Wednesday, December 28, 2011
What is it that is so comforting about a cup of tea?
There is just something about it that warms your soul.
It is like wraping yourself in a warm blanket.
When I was a little kid, I would sit at the kitchen table with my mother and enjoy tea and toast for dinner when my Dad was working overtime. We would enjoy it for breakfast on her days off with Royal Lunch crackers before heading outside to go on adventures.
When I was sick, she would make me a strong cup of tea to warm my stomach.
I would sit up late into the night sipping on tea and reading V.C Andrews or Dragonlance or some cheesey-Fabio-on-the-cover Romance Novel...
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
If it were as simple as calories in and calories out, I would be 100 pounds down by now.
I have been re-evaluating my gastric by-pass surgery, and I have arrived at the same conclusion. I think it is the best option out there for me right now. Despite my efforts, I am still gaining weight.
Once again, I have had everything under the sun checked and everything tests within normal limits. Something is screwed up somewhere, but no one can seem to figure out what it is. It all comes back to my quitting smoking... every since that point, I have continued to gain weight and get no where.
For the month of January, I am going to conduct an experiment. I am going to go on a low-carb diet, modify my exercise and see what happens. I have been doing the standard 20 mins of cardio and 20 mins of strength training 3 times a week. I am going to keep the strength training the same, and I am going to up the cardio by 10 mins. Then I may... I may add two extra days into my exercise but it will be outside of the gym. I think I will go for a mile walk at home.
Another thing I am going to try is working out around the same time of day. Right now, I sometimes work out in the early morning (when I am done with work, and before I go to bed) sometimes in the afternoon (before I go to work) and sometimes in the evening when I am at home and have nothing better to do. I don't know if my random workout times have anything to do with my sore lack of results, but they may.
Starting January 2nd - my experiment begins. I know, I know, why wait? Well simply put - starting something on an Odd day and not at the beginning of the week un-nerves me. It just doesn't feel right to me. Plus, it gives me time to sit and plan ahead for a weeks worth of exercise and meals. I don't like to start things without careful planning. That really applies to anything really...
I think in my experiment, I am going to allow for some fruit. Simply put, I can't live without fruit. When I meant with the RD - she asked me what food I thought I could never give up. I said fruit. She found that pretty amusing. I guess most fat people don't pick fruit... in all honestly, I have been able to find substitutions for everything that I adore except for fruit. The two things in life I can not live without are pizza and fruit. I have found an easy way to make pizza using a boneless, skinless chicken breast for the crust... but there is nothing that takes the place of fruit.
In other news, I have introduced my boyfriend to "Angry Birds" and he spent 3 hours playing it today. Only after he realized he wasted 3 hours on the game, did he then call it stupid... lol - He is taking me to Olive Garden tomorrow. I am not sure what I am going to get yet. I really like the Apricot Chicken. I think it is one of their best dishes and it is low calorie, low fat and low carb (well, for the OG any way) and it is just a great dish! Add some soup... I think that will be a good meal! Plus, I won't eat anything until we go for dinner because I won't get up until 2 or after since I work all night, then I will go to the gym, and won't end up in bed until after 7am anyway.
Oh, and the insurance guy looked at my bumper and cut me a check - now I just have to wait until the body shop can fix it. Whoo hoo!
I think that is all
Monday, December 26, 2011
My Holiday weekend was fantastic. I had such a enjoyable time with my family!
Christmas eve we went to my Paternal Grandmother's house (Grandma Snoots) and had a really enjoyable get together. My mother and father, Uncle (my Aunt had to work) Grandmother and Grandfather and my Boyfriend were all there. We had some fantastic foods (sloppy joes', baked beans, macaroni salad, cocktail wieners in crescent rolls, ham and cheese, and for desert there was pretzel salad) I ate a little bit of everything, but I didn't over indulge and it was the only time I ate for the day, so I was ok with it.
What I really enjoyed was being with my family. It was really nice to actually be with my Grandmother and not have her criticise every single thing I do. She didn't harass me once about me weight - so I was really happy about that too.
We stopped at my Maternal Grandmother's on the way home and enjoyed some time with her and my Grandfather.
On Christmas day we went to my boyfriend's parents house and had lunch. His mom made an out of this world baked ham... it was sooo delicious and it was hard to ration myself with it because I knew I would have to eat dinner at my Grandparents.
My Grandparents had a nice dinner for us too. They had turkey and all that goes with it. I ate, but I didn't over eat. My mom made me Pumpkin Pie with out the pie so that was pretty awesome.
My Boyfriend bought me a Nook Tablet, and that pretty much solidifies him as the most awesome boyfriend in the world. I was so excited!
I think for the month of January, I am going to switch up my diet a little bit, and start low-carbing it. I mean... what is the worst that can happen? I gain weight again? Besides, after surgery, I won't be able to eat bread, pasta, rice.. things like that, so I should just get used to it now. I am ok with that. I think I will include a serving of fruit however. I am going to try to pick a lower-carb fruit, but I am going to include one.
I think that is all for now
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
My cats woke me up at 6am
I went to the doctor and found out I gained a pound - I am up 8 pounds since September - I don't know how the flippity-fart that happened - or why
I burnt my finger with molten sugar
Some dumb teeny-bopper drive into the back of my Jeep
I don't understand why I am up 8 pounds since September. I keep busting my arse at the gym and eating well. Eating good, healthy and for the most part whole foods. I keep thinking this will either help me or hinder me in regards to my surgery. I am trying. I am working really hard and getting no where and it makes me so angry! I don't know what more I can do! I suppose I will just keep on doing what I am doing and hope that something gives. I don't think I can do much more. I eat what I am supposed to eat. I do lots of cardio and yes... I even added the dreaded strength training. It sucks, I hate ever second of it, but I want to get myself built up so that I am healthy and in good physical shape when they gut me.
I went out to my parents after my doctor appointment today to help my mom bake cookies, make fudge and chex mix. I am not bragging, but I make awesome fudge. I make it to give away as presents to my co-workers and family members. While I was making it today, some of the molten sugar boiled up and splashed onto my finger. Of course the sugar stuck and it burned the bejesus out of my finger. I have a nice blister there now and it hurts. My peanut butter fudge turned out great but my chocolate peanut butter got hard. When I cut it up to put it in the tins, I picked out the nice pieces to put in those, and I will take the left over pieces that broke into work for the guys to eat tomorrow. They don't care what it looks like.
Mom and I also made a quadruple batch of Chex Mix. My boyfriend loves it so I made it for him. I can take it or leave it. I may have a few chex, but for the most part, I leave it alone. I don't eat the cookies, because I am not a cookie fan. They are not a trigger food for me. I think last Christmas, I ate a total of 2 cookies, and they were my Grandmother Snoots' special pumpkin cookies. As far as eating the fudge... I did test it today after it was poured and there was some left in the pan. I didn't eat a huge amount, just enough to check the consistency and the flavor. i deemed it suitable and I may indulge in a piece at work on Friday, but once again, have no desire really to eat it.
On my way home, I was cruising up the interstate when 2 deer ran out into traffic. Every one jammed on their brakes except the girl whose Jeep Liberty drove into the back of my Jeep Wrangler. There is minimal damage, but I am still really upset. She had a lot of time to react if she would have been maintaining a safe following distance from me. I didn't hit the cars in front of me when they hit their breaks because I was far enough back. My friend's husband is going to look at it for me and give me an estimate.
I think that is all for now
Thursday, December 15, 2011
My physical limitations really suck sometimes. I was walking today, and listening to some exciting music, and thought I would start to jog just a bit. BIG MISTAKE... with all my business bouncing up and down, something in my lower stomach started to hurt... not good. I don't think? I didn't really run far or long, maybe 20 seconds? It sucks! I want to run more than anything, and I keep trying, but every time i do, something hurts that isn't supposed to hurt! I can't wait until this weight starts to come off. I keep plugging away at it with little success but I am trying, and I know that using WLS as a tool is going to help me achieve my goals and I will be able to run a mile and not think anything about it!!
So, there is this guy at my gym... and you can't help but notice him. He drives a big Ford F250 diesel truck with stacks in the bed. Very loud, very obnoxious, but in my book, pretty bad ass... anyway, he is buff. Not particularly good looking, but he has a very nice body. I thought he must work really hard to achieve a body like that. Hours in the gym a day i would think... Every time I have been at the gym he does hardly anything. He will get on the treadmill beside me and walk for a few mins, at a slower pace than I am... then he will walk around the gym, use a few machines for a few reps and then hangs out on them, then he will go over to the free weights and lift a dumbbell or two for a few reps... but the majority of his time he is walking around shaking up a protein shake?? that he never drinks??? I am confizzled on that one
We are having a potluck dinner at work tomorrow. I am making Buffalo Chicken dip. Not the most health friendly dish, but I do use light cream cheese, and use celery for dipping instead of chips... my co-workers requested it, so therefore I made (or rather will make) it for them. the party isn't until 2100, so I plan on eating before i go, then just have a few little things.
I went out to dinner with my grandparents today - well, I am not really sure what you would call it since it was about 1530.. and i didn't get up until 1300 since i was out in the woods all night wrangling in Lucy cat... anyway, we went to the buffet place and I didn't eat too horrible. I should have had a salad, but their dressing choice stinks - they don't have any light dressing, and it is either Ranch, 1000 Island, Regular Italian, Regular Catalina and I think that is it. I am not a fan of any of those dressings. I had 2 small pieces of cheese pizza, a cheeseburger and a piece of fried chicken, which I didn't eat all of... for desert, I ate the filling out of a piece of pumpkin pie. I really didn't feel like eating. When I write down everything I ate, it seems like a lot, but it really isn't. It is hard to describe the size of the pieces of pizza.
Anyway, after that, I went to the mall and bought a bucket load of Yankee Candle tarts for my tart warmer. I had a coupon for $1 unlimited tarts... I bought 50 of them, however, 12 of them are for my Mother's birthday present and 10 of them are for my co-workers Christmas present. I bought her a snowman tart warmer and 10 tarts to go with it.
After the mall, I went to Ross and bought my other co-worker a coffee press and a Superman coffee mug. Barnes and Noble was next where i bought my Mother a gift card for her birthday, and I finished out my trip at Bed, Bath and Beyond where I bought my other co-worker a tart warmer gift set.
After that I went to the gym and did a very intense cardio workout on the treadmill. I did 30 mins of speed and incline intervals. My top speed was only 3.0 but my top incline was 12% which is pretty darn steep!
On the way home I stopped at Walmart and bought a few things and have spent the rest of the night here... at my house with my kitties.
that is all for now
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