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dishwater coffee

Friday, October 28, 2011

most people make what I refer to as dishwater coffee. It is like brown water. My mother and grandmother are famous for this. They use 2 scoops for an entire pot (which would equal out to less than 1/4 cup) in a standard pot, I use about 1/2 cup for a full pot, in my french press I use 3 tablespoons for 2 cups. I use more coffee for 2 cups than they do for an entire pot!

When I drink coffee, I like flavor. I like to taste it. I don't see the point of drinking it if you can't taste it?

I think that is all for now

  
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LUVYA04 10/28/2011 2:57PM

    emoticon Guilty But i don't drink coffee either

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NURSNANA 10/28/2011 2:08PM

    Great blog! I hate weak coffee! I have a Keurig now, and have had to try a lot of K-cups to find some that are strong enough for me. I look forward to my delicious mug of rich coffee each morning! My husband likes the weak stuff, so now we are both happy! :)

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CATLADYX8 10/28/2011 1:07PM

    I use 3 scoops for 9 cups. The 9 cups is the marking on the pot, but it really makes 4 mugs. I like to taste my coffee too. I especially like Colombian coffee.

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God Complex?

Monday, October 24, 2011

For my psych evaluation I had to fill out a questionnaire. It listed a bunch of feelings and they wanted to know if I felt any of those feelings in the last 2 weeks or within the last 2 years. The majority of them I checked YES to because, while I am devoid of many emotions and feelings, I still do have some. Most of them were basic human emotions that everyone (myself included) feels at some point.

Then it wanted to know...
Do you ever feel on top of the world?
Do you ever feel like you are god or god-like?
Do you ever feel like hurting yourself?
Do you envision you own death?
Do you have thoughts of suicide?
Do you want to do harm to others?

Of course I am the furthest thing from suicidal - homicidal... well, I guess that depends on the day (kidding really) but I guess I get those questions. I seriously did laugh at the God like thing. I think that has something to do with bi-polar disorder or something, but it gave me a chuckle.

The good news is, the psychologist has found no mental reason why I can not have surgery. He says I am mentally a-ok (imagine that?!?!)

My gym contract is now up, and I am not sure what I am going to be doing yet. I haven't been using it anyway. I have been opting for walking and bike riding. I like being out doors this time of year. I wish I could just get a gym membership for the summer months... like April through September. I like walking and such in the colder weather. I plan on riding my bike even when there is snow on the ground provided the roads are clear.

Anyway, I went to the doctors today and she prescribed me Adipex. She gave me enough for 45 days which is all she is permitted to by law. That is fine with me. I know the insurance company is going to require that I try taking them, so I figured we would get that out of the way now. I have taken them before, and have had minimal success. Honestly, I don't even think I am going to get them filled.they do a host of things to my body, none of which are positive. To be honest, the insurance company won't know if I get them filled or not since they won't pay for them. All I have to tell the doctor is that they made me mean and extremely irritable (which is not a lie) and that it made my heart do funny things (again, not a lie) and that should be all I have to do.

It kind of irritates me that the insurance company would require me to try something like Adipex or other diet drugs, that are harmful and potentially addictive. I guess they look at it like it is a cheaper solution. Who cares if it is a harmful one?

*sigh*

I think that is all for now

  


My visit with the dietician

Sunday, October 16, 2011

My visit with the RD was a little bit lame. She asked me a bunch of questions. We discussed what I eat in a day, and she was pretty impressed with my eating habits. I didn't lie to her. I told her that there are days when I eat complete crap. There are days when I eat frozen pizza and ice cream from the carton. However, more often that not, I opt to cook my meals, eat whole foods, and take it easy on the junk.

She asked me what is the one food I could not live without. It took me a while to think about it, and when I finally answered her, I said FRUIT. She looked very strangely at me. Then she said, Fruit? In the form of a question. I answered with "Yes, fruit" and she started laughing. She looked thoughtful for a moment then and asked, "You would be ok with giving up chocolate cake and ice cream?" I looked at her and said, "well, can I have peanut butter?" she replied with "yes" - and I told her I would be perfectly fine with it then. She chuckled and said, "I think you are going to do just fine with this Cortney, I really do."

Next I go for my psych evaluation. I am looking forward to it. Of course my insurance won't cover it because they suck, but if I keep doing everything I am supposed to, they will cover my surgery.

I am making an awesome chili tonight for dinner. You should all be jealous :0)

I went to ride my bike the other day, and I ended up oversleeping. I didn't have time for a ride which bummed me out since I specifically drove my boyfriend's truck home from work (not the easiest truck to drive either) so I could load up my bike and go for a ride. I hate not having anywhere to ride it. Oh well, I am sure we will be able to get another ride or two in before winter.

My gym membership expires this month, and I will not be renewing it at my current gym. I like my gym (despite the unfriendly people) however, I am not driving 30 miles and wasting fuel to go there. I am going to join a gym that is about 1/4 mile from my work. I have to drive past it to get there and go home. Plus I get a discount. I am not sure if I am going to join right away though. I need to save money for co pays and deductibles for my surgery. In the meantime, I can walk, ride my bike and Work out with Richard.

I think that is all for now

  


Leroy and Lucy

Monday, October 10, 2011

I haven't blogged in a very long time. I plan on making a nice long entry after my appointment with the Registered Dietitian tomorrow. However, for now, here is a pic of my adorable babies



  
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MRE1956 10/11/2011 11:57AM

    Awwww.....sweet kitties!

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MARYLQ11 10/10/2011 12:44PM

  Cute!111

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Friend-less

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Sometimes, not having a lot of friends blows. It sucks that the few I do have either don't live close to me, or don't really have the means to communicate with me on a regular basis.

Right now, I am feeling a little sad. There was this guy I used to work with all of the time and I pretty much considered him family. He was a genuine good old boy, born and bred in the hills of Kentucky (in fact he lived very close to Bill Monroe). An old truck driver, he was close friends with the owner of my company. He had a small fleet of drivers that I helped him manage. Over the years, we got to be very close. A few years back his wife suffered a stroke and he had to give up most of his hobbies to take care of her. Apparently, a few months ago he fell and broke his hip, and now he is in a nursing home recovering.

First, I can't believe no one told me. Everyone I work with knows how close I am to him, and no one bothered to tell me. Then again, I am upset with myself because I should have kept in better contact with him. We are going to give him a call today after things calm down.

I attended a seminar of the Weight Loss surgery, and I have decided that I am going to go on ahead with it. I have gained 4 pounds despite eating my 1500 calories a day or less, and continuing with exercise. I am under the firm belief that when I used CHANTIX to help me stop smoking, it screwed something up in my body that doesn't seem fixable. When I say I can't lose weight, I really and truly mean that. Everyone seems to offer suggestions (eat more fiber, eat less carbs, do more strength training, do more cardio... do this, do that) but none of it seems to work with my body. I have been working at this for over a year and a half and have basically gotten no where.

A few years ago (way before I quit smoking) I joined curves and started eating less junk. I went from weighing 230 pounds to weighing 212 in a matter of a few months. Then I lost interest in doing that and went back to old eating habits. Despite eating at Mcdonalds, Burger King, Subway (the non-low-fat choices), pizza, frozen junk, oreos and bags of potato chips as snacks, I was able to maintain that weight. I should also mention I drank, on average, a 2 liter of regular Mt Dew a day, a gallon of wine a week, some beer, some Jack Daniels, and what ever other drinks sounded good on a Saturday night. Of course, with hanging out at bars every weekend, came with it, the yummy, fired bar food, and yet I still maintained that weight. Some times I would weight 215, 220, 212, 210... but the weight stayed with in the same range most of the time.

When I started taking CHANTIX and quit smoking, I went from weighing appx 212 pounds to weighing 250 in a matter of months. I started changing my eating habits and went for a mile walk once a day. I went from 250 to 242 pounds in a week. I was so excited! The next week I went from 242 to 242. At one point I made it down to 229, then it went back up to 235, despite doing what I was supposed to do. I joined the gym and worked my ass off. The first month, I went 5-6 times a week. I did apex 1 hour of hard cardio exercise 5 days a week, plus strength training 3 times a week. I gave myself 1 month before I weighed myself. I went from 235 to 234.6.

To make a long story short, nothing is really working. I have spent hundreds of dollars on gym memberships and personal trainers. I have done weight watchers, spark, atkins... with no results. I still continue to eat my 1500 calories a day or less. I still continue to exercise, but I have decided that WLS is the way to go for me. I meet with my Family doctor on Monday to start the process. I have an appointment with an RD on 10/11. I will also need to get a psych evaluation, which I am actually looking forward to.

I think that is all for now...

ps: I should also mention that I have also spent about $1000 dollars getting blood work done. I have had thyroid, cortisol, hormone levels checked. I have been checked for PCOS (which I don't have) and everything has come back normal. So, I know there is nothing medically wrong (or at least that they can find) so... I thought I would add that

  
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2BFREE2LIVE 9/26/2011 3:32AM

    Well all I can say is it sounds like you have made up your mind to do this surgery so I won't bother to ask any questions of you.
Please do your research as I know a person who has done the lap band and she gets to eat 2 oz. of some kind of baby food four times a day. Does not seem like enough to keep her alive, she is losing but slowly as she has no energy to do any exercise.

I started my journey before I joined Sparks and my starting weight was over 260 and same as you I was a smoker and took the Chantix to stop smoking and it made me want to drink more and I became an alcoholic that was bad enough until the Doctor gave me my death sentence he told me I had a month to live if I did not stop over eating and drinking so much.
Well I guess you know I changed my life and I am here today to tell you I weigh 119 pounds and it took me three years to lose but I did it the old fashioned way by counting my calories and eating healthy and exercising every day. I am 60 years old and have maintained my weight for almost three years now and feel like I am thirty.
Best wishes with your life and the decision you make about how to lose the weight. Sandy

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FREETHEGODDESS 9/25/2011 6:38PM

    Thanks for clarifying. I have come across some people on this website that either eat more than they say they do or don't really exercise with intensity or something else is going on that is causing them not to lose weight. Basically, they are not being honest with themselves.

I just wanted you to be really sure before choosing surgery because it is a permanent deformation of your body and there can be complications. If you really believe it is right for you than I am on your side. I really hope it works for you.

Best wishes!

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CORTNEY-LEE 9/25/2011 5:09PM

    I don't really talk to people at my gym. Most of them are either 1000 years old or are arrogant meatheads who are too involved in themselves and their flexing to carry on a conversation that doesn't involve protein shakes and the best way to work your delts. The women are at best... the same way. Unfriendly, snooty and condescending. I don't care to associate myself with people like that.

I think my entry may have misled you into thinking I still consume alcohol. My point was I used to drink all of the time, and I no longer drink. I had a beer last Wednesday and that was the first beer I had drank in over a month. On average I have 0-1 alcoholic beverages per month. I drink mostly water, with one cup of coffee (w/ 2 tablespoons of ff half and half) and usually 1-2 cups of hot tea.

I eat a lot of fresh, whole foods. I opt to cook 80% of the time. I am going to admit, that sometimes I eat crap, but more often than not, I am eating pretty good stuff. Fruits and veggies are my fave. I try to have at least 2 servings of fruit per day and 5 servings of veggies. I prefer them raw, but will eat cooked. I don't eat a lot of white potatoes, but enjoy sweet potatoes with meals on occasion.

I am not saying that it will work, but neither has anything else, so to me, it is worth a shot. WLS sounds like a better alternative than dying. In the end, that is really what it is all about

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FREETHEGODDESS 9/25/2011 4:29PM

    I am sorry about your friend and your feelings of loneliness you have. I have met some nice ladies at my Zumba class and plan to walk with them one day a week. I also met a Sparkbuddy on this website that ended up living 3 miles from my house. My other good friend I met helping out at school and sport functions.

There are ways to meet people. Start talking to someone at your gym when you workout or get involved in a hobby group.

I am also wondering how you know that the surgery will work for you. If you are eating the calorie range you say and exercising and can't lose weight, how will having a small stomach change the fact that eating 1200 calories doesn't seem to help you lose weight?

Also, are you eating lots of healthy fruits and veggies along with 8 glasses of water or are you eating a little of this and that and drinking the rest of the calories in alcohol? It just doesn't add up.

I would hate to see someone get surgery only to be disappointed that it didn't magically fix the problem.

I wish you all the best and support your decision for surgery IF you have made an honest 110% attempt to lose weight the healthy way. I mean no disrespect. I just want you to take an honest look at yourself before you decide to have surgery.

Good luck on your journey!

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CORTNEY-LEE 9/25/2011 10:07AM

    yes, I forgot to mention that I have had everything you can imagine checked with blood work... thyroid, cortisol, hormone levels... and everything came back totally normal.

It has been 1.5 years since I have weighed 250 pounds. In that time, I have stuck to a restricted calorie program (for the most part, there have been days where I went over of course, but nothing that would totally wreck my weight loss efforts) and an exercise program. Nothing works. I should be either at, or very close to my goal weight by now, but I still have almost 100 pounds to get there.


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LOSEITLINDSAY 9/25/2011 9:53AM

    First, I just want to ask: when did you start working on the weight once you hit 250? How long has it been? Have you had your thyroid checked?

Personally, I am down to 234 from 247, and it is slow progress, but it's progress.

Second, I want to say that I hope that your friend is out of the nursing home as soon as possible. Maybe this is a good opportunity to strengthen that relationship. And, don't forget that good friends may be hard to come by, but they are out there. You just have to put yourself out there to meet them.

I wish you the best of luck with these challenges. Be easy on yourself.



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