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Joining a Challenge

Wednesday, October 02, 2013

I was able to join the BLC 12 week challenge with the 23rd round. I am really hoping to meet some goals. I have been crawling along and letting my life's ups and downs get in the way. There are so many people who have many more struggles than I do and they are able to get fitness and nutrition planned in to their lives. I have realized that my life is not going to wait to be perfect so I can fit everything in. I need to just do it! BRADMILL2922 had a great blog about this.

I have read many encouraging blogs and have been going back to them for support and inspiration. I am going to incorporate some of the ideas from other sparkers and see if they will help me. One I was particularly interested in was an idea from PIXIE-LICIOUS to write a letter filled with kind and supporting thoughts and send it to your future self. I think I'm going to do something similar but do a daily journal of support and affirmations to myself. I think it might help me to stop being so negative about myself. I am so blessed to have found spark but I know I can't always rely on other people so I need to be there for me and I think this can be a way to do that.

Another is to just begin and not worry about being perfect. I am always all or nothing and I haven't got anywhere doing that!!! That's why I like the "Nothing Changes if Nothing Changes" motto of the BLC. I think it really made sense today.

Here are the links to those two blogs.

www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo
urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5448739

www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo
urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5501292


On another note. I have been trying to walk with my dog every day but she has gotten stronger and stronger. ( I have RA and it hurts my hands when she pulls) . Yesterday I was able to walk her and got a great upper-body workout! LOL She is not an endurance walker though. About 15 minutes in to it she started army crawling on neighbor’s front lawns and I had to bribe her home with little bits of mozzarella cheese! She is all power and speed at first and then naps like a baby. I brought her home and walked the rest myself. It was a lovely day yesterday and looks to be the same today. So, off I go to get in some FM! emoticon

  
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MPETERSON2311 10/4/2013 12:40PM

    great job! you can do it!

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KNYAGENYA 10/3/2013 3:14PM

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NEEDTOLOOSE1 10/2/2013 9:55PM

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Just One Day At A Time. Putting one foot in front of the other.
It's about progress not perfection

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MADAMES 10/2/2013 9:26PM

    You can do this...one step at a time!

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CATHYGETSFIT 10/2/2013 9:22PM

    Good for you! It sounds like these challenges are going to be just what you need. We all have to start somewhere and at some time. I like that "nothing changes if nothing changes". I also like you the saying "Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results." ~Albert Einstein I think you're going to see lots of changes during your 12 weeks. Keep up the good work! emoticon

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YO~YOLANDA 10/2/2013 1:42PM

    Excellent Thoughts...You are doing it Right...Keep getting Filled-Up...Finding the Encouragement, Inspiration, and Motivation from this Wonderful Spark Community...and Especially your BLC Friends...AMAZING CHANGES CAN HAPPEN in just 12 weeks...I am already standing on the other side of the last 12 week challenge and it Amazes me how far I have come...and You are going to feel just the same when we reach the other side of this 12 weeks...You have a WONDERFUL, POSITIVE APPROACH...You will see Great RESULTS because of all of these little changes that add up to BIG RESULTS over Time. Keep Making those CHANGES Happen...and you WILL see!!!

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Up and Running

Monday, July 29, 2013

Okay, so I'm not really running but I am walking again!

I was diagnosed with Lyme Disease on Tuesday. It all began the last week of June when I had a fever, chills and nausea. It was gone in a couple of days and the on the 3rd of July I developed a rash on my leg and a headache. I never even thought of Lyme Disease. Our home borders 200 acres of conservation/forest land, so I'm always checking for ticks on myself and my children. So I went to the doctor who said it was a skin rash that was due to a side effect of my Humira injections ( I take those for my rheumatoid autoimmune disease) and he put me on antibiotics and had me come back in two days. The rash was worse, warm and swollen so he sent me to a surgeon to see if it had become infected. The surgeon cut it open took some skin samples and said there was no infection and she didn't know what it was but put me on another antibiotic along with the first one, which she game me ANOTHER course of. My leg hurt terribly and was red, swollen and now covered in a bandage. I was incredibly tired and had a bad headache that never subsided so when the antibiotics were finally done, imagine my surprise when the rash grew even bigger the next day! I immediately went to the doctor and because it was a weekend my regular doc wasn't in I saw another Dr. who took one look at me and said it was Lyme Disease and put me on antibiotics specifically for it. My blood work came back positive confirming what she already suggested.

At any rate, now that I've told you more than you ever wanted to know, I feel much better! my leg is healing and my headache is gone. I have been able to stay awake a whole day without a nap!!! I am so glad to start feeling normal again.

I have gained up to 202.9 after getting down to 199.9 in the first time in 7 years, but I feel confident that I can continue on my journey and begin losing again. Thanks for all of your support!!!

  
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RUTHIET_456 8/14/2013 12:52PM

    I see from your page that you are under 200 lbs again, so congrats! And congrats on not giving up and going to the doc even though it was a weekend. It was meant to be because you finally met the person to correctly diagnose the rash. Glad you're feeling better and walking. That is a big step.
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PSHOWS 8/12/2013 7:19AM

    So sorry about your health troubles. IT's bad enough to have health problems but when they can't diagnose properly, it seems unbearable..... I know. I am glad you found someone to properly diagnose the Lyme disease. I too have an autoimmune! I am better now. I also went through a period when it was one health problem after another. Be good to yourself with relaxation, healthy food, sleep and anything that makes you happy. If I can help in any way, please let me know. Andrea

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TAMMYAND 8/1/2013 2:13PM

    Christ is in our midst!
I will pray for your recovery. So sorry you had to go through so much till they found out what was wrong. The most important thing right now is to follow the doctor's orders and take care of yourself. I too will light a candle for you at church. The Great Physician will heal you!

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AKATHLEEN54 7/31/2013 11:07PM

    Well thank goodness somebody finally go the right diagnosis! I'm so sorry you had to go through that and I hope you are the road to recovery.
Don't sweat the weight gain. I'm sure you weren't concentrating on diet and fitness when you were feeling so poorly. It's only a few pounds and I'm sure you will be able to get back on track and start losing again! emoticon

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2HAMSDIET 7/29/2013 6:39PM

    I am so glad that they figured out what was wrong. I had a friend a few years ago that went to a big hospital and they were clueless. She went on the net and then off to a specialist. Take care. emoticon

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ANGRITTER 7/29/2013 5:08PM

    I am so glad they found out what was wrong! I had a similar experience in May. I stayed sick for a month and all they can tell me is that my neck swelled and my muscled contracted in my neck due to a sinus infection. Ok - I am NOT sold on that, so I will go after I get my teeth checked on 8/2. I want to make sure it isn't a tooth infection before I go back to my doc and just point at my neck again. I have a cyst on my thyroid and no one wants to do anything to it. I can't understand why. GET IT OFF OF ME!!!

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I hope you feel better soon and that your RA stays gone while you completely heal!

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CHEROKEE_ROSE 7/29/2013 4:02PM

    Boy, what a roller coaster ride getting this figured out. So glad the fresh pair of eyes finally helped! You can get there. I'm just about where you are in weight. So, lets get 'er done and keep melting those pounds off! No matter what happens, just keep at it. Walking at this point is a good idea until your leg heals. But keep moving! I'm rooting for you!!
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KNYAGENYA 7/29/2013 3:17PM

    Yikes! I am glad someone was finally able to figure out what was going on with you. It is sad that it took them so long. I will light a candle for you when I go to Church for a speedy recovery.

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Feeling Positive

Wednesday, June 26, 2013

When I first joined spark I was slow learning how to use the tracking tools.(Who am I kidding? I'm still slow!) It frustrated me because I could not quickly track my food. The kids are also computer hogs and I would end up tracking on my iphone. I'm sure normal people do it easily but it took me forever! So, I ended up getting discouraged and I just tracked when I felt the urge but made conscious choices to eat smaller food portions. I was exited to see a 7lb loss very early. I've been 200 lbs for 6 years and recently crept up to 209. I had tried many "diets" but honestly could never do more than a day, so the 7lb loss made me super happy! I decided this was going to be easy!! So I continued on my way, on and off tracking and low and behold when I stepped on the scale I had gained 5 pounds. I got on and off and on and off just to make sure. I was spitting mad!

I realized then, that I needed to think about my eating every day. I can't just put it in the back of my mind right now. I thought because I lost so easily, it seemed to me, that I could just wing it. Maybe when I'm used to eating what my body needs and and not 4x that much, I will be able to relax a bit. I don't know. Maybe some of you are in that "place" or maybe that place doesn't exist for everyone. So I decided to do what some SP folks suggests and get rid of certain trigger foods. I started measuring portions, making sure I had a fruit for dessert when I'm craving sweets and started to get more walking in and you know what? I lost the 5lbs and 7oz. I had to include the ounces Lol.

I remember asking someone, who had obviously lost a lot of weight, how they did it and they said," eat less and exercise." I felt like they were making fun of me. Now I understand it's true. It's just not EASY! At least not for me. Tonight when everyone was having smores I had watermelon. It was hard but it would have really put me over calories for the day and I really like knowing that the scale is moving down.

I know I can't overcome my mental battles every time. Recently I listened to a sparkradio broadcast where Lilly and Karen were encouraging us to ask ourselves if we really want to eat something or if it's only emotional. They followed that up with asking if we really want that taste of food as much as we want to be thin. Do you really want to eat that? They asked. And later in the day when I was tempted I stopped and pondered their questions. I mean, I really stopped and thought good and hard about it and I answered with, "YES I DO!!!" And I lost the battle.

But what I know now is that it's a lifestyle. Not an all or nothing contest I only have one chance at. I'm learning every day and for someone who's new to limiting food and exercising, I'm pretty proud of myself!! I am soooo glad I found SP and have the great spark friends that I do because I know I could not do it without them. I have read sooo many wonderful blogs and have had questions answeres and most of all been encouraged that I can really do this!!

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DEEGIRL50 7/5/2013 4:56PM

    We've all tried to wing it from time to time. It's surprising how many calories we can mindlessly eat. I think you are on the road to success!
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CANDOK1260 7/5/2013 3:46PM

    yes you can really do this and you already are

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KNYAGENYA 7/1/2013 7:01AM

    I am so with you on this. That is me! You can do it though...I have faith in you.

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SUZANNE65203 6/28/2013 4:18AM

    I can totally relate. It is simple to describe what to do: eat less and exercise but it is not easy to carry out. I recently have gained back 10+ pounds because I decided I would rather eat the food. I am still trying to get back in balance. One day at a time!

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TAMMYAND 6/27/2013 11:07AM

    Congratulations for getting past the all-or-nothing mentality. That is a major accomplishment. It took me a long time to get there, but I think once there, we are there for life! Before SP, I never thought I would be so aware of what I eat. But I am now. It sounds like you are too. I am proud of you and very happy for you! Keep up the great work! You are worth it!!

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MPETERSON2311 6/26/2013 5:02PM

    you can do this! Just the thought you are showing about what to do and what not to do is a step forward!

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ANDREWMOM 6/26/2013 2:54PM

    Good for you!!!

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KIMPY225 6/26/2013 9:09AM

    Great job on the weight loss! There is no easy way to lose weight. Eating less and exercising is a big part of it! Everyone has to find their own path. Eating less of the "bad" food and more of the healthy food is important to learn! Keep going! emoticon

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PJMOMMATO3 6/26/2013 8:06AM

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HEXE63 6/26/2013 2:09AM

    emoticon on the loss. I know exactly how you feel and it is so easy to get a little derailed when you don't track everything because little things add up more than one would like to think. We can do this and we are doing it together emoticon

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HEXE63 6/26/2013 2:08AM

    emoticon on the loss. I know exactly how you feel and it is so easy to get a little derailed when you don't track everything because little things add up more than one would like to think. We can do this and we are doing it together emoticon

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LUANN7 6/26/2013 1:15AM

    SEEMS LIKE YOUR ON THE RIGHT TRACK NOW! DOESN'T IT FEEL GOOD? I JUST BROKE THROUGH A PLATEAU SO I KNOW HOW GOOD WEIGHT LOSS FEELS emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MSELEANOR1957 6/26/2013 1:13AM

    I'm pretty new at this - I'm learning everything and still know and feel that SP is going to assist me in reaching my goal. so I know where you are coming from.

I think this site is awesome and I'm glad for all the support we show each other! Keep practicing and you'll get there. This is a lifestyle change for me.

So hang in there you're in the right place! emoticon

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MTAL203 6/26/2013 12:53AM

  Terrific! I know just how you feel because I am in the same place! SP is really encouraging and if you are faithful about honestly tracking your food sometimes just knowing you will have to "write it down" is enough to make you stop and think about eating it. My biggest problem is adding variety to my meals. I tend to eat the same things day after day and right now it's fine but I am sure eventually I will get tired of those same things and eat something I really shouldn't. Thank God for all the "steamers" out there by Birds Eye and Green Giant - I can add some chicken breast meat and have a good hot dinner in 6 minutes - a large portion, tasty, and quick. That really works for me and fits into a busy lifestyle. Keep working - you are doing great! emoticon

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BJPENNY70 6/26/2013 12:51AM

    It sounds like you are doing really good. It does take time to learn to be comfortable with the food tracker. Have patience. I put my own foods in the tracker. I did it for so long, that I have a pretty good list to choose from. Now all I have to do is pick favorites and type in just one word and a list will come up for me to look at and chose from. Practice makes perfect. lol Keep up the good work. It really is a lifestyle for a lifetime. A healthier you is a healthier wife and mom. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Exercising experience

Thursday, May 30, 2013

Last week i had an interesting and embarrassing experience. I decided to take my new dog on a walk around the neighborhood. We usually go to a park that has a one mile track around a pond with a small forest. But, I decided it was time to introduce her to cars and the sidewalk. My kindergartener wanted to come with, so I thought that would be great even though I would need to walk slow so that he could keep up. It started out great with my son asking to walk farther and farther and then I decided to turn back because he was beginning to slow down and look tired. The dog was just happy to be on a walk! She didn't even seem to notice all the runners and walkers passing by and paid no attention to the cars. Just when everyhong seemed fine, it happened. I lost my footing and stumbled, which scared my dog and she ran forward full throttle pulling me forward with her. I had not yet regained my footing so I automatically let go of her leash as I ran forward trying to catch myself or beak my fall with my hands. Of course I fell instead of gettin my balance back and I smacked the pavement pretty hard with my right knee and landed on my side. I looked up to make sure my son was okay and he was pointing at our puppy, who was calmly sitting in the middle of the road looking at me. I reached my hand out from my side reclining position , and called her to me. She just sat there lookin at me. It was then that I looked up and saw all the cars in both lanes stopped and in the lane closest to me, the woman who had apparently stopped before hitting my dog, was calmly looking me right in the eye while licking a huge ice cream cone. I was so embarased.! All these people had just seen a fat lady roll down the sidewalk and lose her dog in the middle of the road while her poor son stood worried on the sidewalk. Ugh!!! My pants were ripped and my knee was bloody and I was in pain but I knew I had to get up ASAP and get the dog. So I got up and walked into the road and got her. I thank God that my son stayed on the sidewalk and didn't go after the dog and that the dog did t get run over. I tried to regain my dignity by walking at a usual pace as if nothing had happened! It didn't work , so I started laughing and my son started laughing. I just couldn't hold in the laughter! I was just relieved it was over. It all happened in seconds but lying on my side looking into the road it seemed like forever!

My son immediately told everyone when we got home. I think I'll be sticking to the park for awhile until I can build up the courage to face those neighbors again or I learn to walk correctly!! Lol!

  
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CRAFTSFAN1 6/19/2013 4:31PM

    Memories, memories! When you reach your goal, you will always remember this moment in your journey: that regardless of accidents, you were willing to commit to your exercise routine. emoticon

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BHEALTHY4ME1 6/1/2013 12:53AM

  Wow!! I bet that was pretty exciting for a kindergartener. My favorite part of the story is how you both cracked up. He saw that his Mom was OK & sometimes you fall, but you just get back up. You definitely should walk that way again. People fall sometimes. So what? I agree that with the other comment in that maybe somebody should have checked to see if you were alright! emoticon emoticon

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KIMPY225 5/31/2013 12:14PM

    At least everyone is safe - sorry about the knee!

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FIT4MEIN2013 5/31/2013 11:13AM

    The most painful of all is the hit to the pride. Glad you and the kiddo and pup are ok. Don't let this deter you- You are SPARKIN', girl! Go, you!

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SAMI199 5/30/2013 8:26PM

    That must have been scary-I'm glad that you all made it home.I fell last year-and I totally remember the feeling of humiliation...(this was right in front of our apartment). I hope your knee is okay-I remember how much mine hurt. We all have gone down at one time or another-I guess we can take that quote about " not how many times we fall,but how many times we get up" literally.

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2HAMSDIET 5/30/2013 6:36PM

    Oh I'm so glad that even think turned out ok. As I was reading it I was praying for the dog, your son and of course you. Oh my. I'm so thankful that only a bit of embarrassment. So glad you are able to raise your head high and keep moving.

My husband was working touring a hospital taking the stairs to be healthy. He is a big guy and missed a step. He fell and ripped pocket right off the back of his suit pants.

I have fallen more times then I can count.

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MPETERSON2311 5/30/2013 3:05PM

    emoticon I feel for ya. But, I am glad things turned out okay and thats what Sparkpeople is for- to vent and get support.

We've all been there in some way or another.

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PICKIE98 5/30/2013 2:52PM

    YOU are embarrassed?????????? I am embarrassed for those thoughtless people who did nothing to help you, your son, your doggie! If it was me, I would continue to walk that way,, show them that I am motivated, am giving an example to my child and I would be proud of my son!! Doggie may need to have a double hand strap on his collar though.. THAT part was scary!!

I hope your body heals enough to get right back on the road!!!

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CHERIJ16 5/30/2013 2:28PM

    I'm glad things turned out o.k. for you. emoticon

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AKATHLEEN54 5/30/2013 2:24PM

    I'm glad that you are OK, but I'm kind of sad that nobody got out of their cars to help you and just stopped and looked at you. I'm glad you were able to laugh about it!! Dogs are great, but they sure give us a "run for it"!! emoticon emoticon

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LJBKENT 5/30/2013 2:21PM

    Leave it to the kiddo to spread the word. Glad that you weren't hurt too badly and the puppy and your son were fine.

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Starting Out

Wednesday, May 01, 2013

For the last two weeks I have been learning how to be a part of the Sparkpeople community. For someone who has not exercised or tracked food, I think I started off a little over zealous by joining the 8-Week Diabetes Challenge. Not that someone else shouldn't start off with it immediately, it was just more than I could handle! I was, and still am, so excited to have found Sparkpeople that I just wanted to jump in "running".

Some examples:

Did they say 10 minutes a day to start is good? No problem, I'll walk for 45, in new shoes, not having walked for YEARS and with rheumatoid arthritis. The next day was painful. The thing is, it felt sooooo good to finally do it that I didn't want to stop!

Did they say track my food for three days a week? Why not everyday?Easy for someone who's computer savvy, but it took me quite a while to figure it out. I'm glad there are tutorials. That was a great help. At first I would take so long to input that I would tell myself I'd log it the next day. Then I'd be overwhelmed trying to do two days so I'd skip it all together.

After flopping I decided to do what I should have I'm the first place, listen to all the people who are currently going through or completed this process already! So I'm reading, learning how to set goals, exercise with a disability and make better food choices. I have been tracking and walking ten minutes at a time. Yesterday my ten minutes were up but I was feeling so good I wanted to run! But I didn't because I knew I would be out of commission the next day. But, you know what? In these short two weeks, I have never felt so good about myself! It's amazing how deciding to stop the path you're on and change your future can make everything brighter and happier. The spring weather helps a lot too! Go me!!!!!



  
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WHITNEYTEACHER 5/15/2013 7:29PM

    So glad you found us emoticon
It takes awhile to figure everything out and then a little while more to get a rhythm that works for you. Not everyone is the same and it's easy to get burned out if you hit the ground running and forget you need to slow down at some point. I added you as a friend and see you have several others too, if you need help or support that's what we're all here for emoticon

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MOTTAMAMALOU 5/2/2013 4:46PM

    Now you are getting down to the routine. One step at a time is the best way to go.

Welcome to SPARKS!

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INGBADEN 5/2/2013 8:01AM

    This blog totally made me smile emoticon

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 5/1/2013 7:10PM

    This blog made me tear up. You have such hope in your voice and that makes me SOOOO happy. I remember starting out and being SO overwhelmed. I was so thankful to have found spark and this wonderful community. I really hope you it does for you EVERYTHING it did for me.
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USMAWIFE 5/1/2013 7:09PM

    Teams do make their own goals and tracking 3 days a week was one of theirs. Please try to track every day so that you can truly see a picture on how well you eat or don't eat

good luck

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CRAFTSFAN1 5/1/2013 5:30PM

    I hope that you enjoy all the great things that you can find at SP. I, like you, tried to restrain myself from overdoing things and to just start easy with healthy changes that I can live with for the rest of my life. At the beginning I tried to stick to the stage 1 of the Spark People diet, which helped me to learn what was it all about the new lifestyle that I was going to embrace. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SHELLICIOUS 5/1/2013 4:14PM

    GO YOU!! Baby steps and know your limits. It's no good to you if you over do it and can't move the next day. The first step is the hardest. You can do this!! emoticon

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