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Wednesday, February 16, 2011

I quit smoking on July 16, 2009. I was so proud of myself because that took a lot of will power and dedication! I had smoked for 16 years (yes, I know that is a long time for someone who is 30- but I lived out in the country and that is just what you did) so it was really hard for me at first, but then it became easier. I can honestly say, I don't miss it at all. I hate the smell of it. I hate being around it.

When I quit smoking I went from weighing 215 pounds to 250 pounds. Contrary what everyone says, I did not change my eating habits. If anything, they got healthier. I stopped eating McDonalds, Burger King, Pizza, Subway, Chinese take-out ect... everyday and started cooking and making a lunch from home. I stopped drinking regular soda, and started drinking diet and water.

Everyone says, but think of what you did for your health! I don't know which is worse... smoking or being fat? I mean I wasn't a healthy weight when I was smoking, however, I was able to lose weight. Right now, I am not able to lose weight. My metabolism has pretty much stopped and nothing I do is working.

Everyone says... track this and track that and do this and do that... well, guess what?? I do all of that. I account for everything that goes in my mouth. I work out 3-5 days a week (mostly 5 sometimes even 6) I do cardio, I swim, I lift weights, I do this and I do that and I even have a personal trainer that I have been working with.

Everyone says... muscle weighs more than fat. That is the biggest load of BS I have ever heard in my life. 1 pound of fat weighs as much a 1 pound of muscle. Muscle is more dense, yes, but it still weighs the same. Wouldn't it stand to reason that if I am losing fat and gaining muscle that I would actually be losing weight since muscle helps burn calories?

So, in reality what is worse?

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ALLEY2300 2/18/2011 12:39AM

    I agree, smoking is worse than being fat. Think of all those things you are not putting into your lungs now!! If you have been tracking every morsel and logging all your fitness and making sure you are eating enough calories for all your fitness, have you spoken to your doctor? There may be some underlying issue causing you to not lose.

Have you noticed a difference anywhere else? Like clothes fitting looser or differently? I know when I was in my 20s and working out like crazy and lifting and strength training I wouldn't lose for weeks or months sometimes. Then all of a sudden i would drop. My clothes would eventually start fitting differently though.

I for one, am glad there is one less smoker in the world because you quit. My dad stopped after 50 years also. Coming from someone that is highly allergic with asthma and highly sensitive to the smell of the smoke, you rock!

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-POOKIE- 2/17/2011 4:41AM

    Snoking is worse than being fat, you can be fat and fit, you can't be fit pumping loads of chemicals, tar, poisons into yourself.

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2BFREE2LIVE 2/16/2011 11:58PM

    I will be the first to tell you that smoking is the thing that will kill you before fat will. I smoked for thirty years over two packs a day and the Dr. told me if I did not stop I would not live another month. So yes smoking will kill you before your time.
Weight loss is different for all of us, yes you have valid points in all your statements.
The only thing I can say is that you must love your self enough to make weight loss happen.
You know exactly what to do, eat clean no drinking anything but water or tea and be honest with yourself, no cheating. I know when I cheat the scale tells on me by gaining a pound then I have to work twice as hard to lose it again.
It gets a lot harder as you get older, so lose the weight now while your still young. If you need help just let me know. Sandy

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I don't know why I bother...

Tuesday, February 08, 2011

I don't know why I even bother getting on the scale. I am sooooo frustrated! Today it said I gained 2 pounds! How the effity-eff-eff did I gain 2 pounds? I don't know how that happens! I haven't really ate anything that I shouldn't. I had a cupcake one day, but that was still in my limits. I am so frustrated.

Everyone says that quitting smoking was the best thing I ever did for my health. The inability to lose weight happened after I quit smoking and I don't know why. I haven't smoked since July 2009 so you would think that it would have worked itself out by now.

So, back to my scale problem. When I don't see the results I am expecting, that sets off a binge for me. Lucky it wasn't that bad this time around... I had a 12 inch sub from subway and some chips.... and a cupcake.

I just feel really crappy right now

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AFWWTX 2/9/2011 11:59AM

    Water weight maybe. Did you have more sodium that usual?

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HIPPIECHIC68 2/9/2011 8:30AM

    Keep up the good work and it will happen. Perseverance is key. I almost got on my scale yesterday even though it wasn't my weigh in day. I managed to not do it and I was thinking, "No, if I get on there and I have gone up I will scream, so I'm not getting on there." Especially after just coming off a binge Sunday, my stomach is just feeling back to normal this morning.

Anyway, just wanted you to know I am right there with you and we can do it together!

Peace, love and light

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BIKERNEL1 2/9/2011 7:53AM

    Don't let the scale have that power over you - I know for some people the scale can really screw with your head and your game plan( I am one of those people). Keep going, you can do it!

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SARAHNICOLE__17 2/9/2011 1:03AM

    Weigh in and then let those feelings go. Keep working hard!

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KEN1965 2/8/2011 9:51PM

    Keep working to stay within your calorie intake and do cardio for 30 minutes 3x week and don't forget your water and you should lose. emoticon

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Schooled by the Fat Chic

Monday, February 07, 2011

Sometimes, bringing lunch to work is a little embarrassing. I can't stand to have food touch. I can't put my chicken in the same container as my veggies. I am also one of those people who doesn't really use plastic bags to put food in. I use re-usable containers for everything. Needless to say, my lunch consists of a lot of containers.

A co-worker asked me "what all do you have in there? You're not going to eat all of that?" and gave me the "no wonder you are fat" look. I said "as a matter of fact I am and honestly, everything I have in my bag has less calories than that bottle of soda and bag of chips you plan on eating" - he didn't really have much to say after that.

I worked with my trainer today. It was a pretty good workout. I am really enjoying our time together. I have 6 more sessions to go with her. After our time is done, I am not sure what I am going to do. I was thinking about getting a body bug or similar device. I can afford to either get that, or the trainer. The body bug would actually be cheaper. I am not sure yet. On one hand, working with my trainer is very motivating. She helps me, she gives me a good work out and she is just all around great. On the other hand, I think the body bug (or similar device) would really help me keep on track. It would allow me to see what I am putting out versus what I am taking in. We can guess how many calories we are burning, but everyone' body is different.

I am just not sure what I think would be the better investment.

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HIPPIECHIC68 2/9/2011 8:33AM

    What a great response to your co-worker. Keep up the good work and keep 'containering' it for lunch, lol.

Peace, love and light

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MOMTOCONNOR2003 2/8/2011 9:18AM

    I wish I had a personal trainer. Every once in a while it would be nice to have someone push me harder than I would normally push myself. I don't know if I would do the body bug because I would become content with what it said I burnt but not push me to burn more.

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SARAHNICOLE__17 2/8/2011 2:28AM

    I love you! Seriously, I no longer feel weird. :) I have a million containers. Good for u for standing up! Some people...

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MISSYRH3 2/8/2011 12:16AM

  i love your response to your co-worker!!

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JULIE2719 2/8/2011 12:00AM

    I understand the whole too many containers thing - but you will eventually find others that support you and your efforts to eat healthy. Hang in there. It is none of his business. Besides ... the healthy stuff always looks better to everyone and they are actually a little jealous that you have such a great lunch!
I don't have any advice on the trainer vs the bug - I just started with a trainer and I think it is what I need. I am not sure I trust the bug to really know how many calories I am burning and I am afraid I may use it to justify eating more. It is up to you. I wish I could have a trainer for the rest of my life.

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MIKEAZ 2/7/2011 11:28PM

    My daughter does not like her food to touch, I kind of like to mix it up.

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REDSHOES2011 2/7/2011 11:13PM

    Food touch only applies to raw meat and veggies on cutting boards.. When cooked they can sit in the same container if refrigerated.. I have been doing this nearly 10 years no food poisoning as yet.. People will look if we go overboard with containers.. I ain't 306lbs anymore but my coworkers think I eat like a horse with just one container..

Hang in there emoticon

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annoyed...very annoyed

Sunday, February 06, 2011

I want to start out by saying that I hate football, and that if I was not forced to, I would not have had plans to watch the Super Bowl. In fact, I was planning on starting a new Dragonlance book while the game was on.

The plan was to stop at Papa John's and get some pizza and wings for dinner. My boyfriend was going to watch the game, and like I said above, I was going to read a book. I had ate really light all day so that I had enough calories in my budget to enjoy 2 slices of pizza and a few wings. I was even going to make some air popped popcorn to snack on.

I called my boyfriend around 2:30 today and he told me he was still in Chicago, he had been broke down for the last 12 hours. (he is a truck driver) and he told me that they said they were trying to find someone to come out and fix him, but that was 10 hours ago, and since they were getting weather in that area, everyone was backed up with calls. Needless to say, my boyfriend is still in Chicago, I didn't get Papa John's and ended up eating dinner with my parents. My mom made spaghetti, garlic bread and meat sauce. It was pretty good, not as good as mine but not to bad. She puts to much salt in the water, and I can taste it. I don't like to put salt on anything. Unless it is already in my food, I don't salt anything.

well anyway, I think I will air pop some popcorn anyway, and maybe make a smoothie and enjy a Stephen King movie

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CORTNEY-LEE 2/6/2011 10:15PM

    he is alright... just angry... very angry - and I don't blame him. He is supposed to be home and he is stuck almost 600 miles away.


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SARAHNICOLE__17 2/6/2011 10:13PM

    I got conned into watching the game. I hope he's okay!

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That didn't work out so well...

Saturday, February 05, 2011

Today just wasn't a good day for eating. I should have known when I skipped the gym after work because my ears hurt that I was setting myself up for disaster. When I woke up I was starving. I started with 3 eggs and 2 turkey sausage patties. Not the best, but totally doable. Then I made the mistake of weighing myself and saw that I have not lost an ounce. I think that just put me in self destructive mode. Instead of being like... "ok fattie, get your butt to the gym" I ate a ham and cheese sandwhich. Instead of drinking some more water, I opted for some soda (diet soda, but soda none-the-less it is not good for me)

So, then I get to work, and forgot that I ordered a sub from a coworker. I only ate half of it, and I don't even know why I did. I guess because I didn't want to waste the $6 - but I would have been better off getting a salad. Then I had a cupcake, and some graham crackers, and a 3 Musketeers truffle crisp. yeah I don't know what my problem is. I ate nothing good today at all.

We all have bad days. We all indulge. That is to be expected I guess, but I am still not impressed with myself.

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ABSOLUTZER0 2/6/2011 10:08AM

    Yes, we ALL do have bad days. No need to beat yourself up about it. That day is gone. Let's do better today!

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SARAHNICOLE__17 2/5/2011 5:03PM

    Take accountability and tomorrow is a new day. Learn from it and move forward. That's all you can do! Have you tried meditation??? If you have itunes you can subscribe to Deepak Chopra's podcast channel called "The Chopra Channel." It has this amazing guided meditation that helps you relax and release your whole day. It's called the "DREAM meditation with Davidji". Did I mention that it's free if you have itunes??? My sister loves yoga and wouldn't ever consider meditation. I am the opposite. I love meditation and wouldn't consider yoga. If you are interested, have an open mind. Happy Sparking!

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ASHLY18013 2/5/2011 8:28AM

    it's okay. really. consider today to be a treat day. i know you want to beat yourself up but don't. the more you feel guilty the more you'll be likely to start the old pattern up! just do a good job tomorrow and the day after that you will be fine! i have faith emoticon

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2BFREE2LIVE 2/5/2011 1:31AM

    Hey you know you could have lost but once you eat the food weighs and that adds pounds to your weigh in. So do weigh first thing in the morning before you drink or eat anything.
Yes we all have days we are hungry and we are all human.

We all have those days, forget about it and move forward and make tomorrow a new day and a new start you can do this. I am counting on you to make good choices.
Let me know if I can help. Sandy emoticon

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ROZELL99 2/5/2011 1:31AM

  don't beat yourself up over it. Plan tomorrow and stick to the plan. This wasn't a true disaster, I have had the occasional 4000 calorie day and lived to spark another day. Good luck on your journey.

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