Sunday, March 06, 2011
Sounds like a TV infomercial, right?
For nearly a year now, I've been restricting my calories to around 1200-1300 per day in an effort to maintain my current weight. Originally it was to loose weight, but I found that I just couldn't drop those few more kilos so instead I was sitting there to stay at the weight that I'm at now.
Of course I knew that eating such a low amount of calories given the amount of exercise I do was not enough. But it didn't strike me as a problem until just recently. Sounds silly, but I had been on a low cal diet for so long, I kind of forgot that I should be eating more than that!
Fast forward to about 3 days ago, and I suddenly made the realisation that I should be eating around 2100 calories a day! I've been stuck floating around 68.8kg for the last 3-4 months, and it's been annoying me but I'd come to the conclusion that I could be happy where I was. Not as low as I'd like to be (I'd be happy between 65 and 67kg) but 100% better than the 110kg I used to be.
So, with my entry to basic training only a week away, I decided I better up my calories as I'll be working hard there and need the mass to cope with it.
For the last couple of days I've eaten. And eaten. And eaten. I've added biscuits that are fairly high cal as they're made with lots of butter. Extra sandwiches. Extra fruit. All manner of 'extras'. I hadn't stepped on the scales for the couple of days whilst I was upping my cals. I still haven't gotten to where I should be either, I'm only eating I think 1400 - 1600 cals tops, even though I'm TRYING to eat more *chuckle*.
Anyway, on the scales I get this morning and to my complete suprise, instead of gaining weight I've LOST 700g. In 3 days. I haven't lost so much that quickly since I started my weightloss journey nearly 2 years ago. I know that not eating enough hinders weight loss. I KNOW that. It's just that after so long keeping my calories to that level it hadn't yet occured to me that I'd need to increase them. Add that to the fact that I'd really like to loose a bit more and thinking that my calories would need to be lower to achieve that... Well, lets just say that I had my brain switched off for quite a while.
I'll be interested to see where the weightloss trend finishes. I don't want to go under 65kg, but it'd sure be nice to see that 5 there. I've been 66kg before, but not 65kg. Tally ho ^.^
Thursday, March 03, 2011
One of my biggest problems with the city that I live in is that the weather here is MESSED UP!
Anyone that's had experience with Melbourne will tell you that we often have four seasons in one day, and it's true. I've lost count of how many times the sun has come out and then 5 minutes later it's raining here.
I have a big problem with cold weather since I lost weight, and that is simply that I feel it so much more. I get chilblains on my toes at the drop of a hat. It took nearly 3 months of semi-warm weather for my toes to go back to their normal colour after being purple/black all winter. I work so hard at trying to keep myself warm, and my husband constantly complains when I turn the heater on saying that it's not cold.
I'M SO SICK OF HEARING THAT!!! If it wasn't cold, I wouldn't be putting the heater on! He always tells me to put a jumper on, but he doesn't seem to understand that I could put three jumpers on and still be cold. I feel like my bones themselves are shivering sometimes *chuckle*.
The beef I have with it today is simply that I feel like I'm always hungry when it's cold. I eat and eat and eat and then eat some more. And it's just picking at things. Left over cheese from my son's lunch. A biscuit or two. LOTS of coffee. Not only do I not want to gain weight, but I can't afford to. I'm only just in the healthy weight range by the BMI scale and I don't want to tip myself out of it. I did notice yesterday that after I ate quite a bit I felt much more energetic all day and not woozey, but I'm too scared to step on the scales in case I've gained because of my excess eating.
When I say excess, I've been trying to stick to 1200 -1500 cals lately because I don't want to gain weight. Every time I try to add some cals I seem to gain a kilo out of nowhere and it's really discouraging. Apparently for the exercise that I do I should be eating at least 2100 calories a day, but that seems like a huge amount to me!
I guess it has something to do with the fact that I've been eating between 1200 and 1500 cals for absolutely ages now, nearly 2 years. And if I'm perfectly honest, it's pretty rare that I get up to the 1500 end of things. The last time I tried to up my calorie range I gained quite a bit very quickly, and I guess it's because I need to up my range very slowly instead of just jumping up straight away.
It scares me to think that I might gain weight again, I've worked so hard to get to where I am that the concept of gaining even 1-2kg worries me. I desperately want to stay in the 60s, if I were to go up to even 70kg I'd feel bad and want to start restricting my calories again.
Well, I'm just going to have to fight myself on it. At the end of the day it's unhealthy for my body to always have a reduced calorie intake. I'll get there. It's just going to be tough to convince myself that it's ok to eat. I may just wait until I get to basic training to start eating more, because at least there I won't be able to weigh myself all the time haha.
Sunday, February 27, 2011
At the moment I feel like I'm not really achieving what I want with my weight. I was really happy with my weight at about 67kg. I felt great. I felt like my bones stuck out at just the right places (don't get me wrong, I didn't look anorexic! But I DID have hip bones for once *chuckle*) and that I didn't have to suck my tummy in to feel like I looked good.
I told myself that I'm happy to float around 67-68kg though because it seemed really hard to stay between 66.1 and 66.9kg. It actually took work, and I didn't want maintenance to be work as such. More something that just seemed to happen.
At the moment I'm 68.8kg, which means I'm 4lbs off where I really want to be. 4lbs is nothing right? Easy to loose? Heh. Yeah right. My focus is off something shocking at the moment and it's all because I have my enlistment date coming up very soon. I keep telling myself that I need to eat well because I'm training a lot but it's all too easy to fall into the binge and diet cycle. I'll go nuts on the snacks that we have in the house for our little guy and whilst they're not terrible (low calorie biscuits and the like) I'll eat 6 or 8 in a day with the justification that once they're gone, I can't eat them anymore.
For several months after going off my dieting stage and onto maintaining I was fine. I found it easy to say no to things that I didn't need like chocolate biscuits and the like. But recently I've found myself buying chocolate biscuits for a treat with my coffee. Having a take away meal for dinner because I'm in a rush. Eating carby foods at dinner.
Things that in the past I've avoided because it was easier to avoid them than have just one and then crave more. I don't want to deprive myself, but I don't want to risk having those sorts of food in the house either.
I have two more weeks to drop 4lbs, not because I have to but because I want to. I don't want the medical officer doing what they did last time and saying "You're in the healthy weight range, but only JUST". I want to be comfortably in it again. I have some of the diet shakes for the program that I used to use left, I may just use those for a few days and see how I go. If I don't loose anything then I'll just go back to normal foods and hope for the best haha.
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
There is now officially nothing else for me to wait on. I've been offered the job, passed my fitness test, and passed every other test they wanted me to sit. I'm in!
In 4 weeks I go to the training unit to start my education on how to be an aircraftwoman in the Australian Air Force. BOOOOOOOYAH!
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