Tuesday, February 08, 2011
I don't know why I even bother getting on the scale. I am sooooo frustrated! Today it said I gained 2 pounds! How the effity-eff-eff did I gain 2 pounds? I don't know how that happens! I haven't really ate anything that I shouldn't. I had a cupcake one day, but that was still in my limits. I am so frustrated.
Everyone says that quitting smoking was the best thing I ever did for my health. The inability to lose weight happened after I quit smoking and I don't know why. I haven't smoked since July 2009 so you would think that it would have worked itself out by now.
So, back to my scale problem. When I don't see the results I am expecting, that sets off a binge for me. Lucky it wasn't that bad this time around... I had a 12 inch sub from subway and some chips.... and a cupcake.
I just feel really crappy right now
Monday, February 07, 2011
Sometimes, bringing lunch to work is a little embarrassing. I can't stand to have food touch. I can't put my chicken in the same container as my veggies. I am also one of those people who doesn't really use plastic bags to put food in. I use re-usable containers for everything. Needless to say, my lunch consists of a lot of containers.
A co-worker asked me "what all do you have in there? You're not going to eat all of that?" and gave me the "no wonder you are fat" look. I said "as a matter of fact I am and honestly, everything I have in my bag has less calories than that bottle of soda and bag of chips you plan on eating" - he didn't really have much to say after that.
I worked with my trainer today. It was a pretty good workout. I am really enjoying our time together. I have 6 more sessions to go with her. After our time is done, I am not sure what I am going to do. I was thinking about getting a body bug or similar device. I can afford to either get that, or the trainer. The body bug would actually be cheaper. I am not sure yet. On one hand, working with my trainer is very motivating. She helps me, she gives me a good work out and she is just all around great. On the other hand, I think the body bug (or similar device) would really help me keep on track. It would allow me to see what I am putting out versus what I am taking in. We can guess how many calories we are burning, but everyone' body is different.
I am just not sure what I think would be the better investment.
Sunday, February 06, 2011
I want to start out by saying that I hate football, and that if I was not forced to, I would not have had plans to watch the Super Bowl. In fact, I was planning on starting a new Dragonlance book while the game was on.
The plan was to stop at Papa John's and get some pizza and wings for dinner. My boyfriend was going to watch the game, and like I said above, I was going to read a book. I had ate really light all day so that I had enough calories in my budget to enjoy 2 slices of pizza and a few wings. I was even going to make some air popped popcorn to snack on.
I called my boyfriend around 2:30 today and he told me he was still in Chicago, he had been broke down for the last 12 hours. (he is a truck driver) and he told me that they said they were trying to find someone to come out and fix him, but that was 10 hours ago, and since they were getting weather in that area, everyone was backed up with calls. Needless to say, my boyfriend is still in Chicago, I didn't get Papa John's and ended up eating dinner with my parents. My mom made spaghetti, garlic bread and meat sauce. It was pretty good, not as good as mine but not to bad. She puts to much salt in the water, and I can taste it. I don't like to put salt on anything. Unless it is already in my food, I don't salt anything.
well anyway, I think I will air pop some popcorn anyway, and maybe make a smoothie and enjy a Stephen King movie
Saturday, February 05, 2011
Today just wasn't a good day for eating. I should have known when I skipped the gym after work because my ears hurt that I was setting myself up for disaster. When I woke up I was starving. I started with 3 eggs and 2 turkey sausage patties. Not the best, but totally doable. Then I made the mistake of weighing myself and saw that I have not lost an ounce. I think that just put me in self destructive mode. Instead of being like... "ok fattie, get your butt to the gym" I ate a ham and cheese sandwhich. Instead of drinking some more water, I opted for some soda (diet soda, but soda none-the-less it is not good for me)
So, then I get to work, and forgot that I ordered a sub from a coworker. I only ate half of it, and I don't even know why I did. I guess because I didn't want to waste the $6 - but I would have been better off getting a salad. Then I had a cupcake, and some graham crackers, and a 3 Musketeers truffle crisp. yeah I don't know what my problem is. I ate nothing good today at all.
We all have bad days. We all indulge. That is to be expected I guess, but I am still not impressed with myself.
Thursday, February 03, 2011
I saw that on a shirt and it cracked me up. I don't know why I thought it was so funny, but it is. It reminds me of my old Live Journal icon that said "I beat anorexia" which I always thought was pretty funny.
I went to the gym this morning and went swimming. I have to be honest and say I really wasn't into it. I couldn't stop coughing, my ears hurt and my throat was scratchy. I did swim for about 45 mins, mostly jogging laps in the water as opposed to swimming laps. I did go in the steam room for a little bit and that helped clear me up a bit.
I have noticed that since I have started counting calories again, I am starting to obsess. I guess that is good in a way and it is bad in a way. I am still upset that I didn't lose what I thought I should lose. Aparently low carb/no carb isn't for me.
I am looking for some new snack ideas, so I am going to hit my trainer up on Monday and see what she says. I am thinking I used to really like graham crackers. Maybe those are good?
I woke up today and I was starving to death. In fact at one point, I woke up from my stomach feeling hungry. It was empty. I was, however, to lazy to get up at that time, so I just went back to bed. Then when I finally did wake up I was HUNGRY!
I have noticed on average these past few days, I have been consuming about 1600 calories. That is a little over what I want to eat in a day, but judging from my menu, I am not really eating anything horrible. I know that blowing 350 calories on an apple and peanut butter snack is a little steep, but I really enjoy it, it is very healthy, and it really helps me stop craving candy and sweet stuff.
My coworkers ordered out form the local pizza shop tonight, and I really wanted to. The good news is, I didn't. It is really cold here tonight - around 12 degrees here tonight (and the real feel is in the single digits) and a stromboli or a calzone would have been yummy, good, and well... awesome. I don't know why I want to eat stuff like that when it is so cold out. I guess because it is comforting or something.
Lets do a run down of what I have shoveled in today (or will shovel in)
(I ask you to remember that I woke up starving)
3 large eggs = 240 calories
2 Turkey Sausage Patties = 180 calories
----total calories = 420 ----
Tuna = 80 calories
Egg = 90 calories
Mayo = 53 calories
Relish = 10 calories
Celery = 40 calories
---- total calories = 273 ----
Lemon Pepper Talapia = 200 calories
brown rice = 75 calories
veggies = 120 calories
---- total calories = 395 ----
Apple = 100 calories
Peanut Butter = 250 calories
Cheese = 200 calories (which I need to check, it is 18 calories per cube, and I am not sure how many cubes I brought with me, but that works for now)
Sugar Free Jello = 20
----total calories = 570 ----
Grand total of calories = 1655
I think that is all for now
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