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Photo Food Logging Day 1

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Done this in the past, it always seem to help. Mostly because I don't wanna shoot a night binge lol I weighed 170 this morning UGH! What a disaster. I shot these with my phone camera. They look rather craptastic.

Breakfast

Lunch On the Go between jobs

Snack Before Gym, hard to see but I had a english muffin with hummus

Dinner, leftovers from last night. Eggplant Parmesan with pasta and salad.

Evening Snack, apple with natural peanut butter and Tea


Finished the day eating 1897 calories. Not amazing but not terrible for first day back. I feel like I am on detox again. Gotta get used to not eating way a ton yet again. Will be going to bed a bit hungry but that's ok. When I see ppl on here saying they have issues reaching 1500 calories, that always confuses me. If I eat 1600 calories I will go to bed starving to death. I didn't even burn that many calories today, I am just not good at eating that little. Scott could tell I was hungry earlier, he told me I was being mean lol Tomorrow will be better. Ended the day with 8 fruits and veggie servings. Managed 11 cups of water! Hopefully the scale will be nicer tomorrow.

More goals for the week:
1) eat out once, if that. It's just too expensive and gets me in a bad pattern.
2) Cook dinner every night this week that Scott is home at night.
3) Keep working on getting more water. Been really struggling with this lately.
4) Get to bed earlier.
5) Get 1 before work run in this week.

My boss gave me his old lawn furniture on Friday. It's getting too cold to eat dinner outside, but we have once so far. Makes the back patio look cute.

  
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SWEETS86 9/29/2011 10:46AM

    I wish it was too cold to go outside already! If you have a good eggplant recipe I would love it! I tried out some eggplant a while ago and it was awful.

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TRICOTINE 9/27/2011 11:34PM

    I love the photos and the patio furniture! emoticon

I should get back of taking pictures of my food... It was fun! Thanks for the inspiration!
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WHATEVERHOBB 9/27/2011 1:58PM

    I might try this too! You know how much I love taking picture. :)

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MORTICIAADDAMS 9/27/2011 12:54PM

    I always love the way your food looks. My looks terrible. I should make more effort and maybe i would eat better. The patio furniture is cool. I love freebies!!!

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DNJEN471 9/27/2011 11:58AM

    I have days when I am fine at 1000 calories- but those are usually the days I have not worked out. My cardio days I'm starving! Your body knows what you need :)

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EDDYMEESE 9/27/2011 10:55AM

    Oooh, I love the furniture!
Hey, I'm going to join you in posting a food blog! I agree that it would probably help to not overeat, lol, because I wouldn't want to post a binge :(
I'll probably start my blog in the AM and finish in the PM, otherwise I'll likely forget to do it at night! Woo hoo!

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ERIECANALGAL 9/27/2011 12:24AM

    I love looking at photo food blogs. It is interesting to see what people eat.

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Feeling out of control

Sunday, September 25, 2011

I am feeling scared to step on the scale. I was so positive earlier in the week. Ate out yesterday, ate out today ughhhh! We met Scott's mom for our birthdays breakfast and I choose the place. The food came and Scott's skinny mother looked at the food and said "wow that's a lot of food, I guess I will be eating popcorn for dinner". UGHHHHH don't let me pick where to eat. I feel like a hog when I eat with her.

My friends Tori and Mary on here have been photographing their food lately. Maybe I need to go back to that. It seems to help me quite a bit. I am also gonna suck it up and post my weight every morning.

I am really stressing out about my worst day of my peirod falling on my day of my marathon. How can you put so much planning into something and your weakest day of your period MUST come the same day. It is just not fair!

I was telling Scott and his mom today about what marathon I am running next. Scott looked at me and blinked and said "Let's get thru one first" lol My friend Dru who has been injured is trying to find another race and she is planning on the Illinois marathon. I was asking her if she is doing the half or the whole and she said the whole. I wanna do a whole with her. She is just so amazing and has helped me so much. She will ride her bike for 4 hrs with me in the pouring rain because she wants to help me. She ran Chicago for the first time in 1985. She is so cool! I wanna run Champaign with her if she is not hurt.

I had a really bad 11 mile run yesterday. 2 miles in I was just feeling like garbage. I guess what matters is that I did not turn around and go home. Some runs down right suck! But ya know that's really not an excuse. This week is full of short runs. I hope they go better then Saturday did.

Oh ya and I am kinda looking into buying a new HRM since my band broke and I have a gift card for amazon. If anyone has a newer Polar, let me know what you have and what you think, plllleeeeeeeeze!

This week
1) take pictures of food
2) Get your freaking short runs in! They are SHORT runs!
3) Stay out of bed with the food! (I have been slacking)
4) Be nicer to yourself, going against yourself gets you deeper in a hole.
5) Keep lifting alone, your doing awesome!

  
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MORTICIAADDAMS 9/27/2011 12:52PM

    Everyone should be able to celebrate on special occasions, It sounds like you are doing pretty good to me. You are still out there running and you will make this marathon.

If my food looked like yours and I knew how to use a camera I would do my food too. LOL.

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SCHWINNER! 9/26/2011 12:47PM

    You can still tackle this marathon first, while still thinking about future ones in the back of your mind! ;)

Hang in there; you're still doing great!!! I'm with another poster - if you're on the pill, just skip those end-of-pack sugar pills and forego the period!

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ALEXANDRIA2007 9/26/2011 10:27AM

    You have set forth wonderful goals. While you you say you feel out of control, it appears you are very much in control! Keep up the great work and good luck in your marathon!

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THESB25 9/26/2011 8:39AM

    I like your plan of action. It's so important that you self-monitor, but remember you're training for a longgggg running event. Your weight and things are going to change a bit to accomodate that so don't beat yourself up too much. Also some people and their natural skinny-mini selves talking about food portions...ugh hate that. I will always cower when people make remarks about how much food comes out on a plate in a restuarant so I understand you there.

Stay positive and accountable - you're doing an excellent job, don't ever discount the positive.

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LEIGHWOMAN 9/26/2011 8:27AM

    Are you on a birth control pill? If so, just skip your period this month.

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CHRISTEL-LYNN 9/25/2011 11:34PM

    emoticon Keep up the good work. You can eat with me anytime! I will make you look like you didnt eat anything!

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EDDYMEESE 9/25/2011 11:30PM

    When you've come as far as you have and lost weight, the ride can be terrifying. I've been there (only now I'm back at my top weight). I don't know if we'll ever be able to get to a place where we don't beat ourselves up for not being 110% perfect. There is always the fear of going back to that weight. But in my experience, it is this fear that sabotages us. I was scared to death of gaining it all back, to the point of the fear being paralyzing. So here I am, 190+ pounds and having to start all over again. I think it's okay to be a bit afraid of gaining again, because it keeps us motivated. But when fear takes over, it's hard to stop it. So here you are, nearing the end of training for a marathon, a TWENTY SIX POINT TWO mile run, and you're relentlessly making yourself sick over feeling guilty about eating a large breakfast.
That's because we can never get rid of the "fat" person in us, even when we're skinny and running marathons. It's that "fat" in us that tells us we suck, that we didn't do enough, that we're eating like hogs, that we're not working hard enough...I let that "fat" person get to me and I gained it all back. I think the biggest hurdle in this whole journey is not the dieting or the exercising, but being able to stop letting the "fat" in us get us down. I think when I get back to my goal weight I'm going to get an exorcism for the "fat" Eddy, lol :)

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DNJEN471 9/25/2011 10:50PM

    You are amazing and don't let anyone (including you) make you doubt that for one moment!

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CONFUSEDBIRD 9/25/2011 10:01PM

    I hope so too!


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JMGNIAD 9/25/2011 9:25PM

    ugh, i've been so out of control too. i think once you hit rock bottom though with your emotions, you bounce back up. thats what i'm hoping for, lol.

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Back to basics!

Thursday, September 22, 2011

Last few days have not been pretty but who cares?! I am back on track this morning. I got a lean cuisine pizza and an apple in my pannier and I will be biking to work this AM. Tailspin Shamail spin. It aint getting me down!

Sometimes that very small percentage of ppl who actually keep weight off pops up in my head. I can think of the basic reasons why it comes back. Babies, divorce, illness, other stresses of big events in life. I think what I have learned is you gotta just go on auto play. We know the basics. We need to have our standby healthy breakfast items we can stick to. Always keep a healthy lunch to eat on the go. Dinner, keep lots of easy dinner choices in the house. Also snacks, don't let snacks get boring. Everyday wont be awesome, as a matter of fact. Some days will be downright bloody and gruesome. You can have some gruesome days as long as they they followed by some good ones. Also the best way to keep weight off is write down what you are doing. When I don't start a day logging my breakfast asap, all hell seems to break loose. I see this one on a lot of my best ways to keep weight off lists I get on facebook.

So anyway, I had some sucktastic days. Another thing I have learned from the running group. No one comes to hear whining. We are doing this together, don't whine, just conquer! We all know it sucks! Some things do taste as good as skinny feels. But some of us were not blessed enough to eat it on a regular basis.

I was talking to my manager at the health food store and I was telling him I really enjoy zumba, its so much fun! and he said "do you enjoy zumba or do you like the feeling u get after zumba?" I was like, No I enjoy zumba! lol I actually look forward to it. He looked at me like he had never experienced a fitness activity that was like that. With all this marathon training I have only been going to zumba once a week and I savor it

Oh something else I am proud of this week! I ran out of soy milk and I freaked out! Well in my head. I have finally gotten used to not drinking milk. I never thought I could get off milk but I did it! Now cottage cheese is another issue all together! Something else I have come to terms with in the past yr is wearing clothes not as tight as I can. For some reason when I was getting really close to goal I wanted to buy all my clothes in skin tight sizes. For some reason I have reproportioned. I have talked to other ppl who have said this too. Weight stays the same but clothes fit different. I was fitting in 6 jeans. Now I am buying 10's and I even bought a 12 the other day. They are comfy and cute and who gives a crap? Size is a size is a size. Plus I don't have to unbutton my jeans after a big meal lol

  
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EDDYMEESE 9/25/2011 11:07PM

    I love your blogs so much :) I always cruise around waiting for you to post one! You're so right about sticking to the basics. One thing I'm working on is always keeping the house stocked with food. Sometimes when we start to run out of food we end up going out or ordering pizza...instead this month we're going to do EVERYTHING to always keep the house stocked with yummy, healthy food. Also , we finally actually separated our meat into small amounts. Sometimes I'm shocked by how much food we eat. So this month I asked my husband to separate the fish, chicken, beef into small amounts. Seriously, they are about the size of what one of us would normally eat, so we're eating half as much. But I'm filling the rest with salad and veggies, and quinoa or rice. Part of it is too stop wasting so much money, but also because we just eat way too much (well, I do).
I'm hoping I see some success :)
I'm starting to learn that if I don't stick to these kinds of basics, plus exercise, this will never work long-term!


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FUEL82 9/24/2011 12:20PM

    Great blog Julie!!! I'm so happy for you that you are not letting the celebrating get you down!!!! That is awesome!!! I know it's hard not to complain and worry about things. I am the worst and I need to improve. I like that phrase you mentioned with your running group--just conquer!!!

That same motto kind of came up in a friend's blog I read recently. He's from my same hometown and he started a walk yesterday from Des Moines IA to Kansas City to raise money for Vasculitis. He lost a lot of weight the last few years but the motto came up on his first day...basically don't give up--will and determination are really the keys. :-)

You've got it and you can do it!!!!

Ya, I've been thinking of going back to zumba. I watching another girl's youtube video, who is also from my hometown, lol. She's a zumba instructor I guess. Her mom was actually my dance teacher growing up so it makes sense but the music on the video was good and so were the moves. That is the only thing...I'm worried about if I go back to the Rec...they use popular music and not the authentic zumba music. I like the merengue, hip-hop type stuff. oh well, maybe one of these days because zumba is fun-a totally different workout then running, lol...

Yes, size is only a number! You are fit and healthy and it shows no matter what number is on your clothes!!!

You are such an inspiration girlie!!!! Keep up the great work!!!! :-))))

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MORTICIAADDAMS 9/22/2011 7:39PM

    I think you are right about having to keep to basics. That's why Dr. Oz and Roisen recommend eating the same things for breakfast and lunch because it makes it a no brainer. You can't screw up.

I think I would love zumba too if I had the stamina to do it. I might have to do Zumba Gold as I am almost 60.

You have a great sense of style and look cute no matter what size you wear. The most important thing is that you are happy with how you feel and look. I'm old so I like loose clothes. LOL.

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DETERMINED_SOUL 9/22/2011 1:51PM

    Great blog! I find following the basics to be the best help for me as well. You can do it!

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MARYONAMISSION 9/22/2011 1:48PM

    I loved this positive blog! Btw, "don't whine, just conquer", should be printed on t-shirts, lol. What a great saying. I may have to steal it.
Sounds like you got it all under control again and are ready to kick ass!!!! I'm loving it.


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BEMILLER30 9/22/2011 12:57PM

    So true! keep up the good work. All that matters is that you feel good and are in great shape. You are awesome! Back to the basics it is, for me too!

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DNJEN471 9/22/2011 12:29PM

    Too true hon! You are fit and feel great- so it really doesn't matter what size of pants you wear. I can't wait to wear a 12! Soon enough :) I hope to have some extra funds by next summer- then I will have to try zumba. Until then free exercise is my way to go. So excited to be reading your super motivating blogs again!

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SLS-NY2IN 9/22/2011 9:41AM

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I conquered my 20 mile training run!

Monday, September 19, 2011


I did it yayyy!!! A present to me for my birthday! I honestly believe that runners are as good as their determination is! I may not be an amazingly fast runner. But dammit I am stubborn and I don't give up til the end! It tookme 2 yrs to get here, and feel confident here. But man I am happy I finally arrived!

I have to say it was the worst possible day too. The weather said we had a 30% chance of rain and ummm ya it rained! Oh well I guess I got to test my vibrams out in wetness which I usually avoid like the plague. But it's better to be prepared for anything. I carried my new gu pouch holder and it worked out well. I brought bandages with me, which were too wet to use once I needed them lol Oh wel I am fine. Only place I had chaffing was on my feet. For some reason my 18 mile run was much worse then my 20 mile. Running distance just all depends on the day. You never know what days will be good. Yesterday I was really struggling for the first 4 miles but then it got much better. Oh and I didn't have any of the pain in my foot. Yay for staying off it for a few days and letting things heal! I am now in taper mode and uninjured! I saw a lot of running injuries in my group. Amazing what ppl can do to themselves when they over train.

I love birthday time and hate birthday time. Since Scott and my birthday are 4 days apart. We end up eating out for 4 days straight and I just feel like I am in a tailspin! We went to a buffet last night with my parents. Tonight we are meeting Scott's dad for mexican and we still have 1 birthday dinner left with his mom. It's funny when your weakness is food, you really don't need to celebrate with it. It never comes out looking very pretty! Well I am gonna try my dardest tonight to get to water aerobics before we eat mexican!

My mom gave me money for my birthday, I think I am gonna use it toward swimming lessons this winter! I go to the pool and try to imitate what the swimmers do lol I did take swimming lessons but I was like 6 at the time. I wanna learn all these cool swimming moves. I feel like swimming would be an awesome winter sport when I can't run on ice.

  
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THESB25 9/22/2011 10:33AM

    Happy Birthday friend - a 20 miler, WOW. You are so awesome girl. Thanks for being an awesome spark friend. I'll write you soon, I promise!

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WINTERWINGS 9/20/2011 10:54PM

    A girlfriend of mine took swimming as a university class and then came back to the apartment building we lived in, that had a pool, and taught me all they learned in class. Despite that, I still suck as a swimmer but I remember what she said. My problem, these days, is that I am not overly keen on getting my face in the water over and over again. I have enough problems with my eyes and chlorine in them isn't any fun. And no, I don't want goggles. I think I might get a cap though.

I am contemplating taking an adult swim class but I am not really interested, again, in getting my face wet. I figure my flailing burns more calories anyways. *lol*

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BEMILLER30 9/20/2011 5:37PM

    This is awesome! Congrats on your longest run yet. My husband loves taper week, lol. Enjoy it girlie, you deserve it. You're going to do great on your marathon!!

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MARYONAMISSION 9/20/2011 12:22PM

    Happy Birthday Julie!!! What an awesome birthday gift to yourself. I can't even imagine how much hard work and dedication it would take to run 20 miles so congrats!
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EDDYMEESE 9/19/2011 9:55PM

    Congratulations!

I am not worthy, I am not worthy!

Did I ever tell you you're my hero?

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MORTICIAADDAMS 9/19/2011 8:57PM

    Congratulations!!!

I love to swim. My first job was as a lifeguard.

Happy Birthday!!


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CLALIZ 9/19/2011 4:51PM

    Wow girl! 20!!!!!!!!!! I want to be like you!
what a great birthday present to YOU!!!
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DETERMINED_SOUL 9/19/2011 11:52AM

    Awesome! Hope you enjoy your birthday!

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PAPER_WINGS18 9/19/2011 11:09AM

    You amaze me, chica! Happy birthday!!!!!!!!!!!! & huge huge huge congrats on the 20 mile run. Holy cow! I'm pretty sure I'd fall over and you'd find me dead on the side of the road :) You ROCK!!

Enjoy your birthday meals! =) And yay for swimming lessons! Maybe the next thing you conquer is a triathalon?! You rock!

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Here there and everywhere

Thursday, September 15, 2011

This week has been kinda hectic. Something has been going on everynight and if something was not planned, something HUGE happened. My workout buddy told she can't lift me for awhile =*( I so sad I feel like I am gonna get off my rails without her. I kinda made plans to start lifting with another person I know from the gym. So hopefully that works out while my normal buddy is busy.

It seems like the higher mileage I get into the more injuries appearing ARG! I have been having issues getting my middle runs in lately because I am trying to let small things heal before long runs. I have been running for 2 yrs and suddenly I am getting planter fascitis, go figure. I ran Monday 5 miles and last night 6 miles. The pain came up both times. I am gonna rest from running until Sunday. So hopefully 4 days off will help. Man going back to running in the cold freaking sucks! I am sure I will get used to it again. But running all summer in the heat was an adjustment as well. There is a very thin line of what nice weather is for running and it does not last long in Illinois lol
My shoes! and my dead toe nail. My proud proud runners toe nail!


I went with Scott and Lua last night to see Dan Savage. He was sooooo cute in person! I wanted to pet him, but Lua told me NO! so I refrained. When I got up to get my book signed, I went blank and all I could say was "Julie" and then it was over =( Oh well it was fun!
Meow! and yes I know he's gay, he's still meow.



Tonight I am going to my old zumba class and I am gonna see a girl I have not seen in forever yay! Then I got a hair cut at 7 pm! Ughhhh long night.

Tomorrow is Scott's birthday. I am making him Steak, real mashed potatoes and oatmeal cookies. Oatmeal cookies are not a horrible temptation to me, thank god!

Oh ya and eating has been sucktatstical! Today will be better if i can stay the hell away from my homemade salsa!

  
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THESB25 9/16/2011 8:57AM

    A girl ran past me in vibrams yesterday and I thought of you. I'm glad you're taking time off when you need it to heal. Too many people push themselves and really damage stuff. Happy Birthday to Scott!

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MORTICIAADDAMS 9/15/2011 7:59PM

    It was freezing this morning!!! Can we ever just have some nice weather instead of all the extremes??!!

Yesterday was Benny's birthday and we ate off plan and still have cake. EEK!

I would love to see Dan Savage too. I consider him a hero.

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SCHWINNER! 9/15/2011 2:34PM

    So awesome you met Dan Savage!! He is yummy not just for his looks but his actions/activism too :)

For those that don't know who he is, one of his contributions to our society was starting the whole "It Gets Better" Project for LGBT youth!

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MARYONAMISSION 9/15/2011 2:05PM

    I don't know who Dan Savage is but I totally agree...MEOW!!!!
Happy Birthday to Scott!!! That's a great b-day dinner you are making for him.
Btw, I had never heard of runner toe nails. Uhm...I'll add that to my reasons of why i don't run, lol.
Hope you four day break helps your pain. Ouch! You though are doing great with the runs!
When do we get pics of the haircut?
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PAPER_WINGS18 9/15/2011 10:27AM

    Who is that guy who signed your book? He is cute :)

mmmm sounds like a yummy dinner for Scott's bday! ENJOY, girl!

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