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110 lbs of change or the same

Thursday, April 29, 2010

I was thinking of stuff in my life I have had to change. Yesterday I reached my 110 lb mark. I bet I could think of 110 ways I have changed. I got the day off why not lol This should be random.

1) I have grown to love salads
2) I learned that eating a half sandwich and soup will fill me up
3) Buffets are annoying because then you gotta fast for the rest of the day
4) Exercise is a great way to spend time with friends
5) Trainers at golds gym must have highlights or massive legs.
6) People change their lives to being healthy when they are ready and you can't push them to.
7) Eggplant should be offered in asian food at more restaurants.
8) Losing weight can go to peoples heads very easily
9) The best kind of exercise is the kind you enjoy
10) Egg beaters can make your breakfast feel uber special!
11) I have learned I am different from my parents and thats a good thing.
12) Tea is a great hunger suppressant late at night.
13) Running is not torture, you just have to get to level where you can enjoy it.
14) Everyone is nice until you get to know them.
15) The dent in the couch gets smaller as you lose weight
16) I am more athletic then my dogs now.
17) My brother in law never got me a gift until he heard I started running, then he got me a book about running lol
18) Just because you like exercising doesn't mean you should be in the fitness field.
19) Whatever you love doing, do it in your spare time and not as a job.
20) Even long term friends with disappoint you
21) The mirror is not such a demon, as I once thought it was
22) Tandem bikes are much harder then they look!
23) Sometimes the best bike for you is one you love and not the one that looks cool.
24) Mother in Laws can get better with time...
25) Trying to lose weight fast actually makes it slow down. Stress takes over.
26) Men become pigs as you lose weight.
27) Women get more catty toward you.
28) Women are evil in general and usually are talking behind your back.
29) You can't blaim anyone but yourself for not losing weight.
30) Goodwill is great place to shop when you are changing sizes fast.
31) Some of the best ppl to have around are the ones that will tell u the truth.
32) If you love eating then you gotta learn to exercise more to balance it.
33) Being afraid to wear a swimsuit should be no obstacle for getting in the water to exercise.
34) Water aerobics is so much fun!
35) Some exercise is not ment to be intense but ment to spend time with people and talk.
36) Eating out can be a fun challange to stay in your calories.
37) At breakfast places u can replace hash browns with fruit!
38) Whole Wheat is less calories then anything white in the same form.
39) Veggie burgers are really good and everyone should give them a shot.
40) Mowing the lawn can be great cardio!
41) Shoveling snow is great cardio also.
42) Riding your bike to work gives you great time to think.
43) Drinking 8 cups of water a day is not as hard as it sounds.
44) Tweezing your eye brows can give you self confidence.
45) I can fit in a bathtub now and not worry about getting up.
46) Movie theater seats are no longer something to dread.
47) I no long wonder if people are staring at me while I eat.
48) I find myself wanting to give ppl thumbs up who are heavy and exercising.
49) I have grown to love breakfast and eat it everyday
50) Even when I eat alone, I try to make it healthy.
51) Fast food is not worth it.
52) Giving up pop is not as hard as it sounds.
53) Studying while you exercise is a great way to study and your blood is flowing!
54) People will help you as much as they....can
55) Clothes are a great reward for weight loss
56) Aldi has gotten cleaner with time lol
57) Growing flowers is much more rewarding then buying cut ones.
58) Yellow is a great color to exercise in outdoors
59) Small dogs can't go very far
60) It is not important to always have the best of everything
61) Doing things slowly and getting them done is more important then racing someone and ending up hurt.
62) I will always strive to stay the person I started out as and not alienate those around me.
63) If you hate a type of exercise, try again at a later time.
64) Stairstepper can be so rewarding.
65) Pilates doesn't burn very many calories but holy crap it makes your stomach look good!
66) Always try something new, who knows you might love it!
67) Talk about exercise with ppl who enjoy it.
68) Talking about it with everyone else and it just pisses them off.
69) People tend to get angry with you when you accomplish things and they don't.
70) My dogs are the cutest little humans I know and the most dependable.
71) Some of the most amazing athletes are moms of 4-5 kids. This gives none of the rest of us any excuse for having no time to exercise.
72) Zumba being fun depends on the teacher.
73) I only zumba for my husband when I get drunk lol
74) Reading books on the exercise bike goes so fast
75) Make friends from all different people. It makes your life so much richer knowing all different sides of the story.
76) One person can give religion a bad name and make you hate it.
77) Everyone sees the same situation from a completely different stand point.
78) Heartrate monitors are completely worth the money.
79) You can never have too many reusable water bottles around
80) Whole wheat lenders bagels come in really handy as snacks.
81) When your bigger you like loose clothes.
82) When your smaller, tighter is better
83) After awhile you can't believe what you actually weigh. I lost 2 lbs yesterday and on the weight tracker, I accidentally typed in 272.
84) I still see the same 282 lbs person in the mirror. But I don't think I ever knew what I looked like then.
85) I still end up in the plus sized section looking at clothes.
86) I have friends bigger then me now, when it used to be the opposite.
87) I enjoy encouraging ppl to exercise with me
88) I love saying hi to ppl when I am out exercising when I used to wish i was invisible.
89) I stand in the front of the class in zumba when I used to hide.
90) I try to talk to people wherever I go now and be open to always making friends
91) I am no longer scared to face Scotts family because of my weight.
92) I no longer have to read the weight limit on ladders before I get on them.
93) My dad told me he didn't recognize me at first last time he saw me
94) My wedding band is loose and I got it 6 months ago.
95) Shopping for clothes is harder now because there are too many choices.
96) I can feel bones in my chest and it kinda scares me lol
97) I am usually the thinnest person in water aerobics now and I wonder if people question why I am there.
98) I wear belts now! Used to wear my pants as tight as I could lol
99) I have to have a wide variety of fruits in the house at all times.
100) My scale doesn't control me but it keeps me knowing whats going on.
101) I love painting my nails again and feeling feminine
102) I hang goal clothes up at the top of my closet to keep myself going
103) I am not scared to walk on snow anymore and fall
104) I feel confident when I am nude now.
105) It's nice when ppl meet me and never knew I was bigger.
106) I love riding my bike 18 miles and having a really sore butt to show for it!
107) I really enjoy inspiring ppl, when I never thought I could.
108)My husband tells me its fun to pick me up.
109) I am running my first half marathon in 2 days.
110) I have grown to love me.

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NIKLOW 5/11/2010 5:18PM

    Love the list! I can relate to a lot of these. Hopefully a lot more soon!! haha. You're awesome!

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PSFITMOMMY413 5/4/2010 6:59PM

    Great list!! I think I might copy the idea when I hit 100 lbs lost in 7.5 pounds :)

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LAFTERSFREE 5/3/2010 7:57PM


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    This is an amazing list. I think it's cute that Scott thinks it's fun to pick you up. I may make this my ultimate goal, but first I need a man, lol.

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WINTERWINGS 5/3/2010 2:51PM

    Number 26 is what derailed me last time. Now I am married and I think I will be able to deal with that one but you're totally right.

Great list! Wonder what I will say if and when I ever get down that far.

Congratulations. Now I'm off to read your marathon report. : )

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BACK2HEALTHY 5/2/2010 12:52PM

  totally awesome...AGAIN! HA!!
you are an inspiration to me and i love your honesty. you say things i know we're all thinking.

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THIRDXACHARM 5/1/2010 2:09PM

    Your blog brought a tear to my eye and really touched my heart.

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    I totally love this blog!!! It is so you. The you I have come to know and love!!! LOL. Always so honest and real. emoticon

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LUWANTSTOBEFIT 4/30/2010 11:02AM

    I think you better change your name, you are not a confused bird, oh my gosh, you are a wonderful and strong woman. Great going.... I need your inspiration... I am so happy for you..... emoticon

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AIYMI2 4/30/2010 10:56AM

    That is an amazing list. I certainly know you are an inspiration to me! Good luck Saturday... you will do GREAT! emoticon

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FUEL82 4/29/2010 8:25PM

    Wonderful list Julia!!! You have come so far and it is so AMAZING!!! 110 lbs is so AWESOME!!! So many of these are SO TRUE and SO FUNNY!!! Again you are a WISE WOMAN!!!

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ALVOGEL1 4/29/2010 5:20PM

    fantastic list. i got goosebumps on a lot of them. you are one amazing woman.

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SPIFFYCAT 4/29/2010 4:39PM

    Well done on the weight loss hun emoticon

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SLCB1023 4/29/2010 4:38PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticonGreat list!!!

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MBVMFLUTIST 4/29/2010 4:33PM

    OMG This is so awesome, I am crying right now! Surely you know what an amazing person you are!!! :D

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SCHWINNER! 4/29/2010 3:39PM

    Wow, awesome list!!! Some are touching, some are hilarious :) Awesome blog!!

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SIOBHANCOREY 4/29/2010 3:28PM

    Holy moly! That's quite the list! You so totally rock :-)

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GINARAE7 4/29/2010 3:26PM

    I love it! Well, except for the women are evil one, sorry that's been your experience :-( Keep up the awesome work!


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GOALOFLOSING 4/29/2010 3:23PM

    111) "I am superwoman"

You rock girl! I'm so proud of you!! :)

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RESIPSA99 4/29/2010 3:19PM

    Congrats on 110 - woo hoo!!! Some of these are hilarious...thanks for posting! And good luck on your half this weekend!!!

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REBECCA1354 4/29/2010 3:18PM

    I really enjoyed this. And good for you!

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3 days away!

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

The half marathon keeps getting closer and I am getting more excited! My mom is coming the morning of to take my camera and car keys. I am estimating it will take me around 2 hrs 45 minutes to 3 hrs to finish. If I am running with other ppl though and I am all excited, I might run faster. Scott seems to think I will run faster for some reason lol He thinks I don't give it my all on my long runs and I will when I actually put to the test. He has me reading the born to run book. There is this woman in the book who is an ultra marathon runner. She is so amazing, she's from the US and she's like 5'1 and a science teacher from a junior college. Her secret seemed to be that she just loves running. She didn't do it because she was trying to lose weight or fit into a certain size. She just did it for the joy of running and she was good at it. Distance running seems to be a different animals then most sports. Ppl hit their peaks later, people can do it at any age. I am happy Scott got me to read it, it's really interesting.

Still on my spark roll. I think tomorrow is the last day of the week I will be exercising. I need to save up some energy for this weekend. I think I shall lounge around the next two days! I finally have a break from work, time to relax.

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FISHIE3 4/29/2010 8:51PM

    a few years ago, i attended a lecture from Dr. Dennis Bramble (University of Utah). he has done a lot of research on the connection between human evolution and long-distance running. (there's a big article in _Nature_, Nov. 18, 2004, but there's a summary at this link:

the link doesn't discuss what he showed in his lecture about age and marathons. opposed to other types of running, marathoners are better in their 30s rather than early 20s. and ability of marathoners improves rapidly through the 20s and 30s, but ability declines slowly after the peak. essentially, a 50 or 60-year-old can still have a pace equal to someone in their early twenties. Dr. Bramble is trying to discover why humans maintain this skill for distance running.

if you haven't ever listened to _This American Life_ on the radio, you should check it out. you've got 15 years worth of episodes to explore, but you might want to start with "Running After Antelope" (
-After-Antelope). This story was written by the brother of Dr. Bramble's graduate student. This graduate student is a big part of the inspiration to explore man's relationship to long distance running.

anyway... good luck with your race. you'll do great.

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RESIPSA99 4/29/2010 3:18PM

    Ooop s - see above!

Comment edited on: 4/29/2010 3:18:53 PM

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LAFTERSFREE 4/28/2010 11:30PM

    if u really want to get pumped, u should watch this documentary called "Spirit of the Marathon" it's amazing.

and hmm, apparently u can find it on hulu!!! here's a link! (i think! i rented it, so i hope this link works for you!)

Comment edited on: 4/28/2010 11:31:33 PM

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MORTICIAADDAMS 4/28/2010 12:55PM

    Good luck with the marathon. I know you will do well!!!

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SCHWINNER! 4/28/2010 7:56AM

    Good luck on your half!!! You're going to kill it - just imagine that feeling of finishing :)

I may have to check out that book too, thanks for the rec!

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MBVMFLUTIST 4/28/2010 7:06AM

    You're gonna do so great!!! I wish I could come and cheer for you! Allison has a choir contest for school that morning. :(

I'm with Scott...when you get there in the camaraderie of the event, your adrenaline will kick in and you are going to fly. ;)

I was going to ask you if you wanted to ride tomorrow, but now I want you to save your energy too! Maybe next week. :)

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SPIFFYCAT 4/28/2010 6:02AM

    How lovely you sound so excited about your upcoming half marathon emoticon

Nice to see you have finally got a couple of days to relax you deserve it.
I shall hunt out that book sounds very interesting...

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BLAHBLAHSTEPH 4/28/2010 1:15AM

    That's so awesome you're doing a half marathon. I bet you'll finish with a great time! That book sounds great, I should check it out.

Huge congrats to you and good luck!!

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Less than a week to the half marathon!

Sunday, April 25, 2010

I have not been blogging lately. In my free time lately I enjoy laying in bed and watching documentaries. Other then that working and exercising. I did my last long run today before the half marathon. Other then that run I am just doing smaller exercises and saving up my energy. I am only gonna burn 2500 calories before Saturday, yikes! I am pretty sure I will burn around 2000-2500 at the half marathon so I need to just save up the energy for that day. I am getting all excited!! Right now there is a chance of rain, so we will see. I have been experimenting with running with coffee in my system and none. My heartrate stays much better with no coffee in my system. I have a better run that way and a lot less out of breath. I took the advice from the Twofitchicks podcast. I get up eat a small banana and then go out and run. The banana is usually perfect for a morning run instead a full breakfast u have to wait 45-60 minutes to digest. I have photos from me standing with Scott last yr at this marathon. I weighed 208 in the pictures so I have lost 34 lbs so far from last yr. The comparison pics from last yr to this yr should be interesting.

Facebook is kinda crazy, everyone is on there. Which is not such a good thing. For some stupid reason I added my uncle. Who is calling my mom now and tells her about my status messages. I wonder if I can pretty much block everything he sees. It just really pisses me off he's telling my mom stuff that is almost trying to turn her against me. Don't make friends with your family, bad idea. I don't put anything bad about her but he acts like since she's not on facebook she is missing out on so much. If I can't call her in a week, she hears stuff about me thru him. Really annoying, family reunions, high school reunions, telephone books, what is the point anymore with facebook. You can find all new reasons to hate friends, classmates and family via facebook.

The body I am working to get back to. I doubt my stomach will ever be flat like this

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JWARD199 4/27/2010 2:28PM

    Good luck with the marathon! And sounds like your solution is better than unfriending your uncle. Diplomacy on Facebook, a new concept!

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FUEL82 4/26/2010 11:40PM

    Your pic is so CUTE! You have come so far since last year!!! fantastic job!!!

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GOALOFLOSING 4/26/2010 12:21PM

    I'm having the same exact facebook issues right now! Good luck on your half marathon! I can't wait to hear all about it!

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ONCEMOREAGAIN 4/25/2010 10:59PM

    Wishing you lots of luck on the marathon. You have been working so hard! What a cute pic.

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MARYONAMISSION 4/25/2010 10:51PM

    Could you be any cuter in this picture? How adorable. OMG, I just don't get facebook. I'm hardly ever on. I'd much rather spark. Good luck on your half marathon & I can't wait to see the comparison photos.

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    What an adorable picture!!!!

I wish I had not added so many people to Facebook. I would think I knew them when I don't.

Good luck with the race.

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CONFUSEDBIRD 4/25/2010 9:07AM

    I figured out how to block all my status messages from him. I am sure he would call my mom if I deleted him. Lose lose situation

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1SHEYLA 4/25/2010 6:41AM

  good luck with the half marathon!

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SPIFFYCAT 4/25/2010 3:50AM

    awww that picture is so cute..
Umm your uncle unfriend him

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Cutting on the lines

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

I went to my 2nd job today and the girl I work with is quitting since she got a fulltime job. Which means I will be working alone with my boss. Which makes me wanna find a new job even more. I packed up books today for 5 hrs standing over a table. My back hurt so bad by the time I left. He's being really shady with the way he's paying me too. UGH what pisses me off is My other boss Brian knew what Rick was like when he tried getting me a job. I am just ready to get 1 job.

My food logging is still going well. Tomorrow makes 1 week I have been in my calories! Also burning calories is going good. I did water aerobics with Ty tonight for 2 hrs. I am exhausted and my eyes are failing me right now. Attempting to stay awake to see Scott when he gets off work. Rain must be coming, my joints are starting to bother me. I really need to run tomorrow morning! Supposedly running improves circulation and that sounds like a good thing for arthritis. Night night guys.

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TYBABY79 4/21/2010 8:49PM

    Water aerobics for 2 hours was fabolous but OMG my whole body hurt last night...I couldnt believe it! i love water, you dont feel the burn until its done!

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FRANCESCANAZ 4/21/2010 6:05PM

    Great job on staying within your range for a whole week! emoticon I too, hope you get a better job and SOON.

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RLMCCUE 4/21/2010 5:15PM

    Sorry I've been absent for a while, I've missed reading your blogs and catching up on how you're doing! The 2nd job definitely sounds shady, I hope you can find 1 job that supports you financially and is satisfying to you soon, I know how tough that is right now.

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    I hope you can find a better job than this one.

Great job on the calories!! And the exercise!! I expect your scale to be moving again soon.

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MBVMFLUTIST 4/21/2010 12:09PM

    I don't like the sounds of this guy you're working for, either. I hope you find something else soon so you can leave it behind!

Tomorrow or Friday is good for a ride, so let me know if you're doing anything. :)

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DNJEN471 4/21/2010 10:27AM

    Sorry to hear your boss is being shady. It certainly makes it difficult to stay til the end. Hope your run helps your joint pain.

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A day with my husband at last!

Monday, April 19, 2010

It was so nice spending time with Scott finally. I barbecued chicken, asparagus and red potatos while he was in class. Then we ate as soon as he got home and took the pups on a 2 mile walk around this lake. We got to watch the sun go down. It was so nice out there, plus the dogs are out cold now. Thanks Jen for showing me that park!

I am finally down a lb for the month. It has been a really rough month. Did the workshop, found out it was not for me, lost the possible swim class, lost my job, gained a job. My emotions are going crazy. Oh I gotta tell you guys something funny. I was asking Scott what he does when he gets stressed out. Does he ever emotionally just start cramming food in his mouth? He told me he reads a scifi books, because that gives him an escape into an unreal world. I cram cake in my face and he reads scifi. Very interesting! At least I know now that when he reads scifi books something is wrong. You guys should ask your men and see what they say lol It's funny how everyone copes.

I think I have an ultimate goal now. I want to confidently run outside with human being in a sports bra. Just like wearing a bikini, anyone can do it. Doing it and making other human being think"ouch keep your clothes on" is another story. So yeah that is my ultimate goal. Run in a sports bra and I have the confidence to know ppl arent cringing lol That will be when I wear a bikini as well. Oh I finally measured today. My hips stayed the same, lost 1 inch off my waist and .5 inch off my neck! I havent lost any neck in awhile lol

I have made a deal with myself to stay in my calories until April 31st. That is the night I have to carbload for the half marathon. I can do it!!!

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SPIFFYCAT 4/20/2010 1:41PM

    Fantastic sounds like you had a lovely time.
You just gave me somewhere else to measure I never thought of measuring my neck.. lol

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MORTICIAADDAMS 4/19/2010 10:50PM

    Men are amazing. I can't imagine how anyone can read when they are stressed. LOL. I pace and talk to myself. That is why I always have so many steps. LOL.

Your day with Scott sounded great.

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DNJEN471 4/19/2010 10:44PM

    Aw! I am so glad that you and scott finally had some time together. Congrats on the pound loss! That is awesome.

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MARYONAMISSION 4/19/2010 10:21PM

    You are doing awesome! Congrats on the pounds and inches lost especially with all you've been going through.
Glad you had a great day with the hubby too! Very important.

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