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Wednesday, February 15, 2012

I have been told I need to quit smoking, exercise and lose some weight. Well smoking and exercise were mostly singled out. My hdl and ldl levels are not what they are supposed to be. I was told I have the beginning of copd - granted I took the test with a sinus infection but I have felt short of breath so I know it is time. I quit as of monday morning 2/13/12. I have since eaten my way through stuff I normally would not want, my sinuses are really running now, acid reflux has come back and I truly am a bad tempered individual at times. An example of my appetite would be the big bag of boy scout caramel corn that has been sitting in my pantry since Thanksgiving. Since monday it no longer exists. A good point is I am finally drinking more water. They say water flushes nicotine out of the system. Hopefully it is picking up some fat molecules on the way. I have since in my twisted mind since quitting decided that if I can live through this, I should be able to exercise and the will power should be there to diet. I had no planned to blog about this but sorry guys I needed to vent.

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TRESCHEEKS1 2/16/2012 9:15AM

  Congratulations on your decision to quit! It's worth it...and I say that after having lit up my last one on September 8, followed by five months of metabolic hell for which nothing had prepared me!

I had a great summer after hitting my goal weight. Then, in mid-August, I had a mouth cancer scare, and knew I had to end my 40+-year-old smoking habit (I'm 61). Luckily, the cancer scare didn't materialize, but it was the scare I needed to quit, and I did, cold turkey.

I don't know whether I was better off not knowing what quitting would really be like...maybe. I am certain that if the "quit smoking" support system out there ever told smokers what it would really be like in detail, no one with existing or past weight issues would do it! Let me hasten to repeat that it is worth quitting...I just think there should be a little more info and a lot more targeted support out there around the impact of quitting on those of us who fight a lifelong battle with weight.

It's easy to find lots of information on the inevitability of gaining weight, and even on why that happens. You see a lot about the obvious "oral substitute" thing, as well as nicotine's very effective function as an appetite suppressant and metabolic stimulant. I do think there's also a lot of very flip advice out there about how exercise can offset what you'll gain, posted by people who really don't know how much exercise it takes to really burn off a pound. So, sure, exercise doesn't hurt and may help you get through withdrawal, but it's not going to prevent the weight gain.

But I certainly had no idea how dramatically smoking figured in my metabolism and body behavior, and how completely they would change when I pulled cigarettes out of the equation!

Here's the real kicker for me that I'm still struggling with:

None of the strategies for losing weight that used to work for me work's as though in order to successfully quit smoking, I had to trade in my old metabolic machine for a brand new one with no owner's manual! Believe me, spending day after day on trial and error to figure out how your body's going to react to what you do with it is a disaster for someone who thought she knew her body and spent a conscientious amount of time adhering to strategies to stay healthy that had always worked before. It's been a couple of months of "lose-a-day-and-gain-a-pound", just trying to figure out what will work for me now. And I'm sure the stress of that is only compounding the problem.

Without getting too graphic, suffice to say that it wasn't just about putting on all that weight I'd lost, and more. I'm sure that was the result of the oral gratification thing. However, all of that happened on the back of about two months of miserable sleep, and having to make milk of magnesia my new best friend to get through a day in relative comfort. Most of that has subsided now, but the 20 additional pounds were left behind, and are going nowhere.

I was a tried and true low-carber, and could count on it always working for me. No more. It's like I have to somehow manage a body I never met before, with no idea of how it will react to anything I try to do with it. I've switched from carbs to calorie-counting, added daily walking to my weekly exercise routine, and dabbled in "strategies" (like intermittent fasts, for example) that I used to pay no attention to, just to see if maybe they will work!

Since realizing I can't count on anything I ever knew about my body BQ (Before Quiting), I've also found all the blogs and forums I'm probably lucky I didn't see before I quit -- where post after post reports the same thing that's happening to me, and at least one in five say they've gone back to smoking just to drop the weight that nothing else could get off! I'm not going to do that, because getting past the nicotine addiction was so traumatic that I never want to have to do it again! So, those people who are using the patch, electronic cigarettes, and other nicotine delivery devices just to get the metabolic boost back, aren't tempting me to join them. But they are reinforcing just how real this effect of giving up smoking is, and how ill-prepared most people who smoke are for dealing with it once they've quit.

Finally, after two months of real agony (physical and mental and self-inflicted, pining for the past when I knew how to take weight off!), I've decided to accept the fact that I don't know this body of mine anymore, and I'm working to get to know it all over again. I've stopped trying to impose a weight loss strategy of any kind on it. I'm reading the "Mindful Eating" literature, eating what it takes to stop hunger and no more (whether it's fun or not), and paying attention to nutrition and to how many calories it takes for me to not be hungry. I've also had to start working on learning all over again the connection between what I put in my mouth and what it does to my body, because nothing I thought I knew about that is true any longer. I have to learn it as if for the first time.

The one thing I've learned that I think I can count on is how much more fiber I need than I did while I was smoking. My breakfast now starts with a multivitamin (mostly to get the B vitamins), 8oz of tomato juice with 2 T. of ground flaxseed stirred in, and 8 oz of PlumSmart Light...and I have dramatically boosted the fiber content of my food, and am JUST starting to get back something resembling a digestion that doesn't pain me daily. Imagine...all of that to compensate for what the cigarettes used to do for my digestion!

But that's the foundation I'll be building on, working hard and hoping to find a way to manage my weight in a brand new world.

Thanks for the opportunity to get all this off my chest by replying to your post! I wish you all the luck in the world with the quit, and you ARE doing the right thing to focus on that alone til you've got it licked. Just do be prepared for how much "new construction" you may have to do when you're able to turn your attention back to food again.

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French Toast

Tuesday, March 08, 2011

emoticonI have decided to blog right now because I feel I am dilusional -- Here I am watching the biggest loser and I am starving. I ate supper so it is not that I am depriving myself. I keep smelling french toast - now understand it is just me = no one is cooking french toast in this house. But I can smell it, see it in my mind, and if I had the ingrediants in this house I don't know if I would be strong enough not to make it. It is amazing how our mind plays tricks on us. I wish there was a magic switch that I could flip that would make this easier but there is not. Oh well -- I guess I will walk around == maybe that will help.

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LOLEMA 3/8/2011 9:05PM

  You can do it, push through it, if you make a wrong choice, make a right choice the next time and don't beat yourself up about it, move onward and upward.

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JINGLESMAMA 3/8/2011 9:03PM

    Stay strong! You can get through it! emoticon

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Here I go again

Monday, October 19, 2009

emoticon Well I am going to give this another shot. We started a weight loss group at work = pay 5.00 a week and the biggest percentage loser on Jan 1st gets the pot. Unfortunately that is basically all the group does. So I am back to spark people. Will enter my food each day. Will get up and exercise during commercials tonight. I am eating an apple right now because the baby ruth in the kitchen drawer has been yelling for my attention the last half hour. Made myself some herbal tea and plan to pack my lunch tonight before I go to bed. If I pack it tonight and remember to take it tomorrow I will be proud of myself.

They say it takes 30 days to ingrain a new habit. Well today is day one.

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HARTKITTY 2/21/2011 10:52AM

You just keep going one day at a time.

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today is a bad day

Sunday, March 22, 2009

today correction this weekend is rough. I can't seem to make myself do anything. i know i am having a big pity party but some reason I just can't shake it.

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LAINYE 3/22/2009 6:17PM

    Cretaceous, This happens to all of us from time to time. I know that weekends can be especially hard for some reason. Anyway, just hang in there and this will pass.
Eventually! In the mean time, try to just take it one day at a time, and it will pass. emoticon

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Sunday, March 08, 2009

today I finally watched a show I had taped a long time ago. The speaker was Jack Canfield. He said something that really struck home. He said that a lot of times in our life we just start to accept things the way we are. We basically forget our dreams and just settle for what is dealt us. That in order to change this we need to visualize our ourselves. To affirm every day our dream. To say my body looks great in size 10 instead of I will look good in size 10 once I loss the weight. To visualize ourselves every day as a ten so to speak. We reward ourselves now and it will come to us. So I will start search tomorrow for a picture of a body that is realistic and represents how I want to look. Then I am going to picture myself as this size. He says it takes 30 days to make an action work. So guys for the next 30 days I will visualize this. I may even blog it to re-enforce this feeling.
It will be difficult for I am but will soon be I was one of those who settle for everything.


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