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Photo Blog Day 2: Picture with the person closest to you

Wednesday, February 09, 2011

I would say this would have to be my mom. 55 lbs into my weightloss I felt so skinny that day HA! lol I always hated being in photos next to her. I always looked huge compared when she would tell me how huge she felt.

I gotta write about something else that has been haunting me for a few days. Saturday I was working and we sell chocolate croissants and you offer them to everyone when they are at the cash register about to pay. Well I offered them to this woman who was on the large side. At the last second she threw one in with her groceries. Then she said no never mind and put it back. I said "Sometimes you have to have some self control" AHHHHHH WHY DID I SAY THAT???? Yes you should have some self control cuz obviously you don't look like u have much. She shot me an ashamed glance. She probably thought I was the biggest jerk ever judging how her self control is. Honestly tho I was speaking for myself standing in front of chocolate croissants for 5 hrs. But in the process I think I hurt her feelings =(

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MORTICIAADDAMS 2/10/2011 11:36PM

    She probably didn't even know the effort you put into looking the way you do. I really like the way your mom looks.

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YOGINIMAMA108 2/9/2011 11:12PM

    Oh girl, don't be so hard on yourself. No one can make us feel any one way. Situations arise that bring it out in us. We carry our own shame. I know though... we feel horrible when we accidentally say something hurtful. I am sure she got over it. BTW- I saw the said chocolate croissants while I was checking out tonight. I can not imagine having to stand there and talk about them all day without caving! Go you! :)

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DNJEN471 2/9/2011 10:46PM

    I can imagine how hard that is for you, especially for people who do not know you used to be there too. Sad. I know you didn't mean to hurt her feelings.

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RESIPSA99 2/9/2011 2:25PM

    It happens...but maybe it's a good reminder for us all that sometimes people say things that they don't intend to hurt our you were completely speaking to yourself, but she took it as you saying something to her because she'd have no idea that you had gone through your own journey...I wouldn't beat yourself up about it!

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PSFITMOMMY413 2/9/2011 2:02PM

    Don't let the comment get you down. I'd suggest that if you see her again, stopping to explain what you really meant and telling her about your journey :)

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PAPER_WINGS18 2/9/2011 1:00PM

    don't beat yourself up about that; sometimes we say stuff and kick ourselves for sticking our foot in our mouths. I don't know how you work with chocolate croissants all day and don't eat them all! now THAT is self control! :D

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HERE2GETFIT 2/9/2011 12:39PM

    If you look at those all day long and don't partake you do have self control and determination!

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XTMONT 2/9/2011 11:46AM

    It's always tough when you feel bad for saying what you think. But the best thing to do is to forgive yourself and move on. You didn't mean her any harm, why keep harming yourself by feeling guilt?

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DAISEYDUCK 2/9/2011 10:09AM

    Oops!! Hate when that happens! Yep, we've all done that... it's a lesson if nothing else. Even though you had no ill intentions, you will remember this and it will most likely be helpful to you in the future.
Kinda makes you wish you could turn back time... :)

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ELFITZPA 2/9/2011 9:57AM

    You feel bad because you know SHE felt bad. Yeah it stinks but she's got her own journey in front of her. If you had said the same thing to me or someone else, they may have laughed. You didn't mean any harm so don't beat yourself up about it!

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    It does happen, but just remember why you said that. It wasn't to offend, it was to remark on your feelings. We have both been on the other side of that comment so we know how it feels, I hope you are able to try not feeling guilty about it.

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30 day Photo Blog: Day 1

Tuesday, February 08, 2011

I am stealing this off my friend Jen's blogs.

Day 01- A recent picture of yourself
Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest
Day 03 - A picture of your inspiration for weight loss
Day 04 - A picture of the cast of your favorite TV show
Day 05 - A picture of your favorite animal
Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day
Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item
Day 08 - A picture of your favorite color
Day 09 � A picture that motivates you to do more
Day 10 - A picture of your closest friend
Day 11 - A picture of your IPOD or other music playing device on shuffle, and then list the first 10 songs that play.
Day 12 � A picture that defines you
Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist
Day 14 � A picture of you now
Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die
Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you
Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently
Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity, and the reasons why it is the biggest
Day 19 - A picture of your nicknames you have; why do you have them.
Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel
Day 21 � A picture of an exercise you can�t do, but would like to try (and then try it if you want to)
Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at
Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book; why is it your favorite?
Day 24 - A picture of what I would find in your bag
Day 25 - A picture of your favorite super hero and why
Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you
Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member
Day 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of
Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile
Day 30 - A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?

Day 1: Picture of today, looking a bit rough after a 5 mile run and full day of work. Time for bed!

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FUEL82 2/16/2011 8:05PM

    Aww this is a great photo! Your look amazing and glowing!

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PSFITMOMMY413 2/9/2011 2:03PM

    Love this- will definitely have to do it sometime!

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DRAKKIE 2/9/2011 12:52PM

    I might do this too! lol its cute!

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DAISEYDUCK 2/9/2011 10:10AM

    And I'm stealing it from you!!!
Neat idea! Looking forward to seeing what you post!

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    I think I am going to copy and try this myself
if that's ok with you?

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    I like this, thank you

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PAPER_WINGS18 2/8/2011 11:57PM

    love this! I may have to steal it :) adorablee!

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XTMONT 2/8/2011 11:51PM

    I love this idea! Looking forward to reading your blogs!

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    This is cool - I'm looking forward to it.

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When I go missing it's not usually a good sign

Tuesday, February 08, 2011

I have not written in 3 days and probably by most blogs that is really not a big deal. But i feel like when I stop writing blogs I am usually ashamed to be here. I tried taking some time off exercise last week. With the storm it was pretty easy to bypass the gym. But as usual if I don't workout i seem to eat more then usual and my weight just skyrockets. So here I am back again trying to stay in my calories. I read another blog where someone said with the new yr you think of all the new starts you can make and then it comes you get far into January and nothing changes. Now we are over a week into Feb and UGH. I am just rambling. I am gonna have another good day today like I did yesterday.

I am trying to pick out new vibrams to get. I was waiting until all the new designs came out but it seems like they are making more shoes for kicking stuff and hiking so the new designs don't help me in the running department. So I am going back and buying another pair of the shoes I already have. The colors suck though =( I think I am gonna get a mens pair cuz their colors are slightly better. Scott got a 25% coupon for a website we bought vibrams from in the past. So 65 dollars KSO's!

On a positive note Scott and I celebrate 7 yrs of being together today and I finished this AMAZING book The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks. I have never cried listening to an audio book but this will make you cry. I hope someone has read it. I need a person to talk about it with lol

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MPALMER15 3/9/2011 1:53PM

    Hey Girl! I finally got the Henrietta Lacks audiobook from the library. You were right! It is amazing! I am only two chapters in and am mesmerized. It is not the sort of book I would normally read, but I suspect that it is going to be a life-changing read. Thanks for recommending it!

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PAPER_WINGS18 2/9/2011 12:02AM

    awww happy anniversary! :)

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XTMONT 2/8/2011 11:49PM

    Happy Anniversary! And don't worry about not being here or being ashamed. We've all been there. I too have to learn to write it ALL down: the good and the bad.

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    Happy Anniversary to you and Scott!!

I am struggling as well. Monday I ate like a horse. Had almost 2200 calories. YIKES!!

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ELFITZPA 2/8/2011 8:19PM

    Happy Anniversary!! Sounds like an excellent book - anything that causes such an emotional response must be powerful. Anyway sorry you've been having a rough time but I think that's exactly when you need to come here and lean on your Spark friends the most. We all have our times when we can be the cheerleader and other times we NEED a cheerleader. Winter's tough, especially if you deal with seasonal issues and live in a place that's especially cold/dark. It's okay to admit that it's rough on you - admitting that is often the best first step to getting over it.

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FUEL82 2/8/2011 7:54PM

    Happy Seventh anniversary!!! That is so awesome you guys have been together that long! :-)
I'm sorry you don't feel like blogging or you've gone missing. Don't be ashamed! We all struggle. I'm struggling so bad right now. These classes have me stressed to the max. My only saving grace has been learning how to mend and repair books! It is so relaxing and meditative :-). I hope I can find a workout rhythm soon. Barb was telling me today about how when you would be recasing you would be talking away and then you'd put it together and it would look amazing :-)! She said she was always so impressed by that! We struggled a little with a recase I did today...silly endsheets! You have such a talent for repairing books...its too bad you don't have a chance to use it more!
Yay to new vibrams!!! That is an awesome steal! Have fun!
Glad to hear you finished that book! I will have to check that out when I have some free time :-).

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RESIPSA99 2/8/2011 7:45PM

    Happy anniversary! I read the book over the summer, and you're right, it was amazing!!

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Saturday, February 05, 2011

I was so excited about that challange ride all day yesterday. Came home from work and took a nap and planned on being there early. I was out to leave at 5:10 to be there at 5:30 and then discovered it started at 5 UGHHHHHH! I was so angry with myself. I could have had fun burning 900 calories at something I signed up for 2 weeks ago and I missed it! I would have showed up late but there was about 6 ppl on a waitlist so I am sure it was full. This week was already sparse on cardio now it's super sparse. It's ok tho move on Julie there will be more challange rides!

Right now I am waiting to see if I need to go into work and replace this girl that's sick. I would normally not wanna go. But with all this snow I am really short on hrs this week and could really use her hrs. Plus my friend is getting married this yr in Washington and I need money to be there. Marathon is this yr. Need shoes. Need money lol Can't be shorted on hrs. Ok i am going in, he called. yay 5 hrs of work!

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XTMONT 2/5/2011 11:30PM

    So sorry you missed your challenge ride.

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    I'm glad you are getting hours in. A lot of people here are getting shorted on hours too.

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FUEL82 2/5/2011 12:25PM

    Awww sorry you missed your challenge ride! That's a bummer, but hey money in the pocket for fun things...woohoo!!! Plus like you said, they'll be more rides. Just zoom around the store alot today and you'll get some of those cals in :-)! Have a great weekend!

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SWEETS86 2/5/2011 10:35AM

    Sad about the ride :-( Yay for more hours!

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Man she kicked my butt!

Friday, February 04, 2011

A girl mumbled this when she held a door open for me last night while leaving the gym. All I could think was, Why? Why do you need someone else to kick u around in order for u to get cardio. That is not gonna last. I kicked my own ass last night and I am proud of it! I go to classes to have fun and interact with ppl not to get abused. I ran 2.5 miles last night on the treadmill after zumba and lifting UGH that was miserable. The treadmill and I are not friends, I wanna punch the treadmill in the face.

Tonight is a 90 minute spin challange ride at Gold's! Three spin teachers are leading it so this should be interesting. Two I really like and 1 i really really dislike. I hate when ppl are super nice but their teaching skills are very bad bad bad. Hopefully she wont be teaching much lol

Leaving town last weekend and being forced to not workout for the first 3 days the week was a nice break and reboot to my system. What sucks is I really wanna focus on my half marathon training and my only option is the treadmill. I was listening to Scott talk to his brother on the phone the other day telling him how he is just doing the Illinois Half Marathon this yr. He said "Yeah half's are nice, you really don't even have to train for them". PSH whatever! The Chicago Marathon opened up for registration 4 days ago and I am still really humming and hawing over it. So much in the past yr I have waited and waited to sign up for and then POOF too late all full! I just hate signing up for a marathon that costs 145 dollars (YES FREAKING WENT UP 20 DOLLARS SINCE LAST YR!!!ughhhh) in february when running 2.5 miles on a treadmill is awful. I did run 3 miles last week tho with Kate outside and I could have gone another 3 easily cuz it was just soooo nice to be outside. At the end of fall last yr I was running 20 miles a week. Really enjoying the hell out of my 5-6 mile runs. Avoiding running like the plague all winter cuz its treadmill or nothing at all is leaving me so clueless. I can't wait for spring. Everything feels so out of whack. Learning to finally embrace it and figuring out alternatives. But still working out at the gym 5-6 days a week does not give u any feelings close to what u find outside.

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    I'm getting cabin fever really bad. I go for hikes outside but it's not fun in this snow.

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FUEL82 2/4/2011 6:47PM

    I know trying to work out this time of year is so challenging. the weather is unpredictable and it just throws everything off. Least you got in a workout over the weekend. I SO WISH I could have done 6 miles with you! That is my next big goal and this stupid toe injury is holding me back. I was reading about someone saying they trained for a marathon by doing pool running. Maybe that might be a change up from the treadmill. Well if you do the Chicago Marathon I think I will try my hardest to come cheer you on! It would be so amazing to see you accomplish something like that!You have come so far! I know you could do it! Keep up the awesome job! Ya you know how to kick your own butt everyday! You've got it down! :-)
You guys have such interesting classes at Golds. That spin challenge sounds fun.

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MKLUCILLE 2/4/2011 5:37PM

    emoticon Spring is coming the Birds will be singing and the flowers will be blooming. The worst is over the best is yet to come.




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JPONCIN 2/4/2011 1:00PM

    I'm so withya! I can't wait for spring! :(

ANd I agree; kicking your own butt is much more rewarding than having someone else do it for you. ;)

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YOGINIMAMA108 2/4/2011 12:50PM

    I concur! Nothing like running outside. I swear by Yak Trax. LOVE mine. They really can bite the snow and ice, I am always amazed. Last Sunday I was able to map out just under 11 miles that I think will end up being my long running route. Two hours of heaven! If only the sun were shining... Anyway, I think the Trax were only like $20 or something. Really affordable, and they probably still have them at Dick's.

Can't even imagine feeling like I don't need to train for a HM. I hope it is valid confidence and not being cocky. Wouldn't want him to have an injury so early in the year!

Have fun at Spinning tonight! Happy Friday!
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DNJEN471 2/4/2011 12:03PM

    Your brother in law sounds just like mine... arrogant. You'll do great with the marathon!

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ELFITZPA 2/4/2011 10:28AM

    Oh yeah, kicking your own butt is the best!!

Yeah I've stopped running bigger races because the fees have gotten so ridiculous these last few years. Yet the small races in my town and nearby are just as cheap as ever AND I get to see all my favorite running buddies without paying for airfair or hotel.

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THISISFORME924 2/4/2011 9:45AM

    I agree with everything you said about the treadmill vs being outside. I want to punch the treadmill too! Nothing compares to being outside and running. 145 for a race is ridiculous, but does it count as a tax deduction for a charitable contribution? :-) Gotta find the positive in all!

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