Sunday, November 16, 2008
So it is Sunday night and I just finished my first adult weekend (I am 28) of purposely not drinking any alcohol. And by purposely I mean I was not deathly ill or having to work constantly. I know it sounds like I am a terrible drunk, but I have always been a weekend warrior. The fiance and I realized how much we were consuming (I more than he) and decided that our efforts to cut down or not eat when tipsy were failing. Miserably. I weigh 304 today and I was down to 290 less than two months ago.
I felt like I am just wallowing in non-motivation so I did some reading in the motivation department here and made the decision to chill it for one whole month on the booze. I should practice for when we have a family anyway and that will be never if I am never healthy enough to carry one.
So I did WAY better than my usual hella-spike in intake this weekend, but not perfect. I know I won't be though! I did not get in a work out but I did buy some pants that I like and some new shoes (comfy, work appropriate ones) and new awesome socks. I probably spent less than I would have out, that's for sure!
So the other things you should know if you want to read me are that I am getting married next June and then going to Europe for a month. This is way out of our usual league and more expensive than I thought, so we have financial goals as well as health goals! I want to be comfortable on that flight as it is LONG!
I have a big needy family and I am the main adult in it, even considering my parents. I am the go to gal if they need help, and I do not begrudge any of my siblings this as they were brought up in the same house as I was and I know I was lucky to be as unscathed as I am. I work in the human services/mental health field with behaviorally challenged teenage girls, which can be super stressful. I DO need to learn to focus on myself though and I am working on it. Saying no can be really hard (to my sister or donut...or her and the donut she is trying to feed me)
Aside from the vow to lay off drinking totally for at least one month, I have also made a promise to myself that if some serious motivation doesn't come back n that month and I am still failing I am going to seek counseling to find out what the hell my problem is! And I kind of have a mild case of crazy cat lady...