Monday, July 12, 2010
Goals are important. I have some pretty serious ones, and I have some silly ones. My overall goal is to improve the quality of my life. I am about 3/4 of the way there on the major goals.
1. Quit Smoking (7/16/10 will be my 365th day without smoking)
2. Maintain a "healthy" relationship with a member of the opposite sex (D and I will be together 2 years in Sept. He is the greatest guy in the world)
3. Pay off all of my debt (should be done 12/10 - maybe 11/10)
4. Lose weight. (I would like to lose at least 100 pounds. Right now, I am shooting for 50 by the end of the year)
Then I have all of these silly little goals, that pretty much come along with the weight loss. I want to be able to buy this super cute Pittsburgh Penguins shirt. It only goes as big as an XL in ladies, and I can't wear that now. I want to be able to buy one of those nifty bras from Victoria's Secret that enhances TWO cup sizes (cause as the pounds go down, so do the DDs)
I have decided I am not going to weight myself until next Monday. The numbers had better go down. I am working, and working pretty hard. I do the 2 mile walk video, and for the last "1/2 mile" I jog in place. I just can't stand to be outside in this weather. Anything over 60 degrees is to hot for me. Plus... I ran into a slight "problem" with my walking route at my house. See... There is a man that live about a 1/2 mile from my house... he weighs 675+ pounds and lives on his front porch (they closed it in using that board insulation) and he has a hole cut in it to serve as a "window" or something along those lines. The smell coming from the place is disgusting. I don't know what else to say, other than that. It is disgusting. To make matters worse, he stares out this little "window" at me, and I heard from his neighbors that he lays on his mattress naked and only throws a sheet over him when someone comes over. I feel bad. The trailer he lives in has no running water, and he shares it with his Dad and Wife. It is a very sad situation, however, no matter how sad, it makes me feel very ill to walk by there. So my alternate route is pretty much along the road surrounded by woods on both sides and no houses, which isn't exactly... thrilling either. I digress..
I am doing the tape, and very soon I will start Richard Simmons Tone and Sweat. I was looking at the Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred, but I don't know what is involved with it, and I think it might have to be something I have to wait on until I am at a better fitness level. I wish I could go swimming, that would make me happy! Sadly, my Aunt's new pool liner hasn't come yet, and the public pool... well... lets say I am not a fan. I like the idea of working out in my house. It is cool - and even though I have very limited space at my boyfriend's house, I can still do the walking DVD. That is nice.
I will be on vacation the rest of the week until monday, so I am REALLY looking forward to that. It is going to be awesome! Yay!
Sunday, July 11, 2010
That is my new word. Suck-tastic. I needed something to describe how this day was going, and I thought Suck-tastic pretty much described it.
Last night my boyfriend took me out for dinner. We went to Inlow's. It is a quaint little Mom and Pop hot dog stand. I got a 12" hot dog w/ chilli, cheese and onion, french fries and cole slaw. The good news is... I don't really like french fries, and these ones we a little undercooked, so I only ate 3 or 4 of them. Now, I ate the cole slaw and the hot dog, and we split an order of cheese sticks... oh, then he took me for an ice cream cone. I got a small soft serve. Butter Pecan... but it didn't really taste like Butter Pecan... it was still good. My only saving grace on the entire meal was that I knew I was going to totally blow it, so I ate very light for the day... veggies, fruit and raisin bran for breakfast. I guess that doesn't totally excuse it. I gotta say tho, it was very tasty.
I have been doing a new exercise video. Leslie Sandsone Walking Away the Pounds. I do the entire 2 miles. It has just been so hot out, and I despise this weather soooo much... I feel like I get an ok workout, and something has to be better than nothing?
I am really looking forward to some vacation time
Thursday, July 08, 2010
I got Subway tonight
12 inch Chicken breast on white
- lettuce, tomato, onion, honey mustard
1 bag of baked lays bbq chips
It tasted awesome! Then after I ate it, I didn't feel so good. I don't know why, but I felt super sick. I ended up throwing up (not on purpose!) and then I felt fine. I think I might have ate to much to fast or something? At any rate, it was delish, and I will be getting it again, but I think next time, I will get a 6 inch.
Still hot and crappy outside. I feel bloated and nasty because of it. I hate this weather. I can't wait until it snows! Yay! I love the cold.
My boyfriend left for work tonight, so he will be gone until Friday. Tomorrow and Friday I plan on Disco Sweat since I will be at my house. I am getting together with my friend Katie tomorrow and I am making us this most awesome desert I got from Weight Watchers eons ago (circa 1995) and we are going to have dinner, and some desert and chill out. I want to go to Wegman's grocery store too. They always have a lot of stuff I can't find anywhere else. I read about this stuff called Better Than Peanut Butter, and I want to give it a try. I have heard it is really good, and I have heard it is nasty. I would like to give it a try though.
Sometimes I feel like I am not doing enough. I love Lean Pockets. I eat one almost every day for lunch, usually with a piece of fruit. A girl I work with today told me that I shouldn't eat them. When I asked why, she said the sodium. Ok, I get that sodium isn't that great for you, but neither is the hormones and antibiotics that are used in meat and milk production? I was actually a vegetarian for a pretty long time. Well, I am losing, so I will continue to enjoy my lean pocket.
Right now, I could use some major sleepy time
Wednesday, July 07, 2010
So, I flipped out on the copy machine at work today. It kept getting jammed, and I was already at maximum stress level, and that just set me off. I am sure I looked like a total dork kicking the copy machine (in open toed heels) and cursing at it. The only thing I could think after I stormed out of the room and threw the papers on my supervisor's desk and said "You do it!"
is that famous line from Office Space "PC Loadletter? What the f@$% does that mean?" I then started laughing to myself.
So, I am obsessing over Subway - I was craving it so bad tonight, that I almost went and got a sub (even after I ate my dinner!) but I distracted myself, and did some research. I am going to eat light tomorrow, and save up some calories so that I can "splurge" in a Roasted Chicken Sub w/ lettuce, tomato, onion and honey mustard dressing. I factored in how much it plus a bag of baked chips would be, so I will keep it to a light lunch, and light snack so that I may indulge in it.
I didn't go for a walk today. It was to hot out. It was hotter than yesterday, and the humidity was even worse. I walked outside, and it felt like I was walking into a blast furnace. Holy crow! When I am at my boyfriend's my only option for exercise is to walk because there is no where for me to do any thing else. I am thinking about hooking up my old TV/VCR combo in the garage, but it is just as hot in there as outside if not worse.
Next week, I am on vacation
Tuesday, July 06, 2010
Got on the scales today
I wasn't impressed. I mean, I will take any loss, but that wasn't so good. Then looking back through my journal, I realized that I really haven't been doing that great with what I am eating. I haven't been drinking my water, and I only Disco-Sweated maybe twice. Because the weather is so darn hot, I haven't been walking. The McDonalds didn't help.
I went to a picnic at my grandmother's on Friday - I didn't over eat... well sort of... then it was Creekside Saturday - and I do not have the will power to resist - and the question is brought up... can you really call it a salad when it weighs 3 pounds?
Then I was totally on the right track today -
2 slices of sprout bread toasted
w/ 1 tbs pbutter divided
tea w/ 1 level tsp raw sugar and 1 tbs skim milk
1 lean pocket
1 cup chicken and rice soup (campbells healthy request)
- 3oz chicken, 1/3 cup dried cranberries, 1/4 cup gorgonzola cheese, lettuce, tomato and onion
- sugar-free Jello
Honey Wheat Pretzels
- not bad I think-
Then Dave called and said "Hey Cortney, I just got a meat pizza from Fox's - come on over and have some"
I couldn't resist. I don't know why. After I ate it, I felt horrible. I was so mad at myself. It has honestly been a long time since I have been that angry at myself for eating something. Usually, I just say OH WELL, and move on, but I beat myself up over this. I don't know why, but I am determined to do better tomorrow. I even went for a walk today in the heat. 93 degrees. I plan on doing it again tomorrow. I figure if those Amish guys can be out in the fields working in long pants and shirts, my fat tookiss can walk a mile. It made me feel a lot better too.
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