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Tuesday, May 03, 2011

Every month, our HR department at work gives out a little newsletter titled HR Highlights. Usually there are little articles and anniversaries. This moths article is entitled ARE YOU A FOOD ADDICT and reading over the criteria, I fit all of them. So, I guess I am addicted to food.

I associate food with all types of emotions. I eat when I am happy as a celebration, I eat when I am sad as a comfort, I eat when I have nothing better to do. I eat and eat some more.

I am trying very hard to break this obsession, but it is really hard. It makes it very difficult when I have to track food. The more I track, the more obsessed I become, sometimes tracking days in advance and planning every point (weight watchers) to a T.

Sometimes it is like all of this obsessing is my hobby. You know how some people knit, some people sew or scrap book? Well, I track food. I think it is more than that though. Like I said, it is an obsession bordering on OCD.

The sad part about it is all this obsessing and all of this tracking get me nowhere.

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CORTNEY-LEE 5/5/2011 7:06PM

    I have tried every variation of every way of eating you can think of and it has gotten me nowhere. I have tried restricted calories (800-1000 a day) restricted carbs, restricted fats, everything you can think of and I am sure a few that you can't.

ever since I quit smoking, my body has just been all whacked out and there is nothing I can do to make it work right. Of course I am sure years of purging and diet pills aren't really helping my cause either, but who knows.

I am really not sure what other food choices I can really make. I have found that if I cut out things, then I crave them, which sets off a horrible cycle of binging and purging, so I find that is not really the best method. I eat lean proteins(mostly chicken and fish, but red meat maybe once a week) whole grains, lots of fresh veggies, some fruits, things like cottage cheese, low fat string cheese and a few other odds and ends. I am not really big on dairy, but do try to gag down at least 1 cup of fat free milk per day. I have tried greek yogurt and vomited, regular yogurt makes me gag, so I am limited on what i can do in the dairy department.

Thanks for your input

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TUBLADY 5/5/2011 6:40PM

    If you are tracking and getting no where, then you might be eating the wrong foods.
If you are not making the correct choices, you can track all day long and it won't help you lose. Only point out that you are eating too much.
When I first got started I planned ahead, it was easier that way, I knew what i was supposed to eat and it worked.
Now i track meals everyday, but i usually eat them first.
I have learned what to eat and how much.
I sometimes think I went from being a food addict to a food tracker, exerciser addict. But i will take the later any day. i have lost 170 lbs, ware a size 10 from a 4X and feel great.
I think in time, I will become less obsessive about what i eat. But for now, it's keeping me on track.
take care, good luck. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CORTNEY-LEE 5/3/2011 11:02PM

    Ohh Scott have no fear! I work out every chance I get! I love the gym. I love cardio. If I am not dragging myself out of the gym, then I didn't work hard enough.

All of my work, doesn't really get results. Check out the blog I wrote yesterday "Whooo Hooo for gaining weight" and you will see what I mean

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SCOTTGARAN 5/3/2011 10:56PM

    If you have an addictive personality, maybe you can switch to being addicted to working out!

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whooo hooo for gaining weight!

Tuesday, May 03, 2011

I weighed in today. I gained 0.4 pounds. I would like to know how the fffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff that happened? I almost started to cry. I was so upset. It just goes to prove, that no matter what I do, I can't lose weight.

I have tried every variation of everything I can think of. I have added calories, subtracted calories, worked out more, worked out less, added carbs, took out carbs, upped protein... everything I can possibly think of, and I get no where.

I have gone to the doctor, and I have gotten no where. She tested my thyroid and it came back fine. She basically told me that I don't have a medical issue, I am just fat and I need to stop eating.

I go to the gym at least three times a week. Each gym session burns between 450-550 calories depending on what I decide to do that day. I always do a minimum of 20 mins on the elliptical. Sometimes, I go with a different variation of the elliptical, or I use the recumbent bike. Sometimes I go to the gym more often, but it is at least three times a week. Everyone says incorporate strength training. I have and once again, have not gotten anywhere. So, I tried just cardio and that isn't getting me anywhere.

I am so frustrated I just don't know what to do. One last option I have is to be checked for PCOS , which I am sure at one point my gyno said I had, but I could be wrong. I don't remember. If that is the case, there is medication they can give me to help me lose weight. I do not want to take diet pills, however, this isn't a diet pill. It is something to do with my insulin.

I must say, that the fact I gained weight, *almost* set off a binge. I almost went to the Mcdonalds drive thru and gorged on cheeseburgers and fries, but I didn't. I went to the gym. I worked hard at the gym. I felt a lot better.

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TUBLADY 5/5/2011 12:05AM

    Sorry that you gained.
Could it be fluid.
It's possible that your body is retaining fluid.
have that checked out.
I used to had to take water pills for quite a while.
Other than that reevaluate just what you are eating.
maybe the combination of foods you are eating is not right.
i found that out. I have to put certain foods together. Too many carbs and i gain.
Usually unless it's fluid, weight gain is too many calories.
Tweak your food plan some, or pick a established eating plan and follow it, then see where you are in weight.
I do know I can eat no where the amount of calories that are listed for my height, etc. i would gain in a minute.
i have a dietitian and doctor that believe in the low end of a calorie food plan, so I don't eat over 1000 calories a day. Or if I am over its no more than 50 calories.
This way with exercise i lose 1 or 2 lbs a week, now.
Earlier I lost 3 and 4 lbs a week.
So see whats up and don't ever give up.
There is a plan out there somewhere that will give you the success you seek.
Tisha emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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-POOKIE- 5/3/2011 4:36AM

    Well done for resisting that and going and doing something constructive instead.

as you say, you have tried so much, I dont know what to suggest other than getting the PCOS checked out as you already are going to.

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STINKYBICHEZ 5/3/2011 4:10AM

    Hey, I'm so sorry that you gained weight... I know how hard you're trying, and you deserve to see results. I am happy to hear that you did not go on a binge. That probably took a lot of will power. Good work. Just keep trying. I know you can do it.

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Weigh in Anxiety

Sunday, May 01, 2011

Tomorrow is my weigh in day, and I am feeling anxious. I know that I stayed within my ranges for the week. I know I exercised. I did everything I was supposed to do, except for today I didn't drink all of my fluid (talk more about that later)

I am hoping to see another drop. I am not picky. Anything on the negative side will do, but I am hoping for at least a pound.

I am having trouble meeting my fluid intake on days that I do not work. When I am at work, I constantly drink water. Weight Watchers says that anything you drink, regardless of what it is, counts to your fluid intake. I only count water. In addition to my 8/8 everyday, I usually do have a few cups of coffee, and sometimes a glass of diet iced tea or sugar free lemonade. Once in a while I will have a diet soda (coke zero) but I am starting to find, that I really don't drink diet soda that much anymore.

I am also trying to figure out how to incorporate some more strength training into my workout. I am thinking I can go to the weight room three times a week and life some weights, but I really dislike it. Every time I go into the weight room I end up sick. I don't know why that is, but I do. Irregardless, I need to start strength training as much as I despise doing it. I just haven't figured out what I am going to do yet.

I have all of my food figured out for tomorrow already. Everything is made and entered in my tracker. The only thing I have to do tomorrow is eat.

I think that is all for now

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CORTNEY-LEE 5/1/2011 9:55PM

    Thanks for you advice. I actually worked with a trainer for 12 weeks, and while it was fun, with out her, I really don't have the motivation to do it. I would love to continue working with her, however at $25 a session, I really do not have the money to continue with it. Most of the classes that are available during my workout hours are for the Silver Sneakers program and have been designed for senior citizens.

Although, one class that is not focused on seniors and is available during my workout hours is a STEP aerobics class, which I think I will check out one of these days. It is once a week from 1200-1300

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SHARILKING 5/1/2011 9:01PM

  Speak to a trainer at the gym and ask about classes with strength training. Try a couple classes and see what you like and then if you don't continue classes you can incorporate it into your workouts. Good luck!!!

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and also staring Leroy

Sunday, May 01, 2011

a little tired -



Thursday, April 28, 2011

I really have the munchies tonight. I want to snack snack and snack some more!

Ohh, and there is coffee cake here at work. I love coffee cake

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-POOKIE- 4/29/2011 1:57AM

    *nods* and sometimes there is only so much willpower to refuse that you have... *sighs*

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CORTNEY-LEE 4/29/2011 1:33AM

    The good news is... I resisted the coffee cake. It is one of my faves though! Working does make things hard. Especially when all of your co-workers are eating awesome treats! I think the worst is when they offer you things, and you refuse them. It makes me feel kind of bad, like I don't want to hurt their feelings, but I have to do what is best for me too.

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-POOKIE- 4/29/2011 1:16AM

    I really hate when places like work have super tempting, super unhealthy snacks just laying about... its so much easier to avoid temptation when you are home, work just makes things hard.

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