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That didn't work out so well...

Saturday, February 05, 2011

Today just wasn't a good day for eating. I should have known when I skipped the gym after work because my ears hurt that I was setting myself up for disaster. When I woke up I was starving. I started with 3 eggs and 2 turkey sausage patties. Not the best, but totally doable. Then I made the mistake of weighing myself and saw that I have not lost an ounce. I think that just put me in self destructive mode. Instead of being like... "ok fattie, get your butt to the gym" I ate a ham and cheese sandwhich. Instead of drinking some more water, I opted for some soda (diet soda, but soda none-the-less it is not good for me)

So, then I get to work, and forgot that I ordered a sub from a coworker. I only ate half of it, and I don't even know why I did. I guess because I didn't want to waste the $6 - but I would have been better off getting a salad. Then I had a cupcake, and some graham crackers, and a 3 Musketeers truffle crisp. yeah I don't know what my problem is. I ate nothing good today at all.

We all have bad days. We all indulge. That is to be expected I guess, but I am still not impressed with myself.

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ABSOLUTZER0 2/6/2011 10:08AM

    Yes, we ALL do have bad days. No need to beat yourself up about it. That day is gone. Let's do better today!

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SARAHNICOLE__17 2/5/2011 5:03PM

    Take accountability and tomorrow is a new day. Learn from it and move forward. That's all you can do! Have you tried meditation??? If you have itunes you can subscribe to Deepak Chopra's podcast channel called "The Chopra Channel." It has this amazing guided meditation that helps you relax and release your whole day. It's called the "DREAM meditation with Davidji". Did I mention that it's free if you have itunes??? My sister loves yoga and wouldn't ever consider meditation. I am the opposite. I love meditation and wouldn't consider yoga. If you are interested, have an open mind. Happy Sparking!

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ASHLY18013 2/5/2011 8:28AM

    it's okay. really. consider today to be a treat day. i know you want to beat yourself up but don't. the more you feel guilty the more you'll be likely to start the old pattern up! just do a good job tomorrow and the day after that you will be fine! i have faith emoticon

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2BFREE2LIVE 2/5/2011 1:31AM

    Hey you know you could have lost but once you eat the food weighs and that adds pounds to your weigh in. So do weigh first thing in the morning before you drink or eat anything.
Yes we all have days we are hungry and we are all human.

We all have those days, forget about it and move forward and make tomorrow a new day and a new start you can do this. I am counting on you to make good choices.
Let me know if I can help. Sandy emoticon

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ROZELL99 2/5/2011 1:31AM

  don't beat yourself up over it. Plan tomorrow and stick to the plan. This wasn't a true disaster, I have had the occasional 4000 calorie day and lived to spark another day. Good luck on your journey.

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Fat People are Harder to Kidnap

Thursday, February 03, 2011

I saw that on a shirt and it cracked me up. I don't know why I thought it was so funny, but it is. It reminds me of my old Live Journal icon that said "I beat anorexia" which I always thought was pretty funny.

I went to the gym this morning and went swimming. I have to be honest and say I really wasn't into it. I couldn't stop coughing, my ears hurt and my throat was scratchy. I did swim for about 45 mins, mostly jogging laps in the water as opposed to swimming laps. I did go in the steam room for a little bit and that helped clear me up a bit.

I have noticed that since I have started counting calories again, I am starting to obsess. I guess that is good in a way and it is bad in a way. I am still upset that I didn't lose what I thought I should lose. Aparently low carb/no carb isn't for me.

I am looking for some new snack ideas, so I am going to hit my trainer up on Monday and see what she says. I am thinking I used to really like graham crackers. Maybe those are good?

I woke up today and I was starving to death. In fact at one point, I woke up from my stomach feeling hungry. It was empty. I was, however, to lazy to get up at that time, so I just went back to bed. Then when I finally did wake up I was HUNGRY!

I have noticed on average these past few days, I have been consuming about 1600 calories. That is a little over what I want to eat in a day, but judging from my menu, I am not really eating anything horrible. I know that blowing 350 calories on an apple and peanut butter snack is a little steep, but I really enjoy it, it is very healthy, and it really helps me stop craving candy and sweet stuff.

My coworkers ordered out form the local pizza shop tonight, and I really wanted to. The good news is, I didn't. It is really cold here tonight - around 12 degrees here tonight (and the real feel is in the single digits) and a stromboli or a calzone would have been yummy, good, and well... awesome. I don't know why I want to eat stuff like that when it is so cold out. I guess because it is comforting or something.

Lets do a run down of what I have shoveled in today (or will shovel in)

Breakfast :
(I ask you to remember that I woke up starving)
3 large eggs = 240 calories
2 Turkey Sausage Patties = 180 calories
----total calories = 420 ----

Tuna = 80 calories
Egg = 90 calories
Mayo = 53 calories
Relish = 10 calories
Celery = 40 calories
---- total calories = 273 ----

Lemon Pepper Talapia = 200 calories
brown rice = 75 calories
veggies = 120 calories
---- total calories = 395 ----

Apple = 100 calories
Peanut Butter = 250 calories
Cheese = 200 calories (which I need to check, it is 18 calories per cube, and I am not sure how many cubes I brought with me, but that works for now)
Sugar Free Jello = 20
----total calories = 570 ----

Grand total of calories = 1655

I think that is all for now

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EMMANYC 2/3/2011 10:00PM

    You made some pretty healthy choices today.

If you're trying to cut back the calories a bit while controlling hunger, you might just try tinkering with the proportions and combinations a bit. When I was losing weight, I realized after a few weeks that I would feel a lot fuller and satisfied if I just played with proportions a bit to get maximum taste and nutrients with minimum calories. It's like going bargain-hunting, only with calories. For example:

1) Breakfast: 2 whole eggs, two extra egg whites (instead of 3 whole eggs). One sausage patty, broken up to be scrambled with the eggs. Add 3/4 cup of chopped mushrooms, peppers and tomatoes (or something similar). More volume, fewer calories.

2) Add some carrot sticks as well as celery. (Carrots have more nutrients than celery and are pretty solid.)

3) Snack: cut back on the peanut butter by 1/3 (you probably won't miss it), so you're having 160 calories instead of 240.

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LUVDUG12 2/3/2011 9:50PM

    I too tend to obsess over calories and I know everyone around me is getting tired of hearing about it but, it does help to count. I work in a restaurant and it is really hard to keep from picking all day I started taking meals with me to work and healthy snacks and try my hardest to stick with it so far so good! When I get hungry and think about eating something I know is not good for me I pick up my water bottle and drink the heck out of some water I think if it is possible to Overdose on water I will be the one to do it. Just keep up the good work and you can get past it..........YOU CAN DO IT! Set your mind to it and it shall be.......... emoticon

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HIIT me with your best shot...

Wednesday, February 02, 2011

Today was my first day of doing HIIT. I didn't do so great. I did my five min warm up, then I started my intervals. I was doing 30 seconds on, 30 seconds off. I was running at 4.5 mph. I lasted 5 mins. So in total with my warm up, I made it 10 mins. I don't know how I did. I think I did ok. I figure, I will be able to build up to more. After I did that I went to the weight room for about 40 mins. I was a little irratated because everytime I wanted to use a machine someone else was using it. So... I did a few extra sets while I was waiting. I have increased my all of my weights between 5-15 pounds, except on one leg machine, where I went from 70 to 110. I was pretty happy about that

My Jeep passed inspection, so I was even more happy about that. Now, it is good for another year. What that means is basically, I will be able to run it for another year, and keep banking money for a downpayment on a new Jeep. I am not sure how long it will last though. Currently it is at 301,968 miles (that is what it was when I got to work) and I am hoping to get at least 350,000 out of it. It is kind of a game to me now. I want to see how long I can run it.

I ate fairly well today.

Oatmeal = 150 calories
1/4c pumpkin = 20 calories
Raisins = 50 calories. (I didn't know what to count for these, since I had way under a serving, and threw a few in my oatmeal)
Sugar Free Maple Syrup = 18 calories
------- Total Calories = 238 --------

Tuna salad w/ celery stalks
Tuna = 80 calories
Egg = 90 calories
Lite Mayo = 53 calories
Relish = 10 calores
Celery = 40 calories
-------- Total Calories = 273 --------

Dinner: (and I am guessing on some stuff here because it is leftovers from last night's dinner)
Venison w/ mushroom gravy and brown rice
6 oz venison = 280 calories
1/2c brown rice = 75 calories
Mushroon gravy (made from 1 can of cream of mushroom soup and water) = 100 calories (this is the biggest estimation because the serving is 1/2 of the condensed soup, and I used the entire can for it and my Dad ate some last night, I ate some, put the leftover meat in a container with gravy and threw the leftover gravy out)
Veggies = 120 calories
--------- Total Calories = 575 ------------

Apple = 100 calories
Peanut Butter = 250 calories
Cheese = 200 calories
Sugar Free Jello = 20 calories
---------- Total Calories = 570 --------

Grand Total for the day
1656 calories

I think that should be pretty good.

I am not sure what I am going to do at the gym when I get off work. I think I might go swimming. I brought my swimming stuff as well as my other gym clothes in case I wanted to do the treadmill or some other type of cardio.

I think that is all for now

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SARAHNICOLE__17 2/3/2011 7:05AM

    I do 20/10 intervals on the bike. Start off with 12 min and add 4 min each week until your up to 20. you can do it!!! And the fact you struggled is a good sign. Bring a towel and loads of water.

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...and the survey says...

Tuesday, February 01, 2011

After being very disappointed with January's results, I spoke with my trainer. She pointed out the flaws in my diet, and told me i need to start eating some carbs. Apparently, my body doesn't like the low low carb thing. She wants me to start eating oatmeal and brown rice and maybe some whole wheat bread or crackers or pasta. Since I am not really big on the whole wheat thing, I may just skip that portion of it. I mean, I can eat wheat bread if it is toasted and slathered with peanut butter, tuna salad or on a tomato sandwich, but other than that... it isn't happening. I don't much care for whole wheat pasta, and besides, a serving of that is pretty much nothing, so why waste the calories? I would rather add a half a cup of brown rice to my veggies and protein, than half a cup of whole wheat pasta.

She also said I need to be eating more frequently. I guess that works. I just kind of eat whenever so... yeah. She told me every three hours I need to be eating something. I think good things for snacks are peanut butter w/ celery or an apple, string cheese, cottage cheese and fruit, almonds, and maybe some air popped popcorn? I don't know.

So far today I had...

1 c of cooked oatmeal w/ 1/4 c of pumpkin, some raisins (not sure how much, just threw a few in... maybe a tablespoon?) 2 tablespoons of sugar free maple syrup and cinnamon to top it off. That totals about... 200 calories maybe?

3 oz of cooked shrimp with buffalo sauce. That is 117 calories.

Then I had two little slim jims and I think that totaled to be maybe.. 80 calories if that. So I really haven't had much today if you think about it.

For dinner I will be having some venison. I love venison. I think with that I will also have some green beans and some brown rice.

I did skip the gym today because I didn't think it would be the best idea to go since the weather isn't that stellar, and no one is really sure when the ice is going to start. I shoveled snow instead. I am not sure about tomorrow either, I guess it depends on when or if the storm hits, when my Jeep is done getting inspected and all of that fun stuff. I may just do some things at home.

I think that is all for now

oh... and I am STILL sick... not cool. Not cool at all

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ABSOLUTZER0 2/2/2011 7:08PM

    YOU CAN DO IT! I hope you get better soon!

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I am so frustrated!!!!

Sunday, January 30, 2011

I lost 5 1/2 pounds this month. I should have lost way more than that. I don't know what I am doing wrong? I am going to the gym between 3-5 days a week (I have been sick, which I will get to in a little bit) I am eating no more than 1500 calories, no more than 40g of net carbs, no sugar, no bread, no pasta... On the weekend, I don't really deviate from that except maybe I will have a piece of pizza or two, but I pretty much stick to it.

I have been sick. I got this cold and I can't seem to get rid of it. I have already went to the doc, and they gave me some potent antibiotics and it didn't help. It just came right back. I am having a hard time breathing, I am so congested. My throat hurts. It isn't scratchy, but it is actually painful. My head is all sloshy and makes me feel like I have water in my head. I can't shake it. I have missed several days at the gym because I can't breathe. I am just so miserable. I can't get this sickness knocked out of me. I never get sick though! This is the first time I have gotten sick since like... 2006? 2007? I can't even remember the last time I got sick, so that should tell you something. I don't know why my immune system is down? Right now, I am living the most healthy lifestyle I have ever lived! I am eating all the right foods, I am drinking lots and lots of water, I am going to the gym and kicking butt and exercising! I am not eating fast food every day, I am not throwing my food up all of the time, I haven't touched a Cigarette for a year and a half, I rarely drink alcohol, I don't do drugs any more (no weed, no pills) I don't take any medications other than my birth control - so why am I sick and why can't I lose any GD weight?!?!?!

That is my major gripe for now -- other than that things are pretty stellar

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BELIEVER104 1/30/2011 10:07PM

    I can definitely understand your frustrations! Maybe you're not eating enough for the amount of working out you're doing. You sound like you're really bustin' your tail, so maybe your body needs more than 1500 cals (just a thought). I hope you feel better soon!!

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SARAHNICOLE__17 1/30/2011 3:44PM

    Is it mono????? Did you get a blood test? You'd feel super tired, fever, sore throat.

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-POOKIE- 1/30/2011 9:41AM

    I personally think antibiotics cause more harm than they achieve good on smaller things.

I ended up with gastroenteritis and needing a drip because antibiotics for a mild ear infection killed all my natural gut flora and it couldnt fight the germs.

Try taking a course of live "bugs" to reset your natural flora and get your body healthy after the antibiotics.

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IFFUR77 1/30/2011 8:45AM

    don't be so hard on have made some great changes to your lifestyle and things will get better...our house has been sick since Dec 21st so lets just chalk it up to a bad season...keep up your great efforts

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