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I don't know why I bother...

Tuesday, February 08, 2011

I don't know why I even bother getting on the scale. I am sooooo frustrated! Today it said I gained 2 pounds! How the effity-eff-eff did I gain 2 pounds? I don't know how that happens! I haven't really ate anything that I shouldn't. I had a cupcake one day, but that was still in my limits. I am so frustrated.

Everyone says that quitting smoking was the best thing I ever did for my health. The inability to lose weight happened after I quit smoking and I don't know why. I haven't smoked since July 2009 so you would think that it would have worked itself out by now.

So, back to my scale problem. When I don't see the results I am expecting, that sets off a binge for me. Lucky it wasn't that bad this time around... I had a 12 inch sub from subway and some chips.... and a cupcake.

I just feel really crappy right now

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AFWWTX 2/9/2011 11:59AM

    Water weight maybe. Did you have more sodium that usual?

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HIPPIECHIC68 2/9/2011 8:30AM

    Keep up the good work and it will happen. Perseverance is key. I almost got on my scale yesterday even though it wasn't my weigh in day. I managed to not do it and I was thinking, "No, if I get on there and I have gone up I will scream, so I'm not getting on there." Especially after just coming off a binge Sunday, my stomach is just feeling back to normal this morning.

Anyway, just wanted you to know I am right there with you and we can do it together!

Peace, love and light

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BIKERNEL1 2/9/2011 7:53AM

    Don't let the scale have that power over you - I know for some people the scale can really screw with your head and your game plan( I am one of those people). Keep going, you can do it!

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SARAHNICOLE__17 2/9/2011 1:03AM

    Weigh in and then let those feelings go. Keep working hard!

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KEN1965 2/8/2011 9:51PM

    Keep working to stay within your calorie intake and do cardio for 30 minutes 3x week and don't forget your water and you should lose. emoticon

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Schooled by the Fat Chic

Monday, February 07, 2011

Sometimes, bringing lunch to work is a little embarrassing. I can't stand to have food touch. I can't put my chicken in the same container as my veggies. I am also one of those people who doesn't really use plastic bags to put food in. I use re-usable containers for everything. Needless to say, my lunch consists of a lot of containers.

A co-worker asked me "what all do you have in there? You're not going to eat all of that?" and gave me the "no wonder you are fat" look. I said "as a matter of fact I am and honestly, everything I have in my bag has less calories than that bottle of soda and bag of chips you plan on eating" - he didn't really have much to say after that.

I worked with my trainer today. It was a pretty good workout. I am really enjoying our time together. I have 6 more sessions to go with her. After our time is done, I am not sure what I am going to do. I was thinking about getting a body bug or similar device. I can afford to either get that, or the trainer. The body bug would actually be cheaper. I am not sure yet. On one hand, working with my trainer is very motivating. She helps me, she gives me a good work out and she is just all around great. On the other hand, I think the body bug (or similar device) would really help me keep on track. It would allow me to see what I am putting out versus what I am taking in. We can guess how many calories we are burning, but everyone' body is different.

I am just not sure what I think would be the better investment.

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HIPPIECHIC68 2/9/2011 8:33AM

    What a great response to your co-worker. Keep up the good work and keep 'containering' it for lunch, lol.

Peace, love and light

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MOMTOCONNOR2003 2/8/2011 9:18AM

    I wish I had a personal trainer. Every once in a while it would be nice to have someone push me harder than I would normally push myself. I don't know if I would do the body bug because I would become content with what it said I burnt but not push me to burn more.

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SARAHNICOLE__17 2/8/2011 2:28AM

    I love you! Seriously, I no longer feel weird. :) I have a million containers. Good for u for standing up! Some people...

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MISSYRH3 2/8/2011 12:16AM

  i love your response to your co-worker!!

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JULIE2719 2/8/2011 12:00AM

    I understand the whole too many containers thing - but you will eventually find others that support you and your efforts to eat healthy. Hang in there. It is none of his business. Besides ... the healthy stuff always looks better to everyone and they are actually a little jealous that you have such a great lunch!
I don't have any advice on the trainer vs the bug - I just started with a trainer and I think it is what I need. I am not sure I trust the bug to really know how many calories I am burning and I am afraid I may use it to justify eating more. It is up to you. I wish I could have a trainer for the rest of my life.

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MIKEAZ 2/7/2011 11:28PM

    My daughter does not like her food to touch, I kind of like to mix it up.

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REDSHOES2011 2/7/2011 11:13PM

    Food touch only applies to raw meat and veggies on cutting boards.. When cooked they can sit in the same container if refrigerated.. I have been doing this nearly 10 years no food poisoning as yet.. People will look if we go overboard with containers.. I ain't 306lbs anymore but my coworkers think I eat like a horse with just one container..

Hang in there emoticon

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annoyed...very annoyed

Sunday, February 06, 2011

I want to start out by saying that I hate football, and that if I was not forced to, I would not have had plans to watch the Super Bowl. In fact, I was planning on starting a new Dragonlance book while the game was on.

The plan was to stop at Papa John's and get some pizza and wings for dinner. My boyfriend was going to watch the game, and like I said above, I was going to read a book. I had ate really light all day so that I had enough calories in my budget to enjoy 2 slices of pizza and a few wings. I was even going to make some air popped popcorn to snack on.

I called my boyfriend around 2:30 today and he told me he was still in Chicago, he had been broke down for the last 12 hours. (he is a truck driver) and he told me that they said they were trying to find someone to come out and fix him, but that was 10 hours ago, and since they were getting weather in that area, everyone was backed up with calls. Needless to say, my boyfriend is still in Chicago, I didn't get Papa John's and ended up eating dinner with my parents. My mom made spaghetti, garlic bread and meat sauce. It was pretty good, not as good as mine but not to bad. She puts to much salt in the water, and I can taste it. I don't like to put salt on anything. Unless it is already in my food, I don't salt anything.

well anyway, I think I will air pop some popcorn anyway, and maybe make a smoothie and enjy a Stephen King movie

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CORTNEY-LEE 2/6/2011 10:15PM

    he is alright... just angry... very angry - and I don't blame him. He is supposed to be home and he is stuck almost 600 miles away.


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SARAHNICOLE__17 2/6/2011 10:13PM

    I got conned into watching the game. I hope he's okay!

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That didn't work out so well...

Saturday, February 05, 2011

Today just wasn't a good day for eating. I should have known when I skipped the gym after work because my ears hurt that I was setting myself up for disaster. When I woke up I was starving. I started with 3 eggs and 2 turkey sausage patties. Not the best, but totally doable. Then I made the mistake of weighing myself and saw that I have not lost an ounce. I think that just put me in self destructive mode. Instead of being like... "ok fattie, get your butt to the gym" I ate a ham and cheese sandwhich. Instead of drinking some more water, I opted for some soda (diet soda, but soda none-the-less it is not good for me)

So, then I get to work, and forgot that I ordered a sub from a coworker. I only ate half of it, and I don't even know why I did. I guess because I didn't want to waste the $6 - but I would have been better off getting a salad. Then I had a cupcake, and some graham crackers, and a 3 Musketeers truffle crisp. yeah I don't know what my problem is. I ate nothing good today at all.

We all have bad days. We all indulge. That is to be expected I guess, but I am still not impressed with myself.

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ABSOLUTZER0 2/6/2011 10:08AM

    Yes, we ALL do have bad days. No need to beat yourself up about it. That day is gone. Let's do better today!

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SARAHNICOLE__17 2/5/2011 5:03PM

    Take accountability and tomorrow is a new day. Learn from it and move forward. That's all you can do! Have you tried meditation??? If you have itunes you can subscribe to Deepak Chopra's podcast channel called "The Chopra Channel." It has this amazing guided meditation that helps you relax and release your whole day. It's called the "DREAM meditation with Davidji". Did I mention that it's free if you have itunes??? My sister loves yoga and wouldn't ever consider meditation. I am the opposite. I love meditation and wouldn't consider yoga. If you are interested, have an open mind. Happy Sparking!

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ASHLY18013 2/5/2011 8:28AM

    it's okay. really. consider today to be a treat day. i know you want to beat yourself up but don't. the more you feel guilty the more you'll be likely to start the old pattern up! just do a good job tomorrow and the day after that you will be fine! i have faith emoticon

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2BFREE2LIVE 2/5/2011 1:31AM

    Hey you know you could have lost but once you eat the food weighs and that adds pounds to your weigh in. So do weigh first thing in the morning before you drink or eat anything.
Yes we all have days we are hungry and we are all human.

We all have those days, forget about it and move forward and make tomorrow a new day and a new start you can do this. I am counting on you to make good choices.
Let me know if I can help. Sandy emoticon

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ROZELL99 2/5/2011 1:31AM

  don't beat yourself up over it. Plan tomorrow and stick to the plan. This wasn't a true disaster, I have had the occasional 4000 calorie day and lived to spark another day. Good luck on your journey.

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Fat People are Harder to Kidnap

Thursday, February 03, 2011

I saw that on a shirt and it cracked me up. I don't know why I thought it was so funny, but it is. It reminds me of my old Live Journal icon that said "I beat anorexia" which I always thought was pretty funny.

I went to the gym this morning and went swimming. I have to be honest and say I really wasn't into it. I couldn't stop coughing, my ears hurt and my throat was scratchy. I did swim for about 45 mins, mostly jogging laps in the water as opposed to swimming laps. I did go in the steam room for a little bit and that helped clear me up a bit.

I have noticed that since I have started counting calories again, I am starting to obsess. I guess that is good in a way and it is bad in a way. I am still upset that I didn't lose what I thought I should lose. Aparently low carb/no carb isn't for me.

I am looking for some new snack ideas, so I am going to hit my trainer up on Monday and see what she says. I am thinking I used to really like graham crackers. Maybe those are good?

I woke up today and I was starving to death. In fact at one point, I woke up from my stomach feeling hungry. It was empty. I was, however, to lazy to get up at that time, so I just went back to bed. Then when I finally did wake up I was HUNGRY!

I have noticed on average these past few days, I have been consuming about 1600 calories. That is a little over what I want to eat in a day, but judging from my menu, I am not really eating anything horrible. I know that blowing 350 calories on an apple and peanut butter snack is a little steep, but I really enjoy it, it is very healthy, and it really helps me stop craving candy and sweet stuff.

My coworkers ordered out form the local pizza shop tonight, and I really wanted to. The good news is, I didn't. It is really cold here tonight - around 12 degrees here tonight (and the real feel is in the single digits) and a stromboli or a calzone would have been yummy, good, and well... awesome. I don't know why I want to eat stuff like that when it is so cold out. I guess because it is comforting or something.

Lets do a run down of what I have shoveled in today (or will shovel in)

Breakfast :
(I ask you to remember that I woke up starving)
3 large eggs = 240 calories
2 Turkey Sausage Patties = 180 calories
----total calories = 420 ----

Tuna = 80 calories
Egg = 90 calories
Mayo = 53 calories
Relish = 10 calories
Celery = 40 calories
---- total calories = 273 ----

Lemon Pepper Talapia = 200 calories
brown rice = 75 calories
veggies = 120 calories
---- total calories = 395 ----

Apple = 100 calories
Peanut Butter = 250 calories
Cheese = 200 calories (which I need to check, it is 18 calories per cube, and I am not sure how many cubes I brought with me, but that works for now)
Sugar Free Jello = 20
----total calories = 570 ----

Grand total of calories = 1655

I think that is all for now

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EMMANYC 2/3/2011 10:00PM

    You made some pretty healthy choices today.

If you're trying to cut back the calories a bit while controlling hunger, you might just try tinkering with the proportions and combinations a bit. When I was losing weight, I realized after a few weeks that I would feel a lot fuller and satisfied if I just played with proportions a bit to get maximum taste and nutrients with minimum calories. It's like going bargain-hunting, only with calories. For example:

1) Breakfast: 2 whole eggs, two extra egg whites (instead of 3 whole eggs). One sausage patty, broken up to be scrambled with the eggs. Add 3/4 cup of chopped mushrooms, peppers and tomatoes (or something similar). More volume, fewer calories.

2) Add some carrot sticks as well as celery. (Carrots have more nutrients than celery and are pretty solid.)

3) Snack: cut back on the peanut butter by 1/3 (you probably won't miss it), so you're having 160 calories instead of 240.

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LUVDUG12 2/3/2011 9:50PM

    I too tend to obsess over calories and I know everyone around me is getting tired of hearing about it but, it does help to count. I work in a restaurant and it is really hard to keep from picking all day I started taking meals with me to work and healthy snacks and try my hardest to stick with it so far so good! When I get hungry and think about eating something I know is not good for me I pick up my water bottle and drink the heck out of some water I think if it is possible to Overdose on water I will be the one to do it. Just keep up the good work and you can get past it..........YOU CAN DO IT! Set your mind to it and it shall be.......... emoticon

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