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Day 25: The Strength of Others

Thursday, July 15, 2010

I keep hearing amazing stories about people. I was talking to this husband and wife in the pool tonight and they started telling me and this other woman that the husband had a heart transplant. He was very active and used to bike Century bike rides and ran a marathon. He got the flu at 50 and it wont go away for 2 weeks and he found out it was his heart giving out on him. He said he never drank or smoked. Isn't it amazing that people can do everything right in life and still their body can give out on them. Then you hear about ppl who smoke all their lives and live to be 80 with no issues. He was telling me about this book he used to train for his marathon and he had gone and seen the author talk. Turned out it was the same book I bought for Scott almost 3 yrs ago completely random cuz I liked the photo on the front. What did I know about training for a marathon 3 yrs ago? It's about a guy who taught a class and said that everyone could run a marathon using his training plan. Everyone in his class except 1 person ran the marathon at the end of the class.

I am really starting to enjoy lifting. I feel like I am seeing a difference in my body already and in my weight. I feel like a bottomless garbage pit today though. Every time I eat, I feel like I am more hungry after, I donno what my deal is. But I am on the verge of another loss so this garbage pit wont be getting full anytime soon.

I am losing my mind lately. Usually I do water class and then lift after. So I go to the gym in a swim suit and jeans and have to bring my workout clothes with. Tuesday I forgot my shoes and I had to lift in birkenstocks LOL Tonight I forgot workout pants. So I had to lift in jeans LOL I left for a job interview this morning without my phone, which was dead and I couldn't find it when I returned. I am so brain dead lately.

I stupidly put my horrible photo job on my resume. The temp agency that interviewed me today asked about the job and I said it was stressful and I only lasted 2 months. They asked if I gave notice and I said yes for some stupid reason. I didn't give notice, I was so angry and sick when I quit I couldn't be there any longer. I couldn't get a day off without a doctors note and with no health insurance I was not gonna see a doctor for the flu.They had me working 7 days straight which is illegal. The only way my boss justified it was they sent me to another location for 1 of the days therefore I didn't work straight thru. So now this place is gonna call that job and I am gonna look bad. I donno if I should tell them upfront or just let it go. I know its not good to bad talk other employers to possible future employers. I am not sure how much this could hurt me getting a job. I donno whats worse leaving huge gaps in your resume or having a horrible reference for a boss who pulled my hair and had no respect for me.

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    My grandma had emphysema and never smoked. Others in the family had cancer who had no risk factors. Some of it has to do with genetics.

I don't think I would tell the agency differently now. If they ask you could just tell them you were confused about the question.

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WINTERWINGS 7/16/2010 1:44PM

    A gap is better than a brief work stint that was a poor fit. In fact, I have even put in a span of time when I did temporary jobs. I did work for a temp agency at one point but I added the dates for a job I didn't like (if I recall correctly) in that date range. It doesn't do you any favours to have a job that wasn't a good match brought up in your resume.

I left a big box store that I'd been at for over a year without notice. I was so miffed with the supervisor they'd brought in who was just trying to be BMOC or something at the new position. Jerk. He was just a freaking sock puppet for this one girl I worked with who was a pain in the butt. He tried to tell me I should be doing a bunch of things that weren't in the job description and I challenged him on it. I also had just put in an availability schedule showing I couldn't work any weekends for two months because I'd been working weekends straight for about six months and had worked Christmas Eve, Boxing Day and New Years Eve. I left because he needed to learn a lesson about what makes an employee valuable and I wanted him put on the spot. They hadn't been treating me well so eff-em. I am an excellent employee and they didn't get that so too bad for them. Idiots.

I basically had a job the next day for almost twice the money through a temp agency. I got a great contract job after the company bought me out from the agency. I had a great manager, did a great job and got all sorts of perks for being a valuable employee including a special luncheon with the president of the company for completing a special project. Stayed there until I got pregnant.

Sorry I got rambling but the point is, sometimes you need to do stuff like that and it really isn't a reflection of how you are as an employee. Or maybe it is. *lol* I'd rather be confident and aware of my value than be taken advantage of and mismanaged.

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DNJEN471 7/16/2010 10:24AM

    Hi hon! I am convinced that anyone can run a marathon with the proper training. Totally true about the health thing too. My grandpa drinks and smoked for a very long time. He is totally healthy and has no problems. Completely random. I find that when I start really getting into my strength training that my appetite increases as well. Perhaps because of the amount of carbs you burn while lifting? Anyway... you are probably forgetting a lot because you are stressed about finding a new job. Stress makes you very forgetful. As to the resume question.... as I hire people- I would rather see the gap/hole then see something so short as 2 months w/bad references. As an employer I would question anything less than 6 months personally.... Just a thought.

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FUEL82 7/16/2010 9:39AM

    That is great you're enjoying lifting! It is fun once you get into it! :-) Hehe hope your brain gets going right soon! :-) I do that too though. I was at the gym on Wed. and was getting dressed and realized I only brought a tank top and I hadn't shaved in a day or 2! I was like crap! but then I looked in the mirror and nobody would be able to tell anyway(they really couldn't). or I pack my gym clothes and forget my id-the worst is I pack my gym bag and then forget to take it with me when I leave for work lol!

That sucks about the job. I would say you need to tell people that you left that job but put a positive spin on it for yourself. Say I persevered through 2 mos. of working there. I had the strength to endure that job while others around me quit after a couple weeks. Then give your reasons why you had quit. You want it to seem like your a strong employee but that that job really did expect too much. You want to reinforce that your a hard worker and you would sometimes work 7 days straight with no time off. You just want to make it seem like your not going to quit if you have to go the extra mile. You might add that no one from when you started working there is working there now. That the place had a very high turnover rate and that also led to the stress put on the employees. I don't know maybe something like that. I wouldn't leave a gap on your resume unless you think that boss is going to say bad things about you then yes you probably should. I don't think the gap would be too big. You graduated-got married, settled into a new life. That won't look that bad I don't think but these are just my thoughts-I could be wrong.

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TRACYZABELLE 7/16/2010 1:19AM

    It is better to be up front becasue if found out later you lied you could be terminated..maybe being out in the sun so lobng last weekend has fried your brain a little.. I hope you are feeling better with that-- being fair skinned is not fun I am sure.

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Day 24: Cardiorific Day

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Rode my bike to and from work today. Walked to the grocery store to get dinner. Then I went for a 5.5 mile run with Scott. It was 89 degrees when we left the house and probably 85 by the time we ended. I let Scott pick the route and of course the only 5 mile way he does was horrific. I am stronger now though and I grabbed the bull by the horns and dealt with the hills. When we were climbing a hill I just relaxed and looked around at the scenery to distract myself. Burned 864 calories on my run! Scott's cross country teacher in hs used to take their group on this road to torture them lol I also wore a sports bra for the first time out running tonight. I felt confident being out with Scott. It was nice to wear so little since it was freaking hot out.

My calories are good today in the 1700 range. I am gonna finish out the 31 days in my calories. No if ands or buts about it.

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    You are doing great!! Everything right and will be rewarded for it.

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SKINNYPOWELL1 7/15/2010 8:25AM

    I too laughed at the sports bra comment, I was like "seriously" this girl has never worn a sports bra - funny. Glad you are rockin the workouts. Keep up the good work. emoticon

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AIYMI2 7/15/2010 8:17AM

    Great job!! That's gotta be a great feeling to accomplish. Keep up the awesome work.

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FRANCESCANAZ 7/15/2010 7:38AM

    emoticonI'll bet you two looked emoticon Enjoy your youth & strength mi amiga. I am very proud of you for getting out there in that heat. emoticon

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PSFITMOMMY413 7/15/2010 6:49AM

    When I first read that, I was like, the first time you wore a sports bra? LOL- I'm now assuming you meant only a sports bra.

What a great cardio-filled day. Woohoo and WAY to GO!!

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MBVMFLUTIST 7/15/2010 5:58AM

    You have been losing again since you started your 31-day challenge too! Rock on!!!!!! :D

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DNJEN471 7/15/2010 12:42AM

    Excellent job! I have now tracked and stayed within my calories for 4 days in a row. I know that doesn't sound like a lot- but I will make it to 30 plus I am sure.

I am so proud of you- running outdoors with your sports bra! You are so awesome! And have really worked your butt off to get where you are today. Way to go girl! You rock!

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UMUCGRAD 7/15/2010 12:25AM

    Woo hoo! Great day. Keep up the good work and enjoy your sports bra. emoticon

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Day 23: A better day

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Ira Glass is coming to our city to speak!!! I love This American Life, I am sooooo excited!! Total NPR dork leave me alone. I can have my crush on Ira if I wanna have my crush!

My burn still sucks but its getting better. Hopefully it will start peeling soon. That would be GREAT!

My calories have been low today so far. I am too tired to eat and i am at 1200 some. I wish I had a luna bar. Gym was good. I did water aerobics and then pilates. Our teacher got sick at the end and I had to run downstairs and her a water because she had to lay down. I hope she's ok now. Then Karen and I lifted and did the rope machine for 5 minutes each. It was really fun! lol We are getting faster and faster at lifting so the rope is kinda fun to do at the end. Then I came home and walked the dogs. Our cat had to follow us on our walk, which I hate. Usually I stick him in the house so he can't follow us. But he cut thru some yards and found us tonight 1 block away lol

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    The burn will start peeling and itching soon. I used to like to peel it off in sheets. LOL.

I was going to be low on calories too so I ate a few more.

I wonder what is up with your teacher.

The cat following you is very funny. He does not intend to be left out. LOL.

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XTMONT 7/14/2010 12:57PM

    Great Day! (And yes, Ira Glass is totally cute!)

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FUEL82 7/14/2010 11:31AM

    NPR ROCKS!!!! nothing wrong with it! That is cool Ira is coming! Great job working out-keep it up! hope your teacher is ok!

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RLMCCUE 7/14/2010 10:18AM

    Glad you had a good day, hope today's a good one as well!

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SKINNYPOWELL1 7/14/2010 7:48AM

    Good job on your workouts, don't know how you managed it with your horrible burn, you're definitely TOUGH, tougher than me for sure.

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TRACYZABELLE 7/14/2010 1:21AM

    Maybe kitty needs a harness and a leash so you feel safer.. please take care with that burn that you dont get infectuion once it is peeling..

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WINTERWINGS 7/14/2010 12:54AM

    They are replacing machines at my gym right now and the demo rope machine is gone too. (sigh) Saw the new machines this morning though and they look pretty fancy. I'm sort of excited to try them out.

When I was a kid my tomcat used to follow me everywhere. He was awesome. I lived in the country at the time though so it wasn't that big a deal. And, well, him being a tom and all, he sort of got around on his own. Silly people too dumb to neuter him. Sheesh!

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DNJEN471 7/14/2010 12:31AM

    Lol- that's funny that your kitty follows you on walks :)

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PSFITMOMMY413 7/14/2010 12:08AM

    Way to go on another great day!

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Day 22: Bad Day

Monday, July 12, 2010

This morning I woke up in a lot of pain again. I took 2 perscription Ibprofen when I woke up to try to help my sunburn. Scott read online that could help. Then I was leaving for the pool to try swimming to relieve some pain and took 2 more. So I had taken 1600 mg eeeeek The pain has been bad I couldn't think straight. I went to the pool and tried swimming and my stomach felt horrible. I managed to swim for 30 minutes. Then I got out and I felt like i was shaking and delirious it wasnt good. I called my dad who is a vet and the medical knowledge in my family lol He started freaking out on the phone with me. He told me to try vomiting but it was too late I had taken them over an hr before. Then he said just to drink as much water as I could. I drank 15 cups of water today. I am fine now I just felt icky earlier. Pretty stupid I will be staying the hell out of the sun!

I also ate really bad today. For some reason I allowed myself to gorge and I am not sure why. Now I feel like crap. All weekend we were eating out and I was happy to be back to normal eating. My body feels so much better when I eat at home. Did I do this today, oh hell no! Shared a pizza with Scott with ranch dressing on it, ate a blizzard. Ugh it was just bad. Tomorrow is a new day. Gonna be good tomorrow. Hopefully my back will feel better and I can exercise like normal again. Tomorrow will be the 4th day since the burn, something has to improve I hope.

I was thinking more about running the Chicago Marathon next yr and they open 48,000 positions. Yet only 35,000 is for the general public. So the rest go to charities to be picked up. So I was thinking if I really wanna try running it and I wanna do it for my dad then why not ask his dialysis clinic organization if they sponsor people. Their website advertised that they do 5ks to raise money, so that's hopeful. Anyway I emailed them and gonna see if they respond to me. It is over a yr away so that would give me time to work things out if they do say yes. I told my dad I wont use his name since I know he's very private about his illness. I told my mom about this and she goes "Why don't you run for dad's Animal Hospital?" She totally didn't get the point. It reminded me this Moth podcast I listened to recently. This guy was working for a paper and he found out that his 2nd cousin was a Jewish Mafia guy and was his prison for killing ppl. His family totally hid the fact and I guess his boss asked him about it and it was true. So he wanted him to go interview his 2nd cousin in prison. He went to his family to talk about it and his grandma goes "Ooh you don't wanna talk to him, do a nice story about my 80th birthday party".

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MORTICIAADDAMS 7/13/2010 11:12PM

    I sure hope you are felling better. It sounds terrible. emoticon

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RLMCCUE 7/13/2010 11:10AM

    Sorry to hear your sunburn is so bad, be careful with those OTC meds! I think you've learned your lesson.

Don't worry about the crappy eating, you know to listen to your body and you'll get back on track right away.

Feel better soon!

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MBVMFLUTIST 7/13/2010 9:19AM

    Yeah it takes a few days but hopefully today you will be over the worst of it. :(

I think your run idea sounds great, don't let anyone hold you back. Your mom sounds like my mom! Don't let anyone know our family business, just pretend life is pretty...ugh.

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TRACYZABELLE 7/13/2010 2:19AM

    If it still hurts tomorrow you ought to see a dr.. sorry for the pain emoticon

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FUEL82 7/13/2010 2:09AM

    Glad your ok!!! I was worried there for awhile! Don't worry I'm sure you'll burn that pizza off in no time! I was bad too-I stupidly ate two donuts because I was getting groceries and there were still a few of my fav. donuts left...ugh. but I did a 2 mile walk/run so hopefully that burned them off lol!
I hope your burn gets better. Mine is itching now and it looks like I have bright red paint in an uneven stripe on my neck lol! I'm hoping yours feels better soon though because you are much worse off :-(.
That's so awesome that you are going to try to run the chi-mar. for your dad's dialysis clinic! That is such a great idea! You should totally do it! I know you could! it would probably mean SO MUCH to your dad too! I wish I was there was an inkling that I could do it and I would do it with you for my dad and his hip (ugh). It's so hard to see are parents suffer. But it would be really great of you to do that-even for all the other people out there suffering through dialysis. I've known a few people with this and its so hard-so I'm always thinking of you and your dad.

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DNJEN471 7/13/2010 12:56AM

    Sorry you had a bad day hon. I think we all have them from time to time. Ouch, that sucks that you got so burned. That is always just miserable. I totally think you are capable of completing the marathon and should do it for our Dad! That is totally awesome!

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JENNY32MN 7/12/2010 11:11PM

    Vinegar helps with sunburn-- dab some on with a cotton ball and you should feel relief. Tomorrow is a new day, feel better soon!

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Day 21: 2nd day of Marbling

Monday, July 12, 2010

Kate and I posted a lot of photos

It was a lot of fun but exhausting in the heat! My back is still really bad from yesterday. I came home from work and couldn't rub anything on it since I couldnt reach. I went to sleep til Scott got off work and could help me. It was a nice day, my parents came out. We did a lot better then yesterday selling cloth and paper. We could totally do it again.

Kate and I last yr vs this yr.

Probably 60-70 lbs missing from both of us combined. Yay for Spark helping us out! Wow my hips are wayyyy smaller.

Eating has not been great this weekend but it really wasnt out of control either. I met Kate this morning and we ran/walked 2.5 miles. Then I biked to and from the show. I was gonna do pilates at 5 but our marbling ran late and also I donno if I can lay on my back so well with this horrid burn. Hopefully tomorrow will be better and I will feel human again. This heat just puts you in a daze when your out in it for 4-6 hrs. At least we had a tent today to stand under.

Yesterday at the show there was this hot guy walking down the sidewalk and my coworker was behind him and I was looking at her and I said "Man is it hot out here" The guy looked at me and goes "Yeah it sure is" and i was like ooooh I was talking to her and pointed at Kathleen. It was so funny, sounded like I was hitting on him. I got my own handsome guy I am very proud to have who sees me thru thick and thin. Couldn't ask for anyone more amazing. Not even this dude that looked like he could have worked for Chippendale's. Ok I am delirious time for more sleep.

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    I'm so glad your parents came!! the marbling was cool and the pictures really show both of your hard work. I hope the sunburn improves soon. I have not had one in years.

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SPIFFYCAT 7/12/2010 3:56PM

    What a difference in you both, that must be encouraging...

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    Lol, you are super charming when you are delirious. I had never heard of marbling before. It looks like a lot of fun. I'm so not creative so kudos to you for being so talented. By the way you and kate both look amazing.

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PSFITMOMMY413 7/12/2010 12:15PM

    Both of you look awesome!

I'm right there with you about having a great guy that has seen me through thick and (now) thin!

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FUEL82 7/12/2010 11:18AM

    Awww thanks everybody! We had a great time!!

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DNJEN471 7/12/2010 11:15AM

    You both look absolutely fabulous! The Marbling is so cool too!

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AIYMI2 7/12/2010 10:43AM

    Great job guys! You look great! Also, that fabric looks really awesome, what a neat effect. Looks like you guys had a lot of fun. :)

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CONFUSEDBIRD 7/12/2010 10:35AM

    You look so much more confident!!

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FUEL82 7/12/2010 10:28AM

    This is totally AMAZING! YOU ARE SO AMAZING!!!!! It's so amazing to look back and see how far we've come. Good reminders to keep going and stay strong :-)!!!!

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RLMCCUE 7/12/2010 9:24AM

    The pictures turned out great, I loved them! The fabric looked really beautiful. I'm glad you guys had a great time, and your before and after pictures are great, you both look fabulous! Glad you had fun!

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