Saturday, September 21, 2013
I'm more than 2 weeks into my new healthy lifestyle. I bought a bag of mini oreos and I have them in my bedroom...
It all started at work. A week into my lifestyle change, I saw a bag of mini oreos that someone had brought in for the office. I love oreos. When I saw them, I immediately wanted to eat them. I grabbed the bag but then I put it right back and said to myself," you can't have them!" Then another part of me, the truth-teller said "if you keep denying yourself, eventually you will binge."So I turned the bad over and the nutrition information, 9 mini oreos for 140 calories. I can make that fit into my plan. If I was at home, I probably would have eaten the whole bag but I didn't want to look like a pig in front of my employees. Surprisingly, those 9 mini oreos cured my sweet tooth.
So now I have a bag of oreos in my room. I take out 9, sometimes less, and I eat them, guilt free. I also stretch for 5 minutes each day, walk over 10,000 steps on most days of the week and strength train every 2-3 days. I deserve a few oreos every now and then. I don't feel bad about it and I have not binged! So proud of myself :)
Wednesday, September 11, 2013
So...after almost an entire 7 days of healthy eating, doing cardio, and strength training I hop on the scale only to see that the 4.5 lbs I lost in 5 days is now back. At first I am discouraged. How can this be? I've worked so hard. I haven't slacked off at all. Then I tell myself that the scale isn't telling the full story.
I decided to take a day of rest yesterday. I still ate healthy but I did not work out. I hopped on the scale again this morning (yes, I know I shouldn't obsess like this but I can't help myself at the moment). I am now up another pound.
Hmmm, this is so frustrating but again I remind myself that the scale isn't telling the whole story. I know that there are changes going on inside of me that I can not yet see. So I start the morning off with my usual stretching routine and add a short walk in before work. Although I am disappointed with the number on the scale, I have not lost my determination. In fact, I feel even more determined to work hard and stay on track.
I remember how in the past, I let the scale win over and over again. And each time it won, I felt worse. I felt like a failure. But not this time, this time is different and I will win the battle with the scale. And most importantly, I will win my confidence back!
Monday, September 09, 2013
I'm not sure where this determination and will power came from but it's been a long time coming. Day 5 and I am down 4.5 pounds. I have been doing cardio each day and also logging my food. Every other day I've been strength training. My goal is to reach 10,000 steps on my fitbit every day. I am so determined that last night I walked back and forth from room to room until I reached my 10,000 steps. I don't know where all of this energy came from but I'm loving it!!!
Thursday, September 05, 2013
I'm tired of constantly starting over. That's the one thing I do consistently, lol. This time I'm starting small. I'm also trying to plan ahead, which is always a problem for me since I am such a last minute person. Nonetheless, I am doing it, one day at a time. I am finally seeing what has been hindering me all of this time. I'm always starting out too big! It starts with the BMI...I look at where I am, where I need to be and then it starts. I need to lose 50, 60 pounds (or however many pounds) to get to a healthy BMI. That's a lot of weight! So, then I start on the "I'm gonna work out everyday and cut out everything" mentality and before you know it, 2 days later I'm feeling defeated and eating Taco Bell in my car on my lunch break. It's all downhill from there. So...the plan this time is to make small goals and because my eating is the hardest to get under control, I'm leaving that for last. My current goal is a 10 lb loss (definitely doable) and to work out for at least 15 minutes (this is also doable) on 3-5 days each week. Now I won't beat up on myself if I don't work out everyday. The best part of the 15 minutes of fitness is that I can do my morning stretches before work (only 5 minutes and something I really enjoy) and only have 10 minutes. Who can't find 10 minutes??? I know this sounds funny but when I use the restroom during the work day, I'll do a set of squats or wall pushups. Hey, it counts! This week, so far so good! and I've even started making healthy food choices :)
Friday, January 21, 2011
Feeling much better now that I'm back at work. The crying spells still come and go. I know that I will never truly get over this loss but I know that I will keep moving forward. That's what he would want me to do. Making little steps to get back on track. Since I had stopped eating for a few days, I have been much better at portion control than I was previously. I always seemed to struggle with portion control. That doesn't seem to be the issue anymore. I am taking things one day at a time, one minute at a time. As long as I am making progess, I'm happy. It doesn't matter how little the progress is. When I do slip up, I'm not beating myself up like I used to do. I really feel passive at the moment, which has never been my personality. I am trying to find the good in myself out of all of this tragedy.
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