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Getting the implant...

Tuesday, May 01, 2012

No, I am not getting implants, but rather the implant.

Since my R-n-Y I have been concerned about birth control. Actually, concerned doesn't really begin to describe it. Paranoid might? Since I am no longer able to absorb things like a normal person, I have been paranoid that I will experience malabsorbtion issues with my pill. Many of you know how I feel about children... so, I think it is in my best interest to get the implant.

My appointment is for May 16th. I hope it doesn't hurt. Then again, I don't think anything can hurt as much as my surgery did.

Things here are going really well. I am very pleased with my progress. I have had no adverse reactions to any foods that I have had. All is well.

I think that is all for now

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KMIRANDA2000 5/2/2012 8:43AM

    I've heard that women get pregnant a lot easier/faster once the weight drops off. I had my tubes tied after having one child and then my gastric bypass 10 years after that. No chance of pregnancy!

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OMG Coffee!!!

Friday, April 27, 2012

I have finally found a dark roast decaf whole bean coffee! I bought a pound of it. It was wonderful.

I ground some up and used my french press this morning to make it. It was a slice of heaven. Since I am not allowed caffeine, I thought I was doomed. Most decaf coffee that I have had lack body and flavor. Most of them are basically dirt water to me. I was at Giant Eagle and found French roast decaf. It is beyond amazing!

I used a little fat free 1/2 & 1/2 - and made myself a wonderful treat!

Eating real food is going well. So far I have not had any bad reactions to anything. I have had...

scrambled egg
turkey chili
turkey meatball w/ small amount of red sauce
98% fat free thin sliced ham w/ laughing cow cheese
pumpkin pie w/o the pie (see my awesome spark recipie for it)
corn flakes (they were alright, but I don't think I will make a habit out of eating them)

Everything has went down well and I have had no adverse reactions to anything. Of course I am taking my time and eating very slowly and chewing everything very well. I ate 1 meatball (1oz) and in the time it took me to eat that my boyfriend ate 7 of them + a plate of pasta.

I think that is all for now

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KMIRANDA2000 4/27/2012 10:07PM

    You're doing great!

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XENA47 4/27/2012 5:10PM

    Glad to hear you have found a decaf coffee that works for you. I've been suffering coffee frustration of late--every brand I formerly liked seems to be musty or acidic now. I'm starting to cut back and considering my caffeine consumption as well. It's possible I may be on a quest similar to yours before long.


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Sooooooo Tired!

Thursday, April 26, 2012

I need to get it together. I should be going to the gym, but I am sooo tired! I think I am so tired because I haven't been sleeping well at night. I keep waking up. Then the cats know that I am awake, and they won't let me alone and they carry on.

I think I am going to go for a walk outside. That might help get things moving

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KMIRANDA2000 4/26/2012 4:32PM

    No, no, no my woman...relax. Your insides are raw. Did your dr approve exercise already?

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Surgeon's Appointment - 2weeks progress

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

My surgeon is very pleased with my progress. He has released me back to work, normal physical activity and all the rest of that fun stuff. He has also cleared me to move onto the next stage of my diet.

It is so wonderful to eat real food again.

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MAERETH 4/26/2012 8:47AM

    Wonderful! What will be your first "real" food?

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Home Alone...

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Today is the first day that I have been left "home alone" since I have came home from the hospital. My boyfriend stayed the 1st week with me, and when he went back to work, my mom spent the night until he got home again (he is a truck driver)

My grandparents are coming to visit me today. I don't know how long they are going to be here. Don't get me wrong, I do love my grandmother, but... well...

I have 2 grandmothers. My mother's mother smothers me. She is a wonderful lady who still thinks I am 5. I love her very much. She is the one that cries every time she sees an Olive Garden commercial because she knows that is my favorite place to eat, and now I won't be able to. She is also the one that every time I was sad she would stuff me full of junk food.

My father's mother on the other hand has always made my weight #1 on her list. I can not have a conversation with her without her asking me if I am "still watching and losing". She honestly encourages me to have an eating disorder, and constantly tells me how great I looked when I starved myself and purged all of the time. As a kid she would offer me treats, then let me know how fat I was when I accepted them and made me ashamed to eat. She was excited I was getting this surgery. When she asked my goal weight, I jokingly told her, that I didn't really have a number in mind, but I wanted to be able to count my rib bones, she said "ohh, you will look so good!" and she was serious.

So, I have one grandmother that stuffed my face full of junk for comfort and rewards, and another grandmother who made me ashamed to eat. *sigh*

I think I am going to spend most of the day watching TV. I am going to get my gear on and go for a short walk later on today. I walk back and forth in front of the house until I get tired. If I am released by my surgeon tomorrow to return to regular activity, I may go to the gym after shopping with my mom and walk on the treadmill.

I think that is all for now

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VIANA1 4/30/2012 5:10AM

    Maybe it is a good thing that my grandparents left this earth when I was very young.

The grandma that stuffed your face reminds me of my MIL. She goes to great lengths to stuff my kids (and us) every possible second. She is a constant source of chocolate, chips, fries, etc. Yesterday I took the chips off the table because the kids kept taking them and she came up with another bag even though they hadn't eaten anything else. Then there is the constant "do you want cake, do you want a cookie, eat a banana, I can make you a sandwich, ..." as soon as you finish your meal. Uggg! My husband and I are overweight and I go through great lengths to make sure my son is faced with healthy meal options then move the food away when he shouldn't be eating because he was born an overeater.

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REBECCA24333 4/27/2012 3:48PM

    Oh, I had to laugh about the gramma who cries when she sees an Olive Garden commercial! How cute is that?

Hang in there!

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KMIRANDA2000 4/24/2012 5:16PM

    My relatives were the same weight always was (and still is) topic of conversation. I can choose to ignore it now.

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SHY_BUNNY 4/24/2012 12:21PM

    We all have people in our lives that enable us. It's a great start to recognise these patterns. Knowing is half the battle!

Just for your own sanity, it helps to remember that they are both coming from a loving place. However, what they say and do can be damaging to us. The best advice I can offer is to take back control over your own actions. If one grandma is trying to soothe you with food tell her you are making better food choices. See how she responds to it. She might get defensive & feel like you are rejecting her. Tell her you love her, but that you are transforming you mind, body & soul.

As for grandma 2, take what she has to say with a grain o salt! You know she's coming from some twisted idea of health. Change the subject if she starts talking about your weight. Change the crocus from you back onto her or talk about the family or the weather!

It's probably best that you don't divulge or confide I. Them too often about your weight loss. Believe me, I love telling people in my world about what I'm up to, but it comes with a price. It invites everyone I tell to comment and all I want is to just remind myself what I'm doing ...

Good luck!

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JOSIEISHEALTHY 4/24/2012 12:17PM

    Yikes that is tough, well I hope they don't stay long and get out of your hair lol. Grandmothers can be so fussy for some reason. I remember my grandma kind of poking at my weight too, I would get so mad. It's so hard when people in your life don't incourage good healthy weight loss.

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