My sweet aunt passed away today. She was my father's only sister and my father has been gone for 23 years already.
She was a strong, kind, and extremely wise woman and I will miss her dearly.
Today is the first day of my "gratitude" journal and I struggled to even want to write something in it but I will dedicate the journal and this year to her. I loved her so much. I am grateful that she was in my life.
my first real "race" ever! The Christmas Town Dash ( an 8K ) www.christmastowndash.com/ was actually set for last weekend but due to snow and just plain yucky weather they postponed it until this morning.
The good news about the postponement was that my DS20 was home from college and they opened the registration back up because a lot of people couldn't make it back and he was able to join me. He was so sweet to go with me as I can "jog" about a 15 minute mile and he can run a lot faster than that. He supported me all the way.
The rain stopped just as we were arriving at the race this morning and as we finished the came out. I now have a "benchmark" to go for and out of the age group I was in (50-54) I was 65th of 90, a race time of 1:15:20.86 with an average of 15:09 per mile. I was trying for a finish under 1:20:00 and I did it!!
This was kind of my "culminating" event for BLC23. I will have to keep on working at reducing that time and my weight. Onward sparkers!!
This weekend I will participate in my first real "race" and in the past three weeks "Fear" has crept in along with doubt.
I decided back in early September that I needed a new goal ... a new challenge to jump start my weight loss and push me further. I decided I would sign up for a local race and I started looking into what was out there. I figured that I would give myself 3 months to complete the C25K program and I should be able to do a race.
I found one that sounded fun and also was in the timeline of finishing up with BLC23. It is called www.christmastowndash.com/ I thought the name sounded fun (Christmas Town Dash) and that we will be running through "Christmastown" in Williamsburg. It sounds lovely with Christmas music playing throughout the town. The "daunting" thing to me was that it is an 8K. I did see that there was a walking option but you had to complete the course in 2 hours max. I signed up for the "walkers" group which will be last to start.
The training begins ... I started the C25K program using a treadmill at the Y. It was hard at first but I was able to follow the program and gradually increase my "jogging" time. My "Faith" in being able to do this race was growing stronger.
At about 7 weeks into the 9 week program I was waiting for my DS16 to finish his swimming and I remembered that there was a track next door to the pool so I thought I will go and run around the track. Well ... I was faced with a huge shock and the reality that running "outside" was a lot different than running on a treadmill.
I quickly regrouped ... scoured the internet and Sparkpeople for the differences of running outside to inside and what I could do to help better prepare. I started inserting outside running into my training and I was feeling a little better when I was able to complete a 5K around my neighborhood. Mind you it wasn't "pretty" but I made it. I still had to face the fact that even though I could make it through a 5K ... I hadn't really done the 8K. Last weekend I was reminding my DH that I had the race this upcoming weekend and he started to doubt my abilities stating "Have you ever completed 5 Miles of walking even?" ... I told him to right there and quit feeding the "F" word of fear. I told him that I need him to have "faith" in me and I need to have "faith" in myself.
Determined to disable the "fear" I decided to try an 8K for my training. Yesterday morning I completed an 8K on the treadmill ... a combination of jogging and fast walking. I was able to finish in 80 minutes ... under my goal of 90 minutes and well under the course restriction of 120 minutes. My highlight was being able to jog for 15 minutes straight.
Saturday morning will come ... I will be ready ... I will finish ... I have Faith ...
5 Years from today I will be celebrating my 58th Birthday! Yes, it's my birthday today ... today I am 53. I don't "feel" 53, not sure what 53 is supposed to feel like and I am really having a hard time grasping what 58 will bring but this is what I think...
My BLC22 assignment is to envision myself in 5 years and blog about what is different. Here is my vision:
I am at my goal weight of 159 for four years now, I am healthier in many ways. I have a healthy BMI and I am no longer considered "obese" (I hate that word ... worse than the word "fat"). My lifestyle is a healthy and balanced one.
My body is strong and lean. I have run a 5K race (run the whole thing). I know how to eat correctly and have established a consistent exercise routine. I am wearing clothes bought at ANY store and I can pick anything out. I have shared my story with anyone who would listen about how I am "sparked"
As I see it, the future holds only good things for me and that is how I am going to envision it. Yes, only He knows what our future has in store for us but my vision is a happy and healthy one and I welcome my 58th birthday ... 5 years from today.