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This thing called eating...

Wednesday, June 26, 2013

So here is the deal...

Eating. We have to do it. I mean, you can go without food for a pretty long time, but eventually you have to do it or you die.

You shouldn't eat when you are not hungry... I struggle with this and here is why --

I had gastric bypass surgery in 2012. I don't feel hunger like a normal person. If I wait until I am hungry to eat, and stopped when I was full, I would only consume maybe 600 calories a day at most. So, I end up eating when I am not hungry in order to get proper nutrition.

I struggle with this sometimes. I don't want to say I feel guilty (not an emotion in my spectrum) but I feel like I am breaking Healthy Lifestyle Rule #21 if I eat when I am not hungry.

We hear it over and over and over from the experts... don't eat unless you are hungry. Don't put "fuel" in an already "full" gas tank... But I can go too many miles before I am on E (does that make sense??)

Like right now... I just had Greek Yogurt and Kind Granola (2 tablespoons) for a snack -- I wasn't hungry, but it was in my "plan" for the day. Now, had I not eaten that snack, I would have been under on my protein and even further under on my calories.

Maybe I am just thinking too much and need to go to bed?

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CATHYBERNA 6/27/2013 12:00PM

    I know exactly what you mean, I never feel hungry and you sometimes have to make yourself eat. I still have all the old cravings for junk but once I look at it, it makes me sick looking at it. Had my surgery almost a year ago

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TEREMC 6/27/2013 11:00AM

  I agree with Lvafrica, now you eat cause it is fuel not because you have wires crossed telling you must eat. I think you are doing great.

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LOVINGAFRICA 6/27/2013 8:48AM

    But isn't that the ultimate freedom though?
Having known the cravings and constant hunger before GBS?
You now eat because you know you need it. Those hunger signals are messed up by the surgery. Now we eat by schedule. I think it is a better more logical way for someone like me.

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DIVA711 6/26/2013 1:35PM

    You are doing well. It takes time to build a proper routine. You are building a lifestyle... emoticon

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IM2READY 6/26/2013 9:47AM

    I had my surgery May 20th and I haven't felt hungry yet. Or full for that matter. At first I felt kinda lucky to not have that hungry feeling. There have been many days I get busy cleaning out closets or whatever and I will look at the time and its 2pm so I then play catch up all evening to get the protein in. Plus during the night I have a water bottle handy to take sips during the night. Very rarely am I seen without a water bottle these days. I don't feel you are breaking a rule, you are doing what your body needs.

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BILL60 6/26/2013 9:06AM

    Go to bed and don't over-think.

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DEEGIRL50 6/26/2013 8:43AM

    I'm glad you're focusing on proper nutrition! emoticon

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KITT52 6/26/2013 6:57AM

    my problem is if I ate when hungry I would eat all the time....and weight 1000 pounds....
I learned to eat 6-7 mimi meals a day weather hungry or not....this worked for me and I lost 210 now has helped my maintain my weight loss.....


good luck

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BRADMILL2922 6/26/2013 12:43AM

    I eat 6 to 7 small meals a day now. Since I haven't had the surgery, I don't know exactly what you are going through but I do eat fairly regularly when I am not actually hungry. You may not feel hungry but it doesn't mean that your body doesn't need what is on your plan. You need the vitamins and all the other stuff that goes with it, not just feeling full. So when you are supposed to eat, eat! Don't feel bad about it. You aren't really breaking any rule. Besides, the only real rule is if it works for you, then do it. Everyone is different and different things work for different people. Find what works for you.

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ZRIE014 6/26/2013 12:12AM

  if you would eat 6 small meals a day, it would be best.

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Adventures in Biking and other fun stuff

Monday, June 24, 2013

Saturday my boyfriend surprised me by suggesting we go for a bike ride and check out a new trail. I was pretty excited! A co-worker had told us about it, and I have been dying to check it out. When he suggested that we go on Saturday, I was thrilled. The train was pretty nice. It follows the old railroad beds so it is pretty level, but the scenery is nice.

When we had gotten a little over a mile in, I noticed an animal walking on all fours about 1/4 mile or so up the trail. I stopped to watch it, and when he came up beside me (I was riding lead) he asked me what I was looking at. I pointed and said "something tells me that isn't someones' dog" he said "no, I am pretty sure that is a black bear" and that is what it was. If I had to guess, I would say it was around 250 pounds. It may have been a little more or a little less. It was pretty far off in the distance, but from what I could see, that would be my guess. It was really neat to be able to hang out on the trail and watch this black bear wander around like he had not a care in the world. When he was off the trail, we proceeded through with our ride, but I think we rode a lot faster than we would have had we not seen him.

It was a nice ride - we had a good time. It wasn't overly long, but good terrain, and easily accessible.

That night we took the scooter and went out to dinner at a local family owned diner/pizza shop. I had a chef salad with their wonderful, homemade dressing. I am not 100% what is in the dressing, but I know there is... Vinegar, water, sugar, spices - no oil... anyway, after that we went out to my parents house and spent almost three hours relaxing in the hot tub. It was such a wonderful night out! We had such an awesome day!

Fast Forward --- Today -- Monday

I went biking with my friend Randy at the abandon Pennsylvania Turnpike.

It was so awesome! I loved it, I can't wait to go back with stronger flashlights so we can see better!

After that, I volunteered the rest of the afternoon at the library.

Good times

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KNITTY_JESS 6/25/2013 9:35PM

    I love scenic rides and hikes. You never know what you will find.

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KELSEY65 6/25/2013 6:11PM

    What a great day for you and your boyfriend! I read about the salad dressing and was immediately curious. It sounds wonderful, for when I get to that stage of eating.

A black bear, wow! I agree, you need your camera on these adventures!

I can't wait to be cleared to start biking and exercising, walking is already boring. :)

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DSCROW 6/25/2013 10:45AM

    Very exciting and maybe a little scary for me :). My Sister is in Pittsburgh, I love to visit and see her. I will gladly take the heat in summer for no snow in winter here in Alabama. Enjoy the outdoor season! emoticon emoticon emoticon and have FUN!

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BARCONIUS 6/25/2013 10:04AM

    I couldn't interest DW in a walk around the block. That's awesome.

I once had encounter with a black bear, but it was a little different. He was prowling in the middle of US322 in Seven Mountains. It ended OK for the bear, but one car was pretty much crunched.

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    Very cool! Would love to get to the Abandoned Turnpike this year. Still trying to squeeze it in. I love the Rail-Trails, they are the best. I will be riding with some other Sparkers this evening near here. (Hamburg- Schuylkill River Trail) Woohoo!

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LOVINGAFRICA 6/25/2013 8:26AM

    Wow! How absolutely COOL is that!
The black ones are the nice ones, unless you corner them, and give them loads of space, right?
When are you getting your camera fixed, Teamie?
Imagine, Bear on my Biketrail with Pictures?

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BRADMILL2922 6/25/2013 1:54AM

    Sounds like some pretty good bike riding that you got in! Good for you! That is pretty cool that you got to see a black bear but I definitely would have rode a lot faster after I saw him!

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Rant/Vent - Be Warned -

Thursday, June 20, 2013

Attention! This is a rant/vent ** Then I will get to my day

Why can't people understand that I do not want children? I don't understand what is so hard to understand about that.

My co-worker's wife is due soon. I am very happy for them. I know they are excited and I am excited for them, however I don't want to be in that boat. Another co-worker asked him when his wife was due and he said next month. The co-worker then said "now all we need is Cortney on board" I looked at him and said "I would rather die" He just stared at me open mouthed. He didn't know what to say.

Children aren't for everyone. I recognize that I would not make a good parent, so I decided not to be one. I love other peoples' children (in small doses) I volunteer with Kids at the library... I just don't want kids of my own... ever.


In other news, my day was pretty decent. I volunteered at the Library today for the United Way of Blair County's Day of Caring. Area business allow employees to volunteer with the United Way for the day and pay them their regular salary. The volunteers are then sent to different community organizations. Our group of volunteers helped with outside maintenance. They trimmed the trees and shrubs, planted flowers and tilled up the mulch in front of the library.

I was in charge of getting lunch together for our team (go figure lol) - We had Ox Roast, potato salad, chips and cookies. I set up a nice buffet style lunch for them and everyone enjoyed it. There was so much left over food! I brought a container of Ox Roast (ox roast is made by putting seasoned, cooked roast beef through a meat grinder, then placed in a slow cooker with water and spices) for my boyfriend. I did ok at lunch. I didn't overeat, but I did have a few chips and some potato salad. It was good!

After the library, I went tanning then to the gym. Now I am at work. Whoo hoo!

Exciting stuff!

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KELSEY65 6/23/2013 12:00AM

    I didn't want kids either. I just knew I would be a terrible Mom. I did have one though, and I am a better friend to her than parent. Not the ideal set up.

Have a great and thanks for the rant!

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DESERTJULZ 6/22/2013 9:32PM

    First, congratulations for realizing that having kids is not right for you. It makes me so sad that some people who really don't want to have children do so anyhow, then the poor children don't receive the parenting they should. YOU are brilliant to make your own choice here!

Second, what a wonderful way to spend your day! Thank you for being a volunteer and giving back to your community.

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KNITTY_JESS 6/21/2013 9:22AM

    I agree, some people do not need kids. Some people aren't kid people. There are some parents out there that should never have had kids. Ever.

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SPARKCHANTAL 6/21/2013 4:46AM

    I double you on all your reasons for not wanting kids of my own. was the oldest of 5, spent my school years babysitting, so I had borrowed kids enough to know how time-consuming they are.

then I lived in a hick area of Germany (with my own ballet school-- borrowing kids again) and just about the only topic these natives had was why I don't have kids of my own. have to admit, this was a big reason I left the place. such a bunch of medulla oblongatas!

the medulla oblongata is the area of the brain responsible for instincts, not reasoning.

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NYARAMULA 6/21/2013 3:57AM

    Glad you had a good day.

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HINK2013 6/20/2013 11:41PM

    Don't worry about what others think... people have a hard time understanding and accepting that for some women/people ... having kids is NOT what they are called to do.... YOU just have to do what is BEST for you and let the others GET OVER IT!!

It's kind of the same reaction I get from some people, when I say that I wouldn't want to be a full time stay at home mom.... I know that is NOT for me, but most women I know, think all mothers would want to be stay at home moms! And I am not saying that to "diss" the SAHM.... just saying that I couldn't do it!

DON'T worry about others.... they probably will never understand your choice, so you have to accept that you can't change that!

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PENNYSAVER2 6/20/2013 4:50PM

    Do what's best for you. I think it would be more selfish to have a child to just "fit in" if you really don't want to be a parent. emoticon

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CECE0330 6/20/2013 1:24PM

    I'm not sure why people think it's OK to comment on something so obviously personal. I have two close friends who are childless by choice and I would NEVER think to speculate on, hint at, or otherwise encourage them to change their minds. (Um, if anything I probably help them with their decision since I vent to them about the downsides of parenting. lol)

If it were me, I'd come up with something totally inappropriate to say, I'm sure. emoticon

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WEEPINGANGEL74 6/20/2013 11:00AM

    I feel your pain on the no kids. I have been hearing it for years from ex-MIL to total strangers. People forget that having a child is a choice and a personal one and not everyone has the chance to make. Some of us can't have children! Stick to your guns and if you don't want kids then don't have them. So many people with older/grown children have applauded what they think is my choice not to have kids and although they love their kids dearly, think I made the better choice. Be true to yourself!

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BILL60 6/20/2013 9:40AM

    It's your decision. If you can live with it, hang tough!!

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TOGEMON 6/20/2013 8:26AM

    I'm with you on the kids thing! I don't want them either... I don't even like most of them, lol.

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CBLENS 6/20/2013 6:38AM

    There is nothing wrong with not wanting children. Good for you to stand up for yourself.

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LOVINGAFRICA 6/20/2013 5:54AM

    I never wanted kids. My funny metabolic system and hormones kicked me in the butt. Had more than 3x contraceptive fails, now have 3 kids.
I really did not know that I would be the great mom I am. I also did not know that i would love them so much, and that the selfless mother love could be so rewarding and scary.
For me it was the best thing that could have happened.
But I know that everybody should not have kids, and would hate it.
I also think that you know yourself better at your age than I did. So you rock on Girlfriend.
Nobody should even comment on anybody's kids, lack of kids, or not wanting kids, unless it is possitive and affirming.
(And in some small way all parents envy you sometimes, when Crazy strikes)

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BRADMILL2922 6/20/2013 1:25AM

    I love the visual of someone just standing there in open mouthed awe after you said that you would rather die! Lol! But you are right, kids aren't for everyone so people should respect that decision!

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COCK-ROBIN 6/20/2013 1:17AM

    Very good!

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My "last" Workout - Very Emotional

Monday, June 17, 2013

Today was my last workout with my trainer Olivia. She is done at the end of the week. I am going to miss her so much! She is moving all the way across the country! I am excited for her because i know she is happy about moving back to her home state. I am sad because she was the best trainer ever! She has helped me accomplish so much! Having her instruction has been such a valuable tool. I don't think I could have accomplished half of the things I did without her!

We were doing squat presses with a weighed bar on an inverted bosu ball when she broke the news to me. I almost started to cry!! I didn't think that it would bring out to many emotions in me, but it did!

I am going to inquire what I need to do to start my 2 week trail of PC Fit before I make the commitment to it. I am sure I am going to love it. I figured out I can take it twice a week and maybe be able to fit in an extra one here and there.

I have also told Olivia that I would write her a letter of recommendation in order to help her get a job in her new city. I am not exactly sure what I am going to put in it, but I will think of something. I am looking at templates online to help.

I went to the dentist today, and got a clean bill of health. No cavities! Whoo hooo!!!

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PATTYR81 6/19/2013 10:48AM

    I can TOTALLY relate!!!

I'm such a creature of habit, that when I have special people in my life and things are 'just right', I DONT want them to change!!

Working on that tho! emoticon

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REAGANESQUE 6/18/2013 7:29AM

    I can only imagine how much you will miss Olivia. I think that God sometimes puts certain special people in our lives who really make an impact on us, and it sounds like Olivia did that for you!
Most importantly You Can Do It! Carry on, and I'm wishing you luck in quickly finding another trainer who will be a great fit.

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LOVINGAFRICA 6/18/2013 2:38AM

    I am sorry about your trainer/friend who is leaving!
You have learned a lot, and now you know that you can do it yourself. And you know that you can get help if you need it. It is really cool of you to write her a letter of recommendation. Just put your amazing weight loss in it, and that you have amazing muscle mass after WLS. That would get her a job in NO time.
Hang in there!

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BRADMILL2922 6/18/2013 2:34AM

    Sounds like you are losing a great trainer. Always remember what she has shared with you and you can continue to keep up with all of the good that she has taught you.

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DSCROW 6/17/2013 11:55PM

    While Olivia is moving on, all she has taught you is not. She has left you different and better from what you have said and nothing will take that away. You are forever changed because she has been in your life, you are so blessed :)

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COCK-ROBIN 6/17/2013 8:04PM

    I am sad for the loss of your trainer, but glad for your good day. I hope you find a trainer that's just as good as the one you lost.

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KAYSON25 6/17/2013 7:24PM

    You were so lucky to have a good trainer. Hope you find another. You know when one door closes another one opens. I'm sure something great is in store for you!

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USMAWIFE 6/17/2013 7:20PM

    good luck with finding a new trainer

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Mrs Grove's Pastries

Sunday, June 16, 2013

My co-worker brought in Mrs. Grove's Pastries for us today.

Mrs Grove's is a mom and pop bakery that is only open 3 days a week (Friday, Saturday and Sunday) from 6am until they run out of goodies (which can sometimes be noon, but is usually around 9) People line up in order to get cinnamon rolls and monkey bread.

I haven't had Mrs Grove's in years. When I lived in Altoona, I used to make it a frequent Saturday or Sunday thing, but since I moved in 2007, I have not had the opportunity to indulge in their ooeey-gooey goodness until today. I had a piece of monkey bread, and topped it with their peanut butter "butter" (which is like a frosting, but not as sweet) It is an experience I can not begin to describe... to say it was absolutely, amazingly delicious would be an understatement. It was like a gala affair in my mouth!

This is where the moderation thing comes into play. I wouldn't "spend" the calories on a tasty cake, but a homemade baked treat made by three local ladies? Heck yes! And I enjoyed every sinful bite!

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BRADMILL2922 6/17/2013 1:06AM

    That sounds fantastic! Nothing wrong with having that once in a while!

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CBLENS 6/16/2013 12:14PM

    What the use of having these wonderful treats if one is going to beat themselves up. Go enjoy the treats...just not every day and those home made special one are so worth the calories. We just have to modify the balance of our food intake.

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TIME2BLOOM4ME 6/16/2013 11:10AM

    I read the first line as pasties. I was wondering. LOL.

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    Should you beat yourself up for not having the treat you really wanted or should you beat yourself up for straying a bit off track but really enjoying it? Life is short, sometimes we have to eat dessert first! Enjoy your treat and make accommodations, no poiint in being really miserable for having foregone it. And, oh yeah,

Make Today the Best Day of Your Life,
so far emoticon

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