Saturday, August 16, 2014
I got a lot accomplished today. Emptied and refilled 1 1/2 closets. It took me most of the day, but I have to say that it looks pretty good. No one had better touch anything....including me.
I haven't given up on Sparks, but I sure have stalled.
Monday, July 07, 2014
I am starting my second year at Spark People. I am 25 pounds less than I was on July 6, 2013, ....31 pounds lower than my highest weight. That is the good news. The bad news is that I weigh the same as I did on November 12, 2013. I seemed like I was stuck in a forever plateau, then the holidays, my mother in law's death, and my mother's illness just made me lose focus. It became easier to justify not measuring my portions, cutting back on my fitness minutes, and generally eating quick to prepare foods, rather than having healthy foods become my focus. Because of gluten free, fast food restaurants were never an issue, but grab and go mentality was still there.
My first 6 months wasn't necessarily easy, but I was making steady progress, seeing results. I got over confident, I think. I had even been getting 2 hours of workouts spread throughout the day. Life then got in the way, and I realized that between shopping for healthy gluten free foods, workouts, prepping the foods, it was more time consuming than I was prepared to maintain on a daily basis. So, I ended up with more 'rest' days. Then as I quit prepping my own foods, my diet rarely was in fat range because it was too high, and rarely was in protein range because it was too low. Water? So often, I was either on the road to go to Mom's nursing home, or not to be near a rest room that I cut back on water till I got back home. Then, it was too close to bedtime, and I don't do well getting back to sleep after a night time trip.
So, whether these are reasons, or excuses doesn't matter. What does matter is that I regained 11 pounds. Yes, I broke the plateau, but not in a good way. I notice the weight came off me all over, but it went back on my belly. I am no longer as graceful as I was at my lowest weight, nor as strong. That also crept up on me. Last week I was going to have a super healthy meal, checked my cupboard, and I was all out of 'food.' Oh, I had low nutrient stuff in the cupboard, but if I don't plan and shop for healthy foods, it will not appear magically.
I must rededicate!
Sunday, May 04, 2014
I got up today. No, I mean, I had to get down on the floor to move some boxes. I stood up from a sitting position on the floor without holding on to anything. I did it without thinking and wasn't actually sure I was remembering correctly, so I got down on the floor again for no reason other than to check if I could really do it. Yep, I did! It wasn't pretty. But, at 67 I am looking for function, not grace. Oh, yeah, being totally hot is OK too. Trust me, I have a long way to go before I qualify as hot. And I will have to rely on near sighted geriatric people to judge me that way.
I am 'maintaining' my weight. Somehow that sounds so much more positive than a 4 month plateau. To be fair, I have had a good of major stressors, so I cannot say that I am devoting myself fully to the program. Today I had to catch up on some major housecleaning projects. Normally I do not manually track stuff that the tracker does not consider a 10 minute workout. But, my muscles are screaming, so even though my feet may not have been moving constantly, something must have been moving, or I would not be sore, right?
I changed my goal for the second time. I originally set it to 150. Then, when it was coming off each week, I decided to aim for 140, which I knew at the time was unrealistic since I only hit that once in the last 40 years...for 2 days. I adjusted the goal to 160, with the idea that I will maintain there for a year, then try the next 10 pounds. I am too old for rapid loss, I think. The doctor is impressed, and I will be glad to be less than the last appointment.
Tuesday, April 15, 2014
I took a break and went to a movie today. Wrong choice of movie as a woman in the movie was diagnosed with terminal cancer, as my best friend was. It did not get my mind off things, but certainly reminded me that I was not alone in this kind of stress. My cousin died today. he is no longer in pain, but of course his family is. I know in my head this is all a part of life, and it is truly not that most of it directly affects me. But, it does affect Mom, and that is what affects me. Her eye pain has lessened, but the vision has not returned. No results from her sonogram yet.
I am going to take a nice warm bath as a spark friend suggested. I won't say my fat intake is totally in control, but my calories are reasonable.
Sunday, April 13, 2014
I just typed a blog entry and realized 2 weeks ago I typed nearly the same one. All of the issues have gotten a bit worse. Mom's right eye seems to be losing it's vision, she says. We just found out her nephew is expected to die within 2 days from cancer. Yes, a sister, a daughter, and a nephew in 3 weeks. Can stress cause vision changes? She has a carotid sonogram for tomorrow.
Point is, I cannot help. My best friend has pancreatic cancer. They estimated 6 months. Six weeks have passed since then. I pray she has more time than that, but I can't help.
So, why do I think the only thing I can do is overeat? Mostly fruit, nuts....but overeating healthy foods is still overeating. And all it has accomplished is gaining 5 pounds. I talk to myself all day long trying to get back on track, but evidently I am not listening. So, I am doing a couple challenges...which will either work or put more pressure on me. Yes, just a bump in the road called life. sigh.
Get An Email Alert Each Time COO_KIE Posts