Friday, May 04, 2012
So I over ate today by like 600 calories or so. I'm so upset. I hate that it is so easy to overeat and so hard to eat healthy and wisely. I hate that it is so easy to do nothing and so hard to get moving. I don't want to feel overweight anymore, I don't want to cry about the way I look anymore! Why does it only take one day of backsliding to make you feel completely horrid? I mean can you make up for it the next day by working out more and eating less? Does it balance out or is it like starting over each day? AAAhhhh....It's so horrible. I thought I wanted to eat a little more or have freedom of choice, whatever. All I did was eat more than I should have. Now I feel bloated, fat, unhappy with myself for making bad choices when I have been working so hard! Why does it have to be so easy to mess up?
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
I have been doing fairly well.Staying mostly in all the right ranges- having issues getting them all to be good all the time. Anyway, I have already went over my calorie limit for today, I drank 2 cups of juice( which I haven't done since I've been tracking) I had no idea how high in calories it was because I didn't check first.
Paired together some combinations that went way over in fat
and all I wanna do is go back for seconds today!!!!!!!!!!
I made the kids pudding for snack. I want some. There are cookies in the cupboard that were given to us today. I want some. There is still home made chicken soup in the pot leftover from dinner. I WANT SOME!!!
I just came in the living room and started crying
My boyfriend asked me what was wrong and I just cried and said I want to eat... I feel so embarrassed that I want food that bad, but I feel like I do. I know I'd be upset later, especially since I've been working so hard...but today I feel like I JUST WANT MORE!!
I'm trying to drink water and hold out till bedtime without snacking but I know it's there...I wasn't even tempted the first couple days but today....oh my gosh- today is a different story. I've been more sluggish today-I'm tired, probably didn't stay as hydrated as I should've, I did try to get active. I took turns jumping rope with my kids and I walked to pick up my daughter from school today.
I want to be healthy, I want to lose weight...immensely!!! I am just having a hard time silencing the food addicted monster that's whispering sweet nothings in my ear!!!!
Lord, help me tonight!!
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
I am very proud of myself today. I stayed within my calorie range, a little over on fat but all in all pretty good. I went to the Y and worked out today!!!!
So I got in some unplanned cardio, did my scheduled strength training for the day!
Today I told myself that I like my courage. I felt courageous today as I worked out on machines I've never used.
My attitude today is positive. I am about 4 days in to my new updated goals and going strong!!
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