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I walked :)

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

I walked...even though I didn't feel like it, I walked. I had a fight with my boyfriend and he made me so mad and hurt, that I was determined to get my hiney out there and walk so I could reflect on things that I need to change to get myself back. I came home, ate a little dinner, drink some water, took a nice hot shower, a melatonin, got my glass of water, and now I am going to bed. My alarm is set for 5am so I can go walk the bridge in the morning. It's time to start finding myself again because once upon a time, I liked myself. I am just the shell of my former person stuck in a fat suit.

  
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MJ7DM33 9/18/2012 9:44PM

  Good for you!

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EATVEGAN 9/18/2012 9:26PM

    In the I'm Quitting team I'm on we are encouraged to look at ourselves in the mirror for a full minute, smiling and saying nice things about ourselves. I'm finding it very helpful. If you're interested look on my page for the I'm Quitting team and join us. It is really important in maintaining a positive attitude to like yourself. I hope this helps.

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How I am feeling...

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Today was just a yucky day ;( There just isn't enough money to pay the bills and its weighing heavily on my shoulders. I've always been one of those girls that HAD to pay her bills on time, if not early and my bills have ALWAYS been paid. This time, there just wasn't enough money. I tried selling my Neil Lane bridal set I got for Christmas from my ex-husband and the jeweler I took them to tried to rip me off and offer me $300 for them...Seriously?
I'm trying to have faith...I know that if God brought me to it, He will bring me through it! Just gotta have faith, I keep reminding myself.
These past 2 months have been hard and Baby Moose still has a long road to recovery. He currently has to have 2 sets of dilations done every day. He is not happy with me for about 2 hours afterwards but it has to be done so that he heals properly internally.
I can't wait to get moved back home...I get to go home to visit this weekend and I need to just get away from SC for a couple of days. I need to be surrounded by people that love me and support me. I'm taking Chloe, my oldest, and Gabriel, the baby. The 2 middle boys will be staying with their dad to get some one on one time with him. We are going to my hometown's Peanut Festival. It will be nice to see my boyfriend and my family and friends.
I will keep reminding myself that tomorrow is a new day...tomorrow is a day to be positive. I have to be. I have 4 precious little ones depending on me.

  
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EATVEGAN 9/18/2012 1:20AM

    Keep your chin up. The Lord is faithful in finances, too.
Janet

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My Baby Boy is HOME!!!

Thursday, August 30, 2012

My sweet baby boy, Gabriel (Moose) is HOME from MUSC! He got to come home this past Tuesday!! I am excited and happy :)
He is a tiny little thing though...much different from his birth! He turned 9 months old on August 21st. He weighs 16lbs now.
The goal is to now put the weight on him and let him grow without a massive intestinal obstruction.
He is like a different baby...he plays NONSTOP and laughs and giggles until he plays himself out. It's AMAZING!!!
YAY!

  
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EATVEGAN 8/30/2012 11:14PM

    This is so exciting. It brings tears to my eyes, to hear Moose is home and will soon be more and more moose-like. I'm so happy for you.
Janet

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SAINTBERNARD6 8/30/2012 4:24PM

    How wonderful....may God continue to less his growth..

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MOMFAN 8/30/2012 1:37PM

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FROGGYFROGERSON 8/30/2012 11:52AM

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MAZACK 8/30/2012 9:29AM

    That is great

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BEANIES_MOM 8/30/2012 5:39AM

    That's greatI

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OLIVIANIGHT 8/30/2012 4:27AM

    Aw that's great! : )

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ARNETTELEE 8/30/2012 4:26AM

  Glad to read that your baby is home with you!

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Gabriel (the baby) has been in the hospital going on 2 weeks :(

Friday, August 24, 2012

My youngest son, Gabriel, has had digestion issues since birth. We have seen Dr. after Dr. Finally on August 11th, he started throwing up everything he ate. He hadn't had a bowel movement in 3 weeks and before that another 3 weeks. We rushed him to the naval hospital down here in Beaufort where I had to plead with the Dr there to please transfer him over to Beaufort Memorial. It was only after Gabriel started throwing up bile with streaks of blood that he did. We took him over to Beaufort Memorial where they immediately ordered an x ray, enemas, and suppositories and nothing worked so they admitted him. The pediatrician there ordered a liquid laxative since it was discovered that he had a major intestinal obstruction.
He started throwing that up and nothing was coming out the other end.
Another pediatrician came in and decided that he needed to be sent to the Medical University of South Carolina Children's hospital in Charleston (MUSC). So he was taken by ambulance to MUSC with a possible diagnosis of Hirschsprung's Disease.
Once we got there, they did a barium enema the very next day and then did a rectal biopsy. Both came back positive for HD. That Thursday, he had a Broviac catheter put in and then he had rectal washouts for a week. This past Monday, he had surgery. The surgeon took out 14 inches of intestine and then took the good intestine and pulled it down to his rectum. He is doing amazing and may get to come home on Tuesday. As of right now, he is being fed through the Broviac catheter but on Monday, he will get to try formula and see how his system does with it. Please keep us in your prayers!

  
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MOMFAN 8/24/2012 1:12PM

    Hugs and prayers!!! For both you and the little one. It is so hard to see our children suffer and there is nothing we can do about it.

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CHRISKENANDKIDS 8/24/2012 7:51AM

    Oh man! Poor guy! Hope this all works and he heals quickly!

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TRACY31502 8/24/2012 7:40AM

    Will definitely be praying for you all!!! Poor little guy and poor mama!!!!! i can't imagine the frustration stress and fear you had!!!! I'm so happy to hear the good news though! I will be praying for sure!

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PAMNANGEL 8/24/2012 3:18AM

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TKRYSTINA 8/24/2012 2:00AM

    My prayers are with you & your family. I hope you little guy gets better soon. My cousin Jackie's little boy went thru a lot of health problems in his first few months. He just turned 1 on Monday. Hewas born almost 3 weeks early. He spent Christmas in the hospital. He is doing very well right now.

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LALMEIDA 8/24/2012 12:43AM

  Hope he feels better and you can take him home. emoticon

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NANCYRUBIO 8/24/2012 12:31AM

    Life hands us blows and then blows us up. Sounds like you have put yourself back together. I shall think of you many times over the next few days and say prayers often!

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EATVEGAN 8/24/2012 12:31AM

    I'm glad they found a diagnosis for Gabriel and were able to act. So pleased that he's doing better. I pray he continues to improve, able to eat well, and go home on Tuesday as planned, or sooner. emoticon
Janet

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My Happy Ending.

Thursday, July 26, 2012

I am tired...so very tired. The kind of tired that makes tired tired, if that makes sense :P
This weekend, July 28th, will be my daughter's last pageant in SC for a long time and she is so excited to be doing a pageant but sad that she will not see her pageant friends down here for a while. After the pageant, I will start going through all of mine and the kids things and slimming down everything that we don't need or use. Then I will have a yard sale to get rid of these things.
The week of the 18th, I will give up my beloved South Carolina palm trees and heat to move back home to Virginia. The kids and I are moving on with our lives without my now ex-husband and their dad. He will eventually be moving back to Virginia once he gets out of the navy.
I have been dating an awesome man, Shawn, for a while now. We have a son together, my youngest son, Gabriel. Shawn will become part of Gabriel's every day life. I decided that when my ex-husband and I split up that I would not make my daughter change school in the middle of the school year and disrupt her life any more than it will already be disrupted, so she finished out the school year, finished up with her dance recital with dance, and now it's time to move on with my life and finally be happy for a change.
Part of me is scared out of my wits, but I know I will finally have my happy ending. Shawn and I started dating again (we met when I was 18) in November 2010 when my ex and I split up for the second time. We broke up in March 2011 and my ex and I decided to try one more time to fix our marriage. Shortly after, I found out I was pregnant and we knew immediately that my little bean was Shawn's. I went through some turmoil and almost lost Gabriel several times. The Ex deployed and I went through most of my pregnancy alone with my other 3 kids. I wouldn't allow Shawn to be a part of my life or pregnancy because I had 2 people stalking me and trying to hurt me and I thought 1 of them was him...it turned out that it wasn't, but 2 former friends.
I just couldn't get over the cheating from my ex and then some other things happened to me and I knew that my marriage was over. Shawn reached out to me shortly after my marriage ended and we have been together ever since. He loves all of my kids as their own and when the oldest 3's dad hasn't been nice, he has stepped up to the plate. I get asked "is he just a rebound?" and I just reply with "Third times a charm!". He is an amazing dad to Gabriel and my other kids call him "Papa".
I can't wait to get on with my new life with him. We are finally going to start over together. Life is already amazing but I can't wait for what's to come. I know things will be tough at first getting back on my feet, but I'm strong enough to do it. Every bad thing that I have went through has made me stronger. I have shed less tears each day and I am fighting hard to become who I am. I am going to start nursing school when I get moved and get my kids settled in. Shawn and I are already planning on getting married but after I graduate nursing school and my divorce is finalized of course. This is my time...this is my life...This is my HAPPY ENDING!

  
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EATVEGAN 7/27/2012 11:41PM

    Wishing you smooth transitions and happy days. emoticon
Janet

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IYA_EKUNDAYO 7/26/2012 10:33PM

    Wishing you a life time of joy and good luck to you and your family, all of you deserve a "Happy Beginning".

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CHICA125KML 7/26/2012 7:20PM

    Good luck with the new chapter in your life emoticon

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TRICIAE2 7/26/2012 12:13PM

    Every ending is also a new beginning!

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COCOSMOMMA 7/26/2012 11:59AM

    Thank you!

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MOMFAN 7/26/2012 10:40AM

    Hugs and prayer for the next chapter of your life.

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