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Wednesday, March 13, 2013

It has been awhile since I last posted.

I'm still over 200 lbs, but.....

I've joined the Y.

I've been exercising consistently for about a month and I'm enjoying it.

I can walk up stairs without being winded.

I didn't want to go to the gym today because I legitimately had something else that I needed to get done.


I woke up this morning and dressed in my workout clothes. (Not going to the gym.)

I ate a healthy breakfast. (Still not going to the gym.)

Reassessed my situation.

Went to the gym with my workout buddy (my 14 yo daughter who weighs 118 lbs). emoticon

Had a ball!!!!! emoticon

That's what I call PROGRESS!!! emoticon

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TAFODIL24 3/16/2013 9:30PM

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That's fantastic! What a good example you're setting!!

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Reconstruction Day 1

Monday, August 22, 2011

Its been so long since I last blogged. Nothing much has changed. I've lost and I've gained not only weight, but also baggage. Life is passing me by. Enough is enough!

I am damaged goods. I realize that. My low self esteem coupled with being technically "obese" has caused me much emotional and physical pain. No one has done this to me. I've done it to myself. I've allowed situations and people to cripple me. I stuffed my mouth and became inactive. I didn't see anything worth anything when I looked in the mirror. I fed my brain a load of crap and now I'm reaping the consequences.

No more.

I'm purposefully changing my thinking.

No more "I'm fat comments".

No more getting depressed because I can't fit into a skirt. I will one day.

No more being impatient because I can't walk at a desired speed on my treadmill. I will take the time to remind myself that I'm walking faster than I did 2 weeks ago. That my friend is PROGRESS.

No more comparing myself to my thinner friends.

No more feeling sorry for myself. If I don't like what I see then it's up to me to change it!

No more making myself miserable because I only succeed in making those around me miserable.

Surround myself with people who are actively trying to make changes in their lives. emoticonSparkies!!!!

1. The action or process of reconstructing or being reconstructed:
2. A thing that has been rebuilt after being damaged or destroyed

I am in the process of reconstructing the way I think, the way I act, and the way I see myself. There will be setbacks, but I will have to make myself get back in the ring again when it happens.

I'm stronger than I think.

It will be a slow process, but in the end I will shine like gold.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

TALENKARR1 7/2/2012 10:37PM

    this is a great first step. I can't want too see how you shine!

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TEENY_BIKINI 9/11/2011 7:54PM

    What a wonderfully brave and honest blog. Go warrior. Your strength is evident.

Go forth and conquer!


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ZOMBIELOVER 8/22/2011 10:10AM

    Yes! Yes! Yes!

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APIRLRAIN888 8/22/2011 9:42AM

    woooooooooohooooo! me too at reconstruction took a break, now i am back for life! lets do this

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Goals for Oct 25 - Oct. 29

Monday, October 25, 2010

I actually walked 3 miles today. emoticon It was something that I had to do. I needed to get my mind into gear.
I can dream about being a size 10.
I can dream about being healthier.
I can dream about being sexy.
But it's pointless if I don't do something about it. Talk is cheap without action behind it. I want to be healthy, smaller, and happy and I can't do that unless I get off my big behind and actually do something about my situation.

This week's goals:

1. emoticon a total of 6 miles.
2. emoticon within my caloric range.
3. Be happy with myself.
4. Burn over 230 calories each day.
5. Do 100 emoticon for the week.
6. Have fun exercising
7. Weigh 199lbs by Friday. I've had enough of the 200's.

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IAM_HIS2 10/25/2010 10:44PM

    Great helped me so much!! YOU GO MAKE IT HAPPEN!! YES, YOU CAN!!!

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EVANSPROUDMAMA 10/25/2010 7:06PM

    emoticon job with your walking! I completly agree about your mindset, sometimes you just gotta get up and go. YOU GO GIRL!! emoticon to the 190's and your gonna feel amazing once you are there and beyond!! Keep your head up and your mind open, you will do emoticon

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Another New Beginning - Day 1

Friday, August 27, 2010

Well, I'm officially starting over today. This isn't the first or second time that I have attempted to lose weight, but hopefully it will be the last. I was constantly focusing on my appearance all the while not realizing that the negative thoughts I have about myself have to go too. Those negative thoughts and feelings are holding me captive and I have to break free.

I want to be happy again.

I want to enjoy my life.

I want to love myself fully without anything or anyone (myself) holding me back.

Life is too short to be miserable.

As I tackle those issues that plague me, I believe that I will finally be able to tackle all of this weight.

****My Affirmations****

I will take I day at a time.

I will find something to be happy or satisfied with each day.

I will be thankful for my family for there are people who wished that they had one.

I will not look at my setbacks as failures, but instead as new beginnings.

I will do my best to reflect the character of Jesus because He first loved me.


Losing weight this time will be different because I'm not only focusing on the physical, but I'm focusing on the mental too. Here's to another new beginning!

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TEENY_BIKINI 9/2/2010 2:24PM

    I love new beginnings. I love new anything.


Rock this thing with your bad self.


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CCSCRUNCHB 8/30/2010 12:48PM

    YOU CAN DO IT!! emoticon

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    Best wishes in reaching all of your goals. You CAN do it!

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SHELLPRO 8/28/2010 4:50PM

    emoticon and anything we can do to help? Just give a shout, visit the Team more and maybe we can all help each other along the way! emoticon

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CELEBRATELIFE 8/27/2010 7:04PM

    Day by day, step by step. Look at this journey as a time of reflection and expectation. Our Father is going to reveal Himself to you in unexpeccted ways. It's not just about the weight.

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SHELLMUNDY 8/27/2010 2:24PM

    I'm so glad you are starting again. I'm sorry to see that you have been diagnosed with mild lupus. But the Lord can do amazing things with broken vessels.

Keep battling your negative thoughts with the truth. You are beautifully and wonderfully made. You are loved with an everlasting love. You are a daughter of the King, a princess. I pray that you will find much joy in this new beginning!

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