Wednesday, February 16, 2011
I quit smoking on July 16, 2009. I was so proud of myself because that took a lot of will power and dedication! I had smoked for 16 years (yes, I know that is a long time for someone who is 30- but I lived out in the country and that is just what you did) so it was really hard for me at first, but then it became easier. I can honestly say, I don't miss it at all. I hate the smell of it. I hate being around it.
When I quit smoking I went from weighing 215 pounds to 250 pounds. Contrary what everyone says, I did not change my eating habits. If anything, they got healthier. I stopped eating McDonalds, Burger King, Pizza, Subway, Chinese take-out ect... everyday and started cooking and making a lunch from home. I stopped drinking regular soda, and started drinking diet and water.
Everyone says, but think of what you did for your health! I don't know which is worse... smoking or being fat? I mean I wasn't a healthy weight when I was smoking, however, I was able to lose weight. Right now, I am not able to lose weight. My metabolism has pretty much stopped and nothing I do is working.
Everyone says... track this and track that and do this and do that... well, guess what?? I do all of that. I account for everything that goes in my mouth. I work out 3-5 days a week (mostly 5 sometimes even 6) I do cardio, I swim, I lift weights, I do this and I do that and I even have a personal trainer that I have been working with.
Everyone says... muscle weighs more than fat. That is the biggest load of BS I have ever heard in my life. 1 pound of fat weighs as much a 1 pound of muscle. Muscle is more dense, yes, but it still weighs the same. Wouldn't it stand to reason that if I am losing fat and gaining muscle that I would actually be losing weight since muscle helps burn calories?
So, in reality what is worse?
Tuesday, February 08, 2011
I don't know why I even bother getting on the scale. I am sooooo frustrated! Today it said I gained 2 pounds! How the effity-eff-eff did I gain 2 pounds? I don't know how that happens! I haven't really ate anything that I shouldn't. I had a cupcake one day, but that was still in my limits. I am so frustrated.
Everyone says that quitting smoking was the best thing I ever did for my health. The inability to lose weight happened after I quit smoking and I don't know why. I haven't smoked since July 2009 so you would think that it would have worked itself out by now.
So, back to my scale problem. When I don't see the results I am expecting, that sets off a binge for me. Lucky it wasn't that bad this time around... I had a 12 inch sub from subway and some chips.... and a cupcake.
I just feel really crappy right now
Monday, February 07, 2011
Sometimes, bringing lunch to work is a little embarrassing. I can't stand to have food touch. I can't put my chicken in the same container as my veggies. I am also one of those people who doesn't really use plastic bags to put food in. I use re-usable containers for everything. Needless to say, my lunch consists of a lot of containers.
A co-worker asked me "what all do you have in there? You're not going to eat all of that?" and gave me the "no wonder you are fat" look. I said "as a matter of fact I am and honestly, everything I have in my bag has less calories than that bottle of soda and bag of chips you plan on eating" - he didn't really have much to say after that.
I worked with my trainer today. It was a pretty good workout. I am really enjoying our time together. I have 6 more sessions to go with her. After our time is done, I am not sure what I am going to do. I was thinking about getting a body bug or similar device. I can afford to either get that, or the trainer. The body bug would actually be cheaper. I am not sure yet. On one hand, working with my trainer is very motivating. She helps me, she gives me a good work out and she is just all around great. On the other hand, I think the body bug (or similar device) would really help me keep on track. It would allow me to see what I am putting out versus what I am taking in. We can guess how many calories we are burning, but everyone' body is different.
I am just not sure what I think would be the better investment.
Sunday, February 06, 2011
I want to start out by saying that I hate football, and that if I was not forced to, I would not have had plans to watch the Super Bowl. In fact, I was planning on starting a new Dragonlance book while the game was on.
The plan was to stop at Papa John's and get some pizza and wings for dinner. My boyfriend was going to watch the game, and like I said above, I was going to read a book. I had ate really light all day so that I had enough calories in my budget to enjoy 2 slices of pizza and a few wings. I was even going to make some air popped popcorn to snack on.
I called my boyfriend around 2:30 today and he told me he was still in Chicago, he had been broke down for the last 12 hours. (he is a truck driver) and he told me that they said they were trying to find someone to come out and fix him, but that was 10 hours ago, and since they were getting weather in that area, everyone was backed up with calls. Needless to say, my boyfriend is still in Chicago, I didn't get Papa John's and ended up eating dinner with my parents. My mom made spaghetti, garlic bread and meat sauce. It was pretty good, not as good as mine but not to bad. She puts to much salt in the water, and I can taste it. I don't like to put salt on anything. Unless it is already in my food, I don't salt anything.
well anyway, I think I will air pop some popcorn anyway, and maybe make a smoothie and enjy a Stephen King movie
Saturday, February 05, 2011
Today just wasn't a good day for eating. I should have known when I skipped the gym after work because my ears hurt that I was setting myself up for disaster. When I woke up I was starving. I started with 3 eggs and 2 turkey sausage patties. Not the best, but totally doable. Then I made the mistake of weighing myself and saw that I have not lost an ounce. I think that just put me in self destructive mode. Instead of being like... "ok fattie, get your butt to the gym" I ate a ham and cheese sandwhich. Instead of drinking some more water, I opted for some soda (diet soda, but soda none-the-less it is not good for me)
So, then I get to work, and forgot that I ordered a sub from a coworker. I only ate half of it, and I don't even know why I did. I guess because I didn't want to waste the $6 - but I would have been better off getting a salad. Then I had a cupcake, and some graham crackers, and a 3 Musketeers truffle crisp. yeah I don't know what my problem is. I ate nothing good today at all.
We all have bad days. We all indulge. That is to be expected I guess, but I am still not impressed with myself.
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