult but I will make some efforts there too. I plan to increase my fish input and decrease beef (beef is my favorite meat.) I plan to limit my sugar but if I use sweetener it will be sugar. I already use olive oil or real butter in moderation and rarely use any other fats. I know real butter is not so healthy but I use it very sparingly. I read an article about tub margarine being similar to plastic.
My steps are just a start. I have more to learn and more to do I know. Suggestions are welcome.

  
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EATVEGAN 9/25/2012 5:16PM

    I think you are wise to try to look below the surface. We rely on doctors and they do all they can and most of them truly care. But they know squat about nutrition and have been taught that what we put in our bodies doesn't really matter. Like a mechanic saying the sugar in your gas tank isn't harmful. It certainly isn't going to hurt you to give up foods you see as harmful. Seek the wisdom God will bless you with.
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COLIBRI1 9/24/2012 3:02AM

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I'm with you - I think linking all these seemingly unrelated symptoms in your life together is a real "A-HA" moment!
Our bodies are communicating with us, in the only way they can - physically... so it's time we listen!
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CLAIREINPARIS 9/24/2012 2:19AM

    If the doctors couldn't find the reason, I think we shouldn't try to... They are the ones that are competent! However, it is true that eating clean and loosing the extra weight is very important. Many illnesses seem to be related to both. So you are doing what you can! Good for you!

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JENNA54 9/24/2012 12:59AM

    I'm with you on increasing the fish - believe it or not for an island nation in the middle of the South Pacific fish is an atrocious price. I think we export a lot of the good stuff! I certainly need to eat more of it. I do eat a lot of chicken, which when I was growing up was for special occasions like Birthdays and Christmas. We used to eat mostly lamb (comes from having more sheep than people) but that has changed now and once again lamb is also very dear, and chicken is now cheap (cheep, cheep...) I too am trying to cut down on sugar. I just don't seem to like it as much these days, but it lurks everywhere. I stay right away from artificial sweeteners and fortunately don't use any sweetening at all in my tea and coffee. I do use olive oil spreads generally, but I would only ever use butter in baking, or on mashed potatoes! Sounds like we are on a very similar track, and good steps to take. I am pretty good about whole grain bread and cereals, but do have a soft spot for fresh white bread, and raspberry jam. Trouble with that is the next thing you know half the loaf has gone! Good luck!

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This Weeks Road to Health......

Saturday, September 15, 2012

It's two weeks post surgery. It's two weeks after the Dr said prepare for cancer. It's now two weeks past the blessed news that they amazingly did not find cancer or anything else. I'm feeling good. My restrictions of no strenuous activity and don't lift more then 10 lbs have been lifted now. My neck incision is healing nicely. When I got home from our camper yesterday am I changed some furniture around (with hubbies assistance) and did a bit of deep cleaning. I went to the grocery store and bought some healthy groceries. Wt is the same as when I left 2 weeks ago which was a bit of a disappointment. I had walked everyday and tried to stay with in calories. Looking back I assume a few things kept me from moving forward. I took a long walk everyday but I sat the rest of the time. I avoided the sun and sweating where possible to help my neck heal the best it can. So for the most part I was doing what I needed to do to follow Drs orders. There are too many great ice cream shops there. I indulged a few times. But I ate balanced meals most of the time and "think" I stayed with in calories. I missed my internet access. I had a new journal that I recorded notes in as I read the Spark. I basically studied it and answered each question for myself. Reading the book in that manner helps to understand this whole website better. I also have been writing in a Gratitude journal for the past 2 years. I had more time to write. I read in a magazine once to try to write one sentence everyday about your life. I like that idea. I'm going to try to write more often. I miss some valuable lessons when I only write once a week or so.
My current goals are...
*Exercise 30 minutes or more 5 X per week with increased intensity.
* Log food intake everyday.
* 5 freggies minimum everyday
* 8 or more waters everyday
* 10 extra minutes of decluttering or deep cleaning 5X per week

My challenges this week...
*Returning to work and not letting the stress of catching up derail me. I plan to pack a lunch everyday and preplan suppers.
*Eat only one of the yummy chocolaty fiber bars each day. ( I usually don't buy them but thought they would help satisfy my chocolate cravings.)
*Find something low calorie and healthy to replace the diet soda I gave up. Water is not cutting it and I don't want to replace it with something else artificial. Maybe a dash of lemon in my water or something will do it.

I am very committed to a successful journey. My goals will be realized. emoticon

  
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WINEALITTLE 9/16/2012 11:42PM

    Not gaining weight over your 2-week stint of "following doctor's orders" is what I'd call a Little Victory! Reward yourself - a new journaling pen, perhaps? As for water, I usually drop 2 or 3 slices of lemon in mine. Sometimes I'll squeeze in a lime, if I happen to have one. I never liked sodas. Now, wine ... that's a completely different story!
Wishing you a continued speedy recovery.

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BRENDABUNNY 9/15/2012 1:20PM

    First Thank God you didn't have cancer...And I think with all your going thru to just maintain the same weight for 2 weeks is awesome..You are doing a great job!
I am at the same point with trying to find something a little more that quenches my thirst then water..I also gave up diet soda completely and I don't like artificial sweeteners(too many chemicals in them?
The lemon in water I just tried that yesterday and it's not bad so for now that will probably be it for me,if you happen to come across anything please let me know.
Again I'm glad your recovering well let's keep the spark going emoticon emoticon

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One week later post neck resection and being blessed with the information that I don't have cancer.

Thursday, September 06, 2012

I have been walking everyday. Not to the extent that I use to be able to but none the less doing it. I'm still feeling a little like I'm in a fog and lack energy. I have to avoid the sun on my neck incision right now so I do it early in the morning or night. I walked uphill into town 1 mile this morning with my hubby. I bought a light scarf to cover my neck when needed. I'm eating healthy and well with in my range. I started taking vitamins for better healing. I miss daily sparking but won't be able to for another week and a half. This is when I return home. I have been reading the Spark book. I bought a journal that is totally designated for health. I have been taking notes and using daily visualization of how to overcome health obstacles etc. Also trying to visualize a healthy and fit me. That's hard to picture as it's been so long. I think I'm getting the hang of how to be more consistent with healthy actions. This time off to recuperate after such a major health scare has it's blessings. emoticon

  
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TRY2KEEPGOING 9/9/2012 10:46AM

    What a blessing!!! Enjoy life! emoticon

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TRY2KEEPGOING 9/9/2012 10:46AM

    What a blessing!!! Enjoy life! emoticon

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EFFIEANNIE 9/9/2012 9:48AM

    So glad it was not cancer! Hope you have a speedy recovery. emoticon

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JAMER123 9/7/2012 11:51PM

    Fantastic news!! So good to here! emoticon emoticon

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BEEJAY49 9/7/2012 5:10AM

    I'm glad you're on the road! Love you! HUGS!

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CLAIREINPARIS 9/6/2012 10:48PM

    I am very glad you are well and making plans for a healthy future!

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EATVEGAN 9/6/2012 9:30PM

    I'm glad for your wonderful news. Your attitude is inspiring, after losing so much ground, being willing to get started over again. Of course, that's the only way to get there. I'm so very happy for you. emoticon emoticon
Janet

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EWL978 9/6/2012 4:09PM

    Wonderful news!!! There are no more blessed words spoken, are there??

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CHICCHANTAL 9/6/2012 3:49PM

    Fantastic. I'm sure everything feels unreal right now. The only way is forwards!

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EVER-HOPEFUL 9/6/2012 3:43PM

    you are right some times we need a scare like that for us to appreciate what we have more and notice the little things in our life that are sometimes over looked.life is a blessing and sometimes we need something to happen to make us appreciate it all as we should.take it easy and enjoy all that life has to give.take care and keep smiling(or trying too)remember we donīt just smile with our mouth) emoticon

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PICKIE98 9/6/2012 12:02PM

    What wonderful news about your post-op!! Now is the slow process of healing correctly.. good luck!

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God is So Good To Me!

Saturday, September 01, 2012

It's been a little over a month that a major health concern was discovered during a routine physical. I had an enlarged lymph node on the side of my neck that the Dr. discovered. I thought nothing of it and took the prescribed antibiotics. All routine lab work was better then it had a right to be. My Dr ordered a neck CT and referred me to an ENT. The needle biopsy revealed nothing. An open biopsy was scheduled. During my pre-op physical the Dr. asked me if I would consider going to Mayo. A chest CT was normal too. So I was sent to Mayo. Several biopsy's later nothing was discovered. But the Dr. still wanted to do an open biopsy and more extensive surgery if indicated. Because I'm an adult cancer was the number one concern but all was looking great so far. I haven't felt sick. Had a minor cold in May. Before that I don't know when I was sick. During the week I sleep about 6 hrs a night and I feel rested and strong. On my appointment late Tuesday afternoon the resident Dr. said that I need to be prepared for cancer. He basically said that it won't be anything else. It's Mayo they know what they are doing but I honestly considered going home as it didn't make any sense to me. I was able to talk to the consultant physician and I decided it made enough sense and I agreed for surgery. My husband and I basically cried for 24 hrs all the way until surgery. I was the last person for the day. I prayed. I journaled. But mostly my husband and I held each other and cried. The worst cancer was not identified. Things looked abnormal. Cancer was still high on the list. Now I have a very long suture line on my neck. I'm not able to smile my usual smile but It's suppose to come back in a few months. They cut off my wedding and mothers rings so everything would be safe in case of an emergency or swelling, A little more salt to the wounds. Then I waited for 2 days for the results . They were suppose to know in one day. On Friday night long after office hours the Dr called. He said that they can't find any type of cancer. They tested for several things and basically they couldn't find anything at all. They are still are going to test for other fungus and bacteria but they seem to have exhausted most tests. It was just reactive lymph nodes. They did what lymph nodes are suppose to do. To protect you. Why or what caused it we may never know. But to the amazement of my Drs. they confirmed what I felt deep in my heart. I'm not sick. God fave me a rock to stand on and I knew he would give me wings to fly with if I needed them. My work with refugees has further developed my understanding of life. This past week has intensified the need to value life. Taking care of this body God has given me is certainly a major priority for me. I had so many people praying for me. I need to make the most of this new lease on life. God is so good.

  
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WINEALITTLE 9/13/2012 7:17AM

    What a relief! I was surprised by how aggressively Mayo pursued their testing, but I guess that's why they have such a high rating. You and your husband, family and friends can now go on with living, and you & hubbie have an even closer connection than before this issue arose. God IS good.
Wishing you a speedy recovery, Sharon

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EVER-HOPEFUL 9/4/2012 1:56AM

    glad it wasnīt cancerous after all.i know how you and your husband must have felt haveing been through that a few months back when they found a tumour in my brain which luckily was benign.god sure is beneverlent in his mercy.take care and keep smiling in your heart. emoticon

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CLAIREINPARIS 9/4/2012 1:18AM

    I am glad you are OK. Indeed, make the most of this life that is given to you!

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CRYSALLIS1 9/3/2012 4:34PM

    Thank you all for your many kind words.

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EATVEGAN 9/3/2012 2:22AM

    What a wonderful blessing. I, too, am rejoicing with you. What a wonderful God we serve!

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MOMFAN 9/2/2012 10:41PM

    Rejoicing with you!

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AMYC0128 9/2/2012 6:50PM

    I am so happy to hear that you don't have cancer! 15 years ago I had a huge swelling in my neck my outcome was the worst I had cancer, Hodgkins Lympoma. Weird thing it has tured out to be a blessing instead of the curse it once was. I have gained strength that I didn't know I had.

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JENNA54 9/2/2012 6:09PM

    I am so glad to hear that all is well. What a relief for you and your family. And yes God is great. Hope you are soon back to your old self and raring to go.

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CONNIER64 9/2/2012 4:01PM

    God is emoticon

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SPARKLINGHOPE 9/2/2012 11:43AM

    emoticon God is good!!

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EFFIEANNIE 9/2/2012 10:03AM

    What a terrible week for you. My husband was just diagnosed with prostate cancer, so I know what you have been through. So glad you are OK.

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BEEJAY49 9/2/2012 9:47AM

    Yes! He is very good to all of us, it's just a shame that more people don't see that. Praise be to God for you! Love you! HUGS!

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JUST_BREATHE08 9/2/2012 8:30AM

    Yes, He is...All of the time. He is the emoticon!!

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JUDYAMK 9/1/2012 11:22PM

    Praise be to God!!!
Judy

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