Saturday, October 26, 2013
Well, scary scary scary....I passed out three times on Friday night, in a row, thankfully at home and my boyfriend found me the first time and was able to catch me the 2nd and third time. The EMTs came and said I was fine, but I wasnt. I ended up having excruciating stomach pain for hours. In the morning, I was ready to go to the ER and I passed out again. I got to the hospital in crazy pain. I was diagnosed with infectious colitis and let me tell you I thought i was a pretty healthy 28 year old. Looking back on it though, I haven't been taking care of myself. I have been struggling with my diet and finding time to exercise because I just switched jobs and had crazy training schedule. I NEED to find the time to do both of these things, plan my meals and get exercise in. I was doing great about 2 weeks ago, biking everyday. What I really need to change is....my way of thinking. I had intense anxiety for about 2 weeks before this. Im done freaking out about stupid things, mistakes that could happen, and always thinking the worst case scenario. I was in major pain and admitted to the hospital for 2 days for something that could have been prevented, had I taken care of myself. I'm home recuperating now thankfully. This is it though, no more talking about it, no more saying I will start tomorrow, from this moment my life needs to change. I need to eat clean foods, exercise and I need to calm down. Funny thing is, the best medicine for my anxiety is exercise so thats what I am going to do. This is not all about losing weight and looking good (although that is definitely part of it) its treating my body well again. Its about eating to live, exercising for peace of mind and worshiping my body instead of hurting it. I want to apologize to my body for ignoring all the signs I see now, I am sorry I let it get to this point and I promise not to ever let this happen again. I am ready for changes, ready for health. Im not overweight at all, Im just unhealthy and its time to change.
Monday, October 07, 2013
Im half way to a completely healthy lifestyle. Im making better choices, most of the time. I would like to make better choices all of the time because we had chinese food last night and I feel so disgusting right now. I started with the negative self talk, then stopped myself because, it was one meal on cheat day, the thing is I feel like I took in way too many calories, I can still feel the food sitting in my stomach..yuck. Looking back on my decision to eat regular chinese food rather than get steamed veggies and broccolli and just adding some soy sauce was stupid. My stomach hurts, it hurt all night last night and I feel bloated and gross today. So what am I going to do next time, make the healthier choice. There are a couple people in my life who think if I eat anything bad at any time, Im killing myself. I enjoy not so good for you food sometimes. I like my carbs and gluten sometimes too- im italian! I have found that listening to people who don't know your life will never be able to make the best decisions for you. IN fact I just made ahuge life decision and left the human services field to go back to banking. Dont get me wrong, I was GREAT at dealing with people with disabilities and mental health issues. I could do that job with my eyes closed right now, but its not a good field to be in for both my health and mind! I have been injured 2x by clients in 4 years. I am currently dealing with a slipped disc, not because a client came after me but because we dont have the proper help, enough staff, etc. IT is literally like that everywhere, I know its because America is a little backwards and don't give enough support to this field. Anyways, I got a job at the old company I used to work for. Only this time, I have 5 more years of life experience and a drive in me that wants to be successful. Im driven to do well at this job because Ive spent so many years upset and no t knowing what to do. I will go back to human services someday but Im burnt out completely. I am excited to start a new journey. The positives of having normal hours at a job will be eating. I started eating so late at night with this job. So its just a time for changes. I want to start out at the bank healthy, energized and feeling good. I am going to plan to-go breakfasts weekly, make my lunch and line up a bunch of healthy crock pot meals for dinner. I also added biking in my life...which i am in love with right now :) Anyways, I wanted to write this blog to remind myself of how I feel when I eat crappy food and how I feel about changes in my life. Sometimes coming back to reflect on this gives me more motivation
Friday, September 27, 2013
I decided to try something different today. Since we have about 5 bikes lying around in the basement, i pumped up some of the tires and took it to the beach. I did about 20 minutes, but it felt sooooo good. It was hard but not overwhelming like running, and I felt exhilarated after!! I even needed some cheese for my turkey taco bake tonight, so I took the bike right down the road to the little corner store. My plan is to go tomorrow morning for another 20 minutes!!!
Friday, September 20, 2013
I just did about 25 mins of HIIT and 8 of upper body strength training. 33 minutes of fitness so far today. I need to do the short bursts of exercise I think. Im going to try and wake up with a 10 minute walk tomorrow, do another FITNESS BLENDER video, and walk again 10 minutes after dinner. Proud of myself and about to do a face mask to reward my effort!
Lets keep this going.
Saturday, September 14, 2013
I began eating healthier last week, going to the grocery store more often so we have food in the house and arent tempted to get pizza or whatever is available. I have done alright and i know its going to take some time to get back into it, but im not letting a slipped disc in my back keep me down. IM able to do a lot of low impact stuff and walking is actually good for me. I committed to 20 mins today and did it! I feel so much better, im ready to get back into my spinach smoothies and focus on my eating while I am hurt.
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