Tuesday, September 17, 2013
Ugh, I have been slacking.
Yesterday I pretty much got sick on everything I ate EXCEPT (now get this) Oreo cookies. I are 2 of them, and they didn't make me sick. WTH?
Anyway, I have been working like a crazy person without days off. When I work like this, I don't have a lot of time to do much of anything, and that included cooking. I have been relying more on processed crap than I should (whoo hoo for Healthy Choice, Lean Cuisine, and Subway) I haven't been to PC Fit yet this week, but will be attending Wednesday's 5:30 am class. I have my gym bag packed and will get ready before I leave for work.
This weekend... ugh. I didn't really eat a lot. That wasn't the issue. I took a break from tracking (which I NEVER do) and it just threw me all out of whack. The problem I found when I didn't plan is I didn't really eat. I don't know what got into me either.
Then... ugh, and I might as well come clean... I snuck behind the shop with the Shop Foreman and... shared a cigarette with him. I haven't smoked in a long long time, and I don't know what got into me, but I shared with him. Honestly, I really haven't had the urge to do it again, but I can't explain it. At all.... It was like a one time thing I guess?
Anyway, I need to put all that $hit behind me and get back to the getting here. I guess we all "stray" at some point, and maybe that is what I needed to help me refocus on what is important. I know the second PC Fit starts, I am going to remember why I do what I do. The rush, the high I get from that is better than any other high I have experienced in my life, and I have a lot of experience being high in various forms. So when I get back to that, it will all be put in check.
My weight is actually the lowest it has even been since I was in a single digit age bracket. It is really strange.
Anyway, I need to get back to the whole foods thing. I am working on it, but right now with working... ugh. I just need to plan better. I have Thursday off, so I need to actually sit down and take the time to plan some more.
Yeah, so that is where I am