Wednesday, June 11, 2014
So, a funny thing happened to me last night. I got fed up, fed up feeling like crap, fed up worrying about getting sick, fed up with not looking as good as I wanted. I went down to the ground and did push ups. This morning I woke up early enough to make my own coffee, do more push ups and a bunch of squats. Its gets better...I head to work and throw in my sneakers and yoga pants, I walk across the street on lunch break and head for a half hour work out. ALl it took was a little bit of effort. I have been in a slump lately, not exercising and certainly not eating right. Im done, this day was easy, and I felt great, my energy was amazing today, even my co-workers saw a difference. I ate a turkey burger with a spinach salad for lunch, quinoa for breakfast and am about too cook some brown rice pasta and crab. Today was easy, so I can do this every day, and in fact it has been hard to be healthy because I am in desperate need of going grocery shopping, but even with very few items in the house, im still making healthy choices. Its possible and I am going to pray for a repeat tomorrow :) :)
Sunday, May 04, 2014
The last couple of week I have been walking, I walked about 4 miles one day and it was amazing. Then, of course because I am in new england it got cold, raw and rainy and I was unable to do my walking. I let it discourage me, I gained 2lbs in like 2 days (while still eating very healthy) and then I kind of had a bad couple of days. I just want to get in habit of walking and working out daily. Tomorrow I am so happy, it was supposed to rain, but isnt going to anymore and I have the day off. I am going to do my 4 mile route because I had a great time on the last one. Im just frustrated, I need to be stronger than letting one little thing get to me and then losing it for a few days. I know this has to be a lifestyle change, but its been hard because I am the worst planning grocery shopper ever. The times I went out this week I had salads with vinegar and evoo. Im trying, but I know myself, and I know I can do better. I have done better. This time it is different, we got rid of our gym memberships because we couldnt afford them. So I have just been working out in the house or outside, jogging, walking, doing a lot of squats and push ups. I want to look amazing in a bathing suit. I know I dont feel comfortable right now, I want to take control and I know I can do it. I just need to WAKE UP EARLY before my brain figures out what I am doing, and just DO IT...walk, run, jog, sprint, push ups, squats, crunches, etc... I think it might be time for me to re-evaluate my goals.
Sunday, January 26, 2014
I said screw it, I stopped saying I am going to do it tomorrow and did it today and FEEL AMAZING. I woke up and had a delicious smoothie and a couple pieces of lean meat. I had a nice coffee and I started the 30 day shred. I would like to capture pictures of day 1, day 15 and day 30 so I can look back and see how amazing 30 days of committment will do for me!!! My mood is good, my worries are small and Im motivated. NOW, what should I bring that is quick for lunch all week so I can either walk on my 45 min lunch break or do a yoga work out in the banks basement (lol)
Monday, January 13, 2014
I did better today...but I suddenly remembered my weight loss secret....TEA, TEA AND MORE TEA....TEA WITH lemon, chai tea, green tea, peppermint tea, anyyyyyyy tea.....I FEEL SOOO full right now because I just made myself a mug, I dont have that usual late night craving and I feel extremely full. I need to start doing this again and keeping myself hydrated through out the day, I have been slacking and I really noticed it today. Tomorrow I am going to make a nice fruit/kale smoothie in the morning and go for a walk and do a leg circuit. I am going to get things done around the house my last day off. I am going to clean the things that need to be cleaned, do my laundry for the week ahead, organize my lunches for wed thru saturday, figure out my coffee makers timer so it will be ready when I wake up for work. For the work week ahead, I promise to wake early, and take an extra minute on my appearance. I vow to walk everyday with at least 4 weight lifting work outs a week for the next 2 weeks. I want to see the changes every 2 weeks and take it slowly. I am going to judge how I feel mentally and physically day by day and also record what I eat for the next 2 weeks. Maybe I can see what is making me so tired throughout the days and how to keep my energy up. Im ready, its time to take control.
Sunday, January 05, 2014
We all know after Christmas, our pockets are a little tighter. Well mine is so tight right now that I literally have been stressing every moment and I am so sick of it. I am telling you it sucks right now, I don't make a lot of money and I'm really hurting. My boyfriend got laid off and so were legit living off of my one paycheck, so not only do I have to pay all my own bills, I also have to pay full bills for what we used to split. Thankfully his cell and stuff is taken care of...anyways, this whole worrying about money thing, severely effects my life. I have a roof over my head, I paid all my months bills on time, so why am I still freaking out? Maybe because were used to being out every weekend I have off and these last three days we have literally been around the house, cleaning, catching up on shows and relaxing (WHY AM I FEELING BAD FOR THAT!?!?!?!?) I know soon things will get better, J should be getting unemployment in a few weeks and I am going to continue to look for a part time job I can fit into my schedule (which has been extremely hard). Why do I feel bad, why do I have to stress about the future constantly. I didnt even gain weight during the holidays and I am stressing because I haven't lost anything. Im being totally irrational and I hate it. I know bills are important and its good to get things in on time and have extra money stashed away, etc, but why I am I letting this effect my whole life. Guess what, my heat is on, I just got a new ninja blender for christmas for my smoothies and I have a cozy bed to sleep in at night. WHY am I not being grateful. I don't know, because I am SOOO grateful for my life and the people I have in it. I feel like sometimes society, tv, media, etc....make me stress more. It makes me think, why dont I have this? Am I not working hard enough? Did I make a mistake by leaving a job I absolutely hated to make a little less money? I know that the economy has a lot to do with why I am struggling and that really sucks, but I have to keep moving forward. There may not be much opportunity lined up for second job right now, but I already have one lined up for the spring and summer. Why can't I just sit back and look at my life and be like, I have so much...because I know I do, I know I am lucky. Its almost like stress is a habit of mine and my mind won't let it go. Im in student loan debt yes, but most of america is, I struggle to pay my bills, but I find a way to pay them, even if they are a couple days late. I gave myself a little break this last 3 days, and guess what I think I deserved it....I dont want money to consume my life. I want to be happy with what I have but always strive for more. My life is great...I just needed to get all of this out of me....just write it down because it makes me feel better to write down my fears, feelings and struggles. I think meditation would be a good tool for me to use, even if I do 10 minutes a day. Tomorrow is a new week and I start bright and early. My plan is to get up do a 15 minute work out, shower, make my smoothie, get ready, go to work and work my ass off, come home, kiss my boyfriend, try to get another 15 minute work out in and relax and enjoy the moment.
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