Monday, February 16, 2009
I have 3 months left before school is out. That is 3 months left of having a job. 3 months to figure out where we are going in life. I donno all of this is really just setting in and scaring me. This is a really bad time to be out of school. This would be a wonderful time to be in school actually. Which is good that Scott is gonna start at ISU in the fall. But I gotta get my butt out on the job market and bring in some money so we don't go broke. Everyone I talk to is having an insanely hard time finding a job. I don't mean good jobs either, as in jobs at all. I have friends with bachelors degrees dieing to work at subway, it's really scary. I don't even know what I wanna do anymore. I am burning out of photography, it's really sad but I am. I wanna go to grad school eventually but not right now. I need a break, I need a break so bad. I am just really scared, life was finally making sense. We have been down here at school for 3 yrs and the last yr has been wonderful. We both have stable jobs, school is going well we arent living in constant fear of huge bills. Now it all has to end and we have to move. I can't work my campus job after May 8th, I am just so scared. I have been really not trying to think about it. But it's there lingering over me. Scott still has his full time job at walmart so after I lose my job at least he can keep working and I will clean up the house to move. There is a lot of cleaning to do so I am sure we will stay a few months after graduation to pull up lose ends.