Sunday, September 25, 2011
Sometimes, not having a lot of friends blows. It sucks that the few I do have either don't live close to me, or don't really have the means to communicate with me on a regular basis.
Right now, I am feeling a little sad. There was this guy I used to work with all of the time and I pretty much considered him family. He was a genuine good old boy, born and bred in the hills of Kentucky (in fact he lived very close to Bill Monroe). An old truck driver, he was close friends with the owner of my company. He had a small fleet of drivers that I helped him manage. Over the years, we got to be very close. A few years back his wife suffered a stroke and he had to give up most of his hobbies to take care of her. Apparently, a few months ago he fell and broke his hip, and now he is in a nursing home recovering.
First, I can't believe no one told me. Everyone I work with knows how close I am to him, and no one bothered to tell me. Then again, I am upset with myself because I should have kept in better contact with him. We are going to give him a call today after things calm down.
I attended a seminar of the Weight Loss surgery, and I have decided that I am going to go on ahead with it. I have gained 4 pounds despite eating my 1500 calories a day or less, and continuing with exercise. I am under the firm belief that when I used CHANTIX to help me stop smoking, it screwed something up in my body that doesn't seem fixable. When I say I can't lose weight, I really and truly mean that. Everyone seems to offer suggestions (eat more fiber, eat less carbs, do more strength training, do more cardio... do this, do that) but none of it seems to work with my body. I have been working at this for over a year and a half and have basically gotten no where.
A few years ago (way before I quit smoking) I joined curves and started eating less junk. I went from weighing 230 pounds to weighing 212 in a matter of a few months. Then I lost interest in doing that and went back to old eating habits. Despite eating at Mcdonalds, Burger King, Subway (the non-low-fat choices), pizza, frozen junk, oreos and bags of potato chips as snacks, I was able to maintain that weight. I should also mention I drank, on average, a 2 liter of regular Mt Dew a day, a gallon of wine a week, some beer, some Jack Daniels, and what ever other drinks sounded good on a Saturday night. Of course, with hanging out at bars every weekend, came with it, the yummy, fired bar food, and yet I still maintained that weight. Some times I would weight 215, 220, 212, 210... but the weight stayed with in the same range most of the time.
When I started taking CHANTIX and quit smoking, I went from weighing appx 212 pounds to weighing 250 in a matter of months. I started changing my eating habits and went for a mile walk once a day. I went from 250 to 242 pounds in a week. I was so excited! The next week I went from 242 to 242. At one point I made it down to 229, then it went back up to 235, despite doing what I was supposed to do. I joined the gym and worked my ass off. The first month, I went 5-6 times a week. I did apex 1 hour of hard cardio exercise 5 days a week, plus strength training 3 times a week. I gave myself 1 month before I weighed myself. I went from 235 to 234.6.
To make a long story short, nothing is really working. I have spent hundreds of dollars on gym memberships and personal trainers. I have done weight watchers, spark, atkins... with no results. I still continue to eat my 1500 calories a day or less. I still continue to exercise, but I have decided that WLS is the way to go for me. I meet with my Family doctor on Monday to start the process. I have an appointment with an RD on 10/11. I will also need to get a psych evaluation, which I am actually looking forward to.
I think that is all for now...
ps: I should also mention that I have also spent about $1000 dollars getting blood work done. I have had thyroid, cortisol, hormone levels checked. I have been checked for PCOS (which I don't have) and everything has come back normal. So, I know there is nothing medically wrong (or at least that they can find) so... I thought I would add that
Friday, September 09, 2011
I love the never ending pasta bowl at Olive Garden. My fave combo is whole wheat linguine with marinara sauce.
One might not think the NEPB is very "diet" friendly... but it can be. First, it is cheaper than any other dish on the menu. $8.95 vs the $10.95 for the standard price for Linguine Marinara. Second, they offer whole wheat pasta in addition to other selections. Third, the portion is smaller. So, you can spend $10.95 and waste half of it, or you can spend $8.95 and not waste any.
If you have once serving of the whole wheat linguine with marinara you are looking at a meal that is under 400 calories since the standard dinner portion has 430 calories, and this portion is smaller.
Personally, I don't care about "carbs" because decreasing carbs doesn't help me lose weight.
I go on the 21st for a seminar about weight loss surgery. Providing I qualify, I am going to go for it. The bottom line is I have tried everything under the sun to lose weight and it just won't come off. I have increased exercise, I have decreased it. I have added various cardio and strength training exercises, I have increased calories, decreased calories, cut carbs, cut fat, added carbs, added fat, upped protein, cut back on protein... the bottom line is nothing works. It has taken me almost a year and half to lose less than 20 pounds.
I have had all of the blood work you can think of... everything under the sun has been checked and it all comes back normal. My thyroid is normal. Everything is normal, except my Cortisol level was SLIGHTLY elevated, but anything could have contributed to that. Since normal is between 4-19 and mine was 21, the fact I was flipping out about getting blood taken might have been the reason.
I still haven't made up my mine 100%, but it is looking that way,
I think that is all for now
Thursday, September 01, 2011
I was woken up this morning by the cat at 6am. I am not exactly sure what he wanted? He had food, he had water, but he wanted me up for some reason. I felt bad, but I had to toss him out of the room because he kept carrying on.
Then it started storming. The sound of the thunder shook the house! I finally gave up sleeping around 10:00. It has been dreary and raining all morning, so I decided to have some good old fashioned comfort food for breakfast. I made a nice cup of hot black tea and whole wheat toast with peanut butter on one slice and chunky almond butter on another. What an awesome breakfast.
I have to go back to work today, but I am ok with that. I volunteered to work on my Saturday off for some extra pay. I want to get my savings account built back up since I bought my bike. It wiped me out. Also, if I decide to go through with surgery, I am going to need money for copays and deductibles.
I am still unsure about getting another cat. I just don't know what to do. I don't want the poor thing to sit in the shelter, but I am not sure how leroy will get along with another cat. He is quite the spoiled little thing. I guess I should call and talk to them first.
I think that is all for now
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