Wednesday, April 06, 2011
I finally went to the doctor about not losing weight. I explained to her what I did, what I ate and all of that jazz. I brought her things from my personal trainer, showed her my food diary, my workout journal... her response? "I am not giving you diet pills"
Thanks Doc. I really appreciate that. Not only because I am pretty sure that years of you people shoving those at me has effected my ability to lose weight, but also because it shows me that you really paid attention to what I was talking to you about. I guess when i suggested that blood work would be a good idea, you were thinking about your lunch. I was there right about noon time.
The doctors other solution? Add a 1/2 hour of cardio to my hour that I already do, and don't eat anymore than 1000 to 1200 calories a day. If I didn't know better I think she was encouraging me to be anorexic. I almost asked if i should throw up after every meal too.
I have to say, I was REALLY disappointed in my doctor. Usually she listens to me, and helps me. This time around however, she was useless. I would think she would be proud of me and encouraging to me for trying to get fit and eat right. I mean, usually doctors will be the first people to tell you that you are fat (or obese if you want to play nice) but they won't do diddly poo to help or even offer any advice or give a referral somewhere that may help.
SO, I got my blood work, (had to lay down since i usually pass out) and everything was good except my white blood cell count and my vitamin D levels. I am not really sure about the white blood cell thing. I had to get more blood work done (which meant another trip to the doctor, more blood taken, which makes me feel all weird and sick) and I get those results back on Thursday. I did some research on Vitamin D levels, and apparently low levels can hinder weight loss efforts, however I am not getting my hopes up on that either. I got a prescription that I am to take once a week to help me with this.
I have been still hitting the gym, though not as frequently as I should. I don't really know what to say about that. I am averaging 2-3 times a week, when it should be 5. I don't know, I guess I am just frustrated and all of the effort I have put in has given me no results no matter what I do. It seems like I shouldn't even bother with this anymore and should just accept the fact I am fat and nothing is changing that. I also considered weight loss surgery, but i am not sure how my insurance works with that.
I think that is all for now
Saturday, March 12, 2011
Tuesday night at work was hard. By the end of the night I was exhausted and was looking forward to going home crawling in my bed and sleeping forever. When I left on Wednesday morning, I looked in my purse and my keys weren't in it. To make a long story short, I went to the gym to waste time until my boyfriend's parents were awake, so I could get the spare key from them. The good news is, I wasted time at the gym, so I got my work out in early.
I wish I could tell you that Wednesday was a good day, but it wasn't. I ate horribly. I started out good, but then it just went downhill and fast. I ate a 12 inch sub from Subway, a frozen pizza, a pint of ice cream and some cookies. I felt so mad at myself for eating all of that junk, i made myself sick and threw it up. Which I know doesn't help, and honestly throwing up jalapeņo peppers and hot sauce sucks. I know it was not a good thing to do, and I know it doesn't help anything. I don't even know why I did it. I mean, I haven't really had a problem with that since high school, early college days. I haven't done it in sooo long! So, then I was mad at myself for that.
I decided that I was going to just make up for it the next day and not get overly upset about it. I made up my mind that purging is NOT an option, and that it was foolish. So Thursday my day went pretty well. I ate within my calorie range, although I am not sure how many calories my homemade chili has in it. I tried using the Spark recipe calculator, but 1/2 of the stuff I use wasn't in the list, and I don't really measure anything, nor do I know how many servings I get out of a pot. I mean, it can't be to horrible. I use tomato sauce, onions, extra lean ground beef, black beans, red kidney beans and spices. When I make it for myself, or my family I use hot peppers, but my boyfriend isn't into the five alarm super spicy stuff, so I tone it down with him. I went to the gym around 8 that night and worked out while watching Big Bang Theory - I did an hour combined on the elliptical. I am also happy with myself as I turned up the resistance on the regular one, and set the incline higher on the cross ramp. Yay Me!
Friday was also a good day. I worked with my trainer (we only have 1 session left and I can't get anymore right now because I don't have the $$) and it was a really good workout. She had me doing these things and it was really easy? Like I didn't get why she was having me do this simple stuff? I guess today I know why. I am sore. My entire body hurts. My arms, my bum, where my abs are supposed to be...
My boyfriend and I went out for dinner, and I had the most awesome steak salad. I had them put the french fries on the side, as I don't really like fries on my salad, I didn't eat the bread, and only used 1 of the salad dressings. It was awesome. That is the only way I can describe this wonderful salad. We then went to Cold Stone Creamery and got ice cream. I had a gift card, so I figured I would use it. The combine total of our treats was over $10. I about fainted! There was hardly anything there! When I got home I looked online to get the calorie content and it was 810. There is NO WAY my treat was 810 calories. There was nothing to it! I mean, I would say maybe 500 and that is stretching it - the scoop of ice cream wasn't even a 1/2 cup (and I know how much a 1/2 cup of ice cream is!) I don't know what shocked me more, the calorie content, the price or the size. Admittedly I didn't NEED a large ice cream treat, but for the price I paid for it, I would expect more. It was really good though....
I think on Monday, I am going to go to a STEP class. I am not sure, I have to double check the time, but I am thinking about going. I mean, it can't hurt to check it out once, and Mondays are good days for me. It is just a basic class, so I am guessing it shouldn't be to difficult to follow. I don't mind exerting myself, I am just very uncoordinated, and I don't want to injure myself. Trust me, that is pretty easy!
I think that is all for now...
Tuesday, March 08, 2011
Good news! I think my metabolism has started to slowly work again. I am starving right now, so that is a good thing! I need to feel hungry. My trainer/nutrition something-or-other told me that being hungry is a sign my metabolism is working, especially if I have been feeding it - which I have been, so I am pretty excited about that.
Today's choices have been pretty good - I needed to up my veggie count, so I had a coworker pick me up a side salad from McDonalds. It was really good, and only about 60 calories, no fat - I actually don't even think it was that since I didn't even use the entire packet of dressing.
I am annoyed at the fitness tracker. I will not go to the gym until after work, at 5:30 am. I will do 1 hour, then go home, sleep, etc... after I wake up and move around, and do my chores,I will venture back to the gym around 8pm and do an 1 hour. The tracker recognizes it as 120 mins AND like over 2000 calories! I know it isn't anywhere near that - but there isn't much I can do about it.
I do plan on spending my evening tomorrow watching Dexter, and for a treat, I think I am going to get Subway. I realize it isn't the best possible choice, but it is a lot better than a burger or pizza.
I am proud of myself for yesterday. I hit my goals 100%. I am really hoping I have another A+ day like that today as well. I am still very on track with the food - no exercise yet, but I will be going after work. I am really struggling to drink my 8 glasses of water because I don't really like water, and don't really drink that much liquid anyway... but, I did it yesterday, so I can do it today too!
I made a pretty awesome dinner for the last 2 nights.
baked sweet potato
I tend to usually eat a lot of repeat stuff but that is ok, I still did that when I ate crappy food too. I just get on a "kick" where I want s particular food idem all of the time. Right now, it happens to be buffalo chicken. I even bought these Blazin Buffalo Wing almonds. They are mighty tasty.
I think that is all for now
Tuesday, March 08, 2011
I am feeling groovy today :)
Besides feeling groovy, I am feeling confused.
I worked out today on the elliptical for 1 hour. Actually, I did 1/2 hour on each elliptical. One has the arm things and the other one is called a Cross Ramp, and does not have arm things, but does have an incline. I can't seem to stay focused to stay on one machine for more than 1/2 hour. I just don't have the attention span for it.
According to the machines, I burned 600 and some calories. According to Spark, I burned a little over 1,000. I checked a few other websites, and one said over 1,200 and another one said over 1,100. I don't know what to go with. I went with 1,000 for now until I can find something more concrete. I don't really know how to know how many calories I burn. I mean I used the thing on level 1 - and do in half an hour about 2.5 miles? On the Cross Ramp, I have it set at an incline to work my calfs, butt, and thighs. I increase the workload as I progress.
Now, the diet question... if I am burning 1,000 calories in a work out, I should be eating more than 1,500. My problem is that I am having a rough time with this. I can't think of things that are healthy to jack up my calorie count. I mean, sure, I can easily do that with a donut or three, but that isn't really what I am trying to accomplish. I could eat some almonds, or other kind of nuts, and while I like them a lot, a serving of them really does nothing to satisfy me. It almost seems like those types of things are empty calories to me. Now, don't get me wrong, I do eat a serving or 2 a week, but that is about it. I don't like yogurt.
My calorie total for that day was about 2100. I am not going to list everything because that is super time consuming.
You know, I don't like the Spark food tracker, I use this other really neat journal. I guess because I can always have it with me?
I think that is all for now
Sunday, March 06, 2011
My trainer called me today and canceled our session for tomorrow. Her Auntie died. I expressed my sympathy to her and told her we can reschedule for next week. Now, it is up to me to get my arse to the gym tomorrow and get back on track.
I don't know why I slacked off all week. I should have went to the gym, but found myself doing everything but this week. Monday I bought a new car, tuesday I hung out with friends, Wednesday I went to work, and was sooo tired I just couldn't make it, Thursday was the same thing, and friday as well. Sometimes going to the gym after work is hard. When you work 12 hours, from 5pm-5am - getting the in the morning is just difficult. I thought about going before work, so, I would have to leave the house at about 1:30 because it takes about 15 mins to get there. Work out for an hour then come home, by that time I have to get ready for work...
Really want I NEED to do is stop making excuses and get on the ball. I need to get back on track with food and the gym. Bottom line, no excuses.
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