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Life effing sucks right now

Monday, October 31, 2011

I am so upset. My poor little Lucy Cat is very sick and she might not make it.

She was fine on Saturday. We were on the bed playing and snuggling. Then we went out to dinner, and when we came back 3 1/2 hours later to find she had thrown up multiple times. Everything went downhill from there.

We called in the vet on an emergency call on Sunday. They gave her fluids and a shot and sent her home. She got progressively worse over night, and I had to take her back today.

They kept her and promised me they would do everything they could for her.

Two weeks after I brought her home from the shelter, they called me checking on her. There was an outbreak of feline distemper. She had exhibited no signs of it, so I assumed she was fine. That was appx 2 months ago.

The vet thinks it is possible that she had the virus and that it is just now coming out. Although everything I have read seems to contradict that, it seems like it is the only thing plausible.

She was so weak she couldn't stand, and could barely move. The vet took some blood so we could rule out Feline Leukemia (which I couldn't remember if she was tested for at the shelter or not) and she had some x-rays to rule out ingesting of any forigen object or poisonous substance. All of those things came back clear. So now they are forcing fluids hoping to rehydrate her and go from there. They are going to take another x-ray tomorrow to see if anything has changed.

I am so sad. I keep crying. This isn't fair. I do everything I am supposed to do. I take excellent care of my cats. They go to the vet when they are supposed to. They are fixed. They have all of their shots. Then you have people who have animals and don't take care of them. Leave them outside, abandon them and they are fine.

I feel so bad because all Lucy wanted was someone to love her. She was a poor little stray that someone dumped off and no one wanted. I took her in, I gave her a home and all of the love she could ever want.

I think that is all for now, because I can't write about this anymore.

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-POOKIE- 11/2/2011 10:23AM

    Im so so sorry, you are such a loving kitty-mama like me and it breaks my heart thinking how she was so unwanted and you happily helped her... and now this.

I hope things go for the best for her x

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SHELLYKOCH1 11/1/2011 3:22PM

    Our fur babies are as much a part of our lives as our children. Lucy is so lucky to have found you. My prayers are with both you and Lucy.


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WOLFSPIRITMOM 11/1/2011 11:31AM

    I know the feeling, had to take one of our dogs in to the vet for an operation on Monday too.

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JBINAUSTIN 11/1/2011 8:20AM

    I hope Lucy Cat gets better soon. If not, remember that she had 2 months of love in the great home you gave her, which was a precious gift for a stray kitty. Remembering won't make your loss any easier and it won't make any of this seem fair (it's not), but I just want to remind you that great good came from her short stay.

Let's pray she comes home to enjoy more love.

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ANGELSANDYBABY 10/31/2011 11:38PM

    I'm so sorry. I hope she will be okay.

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SCOTTGARAN 10/31/2011 9:47PM



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dishwater coffee

Friday, October 28, 2011

most people make what I refer to as dishwater coffee. It is like brown water. My mother and grandmother are famous for this. They use 2 scoops for an entire pot (which would equal out to less than 1/4 cup) in a standard pot, I use about 1/2 cup for a full pot, in my french press I use 3 tablespoons for 2 cups. I use more coffee for 2 cups than they do for an entire pot!

When I drink coffee, I like flavor. I like to taste it. I don't see the point of drinking it if you can't taste it?

I think that is all for now

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LUVYA04 10/28/2011 2:57PM

    emoticon Guilty But i don't drink coffee either

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NURSNANA 10/28/2011 2:08PM

    Great blog! I hate weak coffee! I have a Keurig now, and have had to try a lot of K-cups to find some that are strong enough for me. I look forward to my delicious mug of rich coffee each morning! My husband likes the weak stuff, so now we are both happy! :)

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CATLADYX8 10/28/2011 1:07PM

    I use 3 scoops for 9 cups. The 9 cups is the marking on the pot, but it really makes 4 mugs. I like to taste my coffee too. I especially like Colombian coffee.

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God Complex?

Monday, October 24, 2011

For my psych evaluation I had to fill out a questionnaire. It listed a bunch of feelings and they wanted to know if I felt any of those feelings in the last 2 weeks or within the last 2 years. The majority of them I checked YES to because, while I am devoid of many emotions and feelings, I still do have some. Most of them were basic human emotions that everyone (myself included) feels at some point.

Then it wanted to know...
Do you ever feel on top of the world?
Do you ever feel like you are god or god-like?
Do you ever feel like hurting yourself?
Do you envision you own death?
Do you have thoughts of suicide?
Do you want to do harm to others?

Of course I am the furthest thing from suicidal - homicidal... well, I guess that depends on the day (kidding really) but I guess I get those questions. I seriously did laugh at the God like thing. I think that has something to do with bi-polar disorder or something, but it gave me a chuckle.

The good news is, the psychologist has found no mental reason why I can not have surgery. He says I am mentally a-ok (imagine that?!?!)

My gym contract is now up, and I am not sure what I am going to be doing yet. I haven't been using it anyway. I have been opting for walking and bike riding. I like being out doors this time of year. I wish I could just get a gym membership for the summer months... like April through September. I like walking and such in the colder weather. I plan on riding my bike even when there is snow on the ground provided the roads are clear.

Anyway, I went to the doctors today and she prescribed me Adipex. She gave me enough for 45 days which is all she is permitted to by law. That is fine with me. I know the insurance company is going to require that I try taking them, so I figured we would get that out of the way now. I have taken them before, and have had minimal success. Honestly, I don't even think I am going to get them filled.they do a host of things to my body, none of which are positive. To be honest, the insurance company won't know if I get them filled or not since they won't pay for them. All I have to tell the doctor is that they made me mean and extremely irritable (which is not a lie) and that it made my heart do funny things (again, not a lie) and that should be all I have to do.

It kind of irritates me that the insurance company would require me to try something like Adipex or other diet drugs, that are harmful and potentially addictive. I guess they look at it like it is a cheaper solution. Who cares if it is a harmful one?


I think that is all for now


My visit with the dietician

Sunday, October 16, 2011

My visit with the RD was a little bit lame. She asked me a bunch of questions. We discussed what I eat in a day, and she was pretty impressed with my eating habits. I didn't lie to her. I told her that there are days when I eat complete crap. There are days when I eat frozen pizza and ice cream from the carton. However, more often that not, I opt to cook my meals, eat whole foods, and take it easy on the junk.

She asked me what is the one food I could not live without. It took me a while to think about it, and when I finally answered her, I said FRUIT. She looked very strangely at me. Then she said, Fruit? In the form of a question. I answered with "Yes, fruit" and she started laughing. She looked thoughtful for a moment then and asked, "You would be ok with giving up chocolate cake and ice cream?" I looked at her and said, "well, can I have peanut butter?" she replied with "yes" - and I told her I would be perfectly fine with it then. She chuckled and said, "I think you are going to do just fine with this Cortney, I really do."

Next I go for my psych evaluation. I am looking forward to it. Of course my insurance won't cover it because they suck, but if I keep doing everything I am supposed to, they will cover my surgery.

I am making an awesome chili tonight for dinner. You should all be jealous :0)

I went to ride my bike the other day, and I ended up oversleeping. I didn't have time for a ride which bummed me out since I specifically drove my boyfriend's truck home from work (not the easiest truck to drive either) so I could load up my bike and go for a ride. I hate not having anywhere to ride it. Oh well, I am sure we will be able to get another ride or two in before winter.

My gym membership expires this month, and I will not be renewing it at my current gym. I like my gym (despite the unfriendly people) however, I am not driving 30 miles and wasting fuel to go there. I am going to join a gym that is about 1/4 mile from my work. I have to drive past it to get there and go home. Plus I get a discount. I am not sure if I am going to join right away though. I need to save money for co pays and deductibles for my surgery. In the meantime, I can walk, ride my bike and Work out with Richard.

I think that is all for now


Leroy and Lucy

Monday, October 10, 2011

I haven't blogged in a very long time. I plan on making a nice long entry after my appointment with the Registered Dietitian tomorrow. However, for now, here is a pic of my adorable babies

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MRE1956 10/11/2011 11:57AM

    Awwww.....sweet kitties!

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