Monday, July 29, 2013
Okay, so I'm not really running but I am walking again!
I was diagnosed with Lyme Disease on Tuesday. It all began the last week of June when I had a fever, chills and nausea. It was gone in a couple of days and the on the 3rd of July I developed a rash on my leg and a headache. I never even thought of Lyme Disease. Our home borders 200 acres of conservation/forest land, so I'm always checking for ticks on myself and my children. So I went to the doctor who said it was a skin rash that was due to a side effect of my Humira injections ( I take those for my rheumatoid autoimmune disease) and he put me on antibiotics and had me come back in two days. The rash was worse, warm and swollen so he sent me to a surgeon to see if it had become infected. The surgeon cut it open took some skin samples and said there was no infection and she didn't know what it was but put me on another antibiotic along with the first one, which she game me ANOTHER course of. My leg hurt terribly and was red, swollen and now covered in a bandage. I was incredibly tired and had a bad headache that never subsided so when the antibiotics were finally done, imagine my surprise when the rash grew even bigger the next day! I immediately went to the doctor and because it was a weekend my regular doc wasn't in I saw another Dr. who took one look at me and said it was Lyme Disease and put me on antibiotics specifically for it. My blood work came back positive confirming what she already suggested.
At any rate, now that I've told you more than you ever wanted to know, I feel much better! my leg is healing and my headache is gone. I have been able to stay awake a whole day without a nap!!! I am so glad to start feeling normal again.
I have gained up to 202.9 after getting down to 199.9 in the first time in 7 years, but I feel confident that I can continue on my journey and begin losing again. Thanks for all of your support!!!
Wednesday, June 26, 2013
When I first joined spark I was slow learning how to use the tracking tools.(Who am I kidding? I'm still slow!) It frustrated me because I could not quickly track my food. The kids are also computer hogs and I would end up tracking on my iphone. I'm sure normal people do it easily but it took me forever! So, I ended up getting discouraged and I just tracked when I felt the urge but made conscious choices to eat smaller food portions. I was exited to see a 7lb loss very early. I've been 200 lbs for 6 years and recently crept up to 209. I had tried many "diets" but honestly could never do more than a day, so the 7lb loss made me super happy! I decided this was going to be easy!! So I continued on my way, on and off tracking and low and behold when I stepped on the scale I had gained 5 pounds. I got on and off and on and off just to make sure. I was spitting mad!
I realized then, that I needed to think about my eating every day. I can't just put it in the back of my mind right now. I thought because I lost so easily, it seemed to me, that I could just wing it. Maybe when I'm used to eating what my body needs and and not 4x that much, I will be able to relax a bit. I don't know. Maybe some of you are in that "place" or maybe that place doesn't exist for everyone. So I decided to do what some SP folks suggests and get rid of certain trigger foods. I started measuring portions, making sure I had a fruit for dessert when I'm craving sweets and started to get more walking in and you know what? I lost the 5lbs and 7oz. I had to include the ounces Lol.
I remember asking someone, who had obviously lost a lot of weight, how they did it and they said," eat less and exercise." I felt like they were making fun of me. Now I understand it's true. It's just not EASY! At least not for me. Tonight when everyone was having smores I had watermelon. It was hard but it would have really put me over calories for the day and I really like knowing that the scale is moving down.
I know I can't overcome my mental battles every time. Recently I listened to a sparkradio broadcast where Lilly and Karen were encouraging us to ask ourselves if we really want to eat something or if it's only emotional. They followed that up with asking if we really want that taste of food as much as we want to be thin. Do you really want to eat that? They asked. And later in the day when I was tempted I stopped and pondered their questions. I mean, I really stopped and thought good and hard about it and I answered with, "YES I DO!!!" And I lost the battle.
But what I know now is that it's a lifestyle. Not an all or nothing contest I only have one chance at. I'm learning every day and for someone who's new to limiting food and exercising, I'm pretty proud of myself!! I am soooo glad I found SP and have the great spark friends that I do because I know I could not do it without them. I have read sooo many wonderful blogs and have had questions answeres and most of all been encouraged that I can really do this!!
Thanks Spark Friends!
Thursday, May 30, 2013
Last week i had an interesting and embarrassing experience. I decided to take my new dog on a walk around the neighborhood. We usually go to a park that has a one mile track around a pond with a small forest. But, I decided it was time to introduce her to cars and the sidewalk. My kindergartener wanted to come with, so I thought that would be great even though I would need to walk slow so that he could keep up. It started out great with my son asking to walk farther and farther and then I decided to turn back because he was beginning to slow down and look tired. The dog was just happy to be on a walk! She didn't even seem to notice all the runners and walkers passing by and paid no attention to the cars. Just when everyhong seemed fine, it happened. I lost my footing and stumbled, which scared my dog and she ran forward full throttle pulling me forward with her. I had not yet regained my footing so I automatically let go of her leash as I ran forward trying to catch myself or beak my fall with my hands. Of course I fell instead of gettin my balance back and I smacked the pavement pretty hard with my right knee and landed on my side. I looked up to make sure my son was okay and he was pointing at our puppy, who was calmly sitting in the middle of the road looking at me. I reached my hand out from my side reclining position , and called her to me. She just sat there lookin at me. It was then that I looked up and saw all the cars in both lanes stopped and in the lane closest to me, the woman who had apparently stopped before hitting my dog, was calmly looking me right in the eye while licking a huge ice cream cone. I was so embarased.! All these people had just seen a fat lady roll down the sidewalk and lose her dog in the middle of the road while her poor son stood worried on the sidewalk. Ugh!!! My pants were ripped and my knee was bloody and I was in pain but I knew I had to get up ASAP and get the dog. So I got up and walked into the road and got her. I thank God that my son stayed on the sidewalk and didn't go after the dog and that the dog did t get run over. I tried to regain my dignity by walking at a usual pace as if nothing had happened! It didn't work , so I started laughing and my son started laughing. I just couldn't hold in the laughter! I was just relieved it was over. It all happened in seconds but lying on my side looking into the road it seemed like forever!
My son immediately told everyone when we got home. I think I'll be sticking to the park for awhile until I can build up the courage to face those neighbors again or I learn to walk correctly!! Lol!
Wednesday, May 01, 2013
For the last two weeks I have been learning how to be a part of the Sparkpeople community. For someone who has not exercised or tracked food, I think I started off a little over zealous by joining the 8-Week Diabetes Challenge. Not that someone else shouldn't start off with it immediately, it was just more than I could handle! I was, and still am, so excited to have found Sparkpeople that I just wanted to jump in "running".
Did they say 10 minutes a day to start is good? No problem, I'll walk for 45, in new shoes, not having walked for YEARS and with rheumatoid arthritis. The next day was painful. The thing is, it felt sooooo good to finally do it that I didn't want to stop!
Did they say track my food for three days a week? Why not everyday?Easy for someone who's computer savvy, but it took me quite a while to figure it out. I'm glad there are tutorials. That was a great help. At first I would take so long to input that I would tell myself I'd log it the next day. Then I'd be overwhelmed trying to do two days so I'd skip it all together.
After flopping I decided to do what I should have I'm the first place, listen to all the people who are currently going through or completed this process already! So I'm reading, learning how to set goals, exercise with a disability and make better food choices. I have been tracking and walking ten minutes at a time. Yesterday my ten minutes were up but I was feeling so good I wanted to run! But I didn't because I knew I would be out of commission the next day. But, you know what? In these short two weeks, I have never felt so good about myself! It's amazing how deciding to stop the path you're on and change your future can make everything brighter and happier. The spring weather helps a lot too! Go me!!!!!
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