Thursday, November 11, 2010
I wrote about this in my last blog a little but I was thinking about it a bit more. There seem different categories for ppl losing weight between women. I think some of us are divided against each other. There are the really obese ppl who seem to just get along with eachother and stick together because only they know what they are going through. Then theres the woman who are obese up to like 300 lbs and they seem to have their own category, also seem to stick together. Then theres the girls who are 200-250 who think the world is gonna end but the ppl bigger then them would kill to be where they are so they are kinda not so keen on listening to them be whinny. Then there is the crowd thats 170-200 and they somehow hate themselves more then some of the bigger ppl. They have been on the verge of going over 200 for yrs that its killing them inside. The bigger ppl just ignore this crowd because, really your under 200, come on. I would say all other ppl below that trying to lose weight so they can be happy. If you are naturally under 170 then you should be so happy. The rest of us would kill for that. Kill for that, kill!
Then theres the sides of some women put on their weight with babies and then others were always big. I kinda see it as more of an achievement to always be big and then get small. Most of the women who put the weight on with kids, they were once thin. They had fun in hs and got to wear the cute clothes. But the girls who were always big, high school was not a picnic, boys always went for our friends and not us. then i guess theres the girls who put on a lot of weight in college but were cute in hs. I love seeing the girls from my hs who were mean to me deal with this. They are in my shoes now, Welcome!
I guess the reason I was talking about this is the woman at my pool who wants to be the instructor for water and the gym doesn't like her.They havent called her back and now I am working on getting her positions, a few more steps still. But what irks me is that she sees me as applying for the job and she hates me based on the fact that I look healthy and skinny to her. She thinks the class should be taught by someone heavy who understands. I have lost the weight, worked so hard to lose the weight. I work out 7 days a week. Now I have been put on the other side of the fence and I am the enemy. Even tho I started out probably the same weight as her. Who cares what she thinks, she seems really weird. But it's amazing how much is judged based on appearance. When I was heavier ppl seemed to remembered me more. Now they see me 3 times and still don't recognize me it seems. When I was heavy I always dreamt of being invisible. Watch what you wish for.