Thursday, May 29, 2014
I am so excited because my baby is here. I had him on May 7th at 37 weeks along. It seems surreal because for a long time I thought that I might not be able to conceive. I struggled for about 3.5 years to conceive, and when it became a reality, I was just so thankful. Before my pregnancy I was at about 310 from my high of 345. During my pregnancy I got to at least 367. It was a little difficult to see those numbers rising on the scale. I was a little nervous that they wouldn't decrease at all after birth. My baby is 3 weeks old, and I am down 30 pounds without exercising or anything. I guess I have lost the baby weight plus the fluid that was in my body. I am nursing my baby, so the doctor told me that I would still have to have some weight for the milk. I am trying not to panic because at least I am down. I do plan to start working out soon. I know I shouldn't stress myself out because I have a baby to take care of, and I have really been loving on him. People say that once you have a baby, it's like your life really begins and everything centers around your child and whether or not an event happened before or after your child was born. I definitely believe that. I won't say that everything has been smooth sailing because those first few nights he would not sleep. When he was in the womb, he was normally up during the night anyway, so he's still trying to get it together. He's had to give so much blood already checking his bilirubin levels. He was jaundiced and had to be readmitted to the hospital, but everything is ok now. I thank God for that because it was a little unnerving to see my newborn hooked up to an IV and not be able to move about freely. I literally want to hold him all day and just look at him. I will be returning to work soon, and I really don't want to. He'll have to be in daycare, and while it will be close to me, I can't help but think of everything I will be missing out on while he's there. I am going to end this because I just wanted to come here and mention my starting point before baby, while pregnant, and 3 weeks post baby, and the fact that baby is here.
Until next time,
Monday, November 25, 2013
It finally happened. I am pregnant!!! I am a little over 3 months, and I am very excited. I have wanted to yell it to the whole world since I found out, but I was waiting until after my first trimester. I believe many things played a role in the success of treatment this time, and I think one of the most important things was a new doctor who was willing to work with me.
There are so many women out there with PCOS who have horror stories about their doctors. While I don't have horror stories, I have come in contact with doctors who have not cared about me as a human being. All they saw was a number on the scale. This new doctor didn't mention anything about my weight. He knew what my husband and I wanted and he said that we would get it. My family and I are very excited during this time, and I cannot wait to hold my baby. I know I have many more months left, but that's beside the point. To any other PCOS sufferers out there, there is hope of conceiving.
Until next time,
Tuesday, June 18, 2013
I have been overweight since I was a child. I can remember on the first day of fourth grade telling a friend that I needed to go on a diet. Looking back on it, it seemed like I was so old at the time, but was merely a young child. As I got older, my weight problems have only increased. Sure there were a few times where I was actually successful at weight loss, but the success was short lived.
I love watching weight loss shows because I enjoy hearing peopleís stories and seeing their transformations at the end of their journey. About two years ago, a show called ďHeavyĒ came on, so I just had to watch it. I enjoyed the show, and being from South Carolina, I was surprised to hear that the place on the show was located there. I did my research and figured I would not be able to go there because it was not in my budget. My husband said that he could send me to Hilton Head Health or to one of the Biggest Loser locations. I was interested, but I did not want to go because I felt it would be a waste of money since I was not mentally ready. In those two years, I have auditioned for the biggest loser, done weight loss plans, and imagined myself losing weight, all without success.
This year in January, I began working out in my home gym. I overdid it and injured myself. I was in and out of my various doctorsí offices and just still did not feel well. I got to the point where I began to feel helpless and hopeless, and I felt like I really needed a new start. I looked at H3 again and told my husband that I wanted to go because I needed somewhere that I only had to focus on myself. H3 seemed like the most attractive place, and besides, I had pictured myself there so many times. My husband and I put a plan in motion to get me to H3. When I spoke with Michele Musulin and she was so friendly and encouraging, it made me feel like I would be right at home at H3.
When it was time to go, I was excited, but nervous because three weeks seemed like a long time to be away from home. Since Michele had already sent me the schedule for the week, I had gone over it. I knew I wanted to try kayaking and I wanted to sign up for the hands-on cooking demonstrations.
During my first week, I tried the Shelter Cove kayaking, and I absolutely loved it!!! It was much easier than I thought it would be and so much fun. It was so much fun that my cell phone decided to stay permanently on the adventure. Kayaking was something I would have never felt comfortable attempting before my journey at H3. Now I know itís something I would try away from H3. While there I also encouraged other guests to sign up for it.
While at H3 I attended most of the available lectures as well as the hands-on cooking demonstrations. I tried most of the workout classes. There was such a wide variety of workouts; there is something for everyone. Even when the classes seemed too difficult, I just wanted to push myself. At the end of each class, I was always glad that I had pushed forward to completion.
I am a person who loves good tasting food, so that was one of the more enjoyable experiences at H3. They seemed to take pride in the flavor and variety of food offered. Another thing I enjoyed was meeting all the great new people. My favorite workout was probably Wii Dance because you get a workout that is just a lot of fun. I also enjoyed the sunrise beach walks, water fitness classes, drums alive (really awesome class), kayaking, salsa dancing (I was pretty good.), cardio boxing (Thanks to Michael for encouraging me to try it.), and resistance band training.
Some of the most valuable things for me were the hands-on cooking demonstrations. I attended the Grilling, Southern Comfort, and Desserts demos. I love to cook and bake. I especially love baking for others. It would be nice to have some ideas that Iíve tried that arenít a caloric nightmare. The classes that I took gave me some fresh new and healthy ideas to take home with me. I also gained valuable information from the cooking demos, especially the pizza class with Chef Karla. She provided lots of ideas.
When I attended the Putting It All Together class at H3 on the Friday before my departure, I left the class in tears, happy tears of course. I had been struggling with my triglycerides for a few years partly due to my insulin resistance. This was one of the numbers that I was warned would probably increase before it decreased. I was shocked to see that mine dropped a little over 50%; I was down 14 pounds and a little over 7 inches, and muscles that I had not seen in years were making an appearance. I felt so blessed in that moment just thinking about what a wonderful experience I had at H3.
When I arrived at H3, I met many great people, some with extended stays and others with short-term stays. There were so many return visitors who talked about how wonderful their previous H3 experiences had been. I originally wished that I would never have to return to H3, but not long into my stay, I realized that it would actually be a great place to return for a boost from time to time. On the day of my departure, as I sat in my car in the parking lot of the main building preparing to go home, I thought about how my stay at H3 seemed like a once in a lifetime experience because unlike some people, I donít know if Iíll get to return. I felt bad for the people who will never get to experience H3 as I did, but I also felt blessed for the opportunity. I thought about all the changes, and I felt so grateful to all of the people that I met. All the staff was so welcoming and just seemed to care about everyoneís well-being.
Since Iíve been home Iíve made the pesto pizza, stuffed turkey burgers, super soft chocolate cake with oreo cream filling, loaded baked potato salad, and my own version of the Andouille sausage. I have been working out and tracking my food. I keep thinking about the lectures I attended at H3 such as Mindful Eating, Nutrition for Health, and Goal Setting just to name a few and incorporating some of the things I learned in them. Iím not saying that life is perfect since I got back home. I am still working 9 hour days during the week, but now I find time to work out. I try to make most of my meals healthy. I think I will always hear the ďMonkey ChatterĒ that Lisette Cisfaldi speaks of, but I pray that with the changes I am making, the ďMonkey ChatterĒ will quiet down.
They asked me to write a testimonial which I submitted about a month ago, but it hasn't been posted yet. People wanted to know about my experience, so I am posting what I submitted to them.
They finally posted my story. It's the same as what I posted here, but here's the link anyway. It has a picture with it.
Thursday, January 03, 2013
Sometimes I lose sight of the reasons why I am even on this journey. When I try hard and it seems like I am just going nowhere, I get into a funk. Sometimes when I am elbow deep into a bag of chips the reasons why I am trying to succeed on this journey hit me...I was so close to being diabetic the last time I went to the doctor. I don't want to have diabetes. I want to be able to move easily without all the pain and pressure of trying to get up, etc. I don't want to live in fear of whether or not I exceed the weight limit for something or if I will be able to fit somewhere because of my size. I would love to be healthy and not be on medication. I really would like to be able to conceive, which is something I have really struggled with and have a lot of guilt with. At times when I feel discouraged and wonder why in the world do I even try, I need to sit down and look at the reasons why so that I can continue to move forward.
Monday, November 05, 2012
I havenít blogged in a few weeks. I am feeling so much better, but I still have the cough lingering. Itís not bad most of the time, but sometimes it gets pretty bad. Right now I canít take any medicine with antihistamines because I am going in for allergy testing in a couple of days. Thank God I am doing a lot better or Iíd be miserable. I hope after the testing they can tell me something that will be helpful.
I have been able to start back working out. I have worked out more days that I have not since I started back. I have been using my Exerbeat for my Wii. I have finally been able to get back on my Wii balance board because I no longer exceed the weight limit. I have exceeded the weight limit for so long that Iíve lost track of how long itís been. I am really trying to stick with this.
Since I have PCOS, I have to go and get my insulin levels, etc checked on a regular basis. The last time I got my levels checked, I was 0.1 away from being diabetic. That really scared me because I really do not want to have diabetes. Youíd think that Iíd just make the better choices all along because I knew that was a possibility. Just knowing it was a possibility still didnít kick my butt into gear. The doctor prescribed Victoza which is an injection that would supposedly replenish a hormone oneís stomach is supposed to make naturally but doesnít when you have PCOS. It would also make it easier to lose weight with PCOS. After exactly one week of taking it, I couldnít take it. It had me feeling like I was going out of my mind. I stopped it, and my doctor agreed. I would hate to tell people, ďHey, Iím skinny now, but Iíve lost my mind!Ē Iíll rather struggle along with it. Of course itís supposed to be harder to lose weight with PCOS, but Iíd rather be in my right mind, whatever that is.
I have been losing weight the past few weeks, but I guess Iíve been afraid to update my tracker because in the past when Iíve updated it, Iíve had to change it back. I guess Iíve been trying to figure out if this weight loss is going to stick. I donít even know how much weight I want to lose and when I want to lose it by. I just know that I have a lot to lose, and I want to lose it.
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