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A failure that classes as a win?

Saturday, June 19, 2010

I did c25k again today week 4. I'm going to have to repeat the week, there's no doubt about it. HOWEVER... I'm proud of myself. I was having trouble with week 4, failing dismally for the last two attempts and today I had somewhat of a win.

I decided that I'd do 5 minutes of running and then 3 minutes instead of 3 minutes and then 5. It worked! I didn't have to stop running in the 5 minutes (even though I was completely wrecked) and I'm so proud of myself for getting all the way through the first half without stopping. Unfortunately I DID have to stop after the first 3 minute stretch (halfway) because I had to go to the bathroom... How unfair is that? I was doing so well and then my body says "Hey, guess what... You gotta go NOW" lmao. Well, sorry if that was TMI for anyone but I suspect fellow runners will have a chuckle because they've experienced the same thing haha.

Anyway, I went and did what I had to do and then jumped straight back on the treadmill. I got through the next 3 minute run and then was at the point of exhaustion. I stopped for about 30 seconds and then ran for another 2 minutes because I just couldn't make it through the last 5. It sounds rather weak when I read it like that but the simple fact of the matter is that it's TWICE what I managed the last time so I'm rather chuffed. I feel like by the end of next week I'll be fit enough to go to week 5 and I'm rather relieved by that.

I'm feeling much fitter than I was, on Friday when I couldn't improve on the day before that I was almost in tears with anger and frustration. I suspect I'll be in tears of happiness when I DO manage to finish a full W4 day. I'm beginning to feel that I can achieve my goal. It's going to be tough and I may need to repeat weeks over and over but I WILL do it!


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STRAWBERRYGIRL9 6/19/2010 10:12PM

  Good job. I really like it when I can go further than I ever have before. That's great!

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LOOSEIT57 6/19/2010 10:07PM

    Keep it going as time goes by you will get stronger and do longer and longer. GREAT WORK. emoticon

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Failed again.

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Yesterday I failed W4D1 of c25k... AGAIN. I'm so angry and disappointed in myself. I was almost crying with anger and had my hubby not been in the room I probably would have!
I know it happens to everyone at some point, and I knew that it would happen to me this time because I'm running so much faster than I used to. But it really rips me up when I don't achieve my goal because I feel like I'm failing myself.

If I slow down, I won't achieve the time that I need to for the Air Force. I might be able to keep going but I won't finish in the time that I need to and that means there's just no point doing it at all. So I have to keep struggling through and hope that by the end of next week I manage to break through this barrier I have and finish Week 4. I KNOW I can do it, I've done it before. I just don't remember having to repeat Week 4 at any stage. Maybe I'll have a look through my past blogs and see if I can find the last lot of that week and see if I had the same problem.

I'm doing better with my pushups but not so great with my situps. Seems most of my upper body builds strength rather easily but my core is stubborn and doesn't want to do it *chuckle*.

I'll be glad when it gets to sunday and I can have an entire day off from exercising. I want to enjoy it, I really do. But until I can get past this block and keep running for the time that I need to I'm going to dread each day. I'll dread it, but I'll still do it!
The only benefit from yesterday's run is that I managed to take another minute off my run time which means I'm only a minute away from the entry fitness that I need to be. Once I'm there, I only need to take off another minute and a half to be at the fitness required to pass basic training.

Only 2 & 1/2 minutes to take off... *sigh*. Lol.



Monday, June 14, 2010

I attempted W4D1 of c25k today and failed. I had to rest for about 15 seconds in the first 5 minute run which was ok, but I only managed half of the last 3 minute run and I couldn't do the last 5 minute run at ALL. My lungs were exploding and I was gasping for breath after the first minute of the second 5 minute section. I'm extremely disappointed in myself.

I know I'll do better on Thursday and it's all about building up to it, but I feel like such a failure for not managing it. Nearly half an hour later my lungs are still burning. I'm pleased with the fact that I took nearly 2 minutes off my run time for a 2.4km run though. So even though I failed at c25k for today (which I will improve on my next run I'm sure) I'm a lot closer to my own personal fitness goal so I can't be TOO cranky with myself. Who knows, I might take another 30 seconds off it on Thursday and only be 2 and a half minutes off where I need to be.

I'll get there eventually :)

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JESSSPARK 6/14/2010 11:50PM

    Nothing wrong with repeating weeks- you are doing it! :)

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BROOKLYNROSE 6/14/2010 10:03PM

    You will get there eventually! It takes time and not giving up. Keep on working on it and soon you will be posting a blog about your victory! emoticon

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DHSPARK 6/14/2010 10:03PM

Keep'll get easier.
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Kinda freaked out/bummed out.

Monday, June 14, 2010

Tonights blog is about two things.

First off, I'm freaked out. Tomorrow I'm going to do W4D1 of c25k... I'm scared! It's such a big jump in running time, with a couple of 5 minute runs. I'm worried that I won't be able to do it, but at the same time I'm trying not to think that way because that's going to set me up to give up instead of fighting through it.

And I'm bummed because here in good old Aussie land at the moment we're in the depths of winter with no chance of reprive any time in the next 2 months. Melbourne is always cold, we had a very chilly autumn this year and spring will be just as bad so we don't get to enjoy nice weather for long. It's hard to feel positive and motivated when it's so cold and miserable and now that I'm not ashamed of how I look anymore I'm desperate for summer to come back so that I can wear clothes that I actually feel good in instead of rugging up like an eskimo.

Ahhhh whinge whinge, moan moan. Lol.

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LOOSEIT57 6/14/2010 9:39PM

    I do hope you feel better it is good to let it out. We are in the winter months as well was 2 degrees here this morning in SA but went to the pool and swam water was lovely and warm

Hope you do not stress to much about your run and think positive you can do it.

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JAIMEYNEO 6/14/2010 10:35AM

    Look how far you've come... EVERYONE deserves a pity party now and then! You'll get back in the right head. Coming here and blogging was a positive first step to getting there... don't give up!


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Saturday, June 12, 2010

Well, after my last blog I was feeling pretty down about failing W3D2 of c25k. I KNEW I could do it because I'd already done one day of it beforehand, so not doing it made me feel like a complete failure.

Well, the very next day I jumped on the tready and got through it, and I've done it again today. It threw my timing out a bit so I'm not having a full day off exercising this week as Sunday is normally my rest day. But that's fine, I'd rather be able to say that I'm on track and I achieved what I set out to do.

I am, however, TERRIFIED of W4D1. There's a couple of 5 minute runs in it and I'm really struggling just to get through 3 minutes. When I think about it I'm disappointed because the first time I did c25k I got to the 20 minute run stretches and I couldn't imagine being so out of breath as to nearly be sick after a couple of three minute runs. Three minutes seemed like a blissfully short time to run actually lol. I wasn't even starting to break a sweat until 6 minutes. So to be afraid of a 5 minute period of running is a real step backwards for me.
I know that I had to go through this last time, but I didn't have any fitness to compare it to the first time. I hadn't been that fit for a very long time so I couldn't remember being able to run for 5-10 minutes before I was really stuffed (and continuing on for another 10 minutes!). This time I DO have a memory of being able to do that and it's a bit disappointing. I have to keep reminding myself that I'm running at 3kph faster than last time, and I'm also running on incline 1 which I didn't do last time.

BUT I MADE IT THROUGH WEEK 3!!! Lol. It takes me 18:54 to get through 2.4km now. Week 4 should get me doing it a bit faster than that. I'm hoping to take at least a whole minute off in week 3, even a little more. Then week 5 if I'm lucky will have me doing it in 15-16 minutes... And finally week 6 should be 14 minutes. My final goal. I'm at the half way mark now. As soon as I've done my 14 mins for 2.4kms I'll do a street run and make sure I can do it out in the real world as well as on the treadmill.


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LOOSEIT57 6/13/2010 12:29AM

    emoticon Keep up the great work.

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