Today is also my "weigh in" day and I lost 3.5 pounds this week. In total I have lost 38.5 since I started "sparking"!!
I didn't start sparking a year ago though, I tried ... had a little success and then I ran into some health issues and lost my "spark"
For me it has always been about the mindset ... getting to that place where I know I can do it and I am ready to DO IT!
That day came on January 2, 2013 as that is my son's birthday and he and I made a "pact" that we were going to lose weight and get healthy. He joined a Crossfit place where he goes to college and I saw the BLC21 and signed up for that (officially started January 16, 2013). To date I have dropped 38.5 and he has lost a bit more!
When I first started on Sparkpeople I was trying to find an "image" that I felt would best represent me and where I was with my health for my profile picture.
For a long time I chose:
An image that was truly me ... someone who always battled with the input of the little devil and angel on my shoulder. I was able to block out the "devil" (negative) and even changed my profile picture to one of strength, originally done from part of a challenge for the BLC21 but I liked it ... and I felt it!
The BLC21 finished and we went right into a "No break" challenge ... however that negative voice got a bit stronger again and said ... oh you need a break, you "deserve" a break. I succumbed to that voice and ate some things I had been avoiding. One of the things we worked on this week in the Camo No break challenge was trial and error. Well I sure confirmed to myself that I don't do sugar very well.
It started with a java chiller from Sonic (only the small size mind you and no whip cream)
I thought I could handle this ... hmm. Let me "rewind" a bit and tell you about my love of coffee. I know I drink too much and I am currently weaning myself down to a reasonable amount per day. So this "treat" was at the end of the day and I didn't eat any dinner to make up for the calories that were in it.
So next day ... I have my usual coffee, I head off to a meeting with a person to discuss blueprints for a project I am working on. A project that was started many months ago and has been stressful. So now I have more stress because of what we still have to do on the project to get the necessary approval.
My coworker invites me to lunch ... I do okay at lunch (take some of it home and avoid dessert). On the way home ... the "deserving" devil thinks that one donut will be okay ... as I drive right by a little donut shop on the way home. I dredge up $1.00 from my car and go in to get my donut.
So I am thinking ... I just won't eat dinner again to make up for the donut when I get home. I also think "I will just finish this lunch that I brought home" ... then I really won't be hungry. So I head off to pick up my DS15 and other kids that I take to swimming ... drive my 90 mile round trip and as I am heading back home I am thinking I really "deserve" some dinner and I think I can handle a java chiller (again) and some popcorn chicken too.
So my mind is looking for a solution to this stress and emotional mess ... maybe some chocolate chips and Cracklin' Oat Bran (love this combination) I used to eat it and I felt okay ...
Well, that wasn't the case. All that caffeine and sugar played havoc with my emotions and I was really down and totally overwhelmed with everything that was/is going on with my life. I am sure that hormones played a part in this mess also. I looked up sugar and depression and guess what ... sugar and caffeine are #1 and #2 on this article's list on anxiety and panic attacks:
My spark is back and I am taking the steps to make sure that I don't go back down that black hole again. Thankfully even though I ate so poorly this past week my weight stayed the same probably due to all the intense yard work I have been doing. I am trying to look at this as a positive and not that I wasted 2 weeks. It is all part of the journey of discovery, right?
Today was our final WI for the BLC21. We took our final measurements and overall I lost 12 inches.
The challenge didn't officially start until the 16th of January but after I saw this picture taken at a Christmas brunch ... I had to do something!
This picture was truly eye opening and my friend had posted it on my Facebook page. I about cried when I saw it. I knew I had reached a new all time high but OMG this was the reality that I needed ... a visual of what others saw.
So on January 2nd I committed to a healthier lifestyle and made a goal to lose 120 pounds by my 54th birthday which is 7-1-2014. I have been able to get rid of 35 pounds since that date!
Here are some Before & After minus 35 pound pictures
They say a picture is worth a thousand words ... so not much more to say about them
I have learned a lot so far and I have learned that I CAN do this. I still have a long way to go and lots of areas to work on. One important thing I learned was that I couldn't have done this without Sparkpeople ... which to me is all you wonderful 's out there who just seem to know when I need a little encouragement or I need to be "brought back" into the fold of health.
I look forward to BLC 22 which starts June 5th! But in the meantime there is plenty of "work" to be done ...