Tuesday, December 11, 2012
It must be all in my head...or so I've lead myself to believe for quite sometime now.
I laugh at myself when I stumble over my own feet and start falling towards the closest stationary object. I joke that I must be drunk when I slur my speech or mix my words (even though I haven't had a drop of alcohol). I think 'how stupid' that I sit or stand too long in one position that it causes tingles and numbness throughout my body. I think 'how lazy I must be' because I often times don't have the strength to do everyday activities but would fall asleep within minutes of sitting down...just plain exhausted. The severe vertigo that could put me down for weeks at a time, must be inner ear related. All these things I could find a reason as to why they were happening.
"Mommy, your scaring me!" Those are words that made me stop in my tracks. Maybe it's not all in my head and maybe it's not as simple as "I'm just a funny klutz".
A month and a half. That's how long I waited to see the Dr who was recommended to me by the scheduling nurse. Doctor entered room and was rushing, as most doctors do. "Hello! Whats the purpose of the visit?" I get my paper with my "must be in my head" symptoms and right away she says "I don't have time to look at that just give me the top 3 things." I found myself getting upset but strong. I tell her how long I've waited to see her. I tell her that she was recommended. I tell her that many of these symptoms have started many years ago (07/08) and its impossible to just say 3. I tell her that I deserve her time. I tell her it ISN'T just in my head because my son was scared...and truthfully...me too.
That got her attention. She heard the symptoms (there were more) and she immediately put in for an referral to a specialist. In the mean time I did a series of blood tests. During my followup appointment to go over blood test, my levels on everything was great except for B12. I'm deficient. I eat meat, so I ask myself, how is this possible? I go in for B12 shots every week (they kick my butt for days afterwards) but am hoping to bring my levels back up, assuming it 'takes'.
I've heard of B12 before but never really gave it a second thought. The damage it can cause when levels are low, especially for a great length of time, can and are extreme. The specialist I mentioned earlier....a neurologist. Currently, I am in the process of making an appointment to meet them and go through further testing.
ADVICE: If you have any of the above symptoms, talk with your doctor. If your family brings up a concern, then it's NOT in your head, talk with your doctor. Eat meat. Make sure your doctor listens. Learn about B12...it's important.
It's so easy to write it off as 'its all in my head'. Maybe it is but most of the time it's not. Or in my case, it may be...we'll see what the neurologist says. :) In the mean time, I will continue to laugh, act drunk (without alcohol) and love life...
SOME INFO: http://www.webmd.com/food-recipes/guide/vi
(sorry so long)
Sunday, November 25, 2012
This time of year is hard...
Being on SP and reading the blog title, it would be easy to assume that this is about weight loss. I write this not to provide 'words of wisdom' but more for my own therapeutic processing. This time of year, I have not forgotten all of the things that I have in life to be thankful for but it doesn't change the fact that it's still hard.
Last year, I lost my beautiful and healthy 14 year old cousin to sudden cardiac arrest. She died within minutes. SCA was triggered by a genetic heart ailment, LQTS (Long QT Syndrome) that we didn't know she had. Celebrating the holidays is difficult to say the least, but we do the best we can. There are good days, there are bad days. One way of knowing there's progression in the mourning process is realizing there are more good moments in a day then bad. In finding the good...we have chosen to celebrate her life and started a foundation to raise awareness of genetic heart ailments in children and raise money for college scholarships. She was amazing in everything she did, accomplished, set her mind to and she touched so many lives around the world....celebrate we must!!!
(Below) Sabrina, 14 years old
As our family has stumbled through the first year of her passing and as we talk about her, it's a toss up if we are able to get through it with smiles and laughter or hysterical sobs...but we muster through.
I have learned that crying doesn't make me weak and laughter and smiles doesn't mean I've forgotten. I feel so truly honored to have known her, even of only for 14 years. She has made me a better person.
I love and miss you Sabrina
Wednesday, November 07, 2012
Wednesday after Election Tuesday....
10. When we find out who the President of our nation is;
9. A day to be thankful that we have a President, chosen by the people (unlike some countries);
8. Brings out true colors people;
7. A day to delete 'friends' off of FB;
6. A time to realize that regardless of voting party, we must work together to accomplish great things;
5. A good day to re-evaluate our own personal goals;
4. A great day to laugh and to learn to lighten up about yourself;
3. Try to understand that difference in opinion is good and healthy;
2. A great day to hug those you love;
1. It's a Wednesday, who doesn't love a Wednesday...we're almost to Friday!!!
My two cents
Monday, November 05, 2012
Never really done the blogging thing. I'm more of a "personal journal entry" kinda gal jotting personal thoughts and experiences, or on Facebook posting funny, inspirational and heartwarming stories and pictures. But in order for me to take this journey on the road to a healthier life, I will need to blend the two together and share here...with you, perfect strangers.
Family and friends, although I love them dearly, they don't necessarily understand the struggles or have the ability to over look the fact that not every step will be successful.
So...I will try the blog every now and again, sharing various experiences. Hopefully it will be something that can help someone out there....including myself.
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