Thursday, October 28, 2010
My beta fish Elmo died. I got home Monday and he was at the bottom of his vase dead. I was a little (ok a lot) sad about it. I had actually grown attached to that little guy. He responded to my voice and he was my little fishy.... well, my little fishy died and I was pretty put out by it. My boyfriend got me a new fish, even if he really didn't want a new one, he got me one. The new fish's name is Little Jaws (LJ for short)
We stopped at the Jeep dealer yesterday to check out this Jeep I want to buy. It is amazing. I took it for a test drive. It is a 2010 Wrangler with the "Rough Country" package on it, which means that it has a 6 inch body lift and 33 or 35 inch tires. In other words it is a monster. I am in love, and I REALLY want it. I checked the price, and while I can afford it, I don't want to. It is about $150 more a month than I am comfortable paying. In total, this sexy monster was $32,000 plus dollars. I just can't pay that much for a car. The other ones that I am looking at are between 22,000-25,000. Plus I want to try to save a nice down payment as well. Suffice to say, I am in love with this vehicle. I want it in the worst way... but you know...
Sunday after work I went swimming at Penn State Altoona. It was awesome. I loved it. I can't wait to do it again. I am thinking a lot about maybe joining the Summit, but I am not sure if I want to spend the money on a gym. I am going to call them and see what they have to say. I think it might be worth a shot. I have a really big fear of the gym, but not for the reasons that most people are scared. I don't really care who sees me trying to work out, who sees me in a swimming suit, because we are all there for the same reason... trying to get healthy and fit. If someone can't respect me for that, then f*%# them. I don't really care. My issue is with... GERMS. That really bothers me. I don't know how I am going to handle that. I am hoping that I can work through it.
I have been doing ok with my eating. I could be doing a lot better, but I could be doing a lot worse. I had KFC, but I did account for everything and portion controlled my meal and it was well within my calorie range, I still felt like crap for eating it in more ways than one. I was mad at myself, my stomach felt like crap and the only thing I wanted to do was drink water. I get so frustrated with myself sometimes I don't know what to do sometimes... *sigh*
I think that is all for now
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
I have re-discovered Mrs Dash. I have been eating it on green beans. It is quite tasty
We made some espresso at work and I drank some, that was a BIG mistake... HUGE mistake... now I am sooooooo jittery, and I doubt very much I will be able to sleep at all tonight. That is so lame.
I got in a fight with one of my friends over the weekend. Actually, I didn't even do anything. Here is what happened...
Her daughter who is nine (9) responded to a post my Grandmother (who is 75) made on Facebook. She said "stop posting this crap it is on my wall please" and my Grandmother said that she would unfriend her and she wouldn't have to worry about it. Another one of my Grandmother's friends asked who this little girl was and why she was posting on her wall. My Grandmother said that is was a friend of her granddaughter's (that is me) kid and that she wasn't going to let some snot nosed little kid tell her what she can and can't post. So, my friend got PISSED because my Grandmother called her daughter a snot nosed little kid. She restored with telling me about it. When I simply responded with "What do you want me to do?" She told me that she expected me to tell my Grandmother that she was rude and out of line. I said "Are you daft?" She then said my grandmother was a bitch and she needed to get a part time job, she had to much time on her hands if the only thing she has to do is sit on Facebook all day. Excuse me? My Grandmother worked for 40+ years, and if she wants to sit on Facebook all day, then that is her right to do so. When I explained this to my friend, she promptly started ignoring me and made the big adult move to delete me from her Facebook. Mature huh? What I want to know is this... why does her NINE year old have a facebook? Why is her NINE year old posing rude comments on my grandmother's status? Now granted, my grandmother should have just deleted the comment, unfriended the girl and left well enough alone, but you know... she is 75 years old. She comes from a different time than we do. Honestly, in her mind, kids do not talk to adults that way. That is grounds for a beating (and trust me, she will do it... and it hurts, a lot)
This is exactly why I try to spend little time on Facebook as possible. I admit my Grandmother is a pain in the ass on Facebook. She feels the need to comment on everything, and if she doesn't understand it she asks 500 questions and she feels the need to tell the entire Facebook community your personal business. However, she is my Grandmother and I love her. For my friend to call her a bitch was out of line. She may be sometimes, but my grandmother has never been anything but nice to her and treated her exactly as she always treated me (minus the whooping)
I guess the good thing is now, I don't have to be her friend. This was actually an easy way for me to get out of our friendship. We used to be best friends, but as the years have gone on, the less and less I liked her. She is one of those kind of people that is very, very fake. She tries to be someone she is not and it is annoying. So, now I don't have to deal with her. Because of this particular situation however, I spent the rest of Saturday night with my neck and shoulder muscles in knots from being pissed/stressed. In turn, that lead to me being in a gloomy mood on Sunday and getting in a fight with my mother because I wanted to be left alone. To get rid of that stress, I drove to the park and took a nice two mile walk, so that made me feel extra good. I didn't take a walk today though. I should have, but I slept in, then had to go to Walmart, then had to make dinner for work, then once I got to work I could have went but it has been raining all night
I have taken a few numbers and am going to call around to see if anywhere offers open public swimming. Even if I have to pay a few dollars, I think it would be well worth it to be able to swim a few times a week. I am going to call and see what I can find out.
I want to go see a Registered Dietician, or a Nutritionist problem is my insurance won't pay for it, so I am going to call around on Wednesday (when I call the places with a swimming pool) and see what their fees are and things like that. I think it is pretty stupid my insurance won't pay for one. I mean, you would think they would want you to be healthy... *sigh*
I think that is all for now...
Friday, October 15, 2010
One thing I love about working in the trucking industry is all of the wonderful examples of mullets I get to see. I just had a driver at the window who bore a very striking resemblance to Joe Dirt.
That is where I work and that is what I do for a living. It is a lot of fun and I like it a lot. I had mentioned previously, that I had interviewed for a promotion. I didn't get it. I am ok with it though. The more I thought about it, the less interested I was, and eventually I did "bow" out of the race, but only citing that since another coworker had been covering the position for 70+ days, I didn't think it was fair not to give the job to him. I guess "upper" management was impressed by the fact I am not a selfish jerk-off like they are and offered the job to my coworker. Everyone, I think at least, got what they wanted. I know I did. I mean the money would have been nice, don't get me wrong, and I am sure I could handle the job with no problem, but I just got settled into my new schedule and I didn't want to change. Plus I like what I do, and the other position involved a lot of tracking, and if there is one thing I HATE to do, it is track. Basically, with tracking, you have to look at individual trucks and determine that they are going to make their delivery/pick up appointments on time. A lot of the time, there are loads that must not fail for any reason... but anyway, I hate to track. I find it boring and tedious.
Can anyone tell I am super bored?
I am throwing a party at the end of the month for my mother's retirement. I am just having basic picnic foods. Hamburgers, hot dogs, baked beans, potato/pasta/macoroni salad... those types of things. I am not really a big fan of any of that. Never really have been, but that is what they like to eat, so I am ok with that. I am, of course, going to have to get a cake and booze... but anyway... I digress. I am not really looking forward to this party, or planning it, but it is for my mother and I will do anything for her.
only 2 hours until Potter time. I wish it wasn't so late/early. I would love to stop at McDonlads and get one of their non-fat lattes to sip while I enjoy Potter... however, that would not be a wise idea...
Friday, October 15, 2010
I am pretty sure I am officially starving to death... if you look closely (very closely indeed) I am pretty sure you can see my bones. The good news is, dinner time will be in about 15 mins.
I brought this Marie Calendar's Home Style Creations Traditional Stuffing and Turkey thing. It looks good and is 310 calories - also I have 1/2 cup of mashed sweet potatoes and a big ol' bowl of green beans w/ Mrs Dash - for desert, I have a cup of sliced strawberries. All said and done, meal total of 590 calories.
My legs hurt a lot less today. I did skipp my walk today. I figured one day won't hurt - I did walk around Walmart though, but that isn't really exercise, maybe an exercise in patience...
The weather was pretty crappy today, and it is supposed to be crappy tomorrow too. This damp weather makes my back hurt, or maybe that is just in my head? I do need to make an appointment with my Bone Cracker and get put back into place. The pain in my neck is almost unbearable at times, and I can feel where my vertebrate are and it isn't where they are supposed to be. While I am at it, I would also like to book a massage. I could really use it.
I really don't complain this often, but it just seems like I am falling apart!
on a completley different topic, I need a hair cut
only 5 hours until potter time
Thursday, October 14, 2010
My legs hurt. They hurt a lot. My foot hurts. It hurts a lot. I don't know what I did... ok that is a lie, I know what I did. I tried to walk up that hill again by my boyfriend's house. I am determined to make it to the top. I stopped for a while and now I remember why... because my legs hurt. Once I am up and moving, they feel ok, but if I have been stationary for a while... forget it. This morning when I got out of bed, I could hardly move. Thank god I didn't have to go to the bathroom really bad or I would have never made it. I am not giving up. I am going to try tomorrow if it isn't raining, and if it is, then I will just do my walking video.
We had a really horrible thunderstorm on Sunday night and I have been without internet for two days. I honestly thought I would die, then I realized that I don't really need it that much. The first day was kinda lame, but after that it was ok. I went and hung out with my friends Katie and Andrew last night and we had an awesome time. Andrew made this squash that was divine - it was soooo delish! I am going to have to start making more squash. I forgot how much I totally adore it. Then we went for a really nice walk, and I even got some jogging in which was great. Not a lot, but some which made me happy. I forgot how awesome it feels and I wish I could do it longer than what I can right now. I guess that is something you have to work up to.
The thunderstorm that took out my internet also took out the TV in the living room. I don't watch TV out there at all. I stay in my bedroom. However, mom and dad do. Mother and I will be going shopping for a new TV on Saturday. I am sure it will be fun.
something I am having a lot of trouble with is deterring when I am actually full. I am so used to stuffing myself until I feel sick, that I am still struggling with this. For dinner tonight I had
6 oz "naked' chicken breast
1 tablespoon of buffalo sauce
1/2 cup of mashed sweet potatoes
1 cup of mixed veggies.
after eating all of that I still feel like I should eat more. I don't know why. When all is said and done for the day I will have consumed appx 1569 calories in total. I had a very good, healthy day in eating. Lots of good food. When I look at my tracker, I can't believe I ate all of that, but when I add up the calories it only comes out to 1569, which shows me that I am making good choices. I am able to eat lots of food because I am making good choices. When a cowoker asked me if I was "going to eat all of that" I said "Yes, I am and my entire meal is less calories and fat than the burger you just had"
I am on Book V now of Harry Potter... The Order of the Phoenix... I can't wait for Potter time tonight...
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