Tuesday, April 10, 2012
I have to be at the hospital at 6am...
Today is the big day!!
Sunday, April 08, 2012
Surgery date is 4/10/12
Holy crap am I nervous! There are so many things going through my head right now...
Thursday, April 05, 2012
There is a lot to digest from my meeting with the Dietitian. She went over a lot of things. I am thankful she gave me handouts. It looks like when i come home from the hospital, I will be eating pureed food. That is ok. I can blend my meat with cream of whatever soup... so that actually won't be bad. I am allowed tomato soup in stage III so, again, that will be awesome.
I think I am going to do alright. She did say she really doesn't want me drinking protein supplements, but she does want me drinking Carnation Instant Breakfast - sugar free. I am failing to understand why she wants me to drink that over protein supplements with 2x's the amount of protein, and less carbs and sugars? If that is what she says to drink, that is what I am going to drink. Personally, I think it is gross. I can only find the chocolate variety around here, and i am not a huge fan of chocolate to begin with. Again, if that is what she wants, then I will for sure do it. I figure she has to know what she is talking about! She works with Dr. Newlin's patients all of the time.
I made up a shopping list of things that I need to get. There really isn't a lot. I think for my meats I am going to stick with tuna and chicken for now. Mainly because both taste good when blended with a cream soup, and she also said that I am allowed to use a tablespoon of low fat/fat free mayo. I can make like a tuna or chicken type salad to eat too, as long as it is smooth. It will be weird eating chicken that is the consistency of pudding. I thought about ordering some of those protein infused puddings from a website, but I am not sure.
After my meeting with my dietitian, I went to the mall. Yankee Candle is having a fabulous sale.. $1 tarts! Yay! I don't usually burn candles, but I do enjoy burning tarts. I bought at least 50 of them, plus 2 warmers. 10 of them are for my mother, and I bought my boyfriend's mom a warmer, and we picked out a dozen tarts for her, and a bad of tealites.
After that, i went to the salon and got a Brazilian wax. I figured I needed it. It is an excellent stress reliever, and I won't have to worry about shaving for a while. The lady that did it said I was "a tough chic" because apparently, a lot of girls that get it done end up crying and saying they don't know if they can finish. Not an issue with me.
We are having dinner at my grandparents tomorrow for Easter. I hope it goes well. I know I am going to feel very deprived, but it isn't a big deal. I notice that I am less hungry now. I am not sure if my body is finally adjusting, or, if I am just so stressed out that I am losing my appetite?
I think that is all for now
ps: The Big Bang Theory was hysterical tonight!
Wednesday, April 04, 2012
I have an appointment at 13:15 to meet with my RD. I am REALLY excited to meet with her. I wish that my appointment would have been sooner. That only leaves me 5 days until surgery to get my kitchen ready. I work the weekend. I will be working 12 hour days, getting up at 5:30 in the morning, so the last thing I want to do is worry about preparing food and stuff. I just want to eat, shower and go to bed.
I have been shopping online at a few different Bariatric food sites. Well, I wouldn't say shopping, but rather getting ideas. I found a few sample packs of various protein drinks i think i will order once i get the ok from my RD on what I am to have. A lot of the stuff I found, I can get elsewhere cheaper, so I will do that once I find out if it is ok, and if i like it.
I have been really stressed. I know it is nerves from my surgery. I keep projecting it onto other things. Like my cats... I had myself so stressed out today about my cats acting like cats. They were just acting like they always do, and i am making up things that aren't even there because I have no where to direct my stress. I normally would deal with it by eating something. Since I can't do that, i worked myself into a tizz and eventually did my dishes to calm down. It worked. Focusing on washing my dishes helped relax me. Then I put laundry away and that helped even more. By the time I was done with all of my household chores, I felt pretty relaxed. I don't know why that helps, but it does. I guess if I redirect my desire to eat when stressed into cleaning my house, I am going to have the cleanest house in East Freedom!
I think that is all for now
Tuesday, April 03, 2012
I am not a violent person, however, if one more person implies that I am "taking the easy way" by getting weight loss surgery, I am going to punch them in the face. If one more skinny person says... "Oh, I wish I could have weight loss surgery" I am going to deck them.
I really wish people were better educated about WLS. I wish people would see that this is, in no way, the "easy" way out. It is far from it. If anything, I think it is the most difficult way to go about weight loss. I think they have it easy. They can just work out, eat healthy and the pounds melt away. With me, I eat healthy, work out, and the pounds keep coming on.
I guess people have the misconception that I will still get to sit on the couch all day and lose 100 pounds and never have to do anything, and be able to eat whatever I want...
I guess they won't see me in the hospital, with a drain in my stomach, a tube in my nose, and a catheter... well you know... They won't see the fact I have to give myself injections for a week, they won't see the pain that I am in from having myself, in an almost literal sense, gutted. They won't be around at meal times to see me eating 1/4 cup of pureed chicken...
Yeah... easy way out my a$$
Ohh, and one more thing while I am at it... Yes, I have lost 11 pounds in a week on my preop diet. Which I know is water weight, however, if one more person says... "why can't you just do that diet for 6 months, and you won't need surgery" I am going to tell them to shut the front door!
I actually haven't been that open about my surgery with many people, but what is happening is people are listening to my coverstations and butting it... because you know, they know it all
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